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 Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 10:37 pm
Rayne Bloodstone `•.¸¸.••´´¯``•• .¸¸.Just be who you ωαηηα be... You're both thinking of Rikari o3o ...Not what others ωαηηα see.¸¸.••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´ THATS HOW YOU SPELL IT! 8D yaaaay /anti fail
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:06 am
I just had my last actual class day today. I have an exam and a presentation coming up, but they aren't during formal class times. I am going to go back again at some point (for either a Ph.D or an M.D and the work necessary to get into those programs), but for now, I'm essentially done.
I should be rejoicing, but as I walked out of my last class of the day I had this brief moment of fear. I think it just hit me that it really is time for me to search for a more permanent job (I don't want to work at this shitty hotel for the rest of my life), and to decide whether I want to stay here for now or move. I've always wanted to live in a bigger city, like NYC or Chicago... and now that I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's (13 days 'til graduation xP) I can start looking at more serious jobs. I don't want to stay here my whole life, and the window is currently open for me to leave, but... I don't know. I want to stay for my parents since they're both not doing too well, but part of me feels a bit trapped and wants to leave. I know they wouldn't begrudge me moving, but I'd feel bad. But... I hate seeing them sick. I HATE it. I think I'd have an easier time if I wasn't as close to them geographically. They honestly don't need me; I'm more of the presence that just comes over once a week to do laundry and eat their food. There's also the deal with the boyfriend; but he is definitely planning on moving back to CA soon-ish (won't give me a time frame, but I suspect he'll be here at least a year more, maybe two at the most, before he goes) and has offered to take me with him. California's beautiful and his condo is paid for; I could save up so much money getting a job over there and living with him. But, once again, I'd feel so shitty if I left while my parents aren't so well. If either of them die and I'm not here for it, I just know I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life.
It seems like this creeped up on me so fast; I feel like I just started college last year. Where did the time go?
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:09 am
Dystopian Lover I just had my last actual class day today. I have an exam and a presentation coming up, but they aren't during formal class times. I am going to go back again at some point (for either a Ph.D or an M.D and the work necessary to get into those programs), but for now, I'm essentially done. I should be rejoicing, but as I walked out of my last class of the day I had this brief moment of fear. I think it just hit me that it really is time for me to search for a more permanent job (I don't want to work at this shitty hotel for the rest of my life), and to decide whether I want to stay here for now or move. I've always wanted to live in a bigger city, like NYC or Chicago... and now that I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's (13 days 'til graduation xP) I can start looking at more serious jobs. I don't want to stay here my whole life, and the window is currently open for me to leave, but... I don't know. I want to stay for my parents since they're both not doing too well, but part of me feels a bit trapped and wants to leave. I know they wouldn't begrudge me moving, but I'd feel bad. But... I hate seeing them sick. I HATE it. I think I'd have an easier time if I wasn't as close to them geographically. They honestly don't need me; I'm more of the presence that just comes over once a week to do laundry and eat their food. There's also the deal with the boyfriend; but he is definitely planning on moving back to CA soon-ish (won't give me a time frame, but I suspect he'll be here at least a year more, maybe two at the most, before he goes) and has offered to take me with him. California's beautiful and his condo is paid for; I could save up so much money getting a job over there and living with him. But, once again, I'd feel so shitty if I left while my parents aren't so well. If either of them die and I'm not here for it, I just know I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. It seems like this creeped up on me so fast; I feel like I just started college last year. Where did the time go? Your parents probably just want to see you happy. And since you say you'd be able to save up money, it wouldn't be a problem for you to buy a plane ticket to go see your parents if things get worse.
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:19 am
Kinxed Dystopian Lover I just had my last actual class day today. I have an exam and a presentation coming up, but they aren't during formal class times. I am going to go back again at some point (for either a Ph.D or an M.D and the work necessary to get into those programs), but for now, I'm essentially done. I should be rejoicing, but as I walked out of my last class of the day I had this brief moment of fear. I think it just hit me that it really is time for me to search for a more permanent job (I don't want to work at this shitty hotel for the rest of my life), and to decide whether I want to stay here for now or move. I've always wanted to live in a bigger city, like NYC or Chicago... and now that I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's (13 days 'til graduation xP) I can start looking at more serious jobs. I don't want to stay here my whole life, and the window is currently open for me to leave, but... I don't know. I want to stay for my parents since they're both not doing too well, but part of me feels a bit trapped and wants to leave. I know they wouldn't begrudge me moving, but I'd feel bad. But... I hate seeing them sick. I HATE it. I think I'd have an easier time if I wasn't as close to them geographically. They honestly don't need me; I'm more of the presence that just comes over once a week to do laundry and eat their food. There's also the deal with the boyfriend; but he is definitely planning on moving back to CA soon-ish (won't give me a time frame, but I suspect he'll be here at least a year more, maybe two at the most, before he goes) and has offered to take me with him. California's beautiful and his condo is paid for; I could save up so much money getting a job over there and living with him. But, once again, I'd feel so shitty if I left while my parents aren't so well. If either of them die and I'm not here for it, I just know I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. It seems like this creeped up on me so fast; I feel like I just started college last year. Where did the time go? Your parents probably just want to see you happy. And since you say you'd be able to save up money, it wouldn't be a problem for you to buy a plane ticket to go see your parents if things get worse. They definitely do want me to be happy, but I can tell you that what they really want is for me to be happy with someone else. They hate my boyfriend, which is also a factor in my decision. This is the first time they haven't been 100% supportive of me, and it's enough to make me hesitate. I feel like if I moved, they'd feel like I don't respect them at all and would be effectively spitting in their faces. My parents and I have always been very close and I don't want to see that happen. I'm just going to have to make a tough choice, eventually.
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:33 am
Dystopian Lover Kinxed Dystopian Lover I just had my last actual class day today. I have an exam and a presentation coming up, but they aren't during formal class times. I am going to go back again at some point (for either a Ph.D or an M.D and the work necessary to get into those programs), but for now, I'm essentially done. I should be rejoicing, but as I walked out of my last class of the day I had this brief moment of fear. I think it just hit me that it really is time for me to search for a more permanent job (I don't want to work at this shitty hotel for the rest of my life), and to decide whether I want to stay here for now or move. I've always wanted to live in a bigger city, like NYC or Chicago... and now that I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's (13 days 'til graduation xP) I can start looking at more serious jobs. I don't want to stay here my whole life, and the window is currently open for me to leave, but... I don't know. I want to stay for my parents since they're both not doing too well, but part of me feels a bit trapped and wants to leave. I know they wouldn't begrudge me moving, but I'd feel bad. But... I hate seeing them sick. I HATE it. I think I'd have an easier time if I wasn't as close to them geographically. They honestly don't need me; I'm more of the presence that just comes over once a week to do laundry and eat their food. There's also the deal with the boyfriend; but he is definitely planning on moving back to CA soon-ish (won't give me a time frame, but I suspect he'll be here at least a year more, maybe two at the most, before he goes) and has offered to take me with him. California's beautiful and his condo is paid for; I could save up so much money getting a job over there and living with him. But, once again, I'd feel so shitty if I left while my parents aren't so well. If either of them die and I'm not here for it, I just know I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. It seems like this creeped up on me so fast; I feel like I just started college last year. Where did the time go? Your parents probably just want to see you happy. And since you say you'd be able to save up money, it wouldn't be a problem for you to buy a plane ticket to go see your parents if things get worse. They definitely do want me to be happy, but I can tell you that what they really want is for me to be happy with someone else. They hate my boyfriend, which is also a factor in my decision. This is the first time they haven't been 100% supportive of me, and it's enough to make me hesitate. I feel like if I moved, they'd feel like I don't respect them at all and would be effectively spitting in their faces. My parents and I have always been very close and I don't want to see that happen. I'm just going to have to make a tough choice, eventually. You just have to prove to them that he's the right person. : D
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:39 am
Kinxed Dystopian Lover Kinxed Dystopian Lover I just had my last actual class day today. I have an exam and a presentation coming up, but they aren't during formal class times. I am going to go back again at some point (for either a Ph.D or an M.D and the work necessary to get into those programs), but for now, I'm essentially done. I should be rejoicing, but as I walked out of my last class of the day I had this brief moment of fear. I think it just hit me that it really is time for me to search for a more permanent job (I don't want to work at this shitty hotel for the rest of my life), and to decide whether I want to stay here for now or move. I've always wanted to live in a bigger city, like NYC or Chicago... and now that I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's (13 days 'til graduation xP) I can start looking at more serious jobs. I don't want to stay here my whole life, and the window is currently open for me to leave, but... I don't know. I want to stay for my parents since they're both not doing too well, but part of me feels a bit trapped and wants to leave. I know they wouldn't begrudge me moving, but I'd feel bad. But... I hate seeing them sick. I HATE it. I think I'd have an easier time if I wasn't as close to them geographically. They honestly don't need me; I'm more of the presence that just comes over once a week to do laundry and eat their food. There's also the deal with the boyfriend; but he is definitely planning on moving back to CA soon-ish (won't give me a time frame, but I suspect he'll be here at least a year more, maybe two at the most, before he goes) and has offered to take me with him. California's beautiful and his condo is paid for; I could save up so much money getting a job over there and living with him. But, once again, I'd feel so shitty if I left while my parents aren't so well. If either of them die and I'm not here for it, I just know I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. It seems like this creeped up on me so fast; I feel like I just started college last year. Where did the time go? Your parents probably just want to see you happy. And since you say you'd be able to save up money, it wouldn't be a problem for you to buy a plane ticket to go see your parents if things get worse. They definitely do want me to be happy, but I can tell you that what they really want is for me to be happy with someone else. They hate my boyfriend, which is also a factor in my decision. This is the first time they haven't been 100% supportive of me, and it's enough to make me hesitate. I feel like if I moved, they'd feel like I don't respect them at all and would be effectively spitting in their faces. My parents and I have always been very close and I don't want to see that happen. I'm just going to have to make a tough choice, eventually. You just have to prove to them that he's the right person. : D I think the sun will go supernova before that happens, but I will try my best! ^.^
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:50 am
Good luck good luck!
I believe things happen for a reason so whatever you choose to do will be the right thing either way. XD
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 4:38 am
Okay, so the best thing happened a few days ago. I volunteer at a preschool twice a week, and there's this one little girl in particular who is the cutest little thing you have EVER seen. And this Wednesday, for whatever reason, the circle (as in...circle time) was really crowded, and this girl ended up sitting a little farther out into the middle, right in front of me, so...I got to pull her over onto my lap. whee Squeeeee~
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 4:41 am
Also: I love my kitty cat. But she's in front of my computer and I CAN'T SEE. xp
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 4:42 am
Kestin Sha Okay, so the best thing happened a few days ago. I volunteer at a preschool twice a week, and there's this one little girl in particular who is the cutest little thing you have EVER seen. And this Wednesday, for whatever reason, the circle (as in...circle time) was really crowded, and this girl ended up sitting a little farther out into the middle, right in front of me, so...I got to pull her over onto my lap. whee Squeeeee~ ***** ALERT, ***** ALERT! LESBIAN ***** RUUUUUUN! Sorry I couldn't resist, don't kill me. ._.
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 5:04 am
So, my friend just told me in class today that's she's chosen the same degree I've chosen to do in Uni. See, the thing is, I don't mind her choosing the same thing, but she's so clingy, and if I recall, last week she said she'd want to do the same thing I did in Uni. D:< She's always hovering over my frikkin head when I'm writting to copy what I've written, she litrally hogs the table, she kept hitting my elbow today :'(
Seriously?! This happens to me every frikkin year. Example, a girl picked 3 subjects I chose to do in year 10-11 (grade 10 and 11) and then another girl chose to do same subjects as me in 6th form (college), and now Uni... You gotta be kiddin me >:c(
This thing is making me want to change my course I want to choose to do in Uni, which is why I'm going to consider seeing my ICT teacher ((computers stuff)) and ask her for advice, cos she suggest 2 years ago I should do something with computers because she says I have real potential in it, and I'm starting to get back into the things I used to do xP It best not be too late O_o
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 5:05 am
sikh-91 So, my friend just told me in class today that's she's chosen the same degree I've chosen to do in Uni. See, the thing is, I don't mind her choosing the same thing, but she's so clingy, and if I recall, last week she said she'd want to do the same thing I did in Uni. D:< She's always hovering over my frikkin head when I'm writting to copy what I've written, she litrally hogs the table, she kept hitting my elbow today :'(
Seriously?! This happens to me every frikkin year. Example, a girl picked 3 subjects I chose to do in year 10-11 (grade 10 and 11) and then another girl chose to do same subjects as me in 6th form (college), and now Uni... You gotta be kiddin me >:c(
This thing is making me want to change my course I want to choose to do in Uni, which is why I'm going to consider seeing my ICT teacher ((computers stuff)) and ask her for advice, cos she suggest 2 years ago I should do something with computers because she says I have real potential in it, and I'm starting to get back into the things I used to do xP It best not be too late O_o look at the bright side. you are well liked enough that people cling to you? o3o ......*cling*
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 5:24 am
Neceo sikh-91 So, my friend just told me in class today that's she's chosen the same degree I've chosen to do in Uni. See, the thing is, I don't mind her choosing the same thing, but she's so clingy, and if I recall, last week she said she'd want to do the same thing I did in Uni. D:< She's always hovering over my frikkin head when I'm writting to copy what I've written, she litrally hogs the table, she kept hitting my elbow today :'(
Seriously?! This happens to me every frikkin year. Example, a girl picked 3 subjects I chose to do in year 10-11 (grade 10 and 11) and then another girl chose to do same subjects as me in 6th form (college), and now Uni... You gotta be kiddin me >:c(
This thing is making me want to change my course I want to choose to do in Uni, which is why I'm going to consider seeing my ICT teacher ((computers stuff)) and ask her for advice, cos she suggest 2 years ago I should do something with computers because she says I have real potential in it, and I'm starting to get back into the things I used to do xP It best not be too late O_o look at the bright side. you are well liked enough that people cling to you? o3o ......*cling* Trust, that's not a bright side xP crying
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 5:31 am
Kestin Sha Okay, so the best thing happened a few days ago. I volunteer at a preschool twice a week, and there's this one little girl in particular who is the cutest little thing you have EVER seen. And this Wednesday, for whatever reason, the circle (as in...circle time) was really crowded, and this girl ended up sitting a little farther out into the middle, right in front of me, so...I got to pull her over onto my lap. whee Squeeeee~
It's nice seeing you share a happy secret for once ^^ heart
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Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2009 2:22 pm
Ok you know how people use a tone that just pisses you off so much? My dad does that ALL THE ******** TIME. He doesn't do it on purpose which makes it even more annoying because he doesn't realize when he does it.
So my family has like an ongoing fight with my brother-in-law and my dad was talking to him. They were on the porch and my window is right above them so I could hear everything and my dad was using that annoying tone. My brother-in-law has a very bad temper so I said my dad was the worst person to talk to him.
Now I'm get 5 million texts from my mom saying I shouldn't have said that because my dad was defending me because I was called spoiled. Oh boo hoo, like I really care that I'm called spoiled? It doesn't change the fact that my dad was the worst person to talk to him. No amount of trying to make me feel bad is gonna change that.
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