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 Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:23 pm
Neceo I found the same disorder that prevents me from being happy, prevents me from becoming sad. Hell yes? I'd say so. If I could choose between both or neither, I'd choose neither in half a heartbeat. Others will probably disagree. *shrugs* Doesn't matter what we think, really...it's your feelings, so you decide whether it's a good thing or not. This post was rather pointless, wasn't it? ._.; *huggles to make up for it*
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:25 pm
Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I wish I'd never somehow begun to care about (some) other people. It sucks. I knoooooooooooooow! It used to be that old moral dilemma, where you can only save one, would be effective against me. confused Eet ees not nayce. I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:26 pm
Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I wish I'd never somehow begun to care about (some) other people. It sucks. I knoooooooooooooow! It used to be that old moral dilemma, where you can only save one, would be effective against me. confused Eet ees not nayce. I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect?
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:34 pm
Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I wish I'd never somehow begun to care about (some) other people. It sucks. I knoooooooooooooow! It used to be that old moral dilemma, where you can only save one, would be effective against me. confused Eet ees not nayce. I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect? I recently discovered a flaw in that theory: one of my very best friends had been pretty happy with her life for a while, and I found myself feeling depressed because if she's rarely upset anymore, she doesn't need me, and I'll lose her. So I can't win. xp
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:36 pm
Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I wish I'd never somehow begun to care about (some) other people. It sucks. I knoooooooooooooow! It used to be that old moral dilemma, where you can only save one, would be effective against me. confused Eet ees not nayce. I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect? I recently discovered a flaw in that theory: one of my very best friends had been pretty happy with her life for a while, and I found myself feeling depressed because if she's rarely upset anymore, she doesn't need me, and I'll lose her. So I can't win. xp ..... How do I also know that feeling? @.@
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:37 pm
Kestin Sha Neceo I found the same disorder that prevents me from being happy, prevents me from becoming sad. Hell yes? I'd say so. If I could choose between both or neither, I'd choose neither in half a heartbeat. Others will probably disagree. *shrugs* Doesn't matter what we think, really...it's your feelings, so you decide whether it's a good thing or not. This post was rather pointless, wasn't it? ._.; *huggles to make up for it* yes...you basically asked a more or less emotionless person about emotion. << Its good though, but sometimes I get a tad jealous of people with a range of emotion that ranged further then depression to anger.
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:38 pm
Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I wish I'd never somehow begun to care about (some) other people. It sucks. I knoooooooooooooow! It used to be that old moral dilemma, where you can only save one, would be effective against me. confused Eet ees not nayce. I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect? I recently discovered a flaw in that theory: one of my very best friends had been pretty happy with her life for a while, and I found myself feeling depressed because if she's rarely upset anymore, she doesn't need me, and I'll lose her. So I can't win. xp ..... How do I also know that feeling? @.@ I know that feeling to. D: except its more of a "dang happy people....rubbing it in all the time like I need to know that they are happy" did I get it right? o3o
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:48 pm
Neceo Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect? I recently discovered a flaw in that theory: one of my very best friends had been pretty happy with her life for a while, and I found myself feeling depressed because if she's rarely upset anymore, she doesn't need me, and I'll lose her. So I can't win. xp ..... How do I also know that feeling? @.@ I know that feeling to. D: except its more of a "dang happy people....rubbing it in all the time like I need to know that they are happy" did I get it right? o3o No. I feel useless when not needed, and thrive off less then perfect circumstances.
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 7:03 pm
...I enjoy Paramore.
redface
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 7:06 pm
Divine_Malevolence Neceo Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha Divine_Malevolence Kestin Sha I would say "I want my apathy back", but I was never blessed with apathy. *shrugs* I'm unhappy enough on my own, really; feeling unhappy just because other people do is the very last thing I needed. xp Then let their happiness infect? I recently discovered a flaw in that theory: one of my very best friends had been pretty happy with her life for a while, and I found myself feeling depressed because if she's rarely upset anymore, she doesn't need me, and I'll lose her. So I can't win. xp ..... How do I also know that feeling? @.@ I know that feeling to. D: except its more of a "dang happy people....rubbing it in all the time like I need to know that they are happy" did I get it right? o3o No. I feel useless when not needed, and thrive off less then perfect circumstances. Oh. o: ...../failed. in my defense I do that to though. <<
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:07 pm
I despise all sympathy or empathy directed at me about my past and all other bad s**t that's happened involving or relating to me.
It doesn't make me feel better and only brings out the side of me that nobody likes.
That is also the reason why I don't want to vent about December in public or to anyone in particular because usually someone always ******** makes it a goal to get them to talk more and pry into their past when they clearly want you to shut the hell up.
I just wish I knew someone who would joke about it or do something else that'll actually cheer me up instead of feeling sorry for me and make things all the worse, when you tell someone you don't want sympathy things either get all awkward and the conversation dies in silence or they take it as a sign that you are just trying to seal yourself away and start prying. Both paths making the conversation implode on itself, whether by silence or rage.
Not directed at anyone here just FYI, I have ran into a few people in the outside world that have done this and I just needed to say something about it before I go mental on someone.
/ventventvent
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:12 pm
Blood Assassin 32 I despise all sympathy or empathy directed at me about my past and all other bad s**t that's happened involving or relating to me. It doesn't make me feel better and only brings out the side of me that nobody likes. That is also the reason why I don't want to vent about December in public or to anyone in particular because usually someone always ******** makes it a goal to get them to talk more and pry into their past when they clearly want you to shut the hell up. I just wish I knew someone who would joke about it or do something else that'll actually cheer me up instead of feeling sorry for me and make things all the worse, when you tell someone you don't want sympathy things either get all awkward and the conversation dies in silence or they take it as a sign that you are just trying to seal yourself away and start prying. Both paths making the conversation implode on itself, whether by silence or rage. Not directed at anyone here just FYI, I have ran into a few people in the outside world that have done this and I just needed to say something about it before I go mental on someone. /ventventvent if it makes you feel better I`m open to chat to and incapable of pity. <<
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:16 pm
God hates my family. O_O
A few weeks ago, my uncle got in a car accident. Few days after, my other uncle and grandfather got in one. My sister is going through Mountain Dew withdrawal(I wish I was joking). My mom is going through morphine withdrawal. My meds aren't working anymore. Today I found out I'm being forced out of my house and my sister's house caught on fire but the firemen saved ornaments my neice and nephew made.
And not once has anyone gotten hurt, God has shitty aim.
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:19 pm
Shiori Miko God hates my family. O_O A few weeks ago, my uncle got in a car accident. Few days after, my other uncle and grandfather got in one. My sister is going through Mountain Dew withdrawal(I wish I was joking). My mom is going through morphine withdrawal. My meds aren't working anymore. Today I found out I'm being forced out of my house and my sister's house caught on fire but the firemen saved ornaments my neice and nephew made. And not once has anyone gotten hurt, God has shitty aim. Needs an eye check up it seems. Hopefully he won't be finding a good Optometrist anytime soon.
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Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:23 pm
—❉÷(`[ ☆ ]´)÷❉— There's frost on every window, Oh, I can't believe my eyes... —❉÷(`[ ☆ ]´)÷❉—
Even though I attempt to be sweet as possible during this time of the year.. and work my a** off for art and giving people gifts.. I can't stand this time of year. Why? It's ******** COLD! I also get really moody and very tired... so all I wanna do is sleep until spring hits. Not like that is going to happen any time soon. During this time of year I am easily pissed off and offended.. I'm about the same during summer.. but that's more of a temper during summer then just not wanting to deal with anything during winter. It's kind of confusing.. only a few would really understand what I mean. Meh.. ._.
—❉÷(`[ ☆ ]´)÷❉— ...And in my bones I feel the warmth, That's coming from inside. —❉÷(`[ ☆ ]´)÷❉—
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