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 Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 12:33 pm
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Well, I'm not on drugs...I'm just depressed.
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Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 3:50 pm
Gotta live with the depression I guess. Its a mission but you get used to it. Anything in particular? Not that i'm really one to talk but at least in the expression of such thoughts someone is listening
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Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 5:19 pm
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Well....It's a long story....
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Posted: Fri Feb 13, 2009 2:20 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 14, 2009 3:23 am
Happy saturday the 14th! Otherwise known as saint valentines day
Ohh me like long stories. Good character development, interesting plot twists X3
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Posted: Sat Feb 14, 2009 6:04 am
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Yukai Barenteindee Dei!!! X3
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Okay...I'll try... >.< (Not as long as I thought it'd be...oh well)
It all started at the beginning of the month when I decided that I would bend my parent's rules and get on the phone in the middle of the night and early in the morning. Of course, I just found out last night that is when all of our 'free' minutes are. The phone bill would've been around $1,000 if we didn't have any roll-over minutes, but I think the phone company is cheating us because of the 'unlimited minute call zone' that I only ever make calls during.
So, I used 4,250 minutes and now I'm grounded. I can't watch TV, play videogames, go out in my car to friend's houses or to the store for marshmallows and tea, no computer (which I bend that one anyway with this lovely laptop), my phone was taken away, and thus: I have pretty much nothing right now.
Anything else you'd like to know? %_%
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Posted: Sat Feb 14, 2009 9:17 am
He he so its a matter of possesion. Could be worse, you could be emo XD
Hmmm i'll try and sound clever now.... one second... ok
You have two choices. You can release yourself from your current direction and try to enjoy what you did as a kid and in the past before getting such luxurys. Learn to value what you have beyond possesion and friendships but that of your mind.
Or you can take this as an opportunity to try something new. Read an awaiting book or take up a pencil and draw. The joy of exploration is always a welcome change in a bored mind.
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Posted: Sat Feb 14, 2009 12:05 pm
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One: I did NOTHING as a kid except get pushed around in school because I was constantly bullied. And when I was at home, I didn't go to friend's houses or anything because the bullies live(d) in the neighborhood. They even threw a rock at my window to my room! The broken glass is still there!
Two: I love reading and drawing because that's what I do when I'm not on the computer or at work. I usually draw and read in the middle of class at school though...
(Though it's not like it matters; I admit that I am emo, even if I don't show it technologically.)
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Posted: Sun Feb 15, 2009 12:56 pm
He he as apposed to me where im emo digitally speaking but not in reality XD
But yeah dejahvou I was the same at school. It turned me into the 6,3 coward I am today =_=! I was bullied in school and was attacked some day by some randoms who didn't even know me. I had a fear of strangers which lead into a fear of leaving the house by myself untill near the end of secondary school (highschool to you). As a result I lost many friends and distracted myself with computer games. If it wasn't for the people I met at university I would hardly have anyone. But hey this isn't about me.
What can I say.... you just need to learn to love yourself (hell im still working on that one). The problem in most of these cases is you feel undervalued or unloved. Either way you have to find a reason to live beyond normal in order to justify yourself. Make a goal long enougth then stive to achive.
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Posted: Sun Feb 15, 2009 1:22 pm
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My goal was to live until I turned 16. I already broke that goal... I overestimated myself. What now? =.=
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Posted: Sun Feb 15, 2009 3:26 pm
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Posted: Sun Feb 15, 2009 6:20 pm
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Nooo....I don't wanna live that long...
Life sucks...
Aside from that: Why try to strive living forever when it's called 'life'? We're all gonna die in the end anyway...
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Posted: Mon Feb 16, 2009 10:57 am
Everything dies. But even fire has a warmth. Life is such a rich existance. Even with the bullying, the depression and im sure worse to come I can see why I still want to be a part of it. When I go its not like im gonna know anyway so i'll be part of it why its here. Anyway I kinda look forward to being an old man if only to pretend I can't hear people and rant about how kids these days..... XD
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Posted: Mon Feb 16, 2009 12:10 pm
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... Why bother ....
*sighs*
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Posted: Mon Feb 16, 2009 3:29 pm
Thats a very bland retort. Comon! Immean I wish things could be better but wishing does naff all. Youve gotta put yourself at risk and get out there if you wanna find anything worth enjoying.
Personally id love to live and just keep waking up and going back to sleep like a sunday morning but thats just my sloth talking. I much more enjoy making something of myself whether its overtime at work or on the website. If anything pride is a most active sin
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