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 Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 2:54 pm
I got through the first two weeks of school...yay!
Turayza: I hear you with the homework. With tennis and everything, I don't get home til late, and then math usually takes me at least two hours. So yeah...I'm up pretty late most nights. I hardly ever get homework for Spanish 3, which is different from last year where I got homework practically every night. And we're playing beach volleyball in P.E. I didn't even know we had sand volleyball courts! Honors Integrated Geometry/Algebera 2 (finishes Geometry textbook, starts Algebra 2 one) is a killer. Tons of homework and my teacher is terrible. I mean, everyone that I talk to that has her hates her. Honors U.S. History is fun...we just finished watching The Patriot, so that was three days without History homework.
Demonic: You are soooo lucky that your school has a Mythology class! I love mythology...this kid who was trying to recruit me for Scholastic Bowl at my school asked me if I liked mythology, I said I loved it, he asked me if I was serious. And I am. I wish my school had a mythology class... Your field studies trip sounds cool. I've never been to the Smithsonian or any of the places that you are going to, but I've always wanted to...I love traveling.
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 7:42 pm
DemonicDollie: Wow, that sounds like a ton of fun! I wish my classes were that hands-on. We just have...essays and math tests. :l But hey, it's only been the first week.
Nariko: Yeah, it's quite a nightmare. I really hope the load lightens up, or I get better at processing :l
Mythology is fun! I wish we had that class at school, too. But I probably wouldn't be allowed to take it...it's all APs and Honors and no fun at all. /sigh.
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Posted: Sun Sep 06, 2009 12:29 am
I miss school, but I've had my woes of barely staying alive.
Thanks to a handful of different charity handouts, I was able to make rent. Thanks to another friend's paypal I got my bank balance up to like 11 dollars after the bills and overdraft fees were taken care of.
I sold some of my stuff pawnshop style to get me 90 something dollars to last me indefinately. -_-;
And I'm still on foodstamps for food or else I would be starving to death... again.
I need to get my substitute's credential renewed (you have to do it once a year) but I'm not sure if I have the money crying .
In the meanwhile, still waiting to hear back on:
*state disability for the past month I haven't been able to work and failure of hours overall during the summer
*Medi-cal (and SSI disability).
Trying not to die... literally... a few nights ago I almost voluntarily checked myself into psychiatric emergency because I didn't trust where my brain was going when all the signs were telling me how overly "effed" I was.
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Posted: Sun Sep 06, 2009 5:20 pm
Holy cow! I wish I could help you. Maybe you should go for a temporary job at some lame place like McDonalds (or like the Starbucks jobs?) just to get some simple cash. There are definitely places hiring, even if it's just minimum wage...
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Posted: Wed Sep 09, 2009 11:31 am
Finding a job is always difficult, I have to find a new one because my temp job is done tonight. sad , no money! Well at least I got some experience and can work elsewhere, anyways, I hope the best of luck to you meatballhead! Don't kill yourself, it never works to solve problems. Trust me...I've had very close calls about suicide also. When I was a teen I had way too much depression problems, glad that they're over and done with.
Thanks everybody! I had fun with my boyfriend and his family, it was hot but not unbearably so..it got up to 95 degrees. It wasn't busy though, I could actually walk normally. Anyways, school is hard but the rewards are the best. With my 15 units and tons of homework,all I keep telling myself is junior status, junior status! I'm still considered sophomore status even though this is my third year at the cal state.
Temp jobs help meatball! They helped me..
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Posted: Fri Sep 11, 2009 12:40 am
Well, I'm doing a little better now. Though I'm going to appeal due to my summer failure, I did get enough state disability to cover rent and things I owe on for a while.
Plus the person who I'm getting close to (we're not b/f-g/f yet) is starting to get over his own depression and is no longer being isolationist and pushing me away. (The recurring thoughts of "does he not want mne around anymore?" "Did I do something wrong?" assaulting me the whole time.)
This week I've been cat-sitting for my former roomate who helped me in the past after a major crash episode that it took me five whole months to recover from a barely functioning (crying all the time not eating) lump to someone who can hold a job and pay rent.
Even though thanks to not being fully recovered from surgery I had a year ago the job bit is questionable. I can't stand for long, I can't sit for long, I can't lift more than 15 lbs, and I can't even lift small amounts repeatedly. Doing a load of laundry and all the steps involved completely floors me to the point where I have to take pain meds and be bed-ridden for a while to recover. And that's just the PHYSICAL pain... when my brain chemicals and depression and anxiety get in the mix... it's a loop.
I think kitties have healing energy. They know when you're sad and come up to you being all cute, adorable, and lovey. I've had it happen multiple times... in college once I was screaming out in the night and a random neighborhood cat found me. One place I stayed briefly during the shorter winter break, I was sick and pretty much laid on the floor next to their cat the whole time. I'm cat sitting now... probably the best thing for me.
My familiar is definately a cat. =^_^=
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Posted: Fri Sep 11, 2009 5:49 pm
Hello guys. I'm so sorry I've been gone lately. School starting, ya know...and handbells and choir at my church started, so I'm happy about that.
Wow, so many posts, I'll try to read them later, but right now I'm feeling terribly lonely and I just need some mature people to talk to...
I got into this huge fight with my best friend and she deleted me off AIM and took me off her top on MySpace. This is big for us seeing as the internet is the only place we can talk. And she got her other friend, who I've been getting to know, to hate me as well...Ugh, I just don't know what to do...
Well, I'm sure you guys have better things to do than to listen to my depressing rants...
And I turned 16 on Thursday....woop-dee-doo....
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Posted: Sat Sep 12, 2009 12:26 am
I'm sorry Kineka. She will come around.. what was the fight about? If she doesn't well..., I don't know what to say to that. Happy birthday, even though you don't think its a good thing, sixteen is a good year.
Meatball, I think cats are your familiars. I'm terribly allergic to them, so I can't go anywhere near them. What surgery did you have?
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Posted: Sat Sep 12, 2009 12:42 pm
Kineka- I was in a similar situation. The guy I'm now re-considering for a b/f, the first time around after he decided he couldn't date me, we tried to be friends, but I found his presence very... predatory so to speak. I needed some time away from him so one day I quietly blocked him from AIM and AIM alone. He found out, of course, and asked via another friend to talk to me. I obliged his request and what I got (on my end of the telephone) was "Ha Ha, now I'm blocking YOU! *block*). What hurt the most though was not only did he just use that opportunity that I generously gave him to show that HE was slamming the door in my face, was that he then blocked/deleted me from EVERYTHING else... myspace, gaia, etc. I just wanted a small break. He obliterated every trace of me and for a while he believed he never wanted to see or speak to me ever again... that's what I got for just wanting a breath. I know how much being blocked online can hurt when that's your primary means of communication, as it is for much of our generation.
Para- When I was in 8th grade, (1999) they fused Harrington (Surgical Steel) Rods into my back from T3 to L4, in other words nearly my whole back. They also took out part of one of my ribs and grinded it up to make fusing material and did anterior and posterior (front and back) fusion so even if the rods were somehow removed later my back is like one giant bone that can't move or absorb shock. To boot the metal is never ever meant to be removed. The tiny tiny bit I had removed a year ago was a HOOK that was supposed to be hooked into my L4 vertebrae but never settled there and instead was in soft tissue and PROTRUDED from my back, when I would sit down in a chair I would hit the wood, pinching my skin between the wood and the metal plus it would send a shockwave pf pain up my whole back. I don't have that problem anymore, but being as laid up as I was, I haven't regained the stamina I once had, and between my physical pain and mental issues that I continue to work on (Hell, I just bought Borderline Personality for Dummies yesterday), I can't work enough to live. Which really sucks. It also doesn't add to the list of reasons I shouldn't kill myself confused
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Posted: Sat Sep 12, 2009 12:53 pm
Ouch that surgery sounds painful..I'm sorry sad
Even though life seems bad now, it will get better. Live another day. Just another year and so on and so forth.
I got beatles rockband yesterday! It was sweet. I like being john and george. smile
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Posted: Sun Sep 13, 2009 7:24 am
School sucks !
This guy ( I'm not going to say the name ) whos locker is next to mine keeps thying to annoy me on purpose ! I mean seriously by highschool people should be more mature then that !
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Posted: Sun Sep 13, 2009 8:33 pm
Meatball, I understand how difficult it is to find a job. exclaim I'm 20 and I've never had one. I've babysat and cleaned houses, but never worked for a specific company. People don't hire those without "real" work experience, but how are you supposed to get work experience if no one will hire you? stressed
I hope that everyone has good classes this term. I can already tell that my physics 2 class is going to be the most boring and challenging, and that learning to teach special education will be the most useful. 3nodding It'll probably be the most fun too since I like the professor's teaching style. whee
I think I've mentioned before that I'm at university learning to be a teacher? question Well, in case I haven't, now you know! xd
Today, I gave Slytherin and Gryffindor House Points for discussion topics that were made in the main forum, but none for us, so get out there and post some wizarding issues for us to talk about! razz
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Minerva the Bookwyrm Crew
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Minerva the Bookwyrm Crew
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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2009 3:25 pm
We're having a SORTING MEMOIRS activity for HOUSE POINTS! biggrin See the latest post in the "Read Me First" announcement thread for details! wink
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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2009 6:25 pm
Sorry I haven't been on a lot lately...I've been getting slammed with homework lately, I had three tennis matches last week, out of town over the weekend, and three matches this week, a math test and quiz, and a huge history project that's due tomorrow. I've been really exhausted. All I want to do is sleep. At least tennis is still 3-0 in conference so far.
Meatball: I hope you get a job soon. I know how hard it is to find one. My brother is 19, and he's applied to just about every place imaginable in my town (which is a lot of places), but no one ever hired him. Places just aren't hiring. Hopefully you'll find a job soon.
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Minerva the Bookwyrm Crew
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Posted: Sun Sep 20, 2009 12:58 pm
I know that my outfit is blue and gold instead of blue and bronze, but it's still my attempt at dressing my avi like Luna. See her book, rabbit Patronus, and Hogwarts castle? 4laugh
I hope that everyone had a nice weekend. I did because the weather was great yesterday! biggrin
On Wednesday, I'm testifying in court as a witness to help my friends get restraining orders against their father. evil (They're sisters, so they obviously have the same father.)
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