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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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 Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 1:47 pm
 Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Samuel felt terrible for the things he said. He knew they weren't what Micha wanted to hear, but it was the truth. Perhaps he could have left out the bit of his wavering thoughts about Micha liking him, but it needed to be said. As much of a cop out as it sounded, his anxiety did in fact allow him to think like that. It was stupid and irrational, but that was exactly what Samuel was when he let his anxiety get the best of him. He would let his mind go all over the place only to end up a cowardly mess. Samuel tried to prepare himself for whatever Micha had to say. His words stung, but he did find some truth to them. He messed up. He shouldn't have allowed himself to think that he would do him wrong like so many people before him. Boyfriend or not Samuel always had trouble easily trusting others. And when he found out just how easy it was to trust and adore him, it sent off one too many panic alarms in his head. As Micha spoke, he was surprised to hear that he was also afraid. He always seemed so calm that he never noticed. He felt horrible for not picking up on these things sooner. Samuel chanced a brief glance toward Micha when he heard him stand and shuffle away from the table. His next sentence floored him. He snapped his head up so fast that he nearly gave himself whiplash.
All Samuel could do was sit there. He wasn't given a chance to say it back and at this point he felt like he had no right. He watched Micha go and did nothing to stop him. When he was out of sight and he could hear him moving on the stairs, Samuel dropped his head in to his hands. You ******** idiot. he told himself. Micha was probably the best thing to ever happen to him and now he wasn't even sure if they would make it to tomorrow. The corners of his his eyes prickled with tears but he wouldn't allow himself to cry. Crying wasn't going to make the situation any better. Giving his face a good rub, Samuel remained seated a few more minutes before standing. He took his mug to sink and dumped it down the remainder down the drain. After rinsing the mug out. He quietly moved up the stairs to check on Micha. Whether he was asleep or just resting he couldn't tell. Either way, quietly as he could, he leaned over to press a kiss to Micha's cheek. "You're right. he whispered. "I did judge you and I'm a** for even suggesting that you were like those other guys. I'm sorry. But I want you to know that I stuck around this long because I wanted to. You may not have been my type in the beginning but you sure as hell are now. I'm ******** crazy about you and have been for some time now. I love you, Micha." With that said Samuel slid off the bed to let Micha get some rest. Exhausted as he was, he knew sleep wouldn't find him as easily. So instead he sat himself down on the bit of floor with his back flush against the bed. He had no idea if Micha heard any of what he just said but it didn't matter. He felt no regrets for saying it. He could only hope when Micha woke up he'd be willing to talk more and perhaps they could come to some kind of common ground. Til then, he sat there quietly replaying everything in his head like a movie on the silver screen.
  
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 2:25 pm
 "Between Samuel and he, the truth was better laid out between them then bottled inside. He wasn’t bothered by Samuel’s words after all he needed to hear them. Micha knew Samuel had anxiety issues that much was clear. He was tired of worrying about how things were between them. Micha needed to establish some ground rules between them. He didn’t want another case of what ifs. Micha wanted things between them to be settled with words instead of emotions. He knew it might be asking too much but the least he could do was ask.
As he lay there, Micha hadn’t yet drifted off to sleep. He was merely resting as he needed to lie down. His chest was hurting and he needed to lie down. Micha lay there for a while before hearing sounds on the steps. He didn’t bother moving though he soon felt Samuel kiss his cheek. Micha relaxed as he listened to Samuel speak. He didn’t blame Samuel for his worries after all it was only natural. Micha only wished Samuel would talk them out instead of assuming. He couldn’t help but smile though as Samuel returned his words. Micha was elated to hear them after all he knew they were the truth this time instead of Samuel’s rushed words the first time. He felt Samuel pull away from him causing him to turn his head. Micha glanced to see Samuel move to sit down against his bed. He shifted as he moved closer toward Samuel. Micha lay down as he rested his head beside Samuel. ”You know…Next time you feel the need to question yourself…Just talk to me Samuel…” He spoke softly as he lay there watching Samuel. Micha didn’t want to break up either. That was the farthest thought from his mind right now. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 3:37 pm
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 6:58 pm
"It was true that they had grown over the past few months. They have developed since they started talking. After all their first conversation was an odd one, seeing as he was the first to strike a conversation with the man behind the counter. He couldn’t help but find amusement in the later conversations afterwards. In a way it became surprising to where they had come. As he lay there, Micha couldn’t help but find Samuel admirable. He knew Samuel had trouble expressing himself just as he did. Micha watched as Samuel turned to look at him taking note of his smile. He laughed softly as Samuel spoke, knowing they both needed to express themselves better. Micha watched as Samuel leaned closer to kiss him. He returned the kiss before Samuel pulled away. Micha watched as Samuel shifted to fold his arms and lay his head on the bed. He shifted slipping a hand out toward Samuel as he touched his lips lightly. Micha curved his finger around Samuel’s bottom lip. ”I will learn to do that after all it would not be proper to ask the same of you.” He spoke truthfully. Micha wanting to be truthful with Samuel after all he knew that if he wasn’t more honest with him then he could only expect Samuel to keep questioning himself."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 9:44 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
It was kind of amazing how far they had come along since their initial meeting. Samuel hadn't been too sure about Micha at first, but after a few conversations he'd really grown on him. He remembered how hard it was to find out even the smallest things about him. He practically had to beg him just to eat a meal with him. Despite the struggle, he was glad he was able to get to know him as much as he had. And there was still so much he wanted to know. There was time for that he hoped. If they could just muster the courage to start up a conversation when they weren't between fighting and making up again. Before he pulled back, Samuel felt Micha return his kiss. Making himself comfortable on the edge of the bed, Samuel watched as Micha shifted again, reaching out to him. He let Micha do as he pleased, listening when he spoke. "It's a deal." he replied,puckering his lips and kissing Micha's thumb. He was going to hold Micha to his promise and do his best to keep his own. He didn't want anymore misunderstanding like this. He didn't want to feel anxious and make Micha worry like this again either. Samuel wanted to see them continue to laugh and smile so they could look back on all of it and see how far they've come from being the lone wolf photographer and the nosy, untrusting bartender. "You should get some rest. You look like you're about to pass out." he said gently. Reaching out his own hand, he gently pushed back Micha's hair from his face. The new look was going to take some getting used to, but he'd managed. He found that the short haired look was just as alluring as the longer haired look.
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2015 11:02 pm
"Being honest was never his strong suit. Releasing every single detail almost left nothing to the imagination. Micha found that knowing everything about another person was equally impossible. He preferred to leave a few things about his life a mystery. Micha trusted Samuel well enough but still worried about other things. He worried that if Samuel knew the true him that he would eventually grow bored of him as well. Micha liked to maintain a sense of wonder about him. He knew it probably created only more questions. Micha sighed lightly as he watched Samuel. He smiled as Samuel spoke feeling him kiss his thumb. Micha wanted things to be settled between them as well. He didn’t want to argue with Samuel, after all who knew the next argument could be there last. Micha pulled his hand back hearing Samuel speak. He smiled lightly knowing he needed to sleep but he also didn’t want to. Micha knew it was probably too much to ask but he wouldn’t help but want Samuel to stay. He didn’t want to be left alone right now. As much as it probably seemed like he did, he still couldn’t help but be scared of his father’s return. Micha already have plans to return the money to his father after all he had the amount sitting in his bank account. He had no need for it anyways. It was a small amount compared to what most people steal. He watched as Samuel slipped a hand up toward his hair. Micha felt Samuel’s hand slide through his hair pushing it back. He relaxed against the feeling as he lay there, closing his eyes. Micha enjoyed the feeling of Samuel toying with his hair. He allowed himself to start drifting off to sleep as he lay there. His breath starting to calm down, becoming slow and even as he slipped into a light slumber."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon May 18, 2015 12:22 am
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Posted: Mon May 18, 2015 7:04 pm
"When it came to talking about his mother, it was a sore subject. It was not something he shared lightly nor was it something he shared with many. Micha preferred to keep his memory of her intact. He thought about her often after all she was the key to who he was. She had taught him many things which he took into account as part of his way of life. Thinking about the future worried him. Micha didn’t know where things between them would go. He was surprised them even made it this far. Micha didn’t know if he should even allow himself the idea of wanting more after all he knew it was never possible. He was scared to even ask where their relationship was going. As he drifted off to sleep, Micha allowed himself to relax. His chest still raged with pain but it was slowly dwindling away as he allowed himself some peace. He shifted lightly in his sleep as he lay there. Micha wouldn’t have minded if Samuel joined him in the bed but just being near was good enough.
A few hours had passed before Micha shifted in the bed. He rolled a little which shot pain through his chest. Micha groaned lightly as opened his eyes, letting them flutter a little. He sighed as he slipped a hand toward his chest. Micha rolled to lie on his back. He was still tried but knew sleep was beyond him. Micha sighed as he lay there staring at the ceiling. His mind was abuzz with thoughts. He slipped a hand up as he ran it through his hair. Micha wondered what time it was as he lay there."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue May 19, 2015 5:57 am
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
When it came to thinking about the future, Samuel hadn't given it much thought. He was too busy worrying about the present. While he liked to think that once they talked some more they could start moving forward, it was too soon to tell just yet. Samuel could wait until Micha was awake or even just feeling better. For now he was content just being by his side. As Micha drifted off to sleep, he spent his time playing on his phone. He was tired, but not enough to sleep. He sat there on the floor going through the few games on his phone and checking out sites like Facebook and his e-mail. When that no longer was able to hold his interest, he looked around the small bedroom. Aside from the bed, there really wasn't much of anything up there. After sitting for a least an hour and a half, Samuel rose from the floor as quietly as he could he stretched his stiff limbs and went downstairs to get another cup of coffee. He padded through the studio and into the kitchen, picking up the mug he'd left by the sink. The coffee was still a little warm. He filled the cup about halfway and made his way back upstairs. Samuel quietly sat down in the same spot as before. Setting his cup down, he glanced towards Micha, smiling to himself. It was nice to see him look so peaceful for a change. Samuel turned around and settled as best he could without stirring Micha. Pulling his phone back out, Samuel continued to browse different sites, catch up on the news, and play games. He sipped the coffee, not minding how cool it'd become.
Two hours later, Samuel awoke from his light dozing as he heard Micha stir behind him. He hadn't even remembered falling asleep. Surprisingly his phone was still in his hand, thumb in place like he was about to scroll through something. Setting the object aside, Samuel rubbed his eyes and turned just in time to watch Micha roll on to his back. He let Micha stretch and get himself situated before deciding to at last join him on the bed. Pushing up from the floor, Samuel crawled on the bed as softly as he could. He lay down beside Micha. "Hey," he said softly. "How'd you sleep?"
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Posted: Tue May 19, 2015 3:13 pm
"As he lay there thoughts swam through his mind. He didn’t know what to do next about his father nor did he know what to do next about Samuel. Micha was content for the moment. He knew he needed to finish things with his father but also change locations. Micha couldn’t stay where he was living anymore. His house and studio had been breached. He didn’t think he could live there knowing his father would enter at any moment. Micha worried about the thought also he didn’t want bad things to happen either. He wanted to find another place of peace for himself. Micha would need to do so but not anytime soon. He felt the bed shift as Samuel climbed onto it and lay down beside him. Micha glanced toward him and smiled lightly. ”As well as one can I suppose especially with a few of their ribs broken.” He spoke teasing Samuel as he lay there. Micha shifted reaching out his hand to take Samuel’s. He laced their fingers together. ”And you?...How did you sleep?” Micha spoke curiously knowing Samuel had fallen asleep but had woken up due to his abrupt stirring from his sleep. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue May 19, 2015 7:40 pm
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Posted: Tue May 19, 2015 8:45 pm
"It was true that Micha was thinking about moving. He knew he couldn’t stay where he was living, though unfortunately he had to sell before he could move. Micha wasn’t renting, he had purchased his house earlier in the year now it was worthless to him. He was saddened in a way to see his house go after all it was his place of peace but he couldn’t stay there anymore. Micha sighed a little to himself in thought as he lay there. He heard Samuel speak about his brother and couldn’t help but laugh softly though stopped as pain shot through his chest. ”Mm…Yes, I’m sure he did.” Micha spoke smiling at Samuel as he soon relaxed. He watched as Samuel shrugged to his question. Micha smirked lightly, ”Yeah, well not all couches are made for sleeping.” He spoke teasing Samuel. Micha knew how comfortable Samuel’s couch was after all he had laid on it before. It was indeed very uncomfortable to lie on, but then again so was the floor. Micha much preferred a bed to a floor. He shook his head lightly hearing Samuel’s question. ”No…Not since this morning…and even that wasn’t much.” Micha spoke knowing he should probably eat too after all it was late and he hadn’t eaten much this morning much less since yesterday. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue May 19, 2015 9:55 pm
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Posted: Wed May 20, 2015 4:47 pm
"When it came to finding his next place, Micha didn’t mind the idea of Samuel helping him. He didn’t know what he expected to find though. Micha wasn’t so sure about owning two places. He thought about his next place being a loft perhaps. It was probably easier than living in a house and owning a studio for his work. With the loft, it would give him a place to do both his work and live in. He watched as Samuel rolled his eyes at his words. Micha didn’t mind after all he understood how uncomfortable Samuel’s couch was. It wasn’t meant for sleeping on. As he lay there beside Samuel, he soon heard his stomach growl. Micha smiled lightly watching Samuel. ”What did you have in mind?” He asked curiously as he turned on his side carefully to face Samuel. Micha bit his lip lightly as pain spread through his chest. He sighed softly as he tried to let it pass. Micha relaxed as the pain subsided for now."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed May 20, 2015 6:38 pm
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