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To whom are you speaking?

The one that lives on his shoulder?

You. Silly! 3nodding

eek Wow, my thread is still going. Impressive.

*Time for my mostly complaining that I can't get someone, but a rant nonetheless*
And I know some of you have heard this before. So if you've seen the coming out thread and read my story, you might not want to read on.
I can't stand not having someone, and I really can't stand knowing I love someone but also knowing that I have no chance with the guy. I know it wasn't meant to be bewteen us. But sometimes I wonder, maybe he's lying about it.

He's straight, and so ends the closeness that I want. He has also has a girlfriend of which I introduced to him. She also happens to be a really good friend of mine. Hell, I was sick on Friday and I got myself out and gave her a ride home cause she was sick too. It's just something I do, cause I'm really nice to people who are nice to me.

To keep the rant going, I really start to wonder that maybe he doesn't want to admit anything about himself, but that's just my selfish side showing.

This is basically how much I want someone to hold, someone to lay down with(not sex damnit....), someone to be around with and just be perfectly fine with hugging and kissing and cuddling. I don't care about sex.

I can't stand dreaming about him(being able to hug kiss and cuddle) or thinking of him. Ugh. Is it bad to love a straight guy, or am I wrong in it, and there's absolutely nothing to solve my problem. Nothing.

I also have a friend in Glendora, but it's mostly a lusting relationship(online, still haven't met IRL, but I plan on it next weekend). Sometimes we'll tell each other that we want to get together, but it'd be too hard to, seeing as we live too far away. I couldn't deal with a long distance relarionship, I'm too physical. I want to be able to hold him, anything else that goes along with it.

The less we started talking(5months ago, but started talking to each other a lot more lately), I realized that I really did like him. A lot. Hmmm...

So I guess I should end this, kinda have to get to my homework...

Ugh.
Also, feel free to correct any spelling and grammar issues.

School, school, stress, school, RPing.... stepped down from modhood as well...

gonk

I never got my JoVo-hug in chit chat!