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Joliette watched her go and then wandered into the edges of hte trees trying to keep the camp in sight as she searched for some fruit

Awen stormed back into the camp in quite the huff and sat herself down back by their little fire. She took a look around at their living area. Broken glass still littered the ground, shreds of tarp lay scattered across the camp, Lauren was bleeding from the head and still hadn't woken up and Chubbs was passed out in the dirt.

Yeah they were doing splendidly. And yet Antony had the gaul to question Chubbs' fishing rod technique? How the hell should Awen know how it was made. She wasn't useful like Chubbs, she didn't know this survival stuff. Sure she went camping and was surrounded by woods back home, but those were at camping sites. A store was just down the road, park rangers patrolled, and bathrooms were never too far away. Chubbs was more resorceful and used what he had to make a fishing rod, that was damn impressive.

She had time to stew over this on her way back to the camp. And what kind of self rightious b***h did that girl think she was. Trying to make Awen feel guilty with the whole "I've been nothing but honest with you" crap. Awen curled her legs to her chest. Sometimes she would appreciate some dishonesty. It went against her own morals, but she didn't want to hear the truth from Antony anymore. It always made her hurt. Even if Jamal would have told Awen it would have been better, she knew him, loved him..? It would have been easier if he would have just admitted it.

She choked back a tear or two as she made herself face Joliette. "They weren't any help. Fruit's in the jungle somewhere....Just as we thought."

Awen shook her head, not daring to test her voice further. She didn't want to eat right now. Her stomach was knotting and her heart was doing backflips. Or was that the other way around? Awen didn't even know anymore. She just drew in a shakey breath and put her head to her knees.

She didn't want to be here. She wanted to be home in her nice comfy bed. She didn't have to worry about surviving or becoming a mutant fish or about the one man she had cared enough for to share her body with, cheat on her. No. Back home everything was nice. She'd be going to university this year, she'd be making new friends. She'd be normal without these stupid rubber patches on her skin. She would have good meals and no gash on her leg, she wouldn't have to worry about where her food was coming from after the boar was gone. She wouldn't have smashed an animal's head in.

Awen just sat and started to cry. Silent sobs ran through her but she refused to allow noise to escape.

She curled around Joliette as soon as the girl placed a hand on her. This wasn't right. Nothing of this was ever right.

A stab of pain cut through her heart when she found herself longing for Jamal's comforting touch. Her arms tightened around the smaller girl as she squeezed her eyes tight.

She hadn't dared respond anymore to them at the beach. But she heard what Antony had shouted after her. "We're not in some stupid love-dovey relationship thanks!" She just wanted to make sure the big guy was alright with her. She figured that there must be something behind what they were doing. After all they were looking out for one another by being in a group in the first place right? It was jsut her way to telling Jamal she still cared. She didn't need to hear what Antony had said. That's what she had been cheated on with then? Someone who just didn't give a damn about him.

What happened when Awen had comforted Jamal, held him, talked him out of anger or depressions. After everything that she had done for him it wasn't good enough was it? Physical gratification obviously meant more to Jamal than anything Awen could give, which was also physical at this point. Guess she just...wasn't gratifying enough for him.

"She doesn't give a damn about him." She said in a shakey voice. "She doesn't give a rat's a** about him...."

Chubbs opened his eyes sleepily, the ground eventually became somewhat damn itchy and uncomfortable. He looked about and yawned loudly with a long stretch in which he cringed, it started to feel nice but then the aches came in. He rubbed his eyes, trying to focus on the world around him. Chubbs spotted a pair of boddies hugging into each other, Joliette and Awen. He pondered what was happening. then taking a moment, he saw that Awen was upset. He thought about what could have made her cry, and how could he fix it. Chubbs got to his feet and made his way over. Even if he didn't know, a hug would surely help, and so he bent down and wrapped his arms around Joliette and Awen.

Awen smiled a little bit when Chubbs wrapped the two of them up in a bear-hug. Pardon the pun. She couldn't move to try and hugs Chubbs back or anything so she just wait until he let go.

"Thanks guys..." She sniffed and wiped her nose with her hand. "I really...shouldn't break down like that honestly.... Not right now." She sighed and shook her head. "Anyway, Chubbs, we need help with this meat situation.... Could you, by chance tell uh how to smoke it at all eh? I have...no idea what the proper place away from the fire is good for it."

Chubbs sat down beside the two girls and scratched the back of his head. It was the only think he could think of at the time, he wasn't sure it was a good plan though.

"Um.. I ah...well, what I remember, ya did it in like a room or a box. Kinda hang it over sorta burning wood chips.. hmm... I'm really not to great on the process, I don't want to like poison the hell out of you guys"

Chubbs softly petted the two, he couldn't think, still a bit sleepy. He stood up again for a moment and stretched.

" Er i'll ah be right back... nature calling and all..."

With that he walked his way to get out of sight.