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 Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 6:37 am
It was the do-what-you want that made Caelen freeze. He couldn’t turn back to look at her or else he’d completely lose the edge to his anger. He needed it right now.
So… basically she wanted to ramble on and on, make him angry, crush him for the sake of complaining? What in the hell was that supposed to mean? Shaking out his mane, Caelen just continued to stand there. The words she had spoken to him kept echoing around his brain and the idea of just strangling her wasn’t sounding too bad at the moment.
Complaining. Shocked. Thinking of herself. Well he certainly hadn’t needed her to say all of those things, he had figured them out. So was he supposed to listen to her tear down everything he had offered her. For privacy he’d gladly take the children and let her go and explore. Little ones rarely, if ever, grated on his nerves.. And those weren’t even his. How could she say things like that.
The tears in her voice made him ache slightly, but whether or not he was in all that of a forgiving mood? He wasn’t really sure. A mad desire to just laugh at her and the way she treated him boiled up in his throat but he swallowed it down and turned around. Aye, now he was going to set her straight, “If I were ter leave right now lass I’d be back when the babes were born ter collect ‘em. Christ ferbid they be part o’ yer life. With the way yer actin’ right now I’d nae let ye see ‘em again.” This all probably hurt her, but what he said was honest. Babies shouldn’t be raised by a mother who sees them as a hindrance instead of a joy.
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 6:50 am
Azariel jerked her head up, anger boiling. "You will not." She growled. She would never let them be taken out of her life. She wouldn't be like her mother. She'd be there for them through anything.
"You think I'll just let you come and take them away from me? Do you think I'll let that happen willing? You heartless b*****d. I never said I didn't want them in my life! I can't help it now that they are but that doesn't mean I'm going to curse them until death! They're coming, they're practically already here and you're just being a jackass about it!"
"You have no right to take them from me, Caelen, none at all. You should be the one worried if you'd ever see them again, not me." She shook her head, wanting to smack him with all her might. Idiot stallion.
She stopped and sighed, calming herself, "I wouldn't do that though. If only because I want them to have a decent and connected home. But...that's not going to happen is it?" She smiled wanly, shaking her head, "I have a gift for pissing you off, don't I? I god-given lovely gift. Can;t make anyone happy, not even the one I love. Not even myself." White hair shadowed her face once more.
"Maybe you should take them. At least then they wouldn't have to worry about a mother who can't make anyone happy. Who just screws everything up." She sighed, "What do you want, Caelen?" She asked softly, "What do you want from me? I don't understand anything. I...I need some help here."
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 7:00 am
Caelen could only fight her for so long. Their life together sometimes took on a soap-opera feeling to it, but this was the first time in a long time that they had truly spoken to each other. Maybe threats and tears were they way to get through to each other.
Slowly, his mind and heart warring at each other, making his movements more than a little bit jerky, he made his way back to her. In his normal way, Caelen wrapped his neck over hers and shushed her as best her could. Both of their tempers were spent, now they needed just a little bit of time to soothe each other and discuss things without trying to kill one another. He should have known that they’d have a huge fight.
“Ye know lass, that was the first time ye’ve told me that ye love me.” Even in her backhanded, I’m-a-screw-up way.. That had been what made him decide to stay… She’d need him and he’d need her to raise these little ones.
Picking the right words certainly wasn’t easy right now for one who was so used to being able to charm the pants or other … objects off of or away from people when the time called for it. “We have a way o’ settin’ each other off lass. I think that comes from our passion and tempers.” That all was true, and certainly made life a b***h at times. “Yer goin’ ter be a great mother.. We’ll do what most parents don’t…” He stopped back to lip at the tear that had slid into her fur, “We’ll be a team.”
His green eyes smiled down into hers for a moment, after a huge fight like that.. He could still smile at her. “I want ye ter be happy lass… I thought that takin’ the wee ones an’ being gone would make ye happy.” His expression saddened for a moment, “I want ter raise our little ones together, I want ter laugh, ter play, ter fight, ter love.” He sounded like a cheasy Hallmark card, but those were the things he wanted.. “O’course.. Havin’ yer beautiful hide next ter me doesn’t hurt either.” Hopefully she’d smile, just a little…
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 7:21 am
Azariel let him wrap his neck over hers, accepting it with all of the grace she could muster--meaning she pressed against it as hard is she could. She closed her eyes, wishing that she could just let this one moment last a bit longer before it all went to hell again.
Had she said that? She couldn't really remember. Another wan smile graced her features and she wondered ruefully if he'd ever let her live it down. "Saying words like that is difficult and embarrassing for me. It's only natural you wouldn't hear it often enough to satisfy you."
"It's some sort of curse, I swear," She grumbled softly, "I don't like to fight in general, but it just happens." She sighed and glanced at herself for the...fourth time, "Much like this. Peachy." She looked at him oddly as he lipped at her cheek, but didn't speak against it, "A team...ah, it'll be hell with the children. If we're a team, they'll make on too and then--especially if they're like us--the world will explode or something."
Her black ears flicked back and flattened, "That couldn't be more wrong." She answered simply, "I could never be happy if I was like my mother and abandoned my children. I'd be liable to hurt myself." She shook her head and sighed, managing a smile, "You'll get that, I suppose." She answered softly, "With both of our personalities and tempers in them, you'll be hard-pressed to not do any of that with them."
She snorted softly and rolled her eyes, "Just wait until I'm as big as a house, Caelen, then say that and mean it."
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 7:33 am
When she pressed back up against him it was like being at home for the first time in a long long while. Usually she just allowed it, but after the close call they had had the contact probably was necessary for both to feel like the relationship wasn’t being threatened anymore.
She might not remember saying that to him because of how badly they had been fighting, but right now he’d just have to store that bit of information away. He couldn’t run from her anymore when they fought, now that her heart was on the line also… Not just his.
“Aye, up until we met lass I wasna much o’ a fighter. I liked ter argue an’ chaff me friends a bit but never did I get so ragey.” He wrapped his neck over hers once again and managed to hide his grin, someday when she was older she’d realize that he’d love her no matter how round of flat her form was. The little lass was younge, and the odds of having babies on their first time.. Well, weren’t very high. Patience would be key. Oh christ, she’d probably be suspicious of the next time he wanted to love her.
“If our young’uns made the world blow up then it’d just be a chance for the world to better itself, aye.” That made enough sense to him, if they were too much then the rest would have to learn how to be more, “Now then.. There has to be a way for both of us to control our tempers so our little ones don’t run screaming from the area whenever we’re in the same room…” but he’d think of that later..
His chest pushed up against her and his eyes danced wickedly, “If ye’ve a mind ter test that I’d be more’n happy ter love ye everyday til we canna anymore.. But I bet ye’ll say no.”
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 7:49 am
"I understand that," She answered softly, sighing, "When I'm around my childhood friends and most people I simply meet I don't get angry much at all at a lot of what they say." She let a chuckle escape, "Maybe there's just something about each of us that sets the other off."
"If the world blew up there wouldn't be anything left to make better," She pointed out lazily, wanting to take things literally. It made conversations a bit more interesting sometimes. She snorted and nudged him lightly, "They wouldn't run away screaming," She contradicted determinedly, "They'd probably grab a snack and watch."
She raised an eyebrow and looked up at him, "Did anyone ever tell you that you're insane, Caelen?" She asked softly, though she was unable to keep the faint sile off of her mouth, "You're damn well right I'd say no and you should be thinking about anything like that for a long time, there are certain consquences of those actions to raise, you know."
She shrugged and continued, "But while I refuse to let it be every day, I don't see why we can't do it again. Though I'll have to make sure there's no chance of this happening again." Might as well get that cleared out of the way. She wasn't against that much, it was the results that she was against. It'd be hell if every time they had a bit of fun she wound up pregnant. Life'd be no fun then.
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 8:22 am
A quick chuckle at her sigh made the mood lift even more for Caelen, “I wish ye could meet some o’ me childhood an’ talk about the old d--- .. Weell, upon second thought I canna say that yer missin’ too much by nae spendin’ time wit ‘em all.” Christ, They’d give her all sorts of dirt.
“Fine, if we’re goin’ ter be verrry literal my darlin’ lass then ye’d know that it’s nae possible fer ye ter explode with anger at me an’ all that rot.” Just a bit of teasing to get their mood back to one of friendly feelings. That made him happier in the least, she probably would take a bit of teasing since she was in an literal mood, “Aye.. An’ I’d expect them ter give me a snack so I could keep me energy up in our fightin’”
“Oh aye, if I’m nae told I’m crazy at least once I day I figure I’m prolly not doin’ me job right.” That was a bit of a fib but it made him chuckle at the idea, “Someday our children will get ter telling theirs about the Mad Irishman that raised ‘em.” Now that they were on a more steady footing Caelen figured it was safer to rejoice in the fact that he would soon be a father! A father!
“Aw lass, ye jest crushed up every stallions dream with his mate.” Actually, as much as the act itself was um, satisfying for him.. Caelen, in truth, enjoyed just being with her and being able to stand shoulder to shoulder in life. Corny, right? “Now then, ye ought ter be informed that the likely hood o’ you getting pregnant every time yer we couple isna very high. I’m thinking’ the Soquili gods had a plan for us, aye.”
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 8:41 am
Azariel smiled at him, amused, "What? Afraid your old friends will give me a bit too much dirt to use against you?" She asked, only-partially teasing. Having the upper-hand and knowing a bit more about her mate wouldn't harm anyone.
"I can't explode with anger, but I can certainly act like I am," She responded calmly, shaking her head. Mm, would this end up in a teasing match? That could set their tempers off once more and that wouldn't be pleasant. She rolled her eyes and shook her head, "You're perfectly capable of getting your own snack." She pointed out smoothly.
"Indeed? Then I'll just have to make sure you get your daily dose of "you're insane", won't I?" She rolled her eyes at his antics, at least she was finally seeing his "I'm-gonna-be-a-papa" mode. "Yeah, yeah, but do you understand that to "tell their children" you will end up being a grandfather? Do you want to be old?" She certainly didn't want that.
She stuck her tongue out at him in childish defiance, "Pity,you'll just have to try to convince me otherwise, won't you?" She snorted softly and shrugged, hardly needing the reassurance he kept offering her, "It isn't very high and I know that, but that doesn't mean it couldn't happen." She grimaced a bit and shrugged again, "They had plans to tear up a lot of other plans, didn't they?"
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 9:37 am
Why lie? “Aye lass, the idea of them getting the chance ter tell ye all o’ me little secrets makes me itch more than a little bit.” The rest of his life was going to be spent with this mare, so filling little half-truths and such into their life wouldn’t do him any favors.
“Oh-ho!” His mood wasn’t really all that much of one to tease her to the point of threatening to whack him or some other unpleasant thing. They had just gotten their biggest fight as of yet settled. “Aye, but if I turn away to go and get a snack I doubt that ye’ll take ter me walkin’ away from our fight.” Haha, one point for Caelen.
“Why on earth would ye have ter worry about being the one ter tell me that I’m insane?” Another wicked grin split across his face. She was going to let him gloat just a little bit before putting him back into his place. “We’ll have our little ones running all willy-nilly ter tell me that.” Being old? What did being older mean if his life was happy. Obviously they disagreed on that little point.
“Oh lass, the convincing part will probably be the most enjoyable fer me. Do ye promise ter let me try all the time ter convince ye?” She had probably just realized that it would mean him being all over her. “Oh I canna say I mind bein’ old… Now then lass, we’ve many many months before yer goin’ ter be in season again.. Until then we can uhm… ye know at our will.” His stance shifted slightly, “What would ye like ter spend today doin’?”
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2007 9:54 am
Azairle raised an eyebrow at him, "And you can't tell them to me striaght off the bat?" She asked, tilting her head to the side. She wasn't angry at all at him, she was more amused than anything else about it.
"Of course not," She replied simply, grinning, "And you should expect that you wouldn't have the time to go get a snack. You'd be too busy fight it out with me to do anything else." Mentally, she was groaning. The children would need to learn when to step away quickly when the two of them got into a fight. She hoped it would scar them too badly. She'd have Caelen's hide for that one.
A dramatic sigh, "I'd rather not have the children running about and telling everyone you're insane. While neither of us really mind, it might make any friends they might acquire wary of you. Do you want other children--or at least their parents--wary of you?" A shake of her head. Caelen probably didn't even care.
"Do you promise to only do it at appropriate intervals?" She shot back, raising an eyebrow, "If you try anything while others are about I just may skin you. You know I don't like obvious displays of affection." She paused and look at him with the strangest expression on her face, "Do you mean now?" She asked incredulously, unable to believe his audacity.
"Caelen, let's get a few things straight. That," She shook her head in disbelief, "Is not going to be happening. As has been clearly stated, both visually, emotionally and physically, I am not the mare I used to be. As such," Blue-green eyes glittered, "I'd rather not traumatize the little minds with doing something such as that while they are still...occupying that space. Do you hear me?" The nerve of him! Doing something like that when she was like this was just....a bit creepy.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:44 pm
Oh, he knew he could tell her those stories right off of the bat if she really wanted to know them. The stories weren’t good for blackmailing him so much as she’d not stop laughing for a week … or three.
“Oh? Ye don’t think so, eh?” Now was time for just a bit of razzing before anything serious decided to rear it’s ugly head into their conversation, “Ye think yer fightin’ is enough ter keep me whole attention, eh?” Sure it was, but that didn’t mean he’d tell her that. “I bet I could go an’ get a snack an’ be back before ye’d finished windin’ down.”
Another “oh” before Caelen answered her, “Ye see, that’s where we differ lass, I’d have the time o’ me life watchin’ as our neighbors or whoever happened ter hear that I’m crazed come an’ get a lookit me.” If only they had a sort of theatre for horses to act upon, Caelen probably would have played any role with ease.
“I suppose I’ll concede not ter give overly blatently displays of affection… but…” If he gave up something he liked to do then she’d just simply have to suffer a bit through what he liked to do. Or they’d just ignore each other and live in constant tempers. “If I’ve a mind ter stand real close when others are nearby, or ter wrap me tail around yers ye canna throw a fit.” Fair was fair after all.
“Lass, yer rippin’ out me heart all over again.” He softened the often-used phrase with a bit of a wink and nuzzled her neck again. She would need time before they’d be physical again, and that didn’t bother him in the least. Now he had a mate, children, a home, and the promise of maybe some other day getting to love on her. Life was going pretty well. “Oh lass, they’re nae big enough ter have even an inklin’ o’ what we’d be doin’ but given that ye say “No” I’ll respect that an’ perhaps we kin find something’ fun ter do.”
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:57 pm
Azariel snorted and rolled her eyes, "If you go and get a snack, you won't have someone to return to fighting with," She answered easily, shaking her head, "That or you'd have a hoof imprint on your backside before you could take three steps." His choice.
Az sighed and couldn't help but smile, "You're honestly insane. Why do I love you again?" The words were out again, but she wasn't about to go back and retreat them. It wasn't like she could anyway. "But if they come to look at you, we won't have any privacy in our lives," She canted her head to the side a bit, "you want privacy every once in a while, don't you?" He would, of course, if he wanted to have fun again.
Az blew out of her mouth softly, not wanting to compromise on this matter, but knowing she wouldn't get her way completely, "You can stand close if you like, but no tail wrapping," She tossed her head, letting her white tresses flap against her cheeks and neck, "But if you must compromise," A lopsided grin, "Maybe every once in a while you can wrap your neck over mine."
She shivered slightly at the nuzzle, but she wasn't about to back down on that point. Besides, even if she wasn't...the way she was now, she didn't exactly feel her best, so it wouldn't be as enjoyable for either of them. "Thank you, Caelen," She replied, expecting a bit more resistence from him, and glad that he didn't.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:43 pm
Caelen did a small eye-roll of his own, she might fight him at every turn and way she could… but she loved him. Hell, she’d admitted it a few times, “I doubt ye’d kick me.. An’ ye know I love chasin’ after yer shapely rump so ye can run if ye’ve a mind ter do so.”
“Och lass, ye certainly seem ter know how to take all of the fun outta me ideas.” He sure as hell wanted privacy if that meant that sometime before he died they’d get to be lovers again. Certainly be wrapped around her while they slept held more than a few benefits.. It just took some adjusting to give up more sexual pleasures when it was brand spanking new. She was well-worth the frustration of waiting.
Ahh, he could nearly see the cranks in her brain trying to enter and re-enter information and decide on the best way to not give an inch and still get what she wanted from him. Luckily, on this matter it didn’t do a bit of good. Unlucky for her. “Oh.. But if I accidentally wrap me tail around yours..” She’d see through that one in a heart-beat so he just turned a deaf ear, “Wrap me neck around whenever? Aye, that’ll do.”
His lips and neck began to move against hers in a soft comforting mood. Right now he just wanted her to relax. For all of his show of going out and doing something fun, Caelen would much rather she stayed inside and rested. The stress of his being late and the babies coming made her look more than a bit peaked and in need of a nap in his mind.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 3:00 pm
Azariel snorted and shrugged easily, "You never know, Caelen, you could tick me off enough to do that." Eyebrows raised at his compliment, "How long have you been thinking that, Caelen?" She asked, tilting her head to look up at him. She could remember quite a few cases where he'd been behind her and the sudden realization that he might have been thinking like that since before they'd even made it to mates...well, that was enough to make her crimson.
She grinned at him triumphantly, "See? Privacy is better than letting the children tell other's you're crazy, isn't it?" She lipped at his cheek softly, "And perhaps when the children are old enough to go off on their own..." She let the thought trail off and him take what he would from that statement. She did love frustrating the irishman to a point. COuld he help it if she liked it?
She sighed, "If you "accidently" do that, there will be more than a few issues between us, lover-boy," She pointed out. Her tail could and did get tangled enough already. With Caelen's added and his undoubted amusement to it all--she'd be liable to hurt something.
Black ears flicked slightly at his slight change in demeanor. From anticipation to comforting. He was such an odd one, switching from one thing to the next. But she was tired, everything hitting all at once and their fight had only made her more tired and grouchy. She couldn't wait for this all to be over, not that she didn't want the children--it was the mess and the waiting and the uncomfortable situations she'd be in for the months to come that annoyed her.
.......at least she had Caelen to bully a bit.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 3:41 pm
Ahh, so she had finally realized that even a gentelman and protector could have a bit more.. Base of thoughts about the fairer sex. His neck kept rubbing against her softly and it seemed to him that her voice was loaded with more than a little bit of exhaustion. If he kept her from getting overly riled up maybe she’d take a nap in the meadow with him. Well, he wouldn’t sleep he’d just get to sneak a few good looks at the changes from when he’d been gone.
“Fine, the benefits of getting’ ter love on ye definitely do outweigh the fun of havin’ others thinking’ I’m as knocked-headed as a bucked of marbles.” She had lipped at him so he chose to return the favor, “Oh an’ if I told ye how long I’ve been admiring yer rear I’d have ter kill ye or some other corny line like that.” There.. That ought to do well enough for them both.
“Lover-boy? Och, ye canna call me that unless yer planning on letting me play the lover boy two or three times a day.” Two or three times? Ha! They’d both be halfway to dead within a week.. His lips split into a grin as he continued to n** and rub at her softly..
“Be a sweet lass an’ jest relax.. I kin feel the tension that’s in yer body.” Now the guilt of being late kept slamming into him full-force and Caelen wanted nothing more than for her to relax and feel comfortable. The sun was telling him it was about two o’clock so they’d have a couple good napping hours before their evening meal. Just enough time for her to sleep and then to have enough sleepiness to go through the night solidly…
Aye… life was indeed good. He just had to keep it that way.
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