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Mama
Gerard’s 15 years old

Mama, we're all full of lies.
Mama, we're meant for the flies.
And right now they're building a coffin your size,
Mama, we're all full of lies.

Well, Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,
You should've raised a baby girl,
I should've been a better son.

Me and my mother have never gotten along, she liked to remind me of how badly she wanted a girl, and what a disappointment I was. She was constantly trying to clean up my looks by constantly lying to me, I couldn’t stand it.

It wasn’t till after she was gone that I realized that she might not have loved me, but a part of me cared about her dearly.

“Mom I’m home!” I was greeted by silence. this is odd, she’s always home after school… “Mom?” I walked up the stairs and looked in all of the rooms.

I heard a groan from the last room down the hall. Mikey’s room. I ran over as fast as I could, fearing for the worst but let out a sigh of relief when I realized my brother was huddling over something. good, he’s alright

“Mikey?”

“G-g-g?

“What are you doing?”

“I-I-I don’t know…”

“What do you mean you don’t know?”

“Mom…”

“What about her?”

“She’s dead.” what he said hit me hard.

“What?!”

“I killed her” He said with a maniacal grin.

“No you didn’t stop joking. That’s really morbid.”

“I’m not…”

I took a few steps closer and saw my mom on the floor, very obviously dead.

“OH MY GOD!” I ran out of the room and called 911.

“911 emergency, how may I help you?”

“M-My mom she’s dead, she’s been stabbed and my brother says he did it, and I don’t know if I should believe him or not”

“Okay, help will be right on the way. Please try to keep an eye on your brother.”

“G!” I heard Mikey yell from the top of the stairs.

“What?” I asked in a shakey tone.

“You know I only did that for you, right? I wanted us to be happy, and she was killing that happiness.”

“M-mikey?”

“You think I’m crazy.”

“N-no…”

There was a sudden loud knock on the door. “911 emergency!”

I looked at Mikey. “I’m sorry. I have to do this…” and as I said that I opened the door and watched as two large men tackled my baby brother and tied him up in a strait jacket. “I’m sorry!”

“I was only trying to help us!” he screamed struggling.

“Mikey stop it!” I screamed when I saw them pull out the needle.

“Why?” he screamed.

Before I could reply to him they jabbed him with it and he was soon out cold.

eek MIKEY! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cry

Hang ‘em high
(right before the first chapter)

Mass convulsions
Strike the choir
By the grace of God
Gun it while I'm holding on

As soon as I got home from jail I downed half a Costco pack of Advil and laid on my bed waiting for the beautiful vacation I was about to receive. No one was home besides me, and by the time anyone did I’d be long dead. My stomach began to hurt really badly and my head began to spin. is this the end? My eyes began to dart across the room and my breathing began to get shallower. yes, this is the end Everything began to get distant when I heard something from somewhere in the front of the house. s**t. No ones about to ruin this. I tried to get up to lock the door but fell over. ********! Now they’re going to know where I am

“Gerard?” s**t, it’s Frank, he’s definatly going to investigate.

Suddenly the door opened and he was looking down at me looking disappointed.

“What did you take now?”

“Nothing,” I said feeling even more out of it than before.

“Oh s**t!” he yelled obviously seeing my bed where I’d spilled the remaining pills, “I’m getting you out of here!” he yelled and grabbed me and dragged me to the car. damn, he’s got more strength then he looks like he has…

He looked over at me and suddenly went pale. “Gerard! You’re starting to turn blue! Oh my god!” he began to go faster and I felt like I was going to be sick.

“Stop! Please! You’re making me feel ******** puke! I want you to, you can at least get some of that s**t out of your system.”

“NO!”

“We’re on our way to the hospital, either you puke here or they make you puke there for a high fee, make up your mind!”

“They can’t make me!”

“They can and they will!”

so the next chapter i'm gonna put up either tonight or tomorrow is going to be the end. just thought i'd let you all know that, though you should be able to guess by whats going on in this chapter, just putting it out there so you know smile

Disenchanted
(Back to present)

Oh will it matter, after I’m gone
Because you never learned a goddamned thing

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I’m wrong
This never meant nothing, to you

Frank’s p.o.v.
“Gerard please stay with us! Wake up!” I screamed at him crying, with still no reply. I was helping push the gurney to the emergency room, I know they would send me away as soon as they got to the door, but I didn’t care I was going to be with him as long as I could.

“We have to get those pills out of his stomach!” the nurse pushing the gurney yelled.

“You have to wake up! Please! Gerard! Wake up!” I screamed shaking him, “you’re too young to die!”

Gerard’s p.o.v.
I suddenly woke up being slammed against something hard. I Turned my head and threw up. The response from the doctors was to start attempting to shove tubes down my throat.

“Please Stop! No! Please! Please!” I screamed with tears falling from my eyes. But my cries went unheard. They only moved faster. The next thing I knew I was having a tube shoved deep down my throat making me gag. I tried to yell “I can’t breathe! Please stop!” But it was incomprehensible. The next thing i know I am in a hospital room staring at the ceiling.

Well now you’re obviously not wondering why I am like I am anymore. I still say it was a waste of time to tell. Not much has changed in these few minutes I’ve spent with you, I’m still planning on getting that gun when I get home, and I feel even lonelier now. Don’t try and say you wouldn’t do the same if you were me. But goodbye for now.

The End

technically i didn't kill him so muahahha you can't hurt me > smile

Blammed eh? XD
ahhh! fear the blam.
what's blammed mean razz
sorry i could help myself.

Blammed = Pastense version of Blame (Meaning you accuse someone...)