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I'm so sorry!! *lots of hugs*

I'm heartsick for you and your baby Lisa cry

I'm so sorry Lisa.
I hope that you treasure every day you've had with the baby.

I also know it's hard and nothing I can say is going to help. Please just know that we are thinking of you and we're here for you if you need to vent.

So sorry Lisa!! *hugs* sad Feel free to pm or post more here if you need to talk.

I haven't seen it but...i heard some women describe the tissue as a bigger clot with some white in it -_-' I think you may have bad cramps too around that time...In my case they did D&C procedure so I was out for that part.

How are you feeling now? sad

I just had the worst weekend of my life. My doctor gave me Misoprostol (generic for Cytotec) and told me to take 2 tablets intravaginally every 4 hours. They're supposed to open up your cervix and contract your uterus so that whatever's in there will come out. I took the first dose on Saturday morning and by 2 1/2 hours later I was in such severe pain that I was screaming and doubling over every couple of minutes and my dear husband had to drive me to the emergency room. Luckily, they put some pain meds in an IV and that reduced my pain from a 10 to about a 2 or 3. The doctor examined me and was able to take out the tissue that I was trying to pass. It was about the size of a tennis ball. The nurse told me later on that it looked like no embryo had ever formed. The doctor told me to take just one of the aforementioned pills by mouth (weird how it can work both ways) every 6 hours and accompany it with a Vicodin until the bleeding stopped or until I had been checked out by my regular doctor. I'm going to see my regular doctor today, so I'll see what she says. I've never been in so much pain in my life. In a way, I'm glad it's out so I can move on. But I'm also really sad to know that it's really over.

Oh lisa *hugs* I'm sorry for your loss. I've been skiddish about comming in here. A few years back i had a miscarriage and it still upsets me alot. When i was about 12-13 weeks i started bleeding lightly. I went in for a scan expecting them to say not to worry. My heart dropped when they were doing the scan as i could clearly see the monitor and the tecs face. My baby was not properly formed and bloodflow had pretty much ceased. I was told to go home and wait by a very mean and uncaring doctor but he said to have blood work done first. After about 3 days of steadily bleeding more and increasing pain i reached up to turn on the microwave (it was on the fridge) and got a horible cramp that sent me falling to the floor. That was followed like this wierd sensation like i dunno how to explain it it kinda felt like when a tampon is stuck or something. I was having what i thought were hard cramps and i sat there sobbing in so much pain i couldnt even call for my bf. Finally i "passed" the baby. I was shocked at the size of it. But they were right it was all twisted and did not look like anything id ever seen. Throughout the days i lost more "tissue" and clots. Finally a week later i went back to a much nicer doc who said everything was ok but wanted to do more blood work. She said she didnt know why but my hcg was more than double what it should have been. And said that the baby may have actually been twins that didnt seperate properly. She apologised for the other doctor and was mad that he had not instructed me to bring the "tissue" back to be examined. The whole thing left me a basket case. And to this day i still miss that baby. It never goes away but it does get better. Sorry if that was TMI or anything. >.>;

Thanks for sharing your experience, Monkey. It helps me to know I'm not alone. *hugs*

Tea, I wish your sister all the best in her efforts to have a baby. I had another blood test yesterday. My doctor says my hcg level has fallen a lot and my iron level is pretty good, so she's just going to let me finish bleeding the natural way instead of doing a D&C. She also says I can start TTC again after I've had one good, normal cycle. I'm still really sad, but I'm glad I'll be able to move on soon.