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Posted: Fri Apr 06, 2007 5:16 pm
Journal Four
Upon returning from the ship, I naturally quickly made my way in to check on the child. I may not know much about children, but I'm not completely stupid and irresponsible, even if I didn't ask for this.
He was awake, and had apparently been sneaking around my home while I was gone, as he was seated on my bed, with his knees under him, very solemnly reading a rather large book spread open on the coverlet of his small bed. I drew nearer and saw he was reading my beloved Edgar Allan. He looked up at me as I came near, seemed not to think much of it one way or the other, and continued his reading. I'm rather surprised that one his age can read at all, and he certainly wasn't just looking at pictures, as there were none at all in there! Some latent memory of literacy? Though I can't determine if he was actually understanding or not.
But remembering what I was told on the ship, I opted to give him a new name for this, well, I suppose it's an incarnation. I dubbed him Poe. When I informed him of this, he looked at me for a long moment, shrugged, and went back to his book.
If he's always this easy to entertain, things might just work out.
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 5:37 pm
Journal Five
Poe has been really easy to get along with so far. He's amazingly well read, or, well, perhaps not well read, but he has the air of one who is well read. As far as I can tell, however, he hasn't actually read any of the books on my shelves before, bluntly, reading them. He's particularly partial to Poe and Lovecraft. Twisted little child, I fear, but since I haven't seen any tortured animals I suppose I'm safe enough.
I tend to keep the sword I found with him in the locked drawer of my desk. I've seen him looking at the drawer strangely, even though I've never told him where I hid it, and he was deeply asleep when I did so. It's like he knows where it is anyway. But he hasn't said anything about it, or showed any interest in breaking into the drawer. However, he has occasionally been found with a book, listening to one of my classical cds, with a kitchen knife beside him. When I asked why he had it there, he said he felt more comfortable. As he seems to know how to wield the blades, I'm not inclined to take them away. I suppose it's okay?
I wish I knew the first thing about raising children.
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Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2007 1:52 pm
Growth Quest- Baby to Toddler
Several times now, Wilde had come home from something to find a stack of his books scattered in a strange formation in the middle of his floor. Perhaps not such a strange formation, as indeed it looked as if they had been stacked and had fallen from some height. No, the strange thing was that this always occured in the middle of the floor. He had not understood what was taking place, but simply gathered them up, put them back on the coffee table or other nearest available flat surface, and gone to check on his young charge.
Yet this time he heard the loud thump over the Placebo blaring in his headphones. Tossing them aside, he sprang off the couch and followed the source of the noise. Upon entering the living room, he found Poe kneeling patiently on the floor and carefully picking the books up one at a time and placing them gingerly on top of the already growing pile- on top of his head! His expression was one of solemn concentration as he did this task, and Wilde watched with surprised fascination as the young baby, for surely he was still such despite his obviously increasing size, placed the last of the books and then, even more astonishingly, carefully and slowly stood up.
The books carefully balanced on top of his head, Poe took a small, shuffling step forward, and then another and another, until he reached the television stand, touched it lightly, and turned around to retrace his steps back the way he had come- the pile of Wilde and Poe and Austen sitting solidly on top of his scrunched ponytail. He glanced mildly at Wilde, but didn't pause. Wilde could do nothing but stare. He hadn't even realized the child could walk! Shows how much he knew about children.
This process of walking back and forth continued for perhaps ten minutes, before Poe picked up a small, neatly folded piece of paper, from where it had been sitting unnoticed on the television stand. Holding it in his hand, he slid one foot out and to the side, before doing the same with the other, and then moved into a very deliberate set of steps that Wilde quickly realized was a dance. The fan, for that was clearly what it was meant to be, was moved in a ceremonial and carefully executed way in front of him. If the infant faltered, Wilde wasn't aware of it. Poe seemed not to notice him at all by this point, eyes focused entirely inward.
But then the moment came- a corner of the carpet that had gotten pushed up during a step of the dance did the evil work of tripping the child, and down he tumbled with the books flying out before him and scattering on the floor in the pattern Wilde had now grown familiar with. The sound brought him out of his silence and he moved forward to help the child sit up. Poe didn't cry or fuss, but had an air of utter dejection and frustration about him. Wilde actually found himself pulling the child onto his lap and wrapping his arms around him.
"I'm really impressed," he confessed. "I didn't realize you could walk."
"Wanted to surprise you," Poe replied after a moment, sniffing faintly and bravely trying to cover it up. "I wanted to show you my dance."
"Well, you did that!" he replied, laughing softly in wonder. "You really are something else, kiddo."
There was a long silence, before, "You think so?"
"Absolutely." The wounded air about the child slowly evaporated as they sat there, and finally Wilde decided to make an offer. "Hey. Want me to read you a few of Oscar Wilde's fairy tales?"
Now the aura of the child was positively pleased. "Yes."
"Okay." And reaching out, he grabbed the book he needed from the scattered pile, opened it, and started to read.
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Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2007 1:58 pm
Journal Six
My little imp has apparently learned to walk during the day. And not just walk, but dance! Several days ago I caught him at it, and today he announced to me over dinner that he had perfected his dance and wanted to show it to me. I was curious, so I easily agreed to watch. It wasn't dancing as I would think of it, too elaborate and precise, but none the less it was quite pretty and elaborate. It probably would have looked even nicer had he had an actual fan, so I'll be stopping off at that asian shop down on Main Street to get him a fan or two on the way home. I think he'd like that. He always enjoys when I bring him gifts, and he always seems somewhat surprised by it.
I am just relieved he wasn't wearing a knife in his belt like he is now doing, when he fell the other night. But for a child so young he's clearly quite intelligent, so for that I'm grateful. He's been very much enjoying reading Oscar Wilde with me.
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 9:54 am
Journal Seven
I came home from classes today, only to hear Mozart being played very quietly from my study. Upon entering it, I found Poe listening to it, while kneeling on the floor and holding very still. He seemed entirely focused on the music, though of course he noticed me right away- evinced only by a shifting in his eyes. This is not the first time I've found him listening to classical music. The first few times I thought it was simply that I had left the cd in after doing my homework grading, but no, this time I had definitely left in one of my Cure albums. Which means he sought out the classical music and put it in- so he has a musical preference and is clever enough to figure out how to use my cd player.
I suppose I should be grateful he doesn't listen to that pop crap so many of todays youth seem to listen to. Maybe I should take him to the symphony sometime...
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:30 pm
Journal Eight
I'm not sure it's a good thing that Poe has apparently figured out how to climb up my shelves to get the books that were out of his reach before. It wasn't, it would seem, a big leap from walking and dancing to moving straight upwards for him. He climbs quickly and deftly, like a monkey. Well, I suppose it's fitting as I've always thought of children as such. Perhaps not generous, but there you have it. For all that, I'm growing fond of the little tyke, and he's not breaking anything- he just wanted some new books.
I'm sure it's okay that he's reading Lovecraft now. I mean, there haven't been any signs of nightmares so far...
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2007 4:15 pm
Journal Nine
Thank Edgar for spring break. I've got a little bit more time now to spend at home, sleeping, catching up on my reading and research, and getting to know this strange little creature that now lives with me. I consider myself fortunate that none of my co-workers ever feel the desire to drop by my home unexpected, or I'd have to explain where I ended up with a kid from. He doesn't look a damn thing like me, of course, but I know they whisper about me. I know they wonder about my 'sordid past' and all that. They probably wouldn't be too surprised, the bastards. Unfortunately, at the rate this kid is growing, it would take a lot of explaining I'm not prepared to do.
He's already mostly outgrown the clothes he showed up in, and I can't figure out what to do about it. I was completely not prepared for parenthood, in whatever odd form it's taking.
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2007 4:21 pm
Journal Ten
Apparently Poe now also thinks that his clothes are getting too small, since when I came back from the local coffee shop with my special 'spring break indulgence' cup of joe, he was sitting on the couch with a book, wrapped in one of my Cure t-shirts. He had found one of my belts and cinched it about his waist. He'd probably look pretty damn silly if he weren't so serious seeming all the time. It's amazing.
He also cherishes his hair. I think it's his prize item. He sits and carefully smoothes it every day before pulling it up tightly. Sometimes he'll sit and slowly twist his head, because I think he likes the way his ponytail brushes against his back. Go figure. Otherwise, I don't think he's vain at all. I think...
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Posted: Mon Jul 02, 2007 7:08 pm
Growth Quest- Toddler to Child
It started with a thump, a crash, and then a shocked silence. Wilde had been rereading Dante's Commedia and taking notes on a pad of paper so that he would have some topics to bring up at an upcoming literary conference when the loud noise reached his ears from the other room. Knowing Poe had been in there doing something or other- he never could tell as the child was always so quiet, he was quickly up on his feet, books and papers scattered everywhere, making his way to his charge.
At first sight, Poe appeared unhurt, though stunned, sitting, legs splayed, on the floor, eyes gazing uncharacteristically wildly at the mess in front of him. There were a few cd cases, a few books, and an upturned end table, which had caused the crash. At his side, his hand clutched a kitchen knife. And then Wilde saw it, a vibrant red arc that started at Poe's side and twisted about on the floor gracefully in front of him- the child's ponytail. Severed. A few strands were still sticking to the edge of the knife.
Wilde stepped quickly over his mess of belongings and knelt by the child, carefully taking the blade from him. "What happened?" he asked.
Poe looked up at him, then blinked a few times. "I... I was dancing. With the knife. And I don't know... what happened. Suddenly that table fell over, though I know I didn't touch it! And I was so startled my hand slipped and ... my hair..." He then did something amazing- he raised his hands and covered his face as if ashamed.
Wilde gently patted the top of his head. "Hey, it's okay kiddo. Hair grows back."
"I know," Poe sniffled. "But it should never have been cut! It's a mark of honor! Having my long hair!"
Ah, so it was linked to this mysterious 'honor' thing that Poe had become increasingly concerned with. What could he say to that? Yes, hair grew out. Poe was a rational enough child not to forget it. But it was a slight to his honor. Wilde didn't know what to say, so he reached out and pulled the growing child onto his lap and just held him as the small form shook with repressed sobs- still too brave to actually shed a tear.
After a long moment of this, Wilde said softly, "Okay, so we'll get you a bandana, okay? A nice black one that will cover your hair while it grows out. If it grows like you do, it shouldn't take too long. And tonight we'll watch Seven Samurai and eat popcorn. What do you think?"
Eyes red from holding in the tears, Poe looked up at him. "Seven Samurai?" His attention never failed to be roused by the three hour epic.
Sensing he had made a conquest, Wilde set the child down on the couch, quickly cleaned up the mess and hurried off to make popcorn and tea. Returning with aforementioned items, he turned on the movie- still in the DVD player from last time, and let Poe snuggle in against him to watch.
Two hours into it, the child had fallen asleep, so Wilde switched the movie off and carried Poe to bed. Tucking him in gently, he went back into the other room and gathered up the severed ponytail that he had set aside, and put it into a lovely box a friend had sent him from Japan. It seemed fitting. Then he went back to his studies.
The next morning he woke up at his desk, the edge of a book imprinting his face, and his eyes opened to reveal Poe staring at him, looking very pleased.
"Look! My hair grew back overnight!"
And it had, longer and more vivid than ever. But that wasn't the only thing that had grown. Poe himself was decidedly larger.
"We're really going to have to get you some new clothes soon..."
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 7:11 pm
Journal Eleven
Poe starts to school soon. He's a bit apprehensive about it, though when I ask him why he can't give any coherent reason. I suspect there's something more than just being shy, but what it could be.... Once I asked and he murmured something about honor and family name, but didn't elaborate. Amazing how he's clever enough to keep things from someone so artfully, even at his age. Aren't kids supposed to just blab?
Ever since he accidentally cut his hair off and it grew back, he's been more careful of where he swings blades. Maybe I shouldn't let him play with them anymore?
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Posted: Tue Jul 10, 2007 8:50 pm
Journal Twelve
Strange, how old I'm feeling these days. I mean, Poe only came into my life a short time ago, but seeing him now, a young child about to start to school, makes me feel ancient in a way that nothing else, including my book obsession, ever has. This makes me sad.
I'd say it cuts down on my social life, but as I've never really had much of one, I suppose I can't complain. Honestly, between having Poe to talk to, and those crazy things on the 'ship' or whatever... my social life has been booming.
I am such a loser.
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Posted: Wed Jun 11, 2008 8:48 am
Journal Thirteen
Poe has been at school for a little while now, but he never tells me much about it. He simply says it's going well and he values the chance to learn and expand his mind. He never mentions what he's actually learning, and he says nothing at all about other children. I don't think he's even made any friends. I can't tell if he's shy or just that totally independant.
And if he is so completely independant, I hope it doesn't mean he'll be outgrowing curling up on the couch with me and a book anytime soon, because I find I'm growing very, very fond of those moments.
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