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You wanna know why?!

I was rejected
And Deflected
Now it’s only expected for me to be this way

What the ******** do you expect now?
You didn’t think that I’d stay the same did you?
No such luck honey, not after what you did to me

My life was synthetic
They were just pathetic lies
Now my heart is prosthetic thanks to my sweet demise

No sweetie I’m not the same, can’t you see?
My life is different from what it used to be
I’m not the girl you used to know who was sweet and drank tea (oh I’m so far from that babe)

Oh you were bold when you lied
got me to mold my heart into something twisted
had me sold that you would be mine

Oh God I was stupid to think you wouldn't lie to my face
Now I’m all over the place trying to find a replacement
Now my heart is fallen from grace since I saw you stab me in the back

You destroyed the girl you first knew,
she’s a mere shadow that flits across this dark girl’s face every once in a while
Are you proud?
You changed something alright, you changed a girl’s path to joy into one of hell

Go on be proud

"To Be
or: The Field Where I Died"

I was lying in a field,
surrounded by wheat like
jutting lances waging war
against the sky. The clouds,
confused, travel an impasse,
to be raked by the claws
of trees, black against the light.

My lips are the stage of love:
parted, parched, but red yet;
and kisses, seldom, tickle yet,
though players of today rarely
own your subtlety. To crawl
is not to kiss, and yet the touch
shares sometimes your intent.

The gold of my hair weaves
in among the nests of rodents
and small birds, and settles
where only roots and worms
have comfort. A raven also
found a treasure--jade--and
carries it always. To be
useful: This is paradise.

In spring, the flowers blend
into the sunset, forgetting
to exist; summer bleaches them,
and, wearing dull smiles,
they accept all; autumn
burns and buries them;
winter lets them rest.

(Written last summer.)