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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 5:17 am
First Appointment
Elle, dressed in an oversized coat that covered her down to her knees, was sitting calmly enough in one of the plastic chairs beside a wall. She had a trashy celebrity gossip magazine on her knees but didn't seem at all interested in the article that boasted bold 'IAN AND MORIA- SECRET LOVE' font all over the two pages it was opened to. Elle just stared blankly at the floor in front of her.
There were voices coming from Dr. Haladet's office; one cooing and babytalking -- Dr. Haladet's herself. And the other happy squeals and cooing replies-- a baby's.
"--That's it," she could finally be heard saying. "No problems. I'll see you both in a few weeks, okay?"
The door opened, and Luna emerged, a still giggling Caroline in tow. She took a quick look at the waiting room, and--
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Elle!
In response, Caroline quickly ceased giggling and buried her face in her mother's chest. gonk
"Luna!" Elle replied, nearly slipping off the chair as she was jolted out of the light dozeish state she'd fallen into. Oh woops, had Luna written to her? Elle hadn't been checking. She looked a bit sheepish as she pulled herself back up into the chair so she could stand.
"Um. Hi... so... um. Have a good Christmas?"
"Eheheh," Luna laughed awkwardly, bouncing Caroline in her arms, a sheepish smile on her face. I was still recovering from surgery and learning how to handle a baby. She finally rested her eyes on Elle's figure. Aaaaah, I was right.
"You had it already?" Elle didn't mean harm by calling the baby it but she still wasn't sure what the baby was exactly. But she was cut off when Luna's eyes fell onto the spot where Elle's stomach had started to push out. Elle went a bit red at that. "Uh. Yea. Luna, meet Spock. Or Spock's bump, anyway, I haven't even seen the Spock yet."
She took a few tentative steps towards Luna and the baby but at that moment Elle would have rathered approach a delicate fingernail-thin glass sculpture- she'd be less terrified of breaking that than the baby Luna held.
Her, Luna clarified. Her name is Caroline. In response to her name, Caroline's tail twitched, but there was no projection coming from her. I had to have a cesarean; she was just... too big for me.
"Caroline? Wow. She is big. ...wait, does she have a cow tail?" Elle trailed off as she actually looked properly at the baby. Not just a cow tail, but head wings and markings maybe, but maybe she had a body suit in that... "She has ...well, she's pretty. I think. I can't see her properly."
Elle went up nearer to Luna and Caroline and tried to see the baby's face. But she didn't go too close.
"MOO!" Caroline protested loudly, burying her face even more deeply into Luna's chest.
"Awwwwawww," Luna murmured, trying to dislodge the stubborn baby. "Nomomo."
Ah-- Dr. Haladet wants me to babble to Caroline to help stimulate her speech, Luna explained. It's... easy enough... C'mon.... you...!
If there was ever time for a comedic audible POP, now was that time. Unfortunately, the room was silent as Caroline was forcibly dislodged from Luna and turned to face Elle, cow markings, alien eyes, and all.
"M....Mmuuuh...!" Her lips curled into a VERY deep pout.
As strange and undesirable as the night that baby had been created had been, the baby that resulted of it was beautiful. Elle was so nervous about being near her but she was also stunned. Genetic ...milkshake... or not, Caroline had come out perfectly.
"Moo?" That brought a weak grin to Elle's face. "She moos?"
Well--
"MuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!" Let the wailing commence!
Elle's sensitive ears felt like they were being split apart. She put her hands on them, and tried to calm the baby instinctively by wriggling her own head wings at the baby in an odd jerky dance. Her hands were a bit busy protecting her ears.
Aaaaand back to Luna's chest Caroline went, her cries becoming muffled as she clung to Luna's clothing for comfort.
She's... a bit shy.
"I can tell." Elle replied. She was a bit embarrassed- she wasn't used to making babies cry! "It's ok. How have you been handling it all?"
She cries whenever she meets new people, Luna explained reassuringly before glancing back toward Lilian's office. Jo and I are doing well. He's... a little overwhelmed and having to deal with another baby pulling on his wings, but... A small smile. We're managing.
"I'm sure he'd love it really. He adores you already so a mini you would just make life even better." Elle replied but she couldn't help but feel a bit jealous at the idea of Jo being around for all of this when Elle couldn't. She would have loved to be there for Luna if she could. But maybe things were too hectic for both of them. Or something.
Luna simply cocked her head to the side, projecting nothing but utter confusion at Elle.
"...nothing. Don't worry. So um. Yea." Elle didn't know how to reply to that. She wasn't sure why she was jealous in the first place, it wasn't like she'd seen them make out or anything, he just... she didn't understand either! "I think I'm hormonal or something. Those pills you gave me, I need more than usual. Spock is hungry."
Oh? OH. Luna understood THAT. Dr. Haladet has a supply. She knows about you, she explained. ...So Spock is like you, then?
"I don't know, I haven't seen a doctor yet. I'm just hungry a lot more now. I read that you produce more blood when you're pregnant so I figured it might be that. I guess I'll ask her." Elle shrugged but she did glance to her stomach with a wary look. She had no idea what it'd be like.
Does it reflect? Luna asked curiously. When it senses an emotion, does it project it back?
A pause.
...Most Neilani babies do so at this time... but Caroline never did. ...She... does seem to be empathic, though.
"Don't know, I haven't really tested, I just talk to it. Is it old enough to reflect? How do I find that out?" Elle looked down at her stomach again. It was hard to imagine it reflecting back at her...
"Caroline can feel emotions?" She glanced up at the baby in Luna's arms and Elle tried to project feelings of warmth towards the baby. She wasn't exactly strong like Luna but the feelings were already there... Elle just imagined directing them more towards Caroline.
Luna tilted her head at Elle's stomach, and then shook her head. It isn't.
At Elle's projections, Caroline obligingly stopped whimpering, but stubbornly refused to react otherwise. >(!
"Oh. Well... that's okay." Elle meant both Caroline's reaction and Luna's test. "I'm still curious about what it is though. If it has tentacles or ...I don't know. A cow tail like Caroline. A ...pig tail."
She grinned sheepishly. "I had some dreams about it having really hideous mutations lately but I suppose they're just dreams."
I expected tentacles, too, came the equally sheepish reply.
"Well... it's not hard to think otherwise." Elle grinned at Caroline. "No tentacles, just a cute tail and beautiful eyes. Maybe I'll be lucky and Spock will look like her."
Who knows? It is a mystery!
Elle's head jerked up as she was called. Her tail actually started to tremble under her coat and she glanced at Luna with a look of 'Oh good, save me.'
"...um. Want to come with me?" She asked very quietly with her eyes locked on the wall as if Elle didn't want to admit she'd just asked for help.
Luna nodded, not wanting to admit that she was curious. Besides, she still had to retrieve Jokeph, who was still IN the office of question.
And as he poked his head out, Luna gave him a look of "BACK INSIDE" as she led Elle into Dr. Haladet's office.
"What is this, a party?" Lillian laughed, quirking an eyebrow at her suddenly crowded office. "Elle, if you can find the examination table, hop up on it."
"Oh haha." Elle replied. But she was suddenly glad for those two being there. She climbed onto the table and lay there with every muscle tensed up. "So what happens now?"
"Relax," Lillian answered, taking her stethoscope and breathing on it. "So you're the other one with a mysterious pregnancy, mm? Good thing I brought my equipment over."
Elle tried to relax hard as she lay back and wondering just what kind of equipment this Doctor was talking about. "Yup, I guess I'm the other one."
"Painless and non-invasive," Lillian assured her, listening carefully to her heartbeat. "I see this one is going to be smaller than Miss Cow over there." She punctuated her statement by winking at Caroline, who giggled. "How lucky for you!"
"Ok. I just never did this before." Elle grinned weakly at that, glancing over at the little baby nearby. "I guess that is lucky, huh. But Spock might surprise us all and catch up with her. Who knows?"
"Spock?" Lillian paused. "If that's the name you have picked out, I hope for the baby's sake it's not a girl."
She reached into her desk and retrieved what looked like a tricorder on the aforementioned referenced television series. "Noooow, if you could just hold still, let's see what kind of soup this kid's got in its veins."
"Just a nickname, I haven't even started to think about real names yet." She stared at the thing in Lillian's hand and convinced herself to stay absolutely still. "This'll be interesting..."
"Let's see. There's the Zurg, there's yours... and there's the bovine..." She seemed to be mentally ticking the donors off a list. "Neilani. Keth's. ....Aaaaaaaaaaaaand... human."
Luna's eyes widened at the last part, but Lillian held up a finger. "NOT a match to Caroline's human donor."
Elle laughed weakly, asking sarcastically. "Oh, is that all?"
But she was secretly glad that there was some Luna in there. Even if there was zurg and bovine, and some strange human adding into it. "No octopus or pig or something."
"Wait, wait..." Lillian's brow furrowed as she stared at the device. "...I'm picking up something else."
"........Dragon. And THAT'S it."
"Oh. Okay." Elle wished she'd brought a notebook, she hadn't thought she'd had to write this all down. She glanced at Luna and Caroline, that baby looked mixed... so it didn't mean it'd be bad. "How old is it?"
Lillian frowned. "Size and development would suggest twelve weeks. Odd." Finally, she shrugged, putting the scanner into her pocket. "I'm going to want to take a sample of amniotic fluid when Spock's a bit more developed, all right?" A pause. "And blood tests every other week."
"Oh, okay. All right. It won't harm Spock, will it?" Elle paused and then after a moment, "...but why is it odd? Other than Caroline's different growth... "
Lillian sucked in a breath through her teeth. "A very slight chance, but considering the hodgepodge of DNA, I think it'd be best for Spock's wellbeing and your safety to do it."
A pause. "And that's exactly what's odd. It's developing quite a bit more slowly than Caroline. It's strange to see how the DNA mixes, is all."
"Oh, okay. If it's the best thing then okay. I guess it moving slowly is easier for me, I can get used to it." Elle poked at the stomach and shrugged. "So... what am I supposed to do now? Just wait for it to get bigger?"
"Mmmhmm." Lillian began to take notes on her clipboard. "Ensure you get plenty of vitamins and keep yourself healthy."
"Vitamins. Okay." Elle was sitting up already, she didn't feel very comfortable lying back, it made her feel vunrable. She glanced at Luna, had Luna gone through this or had it been over too quickly? "I'm hungry lots... but I can't help that."
"Mmmn, no. But here." Another bottle of supplements was placed into Elle's hands. "Take as many as you need when you need them."
Elle put them in a pocket. "Okay. I will. ...you're sure nothing else is happening in there? I'm just nervous about it. And I read online that women could give birth with no pain...?"
"Don't get your hopes up," Lillian answered flatly. "But we'll probably have to do a cesarean if Spock decides to end up with more than just a tail."
"Spock has a tail?" Elle blinked several times and then, "...what else would Spock need?!"
"That wasn't what I said," Lillian answered, just as flatly. "All I said is that depending on what kind of heritage Spock decides to show, a vaginal birth could possibly end up killing you and a cesarean would be necessary."
"Oh. Right. Ok." Vaginal birth. That almost made her cringe. Oh man, did she want to just ...go into a coma and wake up and 'hey, look, a baby!'. It would have been so much easier. She didn't know what to say other than another, "Ok."
"And that's it!" Lillian's voice took on its normal syrupy sweet quality. "See you in two weeks, okay?" 4laugh
Elle slid off the table and tried to smile at the doctor. "Two weeks. Um, okay."
She couldn't help but feel a bit taken back! Blunt and then all nice, what was next?! Elle was just glad Luna had been there in the room. She went back out into the waiting room, her tail twisting around again.
"And Keth~ a few more words, okay, sweetie?" Lillian shut the door to her office, tossing out a friendly "Bye, now!" after Elle.
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 5:59 am
Dear Diary When I'm nervous, I say Okay too much. Or OK. Urgh. Finally went to go see doctor. Luna was there and she showed me Caroline, her baby girl, who really is so beautiful... and then I asked Luna to come in with me. This baby is a mix of some random human, Luna (I think that's what she meant!)... um. Dragon. Alien. Oh, and cow. I'm going to need a while to think about that. Spock is 12 weeks.
So um... according to the internet during a typical pregnancy (Thought I'm not sure this one can be called typical considering Luna's baby was conceived the same night and is already born and giggling while mine's still barely anywhere..) at twelve weeks. Odd. I shouldn't be showing. Maybe it was all the food I ate afterall. Woops. Spock's the size of a lime, two inches, apparently Spock's starting to look more human which is a joke in my case, and that's about it.
I'm supposed to make a baby budget too. Hahaha. I just spent some money on a moterbike permit and the equipment. But it's really preparing for the future so I shouldn't feel guilty too much. It's just hard to switch myself into 'thinking for two' instead of the normal 'thinking for self'. I mean, the appointment was only two hours ago, I feel like I'm getting fatter and I'm reading on the twelfth week, but it's still not really sinking in yet. I like to know what's going on with me which is why I'm reading but I'm not feeling maternal. Or motherly. Maybe that'll come later. I kind of hoped that if I read about Spock and what Spock's doing, then I'd feel like I'm really Spock's mum. I still feel detached. Oh, I like Spock! I do. I feel kind of affectionate towards it. But it's more the 'hey, I'm your big sister' way like I do towards all of Mum's other adopted kids. I wonder if that's normal?
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Ok, anyway. Mum arranged for a house for me and Spock. It came with catches that has me all neatly tied up under her nose for who knows how long and I can't escape it easily. But I figured that it wasn't like I had something better. So here I am! I make it sound bad like I'm in her basement but she did offer something really good.
It has two rooms downstairs, kitchen and dining, two bedrooms upstairs plus a bathroom, a veranda out the back, a place to park. No garage so I guess I'll get one of those tentish sort of shelters they sell for cars. The furniture that we DO have is a mix of old and second hand, the louge set for example is a mix of a few different ones but at least it isn't grimy or something, and not much book space yet. I can fix that. The living room has one entire wall that's glass windows and glass doors going onto the veranda that overlooks the beach- nice huh? And the kitchen has a stove, a fridge, an oven, benches. I just don't know how to cook. I'll have to learn. And yea... so yea, it's not big or anything but at least it's in a nice place and we have a house.
But I agreed to work here in the estate. Urgh. I don't know if I like that idea and I haven't told Mum but I've been looking for a job outside the walls. I'm starting to think I need to get out of the estate. Like it's been sheltering me, padding me, protecting me from the 'big bad nasty world' and that feeling has only been increasing since Christmas and Mum's 'deal'. Okay so I accepted, but I think I need to get a job outside the walls anyway. I only see it at night! There's no danger, not really, just me stalking idiotic drunk people and seeing the world when I'm most comfortable.
Not that I really want danger, I just don't want 'comfortable, safe, protected, sheltered' or any of that. At least not all the time. It can't be a bad thing that I want to experience the bad too, can it? I think I envy Luna because she's an agent, because she can go out and experience that without being coddled and protected.
The way the vampire spoke it was like it was dangerous for me to be around on my own. It made me feel thrills... not scared, it excited me! Made me more alert. And then he was gone again and I was on my own, and I had to remember how to be alone. Not that I am alone, I have Mum, but it was so much different with him around. Not in a 'oh I have a crush on you way', in a 'I feel comfortable here' way. I didn't want or expect that. But I did. And the life he talked about seemed to grab at me. Like he was my kin. Elves call each other kin sometimes and I didn't understand that till I discovered how it was to have one of them talking to me.
Don't get me wrong! I do like that Spock is going to be protected here and that's why I'm staying here. Safety is good too. But what is out there? I never got to really explore it! We were always so isolated. We had everything we needed where ever Mum moved and that's how she likes it. She likes to isolate herself in a place of her own making, or a friend's making, and make sure everything needed is to be found in that place. But I think I want to see more than just this place.
The internet says you can have a painless birth. I have some doubts but why not try it? Drugs are there if it fails, right? Maybe? Maybe I need to read more about it before I dedicate myself to it. I have time... kind of. I thought I did. The doctor said not to get my hopes up. But I guess I need new clothes so I'll worry about that first. That and getting a job. Oh and trying to eat less. ...Oh. And budgeting.
...and um. Saying 'okay' less when I'm nervous.
That should be enough to worry about for now.
Elle
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Posted: Sat Jan 13, 2007 12:06 am
Elle sat in the window of her bedroom overlooking the street, partly hidden by a thick dark curtain, her wary gaze watching yet another moving truck come slowly down the road. It was for the fifth new neighbour that week. Her mother wasn't kidding when she said that she'd found people to buy these properties.
So far she'd seen a family with six kids, Elle's head spun at the idea, a young couple who seemed to have sticks up their behinds and only stayed long enough to scream at removalists, another family but a little smaller with only two kids, three older couples and one much more mysterious neighbour who hadn't shown up with their vans. Probably a summer vacationer who didn't care about packing till the weather turned warm.
And on top of having to witness neighbours and pretend she wasn't home when they tried to say hello... the heartburn had started. Now Elle understood where it got the name. Vampireic diet or not, she still had acid in her stomach. And the taste of all the partly digested blood wasn't doing anything for the taste of her bile. Or the milk mixed in with the bile that she'd used to try and calm the acid.
The heartburn really wasn't that bad. It was persistent but mild- unless she drank milk- it was just a faintly irritating symptom of this whole pregnancy thing. It with having to sleep curled up around a pillow and the way her pregnancy seemed to drag on and neighbours bugging her so she had to pretend she wasn't home...well, it all just annoyed her. Plus she hadn't found a job yet. People heard the word 'pregnant' and suddenly Elle was a leper. Or maybe it was the 'medical history' she had to provide. One of the two. They wouldn't even let her clean.
Elle's attention snapped back to the van as it pulled into the house across from hers. That house looked like a slightly bigger copy of hers, or it looked it, a 'modern' house that to her looked more like a big white brick than a architectural masterpiece. Apparently it was fashionable. The removalists were already getting out and starting to do their thing with the boxes. Just like all the others- cardboard boxes, wrapped furniture, nothing unusual. She wasn't even sure what she had been looking for in the first place.
Sighing, Elle tugged the curtain closed. She had to clean her house and delaying it wouldn't help.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 7:27 pm
Dear Diary
Soooo sick of being pregnant. Healthy glow? Apparently I've got it but I don't feel glowly. Oh, don't get me wrong, I do like this part of the pregnancy better than the last. But I read nearly all symtoms were supposed to be gone by this time leaving the pregnant woman 'full of excitement and enthusasim'. Or some crap. It's not all gone though- That heartburn that started before is well on the way to burning me a new hole in my food pipe thing.
I'm still getting bigger. I have a new wardrobe now, one that isn't so bad, but I saved all my old clothes. I've got them all hanging in the wardrobe in the Nursery. The clothes I'm wearing are mostly stuff I threw together myself. I bought some cheap clothes, found matching fabric (or close to) and sewed triangles where I needed them. Well... it worked! Mum took me to get some real maternatity clothes, a dress, two pair of pants in black and...black that are so comfortable and won't need to be replaced as I start to resemble a whale, and a top. So I guess I'm prepared there.
And um. Oh. I also had to endure a lesson on 'how to make babyfood and when to feed what'. Mum, honestly! You just buy it from the stores and I got a phamplet from the doctor's office about the introducing solids stuff. It doesn't look hard. And she is supposed to be pregnant but whenever I ask her about it, she changes the subject. It's like trying to squeeze lemon juice out of a pebble.
So there's all the baby updates.
No, wait, there's more. The nursery is almost done. Elves hijacked my house as we shopped and stuck all these horrible bright things in there like a grass rug that takes up most of the floor- not real grass but soft wool pretending to be grass!- and this table which is apparently made of a slab of tree trunk (I thought they didn't like to murder trees?), all these terrible toys that are so bright they hurt my eyes, that kind of thing. Rug is rolled up now. I don't like to clean to ooften butthey give me a biiig piece of dust collector! And there's clothes. Just bits and pieces of baby clothes. I wonder if they know that babies grow quickly and I'd need to change the baby three times a day just to try this stuff out? Urgh.
And heartburn.
So there's all my baby complaining. On a happier note... well, the house is finally all set up and I've moved into it, it looks more like my home now, and I'm seeing a doctor again soon. We'll see how that goes. And Spock has been a very good baby in there, even if he is sending up wave after wave of acid. No kicking yet. No organ dancing. No crazy 'pickle and jam' cravings.
I applied to a job outside the estate. Haven't told Mum yet as I don't have it but I applied. It apparently pays well (their claim) and is also apparently versitile to each employee. Don't know what that means but if it pays well and all of that then...well, I can turn it down if it's crap. If I even get offered a job.
And the neighbours in this street are all done moving in as far as I can tell. Half of them just set up the house and left (summer houses?) but some are still around and expecting me to be social. They think that I've got a boyfriend or husband in the Army or something, that's why I'm alone and pregnant, probably don't want to think that I'm a single mum. I didn't correct them but I didn't agree either. But it was so embarrassing when they expected me to offer tea or coffee and I couldn't give them any. Poor army wife/girlfriend, has no one to shop for her in her delicate state! Out of milk! Of course, the next thing my friendly neighbours did was...
...Showed up on the doorstep with groceries. Gee, thanks! I was so lucky they didn't stay very long- I don't know how to make tea or coffee. It'll be more internet to figure that mystery out.
I wonder if I should just pretend I am that kind of mother, that 'dutiful stay at home mum as daddy works' kind that they want me to be. Don't know.
Well anyway. Cleaning now the heartburn has died down and then I guess ...more cleaning.
Elle.
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Posted: Tue Feb 06, 2007 1:56 am
Dear Diary
Saw something on TV about fish being good for babies? I figured I still had time so... well, omega 3 pills have now been added to my pill collection. (It looks a little suspicous now. Let's hope no one ever tries to search my bag.) Hey if the baby is a little healthier than most babies (and costs me a little less in doctor bills) then I can't complain about popping pills all the time.
Belly is large. Perhaps I'm exageratting it a bit but... whale would be a good word. Still not really pregnant though, not like I'll get, I stood next to another pregnant woman at one point and was a little relieved there. I'm killer whale next to humpback whale, but quickly morphing into great blue. ...okay, enough whining. But seeing as this all was a bit of a shock... I get some rights to it from time to time. I still can't believe how it happened. I don't think it'll ever sink in. Besides there were no plans for kids! Ever! I don't think I'm maternial like mum is.
Um. Anyway. Job interview went well! Pregnancy made them raise their eyebrows but I didn't get that 'we're pretending to concider you but you have no hope' attitude I got everywhere else. It was a little peculiar when I asked about what job I'd do, they said that it depeneded on my talents and didn't elabarate. They said that all indiviual jobs were still ebing planned but they were seeking a team as they planned? Guess this buisness thing isn't up and running yet. They also wanted me to fill out a sort of personality form or questionaree or something which was odd but not exactly hard either as I had a while on my own to do it. So yes, it went well.
But biggest news is that I felt Spock move during the interview. How great is that! So what if aliens knocked me up, that wasn't good but maybe the end result I can make good. It definatly made Spock go from 'that thing in belly' to 'baby'. But since I felt Spock move, I've been having dreams where Spock is the alien from Aliens and bursts through my stomach with 'Screeech!' and blood. Nightmares are a new experiance for me so it wasn't easy to deal with at first. I'm getting used to them.
Um. What else about Spock. Stopped the wave of baby clothes finally and toys, told them that it'd be better if they donated money so I could save it for things Spock needed. I didn't think they'd donate money. But they did. Not large amounts or anything but should Spock quickly need a new pair of shoes I know where to get some cash. And neighbours are still bugging me or being sympathetic about my position but...well, I guess you can get used to anything. It is kind of amusing. I'm not that bad off! So what if the living room has a bit more dust than usual because vacuming annoys me or if some of my clothes are still waiting to be handwashed because they're a bit more delicate than usual and I couldn't be bothered?
Got some great books on magic yesterday. New Illusions, apparently about new illusion spells invented in the past couple of hundred years, The Military Use of Illusions (Although I'm not sure what military they're talking about or where they are now that I'm aware of 'aliens') with odd markings between writing ...which I'm assuming is the langauge of where that Military comes from... and A Tome of Important Transformation which lists transformations that aren't as important as it claims. I guess it's all depending on what a person counts as important but I can't see why you'd want to be a teacup unless you plan on finding things out during another's teaparty? Not bad, it's all a little amusing, but some of the transformations are more complex and useful than others.
It's all mostly simple practicual stuff. I was a bit worried about practicing magic while I was pregnant at first but I think if I'm careful to pick stuff that are harmless it'll be okay. So no trying out dark magic or transformation. Illusions spells are okay. I was thinking I'd learn some longer lasting ones that could create the illusion of the night sky for Spock's room. Or planets.
I hate to admit it but if I don't I'll go nuts. Since I started calling this baby Spock, I've been watching a lot of Star Trek. I'm not really a 'trekkie'- I don't know all the silly little facts- but ...well, I have a dvd collection now. It's terrible! And...and um. I kind of found some books while I was browsing and ...well. Yes. I have some books.
But it's not out of control. Really. I can control it. It's only because I nicknamed the baby Spock. ...I didn't know Spock was half human either till I read it.
So anyway. Waiting for news on the job, reading, playing with some spells, heartburn, and Star Trek. A little bit of Star Wars too. I'm crazy. Pregnancy has made me crazy. I'll wake up and be normal again and without a great lump unbalancing me....
..well, sometime.
Elle.
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Posted: Wed Feb 28, 2007 7:54 am
Diary
Dear god, it's like a town in here now. Mum must be either terrified of the outside world or she's just keep on starting her own. There's a real trend of anti-car here- most elves either walk, use ponies or horses, or have some sort of wagon, carriage or cart. But that's because most of the holiday house owners are still off in the city. Mum has just had a long sealed road, with sturdy fences edging it, put in from the beach area to the main road, so that their cars could safely and quickly travel from road to house without endangering any of the regular walkers or riders.
I for one am longing to get on that nice road to the main one. (When it is dry, anyway.) I have a bike now. OH. And I have a job! Librarian. Can you believe it? Who are you anyway, who is reading my diary? Or is...oh forget it. I have a full time job as Librarian for some place which I haven't actully got a word for. Is it a clinic or a nursery or ...well, it's a job and a well paying on. They have a daycare centre which could come in very handy. So I thought I'd get a loan to go with that job. And now I have a bike, a side car, a loan to pay back and an interesting job. Oh and a belly that defies all logic. Bike and side car are safely hidden away in the garage behind some giant boxes, belly is not so well hidden away.
There's heaps of second hand baby equipment being thrown at me now too. It is all terrible pastel colors, some of it pink... funny if the baby is a boy and I'm forced to let him use pink things because I couldn't buy blue but then who says pink is a girl's color anyway... and some blue, some green, orange, yellow, all of those terrible eye stabbing colors.
Soooo. Librarian. Full time librarian. Makes me seem really boring. I know I never said to Luna or Luna to me that it was over but it kind of feels it so when I think about being a librarian now I feel like I should lie about my job. I can't just (after I'm not pregnant of course) go moterbiking up to a pub, look all sexy, then go 'Oh, I'm a librarian!' and expect to find the guy or girl of my dreams. So I need to come up with something more exciting than that. Security Guard is kind of exciting and they won't expect to run into me at a job.
...I wonder if Security Guard might be fun if the librarian job doesn't pay enough and I need a second job?
Librarian by day, Security Guard by night!
Pregnant. Maybe they're wrong and it's just a kicking tumour. Spock, are you a kicking tumor? Is your half sister a ...living, breathing, mooing tumour? Guess that's not logical either. And what's with all this logical crap I keep thinking about lately? This Star Trek thing has gotten to my head a bit. That's it- DVDs are going into storage for a few months. It wasn't my fault! There's so many of them, so much time for me to kill as I wait, so many plots I just get drawn into.
Anyway. Not much happening. Horses pooping on the dirt road, a job confirmed, beautiful bike, that's about it. I've been doing a bit of gardening around the house but there's not much land around it to do that. (Apparently having a beach so close is supposed to make up for a lack of a garden.) So a tree, some ferns, some flowers, some roses. Stuff that shouldn't be too much work but won't mind me sometimes going down to poke at it when I get bored.
Annnd no contact with the outside world besides the job. I just don't want to go out there, what if I see someone I know? They'll see me and laugh at how pregnant I look. Sympatheic neighbours might notice that I don't go out much but they seem to think I'm on bedrest. They must have assumed it. They either fuss if they see me outside or tut tut and agree that fresh air will put color back into my cheeks. Urgh. I'm not pale because I'm indoors all the time, I'm indoors all the time because I'm pale!
There aren't that many neighbours right now. (Maybe they're lonely.) There's twenty eight houses in this little area and only about seven or eight of them have people in them at the moment.
Okay, anyway. Got to wash clothes. That was so fun at first but now it's just... bleh.
Elle.
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Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2007 9:06 am
It's time! At last, it's time for your baby to be born! Feel free to roleplay the birth at your convenience, but here is some information to keep in mind. Birth Difficulty (1-10): 5. Not too horrible, but no walk in the park. C-section for alien babies! Baby Sex: Male Birth Weight: 6 lbs, 0 oz Baby Health: Good Baby Disposition: A little bit disgruntled with the world, very active for a baby; seems to like things that can be taken apart. ImageWhen you're ready, please PM GMFC_Mule with your baby's name and a photo caption, if you'd like. Your journal will be updated when we have the needed information to cert him. Congratulations, Elle!
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2007 10:04 am
Jonathan's birth.
Elle's research had always led her to believe that childbirth was always dramatic. Emergency c-sections! Water breaking in bad places! Baby in distress! Angry dangerous mother trying to inflict damage on anyone who crossed her! Tearing, breeching, obsessive and pushy family trying to get into delivery room who thought they were entitled to be there... Nearly always dramatic, always with blood and gore, and some sort of humour mixed in. Birth was so filled with conflict, drama, romance and humour that apparently even Hollywood had gotten in on it with movie after movie with pregnancy and birth the big players in it all.
This had given Elle the idea that her pregnancy would be like one of those movies to a degree. But it hadn't been. From start to finish, the finish suddenly within sight as she found she now had a scheduled C-section date, it consisted of growing, stretching, consuming, a lack of sleep due to heartburn, and far too many hours in front of the TV as she waited. The only real conflict she'd had was with her Mother's idea that Elle would work for Neith and that she'd be there with Elle as Elle pushed. Neither of these prospects was attractive.
This c-section was to be done alone then and no one but work was told that Elle would be going into the hospital. She could call them up later but how could she go 'Oh, it's baby time in a few days!' when she couldn't quite believe it herself?! It was strange to Elle- it almost felt like she was just organizing the next ultrasound. It was hard to believe that this was finally it, and even harder to accept that now she was going to be cut up, be in hospital, have such a serious surgery that she'd need aid, and that there would be a real vulnerable, helpless, dependent BABY coming home with her.
The surgery had been organized rather quickly after her last check up. Elle assumed that it was because Spock might have caught them off guard with his progress. Alien baby and all, who could predict them? His half sister had grown very quickly, Spock grew slower, his sister Mooed, Spock...well, that was something she had to wait to figure out for herself. As long as it didn't end up like the TV series V with the perfectly normal baby suddenly hissing at mummy with a forked tongue and sped up growing?
It was when Elle started to think about that, when she was supposed to be worried about the birth, that she then decided that she really had watched too much TV.
The day of the surgery Elle left a list of things she would like her Mum to cook while she was in hospital and things she'd like brought. She'd read that one good way of keeping an over-obsessed parent from feeling they needed to be there all the time was to give them things they could do to help. It was all planned, Mum would come to the house for lunch the day after, find the 'Oh by the way, I'm in hospital!' note on the table, and turn up.
Elle arrived at the hospital in the taxi, nervous and trembly but she had arrived and that was what mattered, somehow trying to convince herself that it would be okay. But she was a bit terrified- what if she was resistant to pain killing drugs and they had to operate without them? Or the doctors had lied to her and the baby really was a monstrous thing that hissed and was growing in giant spurts that meant he or she would die soon or... or what if Mum showed up too early?
The Nurses were amazing though. Elle's things were put in the room she'd share with a few others and she was prepared for the surgery. They all chatted to her in a way that made her feel like she was just about to go in for a haircut and hair dye. A slightly extravagant haircut with a very daring calor, perhaps, but still something that could be seen as normal every day life. The hospital checked that she had been doing all the right preparations, that she was okay with things to be done if something went wrong, they made sure that Elle's wish of a quiet room with music was going to happen, and then she was wheeled in.
It was without any dramas. Elle had something done to her spine that worked, one of her fears squashed, a sheet was raised so that she couldn't see the cutting and away they went. No one seemed to find anything unusual about her or the pregnancy. The tugging and pulling in her lower stomach was surreal too. Elle might have found it hard to believe that there was a major surgery going on down there if it wasn't for the occasional flash of blood in a stainless steel thing.
The strangeness of the entire thing was what really made Elle feel like she was in some sort of dream. The music had been picked because it sounded like the ocean, the voices of the medical staff were soft and calm, it was warm, she could see a part of her bare legs but she couldn't feel them... and then amongst murmured comments from the staff around her, there was the cry of a baby.
The flash of green and red woke Elle up a little bit at that point. She listened for any cries of shock, any horrified tones in the voices, anything that'd suggest the baby was dangerous or ill or ... well, if it was hideous Elle decided at that moment that she really didn't care. The baby was weighed, checked for problems (or so Elle assumed, she really couldn't see) and wrapped up. The nurses asked Elle if she'd like him cleaned a bit first, Elle liked that idea a lot as she really didn't want to face the reality of the gaping hole in her stomach just yet, so it was a few minutes before he was put beside her.
She stared at the little boy for a long time. He wasn't anything like she'd expected though she really hadn't have known what to expect. He wasn't ugly and he wasn't a monster. He did have little nubs poking out of damp dark hair, large black alien eyes, wings, tiny scales, a tail, he was pale like Elle was and sounding a little upset. Elle smiled a tiny smile at him and thought, well, of course he was upset. She would have been too if someone had tugged her out of a warm bed and suddenly thrown her into an alien world. He seemed to calm down as the minutes ticked by and clutch onto Elle's finger with strong little fingers. No tentacles with suckers.
Elle didn't hear angels singing and harps playing while she looked at him, no overwhelming material instincts, but there was a fondness. Maybe she could get to liking this Spock? She was barely aware that the stitching was almost finished and was surprised when they were wheeled into recovery.
To her astonishment her Mum was there waiting. Neith had decided to turn up early. Hours early. The nurses had refused to let Neith in without Elle's permission, and seeing as Elle was in surgery, that wasn't possible to get. Elle was glad to see that Neith's blame rested on the nurses and not Elle. She was even gladder when the arrival of 'Spock' got Neith's mind off the things she intended to say to the Nurse and onto the business of admiring Elle's baby.
"What's his name?"
"Spock," Elle saw her Mum's face and continued, "It won't be Spock forever, I just need to think of a name."
"What about an elf name? He's the first biological boy in our family. We could find a name that suits him." Neith was staring at the boy with a mixture of adoration and horror. It didn't annoy Elle at all, just amused her. She knew that Neith hadn't thought about his mixed gene pool and probably hadn't been expecting anything quite so unique as this.
"He's not really ...elf." Elle replied, with a touch of amusement in her voice, "He's like me. Mixed. Spock might need a normal name to balance it out a bit."
"He's... yes. Mixed. But an elf name is normal. I could just call up the elves babysitting at home and..."
"No, that's fine." Elle watched the baby's grip on Neith's long blonde hair tighten and relax as if he was already trying out what he could do with his hand. "I was thinking Jonathan."
"Jonathan? But that's...well, it's not..."
"Unusual? Unique? Yes." She grinned. If he wanted something more unique then he could pick a name when he was older.
The pain came a few hours later, close to the time Elle found that she couldn't hold Jonathan on her stomach till she healed. She tried to spend the first night and morning without any pain medication till one of the Nurses end up giving her the option of more pain medication that was the most heavenly thing Elle had ever known to exist. They helped her get out of bed, showed her how to bathe the baby, how to feed him with a bottle, how to hold him as she lay on her side, were firm in insisting she keep trying when she panicked at the notion that his skull wasn't completely covering his brain and that his neck wasn't strong enough to hold his head up, panicked at how he cried when she was already feeling scared of touching him... and the diapers. Elle suddenly found a giant respect for Luna and her Mum. She should have offered to change Caroline's diapers! But she really hadn't thought of it then.
Motherhood was quickly becoming the single scariest thing Elle had ever been expected to do.
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Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2007 9:15 am
Several things were new when Elle got home.
The most obvious thing was the amount of movement inside her house. She didn't need to ask to know that there were people in there or who they were- the horses outside eating the neighbour's flowers was enough to let Elle know who THAT would have been. Not many people preferred the transport of horses when there was a car handy.
And there was also a old rust bucket of a caravan sitting in her driveway. Elle had seen it before but why it was at her home of all places... Unless... her mum had decided to move in? Somehow that wouldn't shock her.
And the smells that hit her as soon as she painfully climbed out of the car. Incense. Cooking. Flowers. Herbs. Horse s**t. Mum had tipped off the elves.
"Looks like you and I have been sprung, Spock." Elle muttered to the baby who was wide-awake.
"Elle, don't you dare lift that baby." Neith was already beside Elle and carefully pulling her out of the way. "Not with that stomach. Go inside. I'll handle him."
"My intestines aren't going to fall out the hole, Mum, they did a great job of sewing it up. And the pain medication hasn't worn off just yet." Elle watched her Mum gather her grandson in her arms. Truthfully, she'd hoped she could carry him inside. Maybe the Elves wouldn't grab him away if she bared her fangs and hissed at them.
Speaking of elves! Elle could see curtains suddenly being snapped aside, faces staring at them, and the feel of the ground trembling as a rushing horde of them started out the door. Elle ducked away as they all gathered around Neith. There were cries of admiration, he was being passed around, they were taking off his blankets as they went towards the door and through it, did they expect tentacles too? Elle sighed. She couldn't exactly leave him to their mercy. She went in after them.
Elle sat down on the couch with a sigh of relief. Even invaded it was a relief to be back in a familiar space. She watched with amusement as her baby was stripped, admired more, redressed in some blue silk outfit, and handed around to be admired again.
She was asked his name at one point to which Elle replied, "Jonathan." and tried to not laugh as their faces as they tried to hide their astonishment and disgust at the name. It wasn't very unique, one tried to put it, was there another she liked? "His nickname was always Spock." Those faces again, and a few mingled looks of horror as some of the Elves glanced towards a few Star Trek dvds that she'd left out. They didn't bother pressing her for more names after that.
The day pressed on. The pain medication wore off. Jonathan needed to be changed and fed, which gave Elle a few moments alone as well, and then changed again. Elle counted fifteen Elves. It wasn't that she didn't like them, she was half one herself, but their energy wore her out and made the pain feel worse. Jonathan seemed to get worn out by them as well, his alert mood was soon collapsing into a sleep on the fake sheepskin they'd bought for him. Elle climbed down and sat beside him. The Elves seemed to quieten down at the sight of him and Elle, and immediately she had a cup of hot water pushed in her hand. An elf went to put herbs into it, but there was a whispered argument over what herbs would be beneficial, and by the time some flower essence thing was put in her water, it was already lukewarm and not much use anyway.
But it gave her time to think. Every now and then Elle would look at the baby and see his alien eyes. She got a shudder every time she did, she couldn't help it, she still couldn't and didn't want to figure out how he existed. Elle couldn't help that. She didn't hate the baby for it but it still gave her the creeps when she thought about breastfeeding him. Besides, what if he got fangs like she did? Rubber teats were easy to replace, flesh...well... just no.
The women all went into Elle's kitchen to make dinner. They were going to leave late at night, apparently they wanted to ride back in the moonlight. Elle didn't bother following but to her amusement, quite a few of the men and some women started to sneak out of the kitchen. They must have been hiding in there.
"Oh, can we watch that?" One of the men pointed at one of the Star Trek movies, the same ones that had worried some of the elf women before.
"Yes." Elle nodded and yawned.
"Keep it low." Another one warned, and they all nodded.
"Poor boy." A woman came to sit down next to Elle. Elle recognized her at once; she was one of the younger women there. She'd been born in Gaia and raised there. She was also one of the co-owners of the estate. Merilnes. She wasn't bad compared to the others. Elle smiled at her but she suspected it wasn't a very bright or convincing one. Merilnes grinned. "They'll be distracted by dinner for a while, don't worry."
"The younger he is exposed to it, the better." Elle muttered. "I just hope he can breathe with all this incense."
"How are you feeling?"
Elle shrugged and winced. "Like someone stabbed me in the stomach. They did in a way. I just need to stay still."
Merilnes nodded. "They'll remember that soon. I think they have a paste they want you to try. But..."
Elle blinked. Merilnes had gotten up onto the couch behind Elle and was tugging the hairtye out of her knotted brown hair. "What?"
"Just sit still. I'll brush this for you. I imagine that even doing that would hurt, right?"
"Oh. Um. Yea, it would. Thanks." Elle was a bit taken back by that and went red right to the tips of her ears.
No one else seemed to notice or care. Elle winced as the knots were pulled out, but Merilnes didn't tug at them, she used her fingernails to slowly untangle them. And her hair was combed slowly. It was strange how good it felt when someone else was doing it. Elle had usually just dragged her brush through it and tied it back, and she always trimmed it on her own. But with someone else doing it, her entire scalp tingled, she was getting goose bumps, it was the most embarrassing and nice thing she could remember anyone doing for her. And when her hair was completely untangled, Merilnes kept running her hands through the hair. At one point she might have said something about how she liked her hair... but Elle wasn't sure. Then it was pulled out of Elle's face and into some, or so it felt, intricate braid thing.
By the time it was over Elle was relaxed and oddly calm. But it was weird. She didn't know doing someone's hair put them in a trance. Merilnes sat down beside her again and smiled warmly at her.
"Don't say thanks?"
"Oh... thankyou." Elle flushed again.
"Looks good on you. I'll do it daily if you need, till you heal?"
Elle's cheeks went redder. "Sure. If it doesn't inconvenience you."
"Don't be embarrassed. A wound that deep can be difficult. But I promise I won't fuss over you."
Several of the men hissed SHHH at this point. Merilnes grinned again at Elle's face and turned her attention to the TV.
The Elves had all gone out to the beach, leaving Elle, Neith and Jonathan alone again. It wasn't exactly ideal but at least it was some sort of privacy that was all Elle could hope for. She still sat on the floor next to the baby, partly because it would hurt to get up, and watched TV and Jonathan together.
"There was a foal born up at the front of the property early this morning." Neith told Elle as she arranged herself on the floor. "A filly."
"Yea. Poor horse."
"Why?"
"Birth."
"She seemed to forget about it when she saw the foal."
Elle could feel a life lesson on mother instincts coming on. She didn't like it. "What are you calling the foal?"
"Oh. That's why I was telling you. We thought we'd name her Jae."
"Nice name."
"Jae for Jonathan Andata Elliimiire." Neith nudged at Elle.
"Oh... um. Thankyou Mum."
"She can be for him." Neith continued, glancing over Elle at the half asleep baby, "When she's trained, anyway."
"He might scare horses, you know, Mum. Might hiss at them." Elle made a hissing noise. "Might even eat them."
Neith just looked at Elle. "You're tired. Right. Off to bed. Jae too."
"His name is Jonathan, Mum, don't confuse him by him sharing a name with a female horse."
"I'll carry Jae. Can you take care of yourself?" Neith was already getting up and gathering Jonathan in her arms and going towards the staircase.
"Of course I can! But please call him Jonathan." Elle stared at them with growing horror. This was going to really suck. She put one foot on the first step. Slowly. Carefully. If she didn't make it, how would she get to the bathroom up there? Another step. And another. Going down would be easier.
A pair of arms lifted her right off the step and for a moment, Elle was sure she was about to be thrown off the staircase. The dark haired elf grinned at her, a grin that reminded her of another Elf from earlier, and started carrying her up. "Orders from above. Or below. Don't struggle- I don't want to fall either."
Elle waited till they were safely in the hall above. Then she whacked, pushed, glared at the man with and demanded in a hushed voice, "Orders from who? Don't you ever do that again."
"Merilnes. Sister. She has a habit of putting me in life threatening situations." The elf gestured to the bottom of the stairs where that same woman and that same amused grin was waiting for Elle to notice. "Had me go after a Dragon's collection of jewels once. Wasn't nearly as scary as that."
"Try childbirth." Elle snapped.
"Also preferable to that."
"Just... go home. Tonight. Okay? I don't want to see you trying to do that again." Elle sensed that her anger wasn't really getting through. Maybe she was too tired to be angry. She'd yell at him when she woke up in a few hours, even if she had to do it via paper.
"Agreed. You won't see me trying to do that again." The elf held out his hand for Elle to shake, which she ignored, then shrugged. "Hear that, Merilnes?"
"Heard!"
"Okay. Well. I'm tired and I'd like some peace before the baby wakes up again. So can you both leave me alone?"
"Goodnight."
Elle pushed the door shut in his face. Have a baby, prove you're fertile, and they all come running. Or something. She didn't know what the two were up to and didn't care. Elle just wanted to sleep in her own bed for a change.
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Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2007 10:18 am
Dear Diary.
It's been a week since we got home. God, it's embarrassing though. Mum has moved into Spock Jonathan's room and intends on staying for the full six weeks of recovery. And she's brought along a woman called Merilnes and her brother. Don't know his name. He seems to be on his sister's leash though and I haven't seen much of him. I don't even know his name!
Nes (Merilnes) isn't that bad. I mean, she does things to or for me without asking, but it's like she knows what I can and can't do. She doesn't ask, she just does things that I can't do and expects me to do things I can do. She must have Mum on a leash too- Mum hasn't been interfering too much. I'm a bit annoyed at how much she's taking over carrying him around or sitting with him but then, I can't do either of those things yet. I can hold him in the 'football pose' and lay on my side on the couch with him. Both are amazing feats of acrobatics. She hasn't had him all to herself.
That brother of Nes is amusing though. He carried me up the stairs and I made him promise he wouldn't try again. I've caught him trying a few times and I'm always expecting it. He usually comes up with some half-hearted excuse that he thought Nes was upstairs, is she upstairs, to which I raise an eyebrow and point in the direction of the living room. Where she's laughing. It's obvious that he isn't looking for her. If it didn't amuse me so much, I'd be kicking him outside. It's almost like a game now. (A painful one.)
And the Elves are intrigued with all the human made movies I have. I think I've addicted them to it. I caught the male calling Jonathan Spock! And Data! Guess 'Andata' is another Star Trek thing. I should really ask his name. Nes just calls him brother.
But I'm avoiding the other stuff. Like breast pumps. This house is so small that I have trouble 'collecting from the milkbar' downstairs but upstairs is too far away. And leakage! Jonathan starts to cry and...
I haven't called Luna yet. I'm trying to get the hang of this. How long till I can toilet train the little waste maker? I'm secretly glad Mum's here. She changes his diaper if I don't get there first. And she holds him while I warm up the milk. She's too possessive but she is making life easier. Nes does something to my hair so it's out of Jonathan hands. That brother of hers... well... he runs when there's a diaper to be changed, when there's a bottle to be filled or a breast to be pumped. And appears like magic if there's a movie to be watched. He's not much use.
And the birth...
Well. It wasn't dramatic at all. Or life changing! Not in the 'Oh look, maternal instincts are kicking in, my life has changed for the better' sense. They drugged me, cut me open, pulled a baby out and sent me home a few days later with stitches on the inside and out, that same baby, and instructions that I wasn't to live a normal life for six weeks. Or twenty years. I don't mind that. I'm just worried about paying bills when I'm not at work or looking bad. But they knew I was pregnant when they hired me. Anyway. Back to baby.
Jonathan is exactly what I wasn't picturing. He's not chubby and cute, but I like that. He's like me- mixed. He's got wings on his back, a dragon tail, big black eyes, scales, he likes to touch things. I've never seen him without a fistful of blanket or tail. Oh, and he has little horn nubs! I love the moments alone with him. (Which are few.) We both relax when we're alone. I guess he probably likes the peace too.
And he likes heat. I've had to watch out for that- Jonathan will get too hot but won't make a peep about it. And according to Mum on the first night home, he refused to sleep till she put one of those machines in the room... those things that make the air humid and wet. Steaming things. (I don't remember him fussing all night because Mum drugged me so I'd sleep all through the night.)
It's weird to have him. My baby. He's a little person already and I'm only just getting to know him. Like he hates to be cold. Clothes off for a minute and he'll go off like a fire siren. But he loves baths! And rain. We got caught in the rain when we went out for a walk and I was sure the rain on his rain protector thing would scare him but I think it made his mood better.
But anyway. Mum and Nes are making dinner. I've just been informed by Nes's brother that his name is Laraut Stormseeker and did he forget to tell me that? Ha. He didn't 'forgot', he just made it up on the spot! What kind of a name is that anyway? I suppose I'll call him Lara till he tells me the truth.
I better stop before Lara catches me writing this.
Elle.
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 6:00 am
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Posted: Wed Apr 25, 2007 7:58 am
Dear Diary
I don't know why my Mum does this. Things are still interesting here, those Elves are still around and so is Mum, but I've pushed her to back down a bit. She was bad for the first week after I got home... not so bad now. But a baby... a baby is the scariest thing I've had to deal with! He's so weak and small and pathetic, he can't hold his head up, barely manages to move his limbs, cries...
It's not that I don't feel affection for him. I love him more and more as I get to know him. And I take a bit of pride in that no one else can quieten him like I can. And I notice things. Like... he likes his tail stroked, and his wings stroked, they make him calm down. And he likes my tail. I don't know if it's because he thinks it's his... can babies see colour yet?... but it works. And he gets very tired and upset quickly if he's around everyone too much. Spock/Jonathan and I spend a lot of time upstairs where we can relax. So I suppose that part isn't bad.
He's also funny with messing up his diapar. He'll be very happy to sit there all dirty and won't get upset till someone goes to change it. Then Jonathan will be fine again.
I finally got back to work quickly with the help of some carefully wrapped bandages to keep stomach from being strained. It's like wearing a tight corset and I feel pain still even with the restriction. But it works. Mum gives me lifts to work and I can't use my bike yet but when I heal and she moves back home, I'll get back to that.
And the neighbours are ...are... they make me want to tear my hair out! The look on the woman's face, the one who lives a few doors down with all her spawns and plays housewife, when I said I was glad to be back at work... you would think I just said I like to toss Jonathan around while I juggle swords and firesticks. Or that I leave him with my drug laden boyfriend and his dealer while I work! I wonder what she'd say if she knew my pale complexion had nothing to do with the lack of sunlight I get during winter? She'd probably call Child Services and tell them he was for blood harvesting through living genetically created slave donors, bred specially for their taste and docile nature?
I wonder if Spock will bite her kids when he gets older? She has another Spawn on the way.
Actually... there is something like that. I found it by accident on the internet. They fidn out your tastes and blend them together to create a great tasting portable meal. A living, breathing, walking slave type. 'It' lasts five years. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I should be disgusted by the idea but I'm not, not when I've been drinking cold muddy crap or popping pills. But most of all, it makes me wonder just what my Mum has been sheltering me from. Elves, elf lifestyle, elf food, elf everything, what about my other half? What goes with that? I also read that there were so many different types of Vampires. Just like how there are different types of humans, elves, ect, and nearly every culture has mythology about a blood sucking humanoid. The Government just doesn't advertise it too much.
Well anyway. I think that just proves I read too much on the internet. I'm happy to be back working and I'm getting into the study of magic while I can. Mum has been giving me lessons on cooking, Lara won't reveal name even now, Nes is teaching me some magic when Mum isn't looking and Jonathan... he's getting stronger. When no one else is looking, I lie on my stomach in front of him (with effort) and we raise our heads to look at each other. Mum hasn't seem him raise his head like that and thinks I'm making it up.
Plus I show him little magics. I made the hanging thing above his head dance around and sparkle. They're easier to do now but they are good practice.
There's new cinemas! I'm going to go see one tonight while Mum babysits. She shoved money in my hand and made me go with Nes and Lara, so how can I argue? I guess she wants time alone with Jonathan. Cavewomen or something. It's supposed to be funny. We'll see.
Elle.
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Posted: Thu Jul 12, 2007 3:03 pm
Books and toys together were scattered across the floor together- Old heavy old tomes that smelt musty, newer paperbacks, books with pages that were only just starting to loose the whiteness of their pages, shiny little slobber-proof kid books and large picture books that were covered in images. Elle and Spock lay across the couch, Elle was propped up against a cushion with the baby napping in her arms, a book propped up on an artist's esal that had been lowered so she could read it from where she sat.
But it was very hard to concentrate on the book, Elle's eyes kept drifting to the sleeping baby that was sprawled across her lap and legs. He could almost crawl now- she'd caught Spock on his hands and knees several times with a look of intense concentration on his face. He didn't need her to support his head anymore either.
"Now all you need to learn is how to change your own nappies." Elle muttered to him as she stroked the soft brown hair. One of his wings twitched slightly but he didn't wake. She glanced cauciously around to make sure that her mother wasn't peering in a window, then smiled down at him. Elle took out a pen and paper to write slowly and carefully on a notebook she'd propped up on the coffee table.
-Dear Diary.
Spock is bigger and bigger now by the hour. And he's much heavier. There's not much more to say but that but I guess when you're talking about a baby as old as him, that's normal. And we've been having little practice runs with the motorbike now that I think he's hold enough.
I've been working on something while he sleeps, studying, and so far it's been successful. I don't want to say too much more in here. But with that and work and caring for Spock (and sometimes going out to shop), I don't have much free time left. I want it though and with summer.
Speaking of summer, it's so hot. This house has the windows all open and it's nice and dim in here but it's still stinking hot and we're both feeling the heat. Spock loves the water! I take him down to the beach and he's like a little water beast, even though he can't swim yet and can't do much more than float around with me in the shallow rock pools, he gets very upset when it's time to get out again. He doesn't sunburn as much as I do which is good... he's only been burnt once, a little bit, I cover him in sunscreen oil and hats and... Well anyway. I think he'll learn to swim before he learns how to walk, he's getting along with the water so well.
Spock's also being taken horse riding! I came early to pick him up and I found him with Mum on some absurdly small pony called Freckles that's only half my height. I thought I was going to have a heart attack... but he was all giggly about it. Maybe he likes his Grandma's attention or maybe he really does like it.
As far as everything else is going, it's same as always. Idiot neighbours are increasing in number now that its summer and there's kids everywhere. There's some rich young window woman up the street with a baby who snobs everyone (I wonder if she was the one who caused the husband's mysterious death) and a family down the street who share the house with another family and there's cocktail parties in the street and on the beach. There's no peace anywhere! I can't wait for winter again.
Elle.
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Posted: Sat Nov 24, 2007 1:55 am
"Trick or treat!"
Elle didn't open the door. There was the sound of more eggs hitting the house and she sighed.
That stupid vampire and human battle. It had made her afraid to go out the door, for fear that she'd smile too much, that she'd lift her lip a bit too much and someone would shout 'vampire!' and she'd be staked or something.
Elle had never known much about any of that vampire hatred. She could barely remember the other mother, had lived all her life on her mum's estate for elf-blooded people and if Neith was good at anything, it was keeping the outside world out and the inside world inside.
When Elle did go out often they'd look at the fangs, then see the tail behind her and decide that she was part dragon. Elle never did anything to convince them otherwise, and even liked to enhance on this appearance with her scales showing, or jewellery that was sparkly. Dragon was a much less frightening image to put out than vampire.
Recently though, as those vampires had started to move and fight, things had been a little different. Fangs were suspicious, no matter what hung out the back end, and she'd often been ignored, shunned, people had made a point to move away from her or to not sit next to her. And the day before yesterday, she'd gone out to buy Spock more baby food and had been refused entry into the shop altogether. She'd eventually asked her mum to make some babyfood.
Elle knew she was probably being paranoid. Neith's estate was shut off, her neighbours assumed that she was half dragon or something and that idea had been helped with Spock's gwee appearance. But with that battle thing happening... and it was a serious one, it was as big as the alien invasion last year...she'd rather be paranoid for Spock's sake. She was willing to put up with eggs on her house. The rain forecast for the next morning would wash them off.
"You're a real pain." Elle softly told the sleeping baby, flopping across the normal sized sofa and resting her feet up over the edge of the armrest as she reached for the remote, "You'll want to do that next Halloween, won't you, go ask people for their sweets then come home and eat them so that you get your experiences with dentists early."
She grinned a little at the idea of taking him to his first dentist. Elle still wasn't sure what kind of teeth Spock would have. She could remember dentists fidgeting nervously around her fangs, as if they were afraid that she'd sink them into their hand, and Elle had used to think when she was younger that it was hilarious to twitch her mouth a little. If Jonathan got fangs, he'd have to share her dentist.
THe sounds of eggs crashing into the windows startled Jonathan awake. He sat up, looked around for Elle and crawled over to the couch. Elle lifted him up and moved so that they could both lie there comfortably.
Not much was on TV tonight. Some silly Halloween movies. Elle decided they'd bore her from just their first appearance, one was black and white, one had a terrible actor, one had an entire cast of terrible actors, one would be bad for Spock to see...
"A real pain. I should be out with friends. I don't even know where they are at the moment... Luna has Caroline. Maybe I should contact her. Caroline is probably your age still, right?" Elle lifted her head to look down at Spock who stared back with his wide black eyes. He reached up to grab at her hair and to pull it into his mouth. "Who knows with genetically mixed babies? She could be an adult by now, for all I know. I wonder how aliens age. Are they faster or slower than us?"
He just continued to chew on the hair.
"Or if they grow teeth older. Or younger." Elle regarded the baby sitting on her stomach. She really didn't know anything about Spock or what to expect from his future. He'd been a baby for a long time. Elle was tired of nappies. She felt like maybe he was slower at growing than others, but then, maybe he was perfectly normal and time stretched out for the first part of a child's life? Elle knew that soon he'd be a toddler. And then she'd suddenly find out that she had to find a school for him. Elle was NOT going to home school. She'd teach him a bit, of course, or else she'd come home one day and find him in her magic books with no idea about how to use them. Elle liked the idea of him knowing a bit about magic, just in case, ignorant people casting spells could be a lot worse. Not just for himself, for the sake of the neighbours too...
The neighbours. They would be interesting in the future. Elle still got asked about the father, she still hadn't admitted that there wasn't one, and there was also the problem of the kids with Spock. Would they tease him? Be afraid of him? Probably a bit of both- he just needed a few good friends and the others wouldn't matter. Elle hadn't been taking him to work. She wondered if she should start. There were a lot of good kids there. Mixed blood kids, maybe not like Spock, but less likely to tease him than the mixed human breeds around her neighbourhood. And the GMFC would be a good place to go too. Elle really hadn't gone there for social things lately. It was into the doctor's clinic, out again, Spock got a few shots, a few blood tests (they were probably bursting with curiosity about his future too) and the general 'Looks good, keep it up!' encouragement for both her and Spock.
What, exactly, she was supposed to keep up, Elle wasn't really sure. She just followed her 'baby feeding chart', it instructed what types of foods and at what age, bought the appropriate babyfood, and fed Spock at the right times.
"Trick or treat!"
Elle pretended to have not heard them. Spock twitched his head in the direction of the door, his wings trembling a little on his back and his tail swishing gently, listening as the kids knocked and tried a few more times before they walked off.
"You'll do that next year." Elle told him lazily, reaching up to play with his soft brown hair. "Mum will freak out about it. But I'll let you do it next year anyway. Next year, I'll have found you a small army of friends, you might even be in school depending on how fast you grow, and you will get your own motorbike. Toy motorbike."
He was still looking at the door. No... the fridge. Or the door? Elle couldn't tell. She wasn't sure what went on in his head, just that it was a lot.
"I should probably put you to bed. Come on, Spock, you've got Mum's attentions in the morning and you'll need the rest." Elle carefully sat up, shifted Spock into her arms for carrying, and stood up. After a quick glance to the door, more eggs?!, Elle started up the stairs.
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