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 Posted: Thu Nov 30, 2006 1:19 pm
Ah, family troubles-- something Alan knew intimately well. But... to have troubles with one's parents? That concept didn't exactly fit in Alan's mind-- he was more than aware that it happened, he simply couldn't comprehend why. Parents... they were a part of you-- they made that which was yourself. Why would you have trouble with them?
It didn't seem to make sense. And yet... it happened. Often. "...may I ask why you're avoiding your family?" Alan finally asked, unsure of what else to say on the matter.
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Posted: Thu Nov 30, 2006 9:14 pm
The boy paused and looked back at Alan, he hadnt expected him to ask anything "why? Because they don't need me there getting angry and fighting with all of them, all I do is cause trouble with Wasser and mom, dad and Boden are just better off without the same thing happening because of me" he averted his eyes from Alan and stared at the ground letting his hand move from the door knob to his pockets
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Posted: Fri Dec 01, 2006 12:42 pm
"...may I ask why you get angry and fight with them?" Alan asked, mentally decidedly more edgy about this youth. He was so young, so filled with... well... Alan didn't quite know what. It was something quite foreign-- something he'd noticed before though. A different kind of individual who carried different needs-- someone more like... no. Don't think about that.
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Posted: Fri Dec 01, 2006 5:07 pm
Felaror closed his eyes and leaned back agenced the door with his hands still in his pockets. "I can't help but get angry, Wasser and I clash, ever since the incident i've had a temper I can't control, I always end up exploding on them...so I just left"
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Posted: Sat Dec 02, 2006 11:33 pm
He didn't want to, but he found himself asking the next logical question. "What incident, if you don't mind me asking?"
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 4:08 pm
Felaror pulled his hands out of his picket to cross them tightly across his chest as his eyes darkened in anger "he tried to kill me, my brother Wasser choked me" he said quietly
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Posted: Wed Dec 06, 2006 12:15 am
Well. That was something Alan could understand on some level. "...he's still your brother, isn't he?" Alan asked after a moment, considering Felaror. "He's still part of you, no matter what he's done. No matter whether you like him or not, no matter what happens between the two of you, he's still part of you, in the same way your parents are. You have to let go of what happened at some point-- otherwise it'll consume you."
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Posted: Wed Dec 06, 2006 4:05 pm
"I already showed that I forgave him, but he left as well, he walked out when our mother was close to death and I followed right after but we went in our seperate directions" he said realising how he had left their mother "some day i'll go back and apologize for leaving them like I did but for now they are better off without me there to cause more trouble, I was always the source of the fights in some way so having me gone will be good especially with my youngest brother bearing children"
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Posted: Wed Dec 06, 2006 11:05 pm
"You need to reconnect with your family." Usually Alan was loathe to give such strong advice, to use words such as 'need' in a commanding form. But this was no usual time. "They're part of you, whether you wish it or not. You have to love them, accept them-- because the more you fight with them, the more you ruin yourself. They're part of you. They are you," Alan murmured.
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Posted: Thu Dec 07, 2006 6:57 am
Felaror pulled out his cell phone "they can call me if they want, we are connected, and i'll go back after Boden has settle with his kids, i'll go see my parents and possibly my youngest brother, but Wasser dosnt want to see me, and i'm not letting Bodens kids see me" he said shoving the phone back into his pocket and staring at the ground.
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Posted: Mon Dec 11, 2006 1:57 am
"That's not good enough," Alan murmured before catching himself. Who was he to tell this boy how to run his life? It's not as if Alan hadn't screwed up his own life-- why was he giving advice to another?
Because it was important. Because family was important. Because...
But no. It was different now, here. People didn't give a damn if their family cared for them or not, if their brother was part of them or not, if their children were part of them or not. They were more concerned with themselves, their own emotions. The selfishness.
And they justified it. They thought they were doing everyone a favor by hiding their faces from the world, by focusing on themselves while the family, the center which had one been so strong fell away into nothingness. They thought that it was better for everyone if they did this.
They were wrong. They thought they remained connected through cordless phones and technological devices when in their minds they'd already created a wall between them and those who were part of their essence. It wasn't right. It wasn't the way things should be.
But what could he do? What could he say to make it right again? There was nothing because no one listened to the voices from the past.
Alan felt very old again.
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Posted: Mon Dec 11, 2006 6:34 pm
Felaror looked up as he herd what the male had said "even if I was to go back I don't know where it is" he said quietly, d*mmit, this boy was making to much sence for him, he hated being wrong.
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Posted: Wed Dec 13, 2006 10:59 am
"I'll help you find it, if you wish," Alan murmured. "But you have to be willing to make the effort. No one said getting along with their family was easy-- but it's something that must be done because... they're part of you. They make you who you are."
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Posted: Wed Dec 13, 2006 5:55 pm
"but that dosnt mean I have to live with them, they make it seem like leaving even to just live elsewhere is something horrible" he said weakly.
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Posted: Thu Dec 14, 2006 12:54 am
"If you cut off contact with them except for your cell phone, that's not right," Alan murmured quietly. "It's fine to move out on your own, as long as you keep in contact with them-- they know where you are, you, they, and there's a certain freedom to visit. Because going off on your own... that's expected. But demanding absolute separation-- that's foolish. How can you be fully separate from those who made you who you are?"
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