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 Posted: Sun Apr 30, 2006 10:08 pm
Entry 1 I did NOT feel well this morning... In fact, I haven't been feeling well for awhile now. There doesn't seem to be a reason and it's bugging me! Unfortunately, I've been taking it out on poor Sirius. Every morning, my stomach feels queasy and I roll out of bed to go to the bathroom. Just in case.
This morning, it felt worse. Ten times worse. I was dizzy, grumpier than I have been and sick. I think I must have woken up Sirius because he came in after I flushed, looking sleepy and worried. I tried to reassure him that I was fine, but I never spoke. I didn't trust my mouth at the moment...
What is making me feel this way? I hate being sick and taking out my frustration on Sirius. He's done anything to provoke me, yet I still yell at him for the littlest things. Things that I had never minded before, and merely accepted. But now, I snap at him, I never smile... It's not like me! No smart-a** responses, knowing smirks... Nothing but snarls and glares.
I convinced Sirius that perhaps I need to be checked out... Maybe there's something seriously wrong with me. He's not happy with the thought... but it needs to be done. I hate snapping at him! It's unfair towards him and I don't think I can deal with feeling ill much longer!!
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Posted: Thu May 04, 2006 9:23 pm
Entry 2 Sirius knows. We were at the shop when I told him. His spirits weren't high, so I suggested I help. And then I spilled. It was quite hilarious actually... He fainted after he asked me I was sure I was pregnant with his kids. The poor wolf...
Not much to say after that... The doctor wasn't sure how many kids, it's too early. But still, I have mixed emotions. And damn do I have mood swings! I'm still sick in the mornings... Craving certain foods... In fact, I can't STAND pizza. Just the sight of it makes me ill. What the hell is WRONG?! I love pizza! Why am I suddenly hating it? This can't be normal! I don't care WHAT the doctor says...
I just hope that it'll go away. Or at least not be so bad... And i want to be around Sirius now. I don't feel... whole without him. Odd since I never felt like that before. I don't believe he'll mind though, seeing as he loves my company. Perhaps I'll pop in on him sometime soon...
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Posted: Thu May 11, 2006 7:50 pm
Entry 3 I met some new people at the shop! Finally, and I met this very cute tiger. He was so shy, and CUTE.
But that's besides the point. I just had another fight with Sirius... I came in, saw Ron and Bill. Said hi to both and I teased around with Bill for a minute or two. Then I saw Sirius! And he was mad at me because I was 'flirting' with Bill! What the hell? I was NOT flirting! Teasing, kidding around, yes. But not flirting! The only person I would seriously flirt with his HIM, my love!
Why can't he understand? Bill is just a friend. Nothing more now! What happened... happened. Nothing came out of it! Yet Sirius seems to get angry at me every time I say something to Bill. What can I do? Not LOOK at Bill anymore? What does he WANT from me? Sirius won't explain, or give any reasons!
I was in such a good mood earlier today... And now I think I want to go drown myself. I love Sirius, and I know he loves me. B-but... We keep getting these fights! I'm not sure how much more of this I can take!!
Ice cream sounds awfully comforting right about now...
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:21 pm
Entry 4 Well today was just DANDY. Went into the shop to have some alone time. And what happened? I got into a sort of argument with Artemus in there.
Just what does HE know about me? About life in general? Life is nothing but a living hell. How long does anything decent last? Not long enough. Life is cut short by death. Happiness is always short-lived. And love? It's non-existent. I thought I loved Sirius, but I guess I'm wrong.
Why else would I be flirting with Bill? I thought I was over him, but no. I suppose I'm not if I still kid around with him. What's wrong with me? Am I just some boy-toy? Is that why I tried to cheat on Sirius?
I don't know. I don't know about anything anymore... But it seems (from what Artemus told me) Sirius is still quite upset about me. What can I do? Do I have to change myself? Break up with Sirius? Never look at Bill again?
I'm so damn confused. Right now, I'd like nothing more than death. A sleep that I will never awake from. All my pain will be gone. No worries, no rules...
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Posted: Sun May 21, 2006 8:20 pm
Entry 5 Oh this is a wonderful day! Sirius and I have made up! We saw why the other reacted as they did and... decided that both of us were neither right nor wrong. So we made up... GOD did we make up. And once again, we can't wait for the children to be born.
I am so happy again. I have my Sirius back. We've promised to each other not to argue over that... subject again. And hopefully we won't argue like that EVER again. I just want to love my mate and our kids happily, with no tensions.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:07 pm
Entry 5 Finally, my babies have arrived! They're absolutely ADORABLE!! I can't help but cuddle and coo over them! All four! God I was tired afterwards... But it was well worth it. To see their tiny little eyes look up at me and Sirius... They're so cute!
The two that are going to be with me and my mistress, Fanta, are Crelye and Procyon. Though I think little Cyon is going to be a problem. He doesn't want a blanket! But Crelye seems to be the opposite. He won't do anything without his little blankie. And he's quiet... Which I don't know where he got THAT from! But either way, I love them all! Them and all of their quirks!
But I'm dead tired. So I think I'll go take a nap with my cute little darlings.
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Posted: Tue Sep 19, 2006 8:15 pm
Entry 6 Wasn't it just yesterday my 4 baby boys were... babies?! They're kids now, I can't believe it! Taevis and Crelye are by far, the calmer of the four. Taevis is sweet and loveable, and just a cuddle-bug! Crelye well... He's a cry baby, but I still love him!
Now Bryon and Procyon on the other hand... My two monsters! Bryon is still has crazy as before and Cyon loves nothing more than to steal Crelye's stuff (aka: clothes & blankie). Which then makes Crel cry, who then comes running to me. And I have to be the bad guy in the whole senario. Ugg...
And Sirius! I wish he'd stop swearing in front of the kids! I know at times he can't help it, like when Bryon bit him... But really, he needs to watch his mouth. Maybe a well placed threat would work. We'll see...
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Posted: Tue Sep 26, 2006 7:37 pm
Entry 7 Well... Greeting! I'm Taem, and... I'm new to this household! It sure is busy around here, what with 4 kids running about and an overly affection married couple. But it's sweet none the less. I came here with Fanta, my beloved mistress, once I left my castle. Oh, I suppose I should mention that some call me Snow White. The queen of the kingdom wasn't too happy that I was more beautiful than her, so I left. I'm not much of a fighter, just a cuddler! And I get to do that a lot with a couple of the cute kids, Taevis and Crelye. It's great here, a bit noisy, but I like it! Fanta is the best, even if Youko barely even acknowledges her. Which I find quite rude, considering how nice she is! I hope that while I'm here, I get to meet some new people! I'm anxious, I love meeting others, it's so much fun to make friends! Not to mention people like to hear me sing... I'm a bit embarrassed, but I've gotten better now that Tae & Crelye are always begging me to sing and always applaud. So adorable!
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