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 Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 9:43 pm
"hai, you certainly look fine, ne?" Renji's brows were drawn tightly together as he watched even more color drain from her face. He rested a hand to her cheek, then her forehead, all the while leading her towards his bed.
"What is it, Jazz? Are you sick? For once, will you stop trying to be little miss tough s**t. I'm not stupid and I'm not blind." He urged her to sit on the edge of the bed, still offering his shoulder and whatever else she needed for support. It was kind of weird seeing Jezz in such a state. He instantly regretted the lashing out he had just done. It was a shame, really, that that was always his first response to things. It was a wonder he had any friends at all, he mused darkly.
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 9:48 pm
"I'm not sick. And I'll be fine. Blind right wish you were then you wouldn't be keeping me up at night because I was "cute"" she mimicked sitting on the bed almost obediantly
"I'm fine I'm fine...I'm not your 80 year old grandmother with cancer. I just got a little dizzy. s**t happens. I'm a girl aint i supposed to be all fainting and damsel in distress." she muttered trying to think of anything to get out of it, hell even for jezz calling herslef a damsel in distress was hard to do. "Maybe its...." she tried to think...what is one thing guys knew nothing about..."My period...ya...sometimes we lose so much blood we get dizzy and faint alot....so I fainted cuz of my blood loss"
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:00 pm
Renji frowned at Jezz's response, though the consern never left him. She was hiding something...he could tell. Her jokes were horrible, and quite frankly, her attempt at lying was terrible. Really terrible. Almost as bad as Cyndir's. But really, no one could be as bad a liar as Cyndir. Was she always that bad when she lied, or was it a special occasion, he wondered absently.
However, at the comment regarding mentration, he paled a bit himself. His eyes grew wide as he looked away, focusing on the back of his door and wishingfor her to shut up.
"Er...h-hai, ok then. A bit more info than I ever needed, thanks." He couldn't stop himself from looking to his bedsheets in worry. How much blood did girl's lose anyway? If it was that bad, why wren't they like hospitalized montly or something. He didn't want the girl bleeding to death in his room.
"Do you need to go to the infirmary or something?"
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:04 pm
She sighed and stood up
"I'm fine, I've been, it's nothing serious." Not thinking he believed her anyways
"It's just like the flu...." one that seemed to come and go so often. She took a step towards the door and paused. She slumped back down to the bed slowly holding her head.
"I will be fine just....need to sit for a while"
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:12 pm
Renji stood up as well, after glancing back at his sheets where she had been sitting. he felt awful for it, but he couldn't stop himself. No crimson puddle. He breathed a sigh of relief then returned his attention to Jezz.
"iie....Jezz, seriously. You don't look good. So you just sit here and I'll go in the hall and call for a medi team, ne? " He pat the girl on the shoulder before crossing the room to the door.
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:17 pm
"No!" she half choked on her words as he crossed the room
Grumbling she put her hand to her forehead
"You don't have to call the medi team" she couldn't not tell him, he was such a stubborn a** hed have the whole school up here only to find out....
"I have a hereditary thing. It's nothing too bad...I...It's just....I'm anemic!" she practically shouted out hating for having to tell him. "See it's nothing. I'm just having an off couple of days. I got some pills and I'll be fine. Don't go alerting the frickin FBI or Men in Black or whatever the school hires to subdue the sick" she took a slow breath and her eyelids blinked heavily "Really I'll be fine...just...don't go making people rush up here and getting everyone all interested and looking like its some side show main event."
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 10:39 pm
Renji turned back to face Jezz, a mixture of confusion, concern, and relief on his face.
"Anemic...well..that explains a lot, ne?" His voice was soft as he spoke. He made his way back to the girl, layng a hand on her shoulder. "Oi, Jezz-chan, it's nothing to be embarassed about. What's the big deal. I'm sorry if I freaked you out, I was just worried, ne? "
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Posted: Sun May 14, 2006 3:04 pm
Jezz tried to shake the hand off.
"I'm not embarassed about it. It's just nothing to get worried about. I'm fine, it's not even a real problem anyways."
The only thing she hated was not being able to be herself when she went to long without an attiquate source of iron.
"And why should you be worried? I mean I'm cute....I just need to be obliged and I mean a pretty girl is dumb enough to be fooled by anything. So you don't even have to pretend to care, I don't need it" She had come in hoping for something....what she wasn't sure...but now she was feeling lower than ever. She had been angry, they fought and he said stuff she never really took to heart from anyone before, but him saying it stung...and pissed her off....and plus him finding out about this stupid thing....she just wanted to get out of there.
Standing up she took a breath trying to stop the gentle sway of the room and she started for the door.
"I'll just leave"
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Posted: Sun May 14, 2006 9:57 pm
Renji winced as Jezz fired his hurtful words back at him. He sighed heavily as he strode purposefully past Jezz, crossing his arms and leaning against the door. He barred her way, and obviosly had no intentions of moving.
"Don't put words in my mouth. I never called you dumb, not ever. And you are the only person I know who makes the word cute sound like a ******** insult. "
"But you know what, don't take that high and mighty attitude with me? You're the one tossing mixed signals, not me. I've never been anything but honest with you, Jezz, but all you do is push me away. And when you're not pushing me a way, youre thinking of a way to push me away. What do you want ffrom me? What are you trying to do?"
He angrily dropped an arm, driving the side of his fist hard into the door with a loud thump. He turned his head downward, with a quick gesture, frowning. For a brief instant, the dark strands that had escaped his ponytail swung with the movement, obscuring his face.
"I meant it when I told you I liked you. I do...really... and not the BS way I usually do. This isn't a game, Jezz, not to me. "
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Posted: Sun May 14, 2006 10:08 pm
Jezz stopped short as Renji blocked her path to the door. He blocked the door completly. He was in the way of her only exit, so she couldn't run....
She started to look away but her head jerked back at the sound of his fist connecting with the door. The sound had been so loud and abrupt. Her eyes focused on the strands of hair that had come free and she resisted the urge to push them away from his face. She tried to focus on what he was saying.
She stood there letting what he said sink in. No. It couldn't be. Turning, Jezz went tothe window, her back to him. Finally she broke the silence with a sigh
"It's always a game." she paused leaving her words in the air for a moment "Liking....even loving...it's nothing but a game." Her arms crossed over her stomach, hugging herself as she stared at the sky just starting to freckle with stars, the surrounding woods dense and hauntingly beautiful, and the light the moon cast upon it all. "You may like me, sure that I can believe, but it's not anything serious. You just saw a girl with a cute face and a bad attitude. Your drawn to the challenge of taming fire, I'm tame enough as it is. Its nothing but lust, your hormones in overdrive, if i went and disapeared today...I'm sure you would forget about easily. Don't let hormones cloud your judgment." she spoke to him the entire time with her back to him.
He couldn't see the hurt passing through her eyes, or the wary look upon her face. Her voice may have held the slightest hint of pain, maybe longing, but no one could be sure, and she was not going to elaborate why in fact she refused to allow anyone access to her, to let anyone get even remotly close.
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Posted: Sun May 14, 2006 10:47 pm
Renji glanced up as the girl spoke, thouigh he did not move his head. he didn't move at all, just stood there One hand clutching the opposite arm, that arm dangling limply at his side. He didn't know how to decypher her tone...it sounded off...not lie her usual self. But then again, he could just be projecting his own feelings onto her.
When she fell silent, he came up behind her. Gripping her by the bicep he spun Jezz around to face him.
"I thought I just told you to stop putting words in my mouth. You may be smart, Jezz, but not smart enough to tell me how I feel. Or how I would feel later. "
Reaching forward, he brushed hte back of his hand along Jezz's cheek, just barely making contact. "I don't want to tame you, Jezz; I nvever did. That's just some assumption you've made. If anything, all I've tried to do is knock down that wall you've built around your heart.. I chip at it a bit with my toold, and you come along and shove me away. Some times harder than others. But it looks like no matter what I get up, dust myself off, pick up my little chisel and hammer, and go back to work until you shove me away again. I figure one of two things will happen. Either you'll shove me back so hard that I crack my head and don't get back up....or that wall's gonna fall, darlin'." Renji leaned forward, sealing his mouth firmly to hers.
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Posted: Mon May 15, 2006 7:31 am
Jezz hadn't expected Renji to pull her about so suddenly. Her eyes looked at his, only an inch above her own.
She shyed away from the hand, it barely made contact anyway, but why did he have to look at her like that? She knew she had built that wall, but it was for a very good reason! She wanted to push him away, to tell him that he couldn't break through her wall, not that he couldn't in being unable, but that he couldn't because she had to do everything in her power to stop him.
A very vivid picture of Renji laying on the ground with his head cracked unconcious flashed in her mind. She didn't want him hurt. That is why she pushed him away. One of them was going to get hurt.
She frowned slightly. The wall was going to..-ack! Renji had leaned foreward and kissed her. She responded ever so slightly, wanting to wrap her arms around him she kept herself to merely putting her hands against his chest. Why did he have to keep doing this. Her lips pressed back. Why did he keep kissing her and trying to break through. Her body leaned more into his, eyes shutting and lips softening. If he broke through.....her eyes opened quickly and she pushed him back, but only an inch, she didn't pull back her body, just her mouth.
"Renji....I...I can't" she shook her head, this time the fear could be seen even though she had lowered her eyes "You don't understand. I...I can't let you in....and I don't want you hurt....that's why...that's why you have to stop..I..I just can't"
Mother of hell, why the ******** did she sound like some sap about to cry. Why did she have to sound like some whimpy girl in some pukey romantic movie, who had to leave for the greater cause. If only he knew....no. She couldn't. But...could he really...no they were all alike...god Jezz get ahold of yourself stop thinking about the past, you have a hot guy kissing you and telling you how much he wants you, you can't say you don't want him back. But....she shook her head softly, as if backing up her spoken words, she couldn't figure out what to do.
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Posted: Mon May 15, 2006 4:49 pm
As Jezz shook her head Renji scowled. Not at her, but at himself. He really was the worst kind of fool, the kind that never learned from their mistakes. He was really starting to think himself some sort of masochist, the way he kept subjecting himself to the assault on his heart time and time again. Why couldn't he stop himself from making an a** of himself in front of her!
He hated feeling this way. He'd worked years cultivating the perfect niche for himself; he was the funny flirt, the guy who always had a wiseass remark, a snappy comeback, the guy you wanted to be friends with or you wanted to kick his a**. But he didn't expose his soul and he didn't make bonds...Cyndir was the only exception to his rule, his best friend, and the only one who's opinion really mattered to him....until Jezz came along.
Renji made a sound that was supposed to be a laugh but fell woefully short. He released Jezz and took a step away. He turned his head so that he looked out the window, hair in his face, and his deep blue eyes avoided Jezz's.
"Hai hai hai, I know. I get it, ne? You.... you should get going. Curfew's coming soon, you really should get to the girl's wing, ne?"
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Posted: Mon May 15, 2006 4:57 pm
Jezz felt her stomach sink. She wanted to hold him, make him smile again. She hated hurting him. But....it was less pain for him this way.
"ya..." she trailed off looking about the room.
She needed to say or do something, she just couldn't leave him here like this. She started for the door but went to Renji's dresser instead. She found a pen and paper and wrote something on it. Folding it up she walked back and came up behind Renji. She went on her tiptoes and pressed her lips to his cheek, hissing his hair that was covering his face in the process.
"Gomenasai Ai-chan"she slipped the paper into his hand and turned back to the room leaving as quickly as she could, to leave the hurt behind her so that she didn't stop and do something she might later regret
==>Boy's hallway
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Posted: Mon May 15, 2006 6:01 pm
Renji's eyes widened at the kiss, the hair that seperated them cool against his cheek with the contact. He stiffened at the term of endearment, wanting to tell her to just forget that phrase. But something inside him wouldn't let him.
He turned slightly to watch the girl go, his hand clenching around the note she slipped into his hand. As the door closed he opened the note with a frown. As his eyes darted over the short hand he snorted.
"Thanks, huh? Riiiight." Renji balled up the piece of papr and threw it at the door. The paper wad bounced off the door and rolled a short way back torwards him. Crossing his arms Renji turned his back to it. His eyes stung, and his head ached with the millions of mixed messages it seemed jezz was sending his way.
On the one hand she let him know in no uncertain terms that she was not interested in being with him in any way more than a flirting fashion. And in the second she was drawing pictures of butterflies and making him think that maybe he did have a chance. He was so confused....it was an awfu feeling.
Spinning on his heel he quickly crossed the room and snatched up the balled up paper. He smoothed it out against his chest as best he could, though nothing would get rid of all the added wrinkles. With a sigh he refolded the note into a small square, so that the doodle of the butterfly was all that could be see. He tucked the paper into the corner of the framed photo of himself and Cyn on New Year's, then placed the frame back down on the desk. He angled it just a bit, so that it could be better seen from his bed across the room. With a sigh he made his way over to his bed and plopped forward. He grabbed a pillow, wrapping it around his head. Damn, he had a headache...
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