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 Posted: Fri Oct 04, 2019 2:10 pm
"Thank you, Wolframite... I really mean it. I don't have much so I really, really want to keep what I do have safe... And that's Nat... If I can get a little stronger, just so I can protect him and not have either of us hurt, then that's what I want too... I guess I want more than just surviving, but it's still surviving... Mmm... I'm not too complicated of a person, but I can keep a secret." He pressed a finger to his own lips and nodded, swearing a secret between the both of them. No matter how badly the General decided to hurt him, he'd keep Nataniel a secret.
He couldn't protect May or October, so this was the least he could do.
"Going into the Rift would be nice. I heard that if I got stronger, I could get a youma to be my partner. I don't know too much about youma though... Would they want to have a friend like me? It's kinda exciting to think about."
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Posted: Fri Oct 04, 2019 2:35 pm
"Yeah, I can see. I didn't ha e anything either when I came to the barracks. Between working odd request here and stealing from the civilians I energy drain, I've managed to make some money. If you plan to live in the barracks and not move in with Nat or someone else, then it's a good way to get what you need. We can get some cash when we patrol. That should help get you some clothes that fit you too. It can't be comfortable unless - that's the fashion?" He didn't know what was modern and cool these days.
"Also if you want to protect him, maybe think of a personal item that might help with that goal. Personal items go through Mauvians so they don't need your general's approval." And if he thought if something, it could be that little extra to help in the long run.
When the conversation changed to youma, he leaned back some. "Yeah, you can go into the Rift and find a personal Youma when you are a captain. They come in many shapes and sizes so finding one that compliments you and fills in for you weaknesses is always a good thing. Some might just want to be your partner and some might challenge you to a fight to see what you are capable of first. Right now it's too dangerous for you to go alone else they'd want to attack you. They listen to me.more than traditional officers though anyways so you'll be safe with me."
"What kind of weapon do you have right now?"
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Posted: Mon Oct 07, 2019 12:03 pm
"I get my stipend from the Negaverse for doing tasks around here every now and then, and my general will sometimes give me extra if I do favors for him, unrelated to work, so I have some pocket money every now and then. I'm trying to save up so when I can move out, I'm not a burden to anyone." Fettelite looked at his clothes, knowing that they were a bit raggedy, but never thought much of it. Nat said the same thing though. His clothes were ugly, and that he'd take him shopping one day. That, too, was something he was trying to save up for.
Rather than let Wolframite keep staring at his ugly clothing, he powered up once again, and summoned his weapons to his hands.
Two big, poofy, noisy pompoms.
"I hope it's the first part. I don't want to fight someone who is supposed to be my friend.... And I don't think I could hurt them either. After all, if they are my partner, it makes sense that I work to keep them safe too, so it's not a one-way sorta deal, right?"
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Posted: Tue Oct 08, 2019 8:50 am
"When we patrol, I'll toss you the cash from the civilians we take down. You need it more than me and it will help get some distance between you and your general. The less you need to rely on him, the less power he has over you."
Fettelite was empathetic and he wondered if that made him too forgiving to the monsters and beasts of the world. The way he seemed resistant to fighting spoke volumes of how little he was trained to be more comfortable with the idea and the necessity of the task.
"Full youma don't die. They get dusted and they are used to that risk. And if a youma wants to fight you, it's to assess the skills and abilities of the person they hope to make their partner. They want to judge you to see if they will be a good fit for you in a fight. Or maybe they want to see you earn their partnership to see how much you want it. Not only are you looking for a partner, they are too. They know what they are asking and getting into. Most were human after all. And you shouldn't worry about keeping a personal Youma safe. They are immortal. They get dusted and return to the Rift good as new. They are someone to protect you because once you get struck down, you don't come back like they do. You should never risk your own life for your personal Youma." He informed him.
He regarded the pompoms. "I'm curious what your weapon will manifest into because right now, I have not even an idea how that translates to a fighting style." He said with a smile.
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Posted: Thu Oct 10, 2019 7:45 am
"I appreciate it, thank you." As much as he hated the idea of stealing from someone, Wolframite didn't seem like the sort of person he really should be saying that to. He likely didn't care for Fettel's morals, or his kindness or weakness, so must of those things were just best kept to himself. All he could do was say thank you, and maybe hold onto that money, and when he had the chance, slip it back to the person they stole it from.
Or maybe donate it to charity. There was always someone out there worse off than he was, and stolen money would only weigh on his already guilty conscious.
"I think I understand, but I bet getting dusted still hurts." He gave a little shake of his pompoms, before unsummoning them. With his hands cleared, he simply folded them on his lap. "If they were once human too, then they probably still have thoughts and feelings, right? I think I read that they have like, this driving goal, all for our queen, to do her bidding, but... I dunno, it just seems sad to think of them as just shields... Hehe, don't mind me, I am probably thinking too deeply about this, I get scolded alot for it too. I swear, I'll make sure I do the right thing."
... He couldn't promise he wouldn't jump infront of an attack for his youma. But he'd do his best to keep them both safe. Even if that meant having a youma partner and keeping them unsummoned most of the time.
"I dunno, really. Maybe boxing gloves! Or maybe like twin dagger things. Something along those lines."
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Posted: Tue Oct 15, 2019 11:03 am
"They would get hurt. They would feel pain." He said, confirming this. "You do not need to appologize for empathizing. Many don't when youma are concerned. I just want you to know they won't die if they get dusted in battle. They will return to you in a few days. I wouldn't want you devastated over the precieved loss of a partner in the middle of a fight and to get reckless from grief."
He watched the weapon leave. "I only know a bit with my fists but not boxing. Knives I'm more familiar with. A had chained blades before I was a youma."
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2019 12:07 pm
"I don't know if I can not be devastated. They would be my partner... Someone who would care for me in their own way, the same way I would care for them. Even if I knew they would come back, It makes me sad and would hurt to know they were in any sort of pain. And.... I think you already know I'm not very tough. Maybe it'd be a good thing to get worked up! I could be like one of those moms who's kids get trapped under a car, and they are able to lift it up. I'm not gonna try for it though." The very thought of him being able to lift a car and throw it aside made him smile. Maybe one day, if he ever made it to general, he'd be able to do that.
"Knives... Dunno much about knives. My brother called me a scrapper back in the day. So I can use my fists pretty well. I haven't had to fight like that in a long time.. Most of the time when I do have to fight, it's my general sending his personal youma after me... Or when I was in that training thing, the tournament? I fought my old teammates there, but it really felt like they just wanted to kill me... I can't say I really miss them but... Atleast they didn't hurt me like I'm hurt now."
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2019 12:34 pm
"Let us hope then, but just be careful." He warned, not putting much credit into mother's and babies. There was a quality to raw, blinding rage, but there were still limited to a powered body at the end of the day. It wasn't a good thing to rely on when everything came to the wire.
"I'd like to spar with you. To see what you have. You should get up to speed with basic training and I don't think near-death experiences count as proper training from your general. It feels like you are more of a plaything they like to abuse for their amusement. I doubt they have your best interest for survival in mind." He wasn't sure what a small body like December could withstand. The man was skittish and had a tense energy that made Wolframite anxious.
"Why aren't you living with Nat? Are you two not together? It's not very healthy for a human to live down in the Negaverse for too long."
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Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2019 5:22 pm
”I will, promise!” And it was easy to promise such a thing. Being careful was drilled into Fettelite’s head at this point.
He couldn’t really think of a time he wasn’t on edge, one way or another. Except the times where he slept in Nat’s bed. Something about that made him feel safe.
“We can spar whenever you’d like! ... Probably not today. You’re hurt now, so maybe when you’re feeling better.” The thought of how abused he was didn’t really come to mind, only concern about the wellbeing of the Captain before him.
And there was Nat again. Brought up, and a small smile came to his face.
“I... Don’t actually know. I like Nat, and he keeps me safe but we never really talked about it. He’s just very important to me, and I want to do my best to not let him down. But I’m here because my General wants me here. He said it takes less energy for me to walk to his room than to be summoned out of nowhere.”
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Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2019 5:41 pm
He narrowed his eyes as he tapped a few clawtips to his chin. Nat seemed.ro care a lot about Fettelite if he corrupted for his safety, and the mannerisms during his meeting was possessive, gentle, yet commanding. Considering he had slept with the guy, it stood apart from his he must street randos off the street. There was more focus there, and yet it didn't seem anything was established in any official degree. Fettelite couldn't define what they were but was complacent with what he had, and Nat slept around.
What a weird couple.
"Usually the Negaverse tries to get as many people out of the barracks as possible. While I think it would help take some of that power from your general if you lived elsewhere, I do wonder if doing so would make them want to tighten their hold in response..well, at least it is also convenient for me as well to see you."
Considering Nat wasn't here, it was a good opportunity to talk to his charge one on one more and get to know him. "I suppose I should ask if there is anything you would like to ask me since last we met. We didn't have much time to talk outside of business."
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Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2019 6:07 pm
”Do they? It’s... I’m sorry, I don’t really know much about the Negaverse really... It’s kinda bad, I know, I just do what I’m told. It would be nice to live in the City. Maybe when I’m stronger, I can just go home at night to be with Nat, and then come back...” His voice trailed off into a whisper, as if he was afraid that his general could hear him plotting against him.
A truly terrifying thought.
“Questions... Um...” Did he had any? “Are you on a team? Do you have people you work with? .... Do you get along with them and are friends? Is it okay to have friends in the Negaverse?”
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Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2019 6:47 pm
"Well, it's not a very reliable way to go through life. If you blindly accept what you are told, someone could set you up for failure or to do something that only benefits them without thinking about your well-being. I can explain more about the Negaverse as we work together. I've been here for 10 years so I know my way around." He explained.
So he did consider Nat's place his home. That was good. It was good to have him thinking of places outside the Negaverse as where he belonged outside of uniform and away from his general. "Once you are stronger and a general, you are free to stay whenever you want unless the Queen or Soverign says anything. A general has no power over another general. Once you get there, you can live with Nat if that is your home."
The questions did get him to turn his head a little and then spurt out a little chuckle. This kid was odd.
"I'm not on a team. A while ago I was but that was many years ago. Ma y of the members aren't around anymore or already moved to other corners of the world. And I work with anyone who needs my help. Since I'm a resident here, I spend my time working in the Negaverse helping where I can. There are random duty work available like in the infirmary, offices, barracks, and cafeteria. There isn't a set group of people I work on a regular basis. I have a general as well but he otherwise leaves me to my own once I was trained and he approved of my progress. I do have friends. I do have a friend who lives here in the barracks as well, and I hope to make more as I go."
The last question seemed sad.
"Yes, it is encouraged. This place, the Negaverse. We are supposed to look out for one another for a common goal. It may not be true of your general, as he seems like s**t a*****e with a power complex, but it is intended for people to help one another. Please make friends here. There are a lot of good people here, and unlike other people, they can listen to you and help with issues in the Negaverse where a civilian wouldn't be able." Though Fettelite did talk to Nat as a civilian before all this.
"I know we are helping one another through a deal, but if you do not mind, we can try and be friends if you are okay with that. I may not be on your team, but I am here for both you and Nat. As a comrade, you are part of my family."
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Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2019 7:07 pm
”... I don’t think anyone has ever told me otherwise. It’s hard to think about things, make decisions selfishly... Even if I want to, I’ve always been told nothing is mine. My body, my clothes, my thoughts and feelings. It’s really nice to think that maybe here, one day, I can change that... Even then though, I want to make sure Nat’s happy too.” Fettel didn’t want to think too much more on it. It was easier to just follow orders, no matter how badly it hurt.
But right now, his head was starting to hurt.
“I’m really sorry to hear about your team. I hope wherever they are now, they are happy, and think of you sometimes. I would be very, very, very happy to be your friend! And.. You know, maybe you can meet my family sometime too. I got lots of family, and one of them is part of the Negaverse! June, Appisite or something... He does’t live in the Barracks though. Maybe you’d like him too.” The very thought of having another new friend made him smile. Besides Nat, not many really stuck around.
It was easy to forget someone who didn’t think much of themselves.
“And I’m glad you have a friend here too. Makes it less lonely, I bet! I wonder if I can make a friend too. I mean, you, but you’re stronger than me, so a lot more responsibility and can’t always be around... I don’t think I can have someone else join my ‘team’... I don’t want them hurt, but a friend would be really nice. And if no friend, just a youma friend is just as good. I wonder if I can have them live with me if I still live here in the barracks.”
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Posted: Thu Oct 31, 2019 6:03 am
He frowned hard at such a statement. Fettelite was a hard character to try and turn around, he could tell that. There seemed to be years if history with this one and Wolframite wasn't exactly a gentle therapist. The best he could do is keep drilling it in his head that he could want and have things. Maybe he could set something up to test Fettelite some. He did have the one person he did care about after all.
"Your body, mind, and feelings are yours. You might be sworn to the Negaverse to be part of this war, but otherwise no one lays claim to these things. I'm telling you otherwise now. If I have to tell you that every day to trump the times it has been told to you that it isn't, I will. You are an officer of this kingdom and a knight of Earth. Raise your chin up and take some pride in that. If not, I'll start bringing a newspaper to hit you over the head." He said, eyes glowing with the belief of his words despite the last part being more of a dog joke.
"I will be fine meeting your family and another fellow officer." And maybe then he could ask why the hell his own family wasn't aware of what was going on, but would also need to be sensitive to the issue as Fettelite could be hiding his abuse to them to keep them from worrying.
"I will be trying to find more officers. If I recruit more, I will introduce them to you. As for youma, they can stay with you but need to go back to the Rift to refresh themselves and maintain their energy. The Rift is there home and allows them to live. They can only spend so much time away from it but they could stay with you in your room if they aren't too big. Else you might have to keep them outside."
He was hoping to find someone he could keep with him for company too. His more primal energies needed an outlet.
"When you become a general, will you have a team of your own?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 03, 2019 2:44 pm
"Mm..." He only made a soft sound, wanting to let the conversation go. As nice as Wolframite came off as, it didn't quite settle in his head that he was still someone worth taking pride in. Fettel hadn't accomplished anything in the Negaverse since starting... And honestly, it was just enough to be alive.
"Awww, that's a shame. But that makes sense. If they gotta go away, that's fine. I won't worry about it too much then." Maybe when things got better, he really could just be with Nat every single night. It was a sweet dream to have.
"Um... I don't know. I don't think I'd be a very good leader. I take orders, not give them, and when I'm left to make my own decisions.... I think I panic. I get scared about messing up... I think I'd just rather give my will to someone else and just work to make someone else happy with me... I don't really think it would work to be stronger and to have that sorta freedom to make decisions..."
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