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 Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2018 6:21 pm
"I've found a lot of asian sweets aren't as sweet as the American sweets you find in the stores." He liked the asian ones better. They were nicer with, at times, more delicate flavors. He's also grown up with them, till his mother had gone and started to hate everything asian and chinese. "I'm glad you like it." He hoped the other really did like it, if so he was happy. he liked to please others....and he did want to thank the other for his help .
Taking another for himself he took a bite, and a sip of tea right after it. "The texture can be difficult for some people." Shrugging a bit, he knew it could put people off, some people were big on texture. "Do you like sweets?" He asked, curious. He didn't want to let the air between them fall silent, it was always odd when that happened.
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Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2018 6:49 pm
He nodded slowly. "I like pastries...and cookies. Not really rich but, something baked always seems like. Someone took the time to make something and there are so many. Makes you feel at home. I usually pick up some to have later on in the day or when I'm having a rough day." Which was often. "I'm surprised I haven't gained a ton of weight from it."
He took another sip of his tea. "Do you collect stuffed animals?"
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Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2018 7:04 pm
"I like to cook sometimes...especially for people I'm close to." Or himself. "That mochi I made...rather than store bought. it's something to do when I'm not busy and I'm not sleeping." He liked to sleep, often, but when he wasn't doing that and he wasn't busy he would cook or, in this case, bake. It gave him something light to do.
"Mmm, I do...is it obvious?" He questioned somewhat sheepish. "Maybe it's because I like to sleep alot...or I just like soft things." Likely both, plus they were nice innocent things which he could, and did, use for comfort.
"I know it's a bit strange...for someone my age...and a male. B-but I just..." Shrugging his shoulders he sighed then. It was something most would think poorly of him for, somehow his own court was ok with it...at least those who knew. Those who saw him walking about, while powered up, with a plushie had never said anything. He knew one day his court would gain someone who would say something, or someone already in their court would spot him and say something. Eventually it would happen. Eventually someone would tell him not to hold onto their uniform....to stand on his own.
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Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2018 8:14 pm
"No. I have a few too. It's your home. You should be able to put whatever you want in there to feel comfortable. They're nice." Though he wasn't sure what some of them were. "Is that a snowball?" He said, pointing at one.
"I've never been good at cooking. I don't think I have the talent for it. It never turns out as good as a bakery so I'd rather just get it there. I usually just go on walks if I can't sleep. General helps with that."
He looked back up from his tea. "Do you work anywhere or...go to school?"
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Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2018 8:23 pm
"Ohh...I learned to cook from some older woman. Otherwise I doubt I could either...and that isn't a snowball - it's a mochi ball." He said laughing at the others question over some of the plushies he had. He seemed to have mochi balls, some that were peach buns, cats and pandas. Pointing out the peach bun ones he shifted a bit ashe finished his tea. "Do you like my plushies?"
"I go for walks also...though that's recent. I used to watch tv or go onto my laptop till I got tired again. Though I used to never have issues sleeping...that's all a bit new." Since becoming a dark mirror senshi, especially after the trip to space. That had gotten to him horribly.
"I work at an antique store...the manager there is a friend and he found out I was without a home...he put me up in a motel and offered me the job. I took it." He was glad for it, Jett had helped him alot. He doubted the prince new just how thankful he was, how much of the eternals loyalty he had. But he had it, all of it. "I go to DCU also...though I'm not sure what I want to major in...so I'm taking a mix of classes. To make it easy, and because I need help with it, I'm taking Chinese as well."
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Posted: Mon Oct 22, 2018 8:13 am
"I have a few at home." But he didn't remmeber where he got them or who gave them it. They were all attached to a sentimental value he didn't remember and he felt bad that he couldn't attach a note of love to them. "I don't remember where they came from." He tested it. Xi-Wang didn't know him but pretending he was normal was exhausting.
"You seem to be surrounded by a lot of people who love you and want to support you in life. That's rare." He somehow felt like an alien in Xi-Wang's company. The man was loved, supported, timid, caring, amd had plans for the future by going to college.
"Why do you have trouble sleeping?"
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Posted: Mon Oct 22, 2018 8:47 pm
"It's a change of pace - a good one. My mother's love was fake for years and then just not there, it had turned to dislike and hate. Her wife's love for me had never been there. I didn't know the rest of my family till recently...and they are all far away." Back in China. In a place he would have grown up had it not been for his mother wanting to move here, for dragging his father here...and than leaving him. "I'm just glad I have people now - people I picked." That he knew were family...that he knew loved him, that it wasn't an act.
"It sounds like...like you don't have that....you don't?" He asked gently, not wanting to upset the other somehow, and fearing he might. "We can be friends though - I mean if you want." Because the other didn't have to want to be his friend. They could just...have met and had some sort of interaction.
"Nightmares....last year there was an incident at a hospital....and now the clinic. This city hasn't been safe recently...it just seems one bad thing after another...and I seem to have bad luck." Of being involved in some way. A lot of it while powered but also a lot while as a civilian.
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Posted: Tue Oct 23, 2018 7:27 am
And now he was forced to lie. Again and again. But at these points he tried to do his best with half-truths. "I...was in an accident a while ago. I forgot a lot of things. A lot of people close to me I didn't recognize. It's hard to be close to people when you feel nithing for them. It feels like they expect you to like then when you don't remember how you became friends."
"A few people I do remember, but I did something that's hard to forgive and keeps us apart. It's....complicated. I made a decision I wanted but lost a lot as a result. It's...out a strain on the person closest to me. We don't talk much anymore."
"It makes me feel like a bad person. That I can't care for them the same way because I don't remember what they remember. That I can't be like I was before and can't turn back time to change that decision I made that changed things too. Not that I'd want to.....I don't think. I don't know."
He turned the mug over and over in his hand on the table. "Have you taken anything to sleep? I do that. I get nightmares too. It's easier when there is someone with you but alone...it's better to take something."
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Posted: Tue Oct 23, 2018 9:34 am
"I'm sorry to hear that...that's sad." Nodding his head slowly he moved to offer the plushie in his arms to to the other. "It must be awkward...not knowing things about those people who you used to know, small details...and to miss inside jokes and other things." Personal things, secrets, and other things that they'd bonded over. He couldn't imagine forgetting people, or how he'd come to know people...forgetting so much.
"You aren't bad because of it. it can't be helped...but it makes sense - the strain. The relationships will be strained. But it's no ones fault. It's just....like you have to start over again somehow. To push the past away...as hard as that will be, more for them than you." A small shrug of his shoulders as he tilted his head a bit. He had no problem in toying with his bedding as he sat there watching the other, he felt for him. To suffer memory loss like that...how terrible.
"If it's possible to change that choice...to undo it...or go back to what things had been before. You could always look at it...what would be gained and what would be lost if you did it? I don't know what choice you made...I don't know what it cost you. But which one also would make you happier? I have learned that it's important to be happy...to think about your own wants and needs in order to be happy. To be yourself." Which was why he didn't try and hide who he was, even if he hoped it didn't ever bother those around him.
"Tea...try and tire myself out before going back to bed. Aside from that - nothing."
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Posted: Tue Oct 23, 2018 10:33 am
He shifted in his seat.
"If I could go back....I'd have my name and reputation back. A damaged one but still one. I'd have the person I loved back. People I knew without blanks......but I'd also be riddled with - bad thoughts on what to do or wondering if I should do....the thing that changed everything. I'm not sure if I could have moved on or would have ruined things another way." He held tightly to the cup. "I ruined a lot."
"I was damned either way. I just had hoped things woukd have turned out better." He looked at the plush and slowly set it in his lap, gently petting it.
"I'm not a good person anymore, Xi-Wang. Wasn't before but...I'm worse now."
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2018 9:42 pm
"No one is good, some just less than others." He knew some people didn't like him, called him bad and evil. The one sitting before him thought he was a monster, they just didn't know it. Ducking his head at the thought he smiled sadly to himself. "You're no worse than I am." Shrugging a bit he lifted his head, forcing a smile.
"Is there no way to undo some things which you did? To make some things better, even if it takes time...maybe if it eases the problem now it's a good option? Even if it's a long path to make it better." He offered softly, wanting to help the one who secretly thought him a monster. Maybe in some way he was hoping to show that he wasn't that bad, even if Toren never knew that. "I wish I could help properly. it sounds like you're in a rather bad spot. No one deserves to have what it sounds like you have." He meant it, he really did. The other had a lot going wrong and whatever he'd done had cost him a lot. It was sad to hear.
"It sounds like you suffered a lot - more than anyone should. And you say you aren't good...I haven't seen anything which says different."
MoonKitsune Gaia never told me it was tagged. ""Smacks Gaia::
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