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 Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2016 8:18 pm
"I'd say I'm suprirsed you know a little but then again it isn't like your dad steps up to say anything aside from what you should wear and eat." He commented as they walked.
"I can't look at them right now. Rodney just goes through meltdowns, Lawr you have to work your conversation in hopes that something connects to make sense to him, and between how they look and the smell I was going to on wind up regretting something."
He was somber now. "Probably could get a house but it wouldn't feel right. Why doesn't one person need a house all to themselves? It would just be empty. Don't like the dorms either. Guess all of this hasn't me just - able to keep going. It would be miserable as I am with what I need to be alone."
He'd really go crazy. The last thing he wanted to picture was a world where he just pleased himself miserably in a empty house
"Rodney is nice. It would be easier to hate him if he wasn't."
"...and I have known more. Other people I was with. It's just been a while since. I'm not the same either."
The rushed pace from before slowed to a walking pace. "You just like the reality tv drama the house is?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2016 9:31 am
"You would be, eventually." he said to Melody. "People always are when he's persistent. It's so silly, I don't know why it is." he shrugged. He'd never understood the draw of his father, at a complete loss why people persistently fell for him. He'd grown up himself into someone very close in appearance, albeit much younger with the same angular cheekbones and small frame. His eyes however were a much richer blue, his body still sleek and supple with youth, with a smile that felt more genuine than anything Lawrence was capable of. Looking at Lawrence he saw too much of himself and too much of the horrible nature he knew was there to see any beauty or draw.
"I don't think he really cares about me." Mikael said to Melvin, without actually dropping his smile. "I think he just likes the idea of me, the fact that I'm family and that's one of the things he wants. Just another thing he wants." The boy was always jarringly calm and optimistic in contrast to how he probably should have been when saying something so grave.
"My mum said she used to think that, that an empty house would be more intolerable than a house with him, that she was so used to her life that leaving it would be hell. But she was happy. She used to say the only thing she was scared of was that her life from before would come back again, or that she'd lose me." And she had lost him. He hoped that like leaving her old life, that too had been a relief.
"I don't like the upset." he said. "But I just always hope that if I pretend long enough, maybe one day I'll have a family." And it was strange to get such a long strange of articulation from the boy normally so quick to settle for a statement that he liked a person or a thing. "But you'll leave now, or Rodney will, won't you?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2016 10:35 am
"No! That's not it! It's just.... It's never the same. It's always changing. I guess I kind of get shoved to the background a lot, out of sight and out of mind you know? But it's still something. Don't want to sleep all day when you might miss out on something in the other room, I guess."
She frowned grimly at Mik. "There's being persuasive and then there's asking me to give up a lot for a man who's proven himself unreliable. Being... Not that kind of girl aside, I have absolutely no desire to catch his disease."
She side glanced at Melvin. "So I can sort of see why you feel... Stuck. Even if you loved again, you'd now know you'd just make them sick too." She reached out to gently pat Melvin's shoulder. "I didn't realize you had feelings for him either... I just.." She fanned herself with her hand as her face felt like it was smoldering. "...I'm not sure what I assumed."
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2016 3:44 pm
He sighed at the reassuring pat to his shoulder and shrugged. "I am stuck. It's a lot of things. I've had different feelings at different times but after a year we kinda fell into our own pattern and it just worked and we both got what we needed. I mean it got us by. I don't think I'm ready for something long term like I had before and yet...."
He could feel the heated anger and frustration from before bleed out to something cold and empty. "... I'm still upset that I wasn't even offered that option. Maybe I was kinda hoping for it, but without wanting to think too hard on it cause - well I guess disappointment happened one way or another."
"I can't date because even if I developed feelings for someone I'd screw them over for life. I'm an infective mess and I've already alienated myself from most of my friends."
He looked to Mik. "I'm sorry about your family. About your mom. Your dad. You don't deserve the nothing he offers you. I know how a real family works. I think everyone at the house must have wanted some version of it. Pretending isn't helping you either, Mik. You dad isn't helping you."
He looked to Melody. "I think you should worry about yourself and maybe find someone who can include you in the action instead of you watching. Maybe get a roommate at the dorms. Much healthier company than at our house."
He paused. "His house."
It felt terrible.
"I don't know what I'll do. Rodney isn't moving out. Maybe I'll be out out back like some troublesome dog while husband new puppy sleeps in the master bedroom."
"I don't want to roll over and let him get away with everything."
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 4:08 am
Mik shrugged at Melody. He hadn't even thought about Melvin being infectious really. "I forgot you were all sick." he said sadly. "That sucks."
He did appreciate the condolences, but spoke up. "He doesn't help me." he said. "I just like the house better than the dorms. It's more comfortable. I know he's a liar, I know he's ...what he is. I don't fool myself otherwise. But I like you guys."
He didn't like the idea of it being Lawrence's house though. "It's our house." he said. "There are more of us, and with your own room you can do what you want! It doesn't need to all look like how he likes it. You could put up posters!"
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 5:06 am
"Then don't," Melody gave Melvin a stern look that quickly turned into a bright but fake smile.
"All said, I believe I'm the only one in the house on a revokable basis. I don't want to go back to the dorms again so I just... I can't make waves." She shrugged noncommittally.
She peered at Mik uncertainly, "So that's a no even on posters for me. I would be told to leave and I'd have no basis to argue to stay. I'm not related to him." Then she looked to Melvin, "Nor am I having sex with him."
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 5:42 am
"Was." He corrected Melody with a grit of his teeth. "Seems I'm cut off for the unseeable future while the wedding bells are still ringing in his ear."
"I think you make up the family Lawr wants, Melody. You also might be in the shelf as an option for him later. Either way, you could get away with demanding more. If anything just say I told you you could."
"I guess we are all getting something out of this house then. There was a chair so liked before that Lawr hated. Maybe I'll just get that now. It's not like my paycheck will be going to him."
He let out an audible groan. "This is going to be rough. Being sick like this is going to kill me."
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 9:15 am
Mikael was enjoying their conversation, finding the opportunity to chatter without the ever-present figure of Lawrence a bit of a relief. “He’s not the only one who makes decisions.” He said. “What’s he going to do, carry you out?” he shrugged. He didn’t see Lawrence getting rid of one of his human trophies anyway.
“And yay chairs! Yes! Get the things you want to get. I bet they will be really cool.” He fully endorsed people bringing some colours and life into the always too-perfect house. Melody’s situation was more precarious it seemed. “but you should anyway. It’s /your/ room.” And he nodded as if he had the final say on this matter.
“Does being sick matter?” he said. “I mean, what does it /do/?”
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 9:51 am
"You both pose some strong arguments," Melody admitted thoughtfully, a genuine smile cracking through her facade. Then Mik asked a question, one that turned her face a bright pink.
"Oh dear." She patted Melvin on the shoulder again, this time a placatory gesture. "You are on your own with that one Melvin."
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 9:57 am
Melvin went quiet as he looked at them, feeling a slow heat roll into his features. "I thought - you guys knew." By the looks of it they didn't know all the details and details is what they wanted to know. Despite all the times Lawr went at it with him, no doubt being heard more than a few times, it felt oddly embarrassing to talk about something so personal.
He cleared his throat and adjusted his glasses. "Well....I'm infectious. Anyone I have sex with that involves an action where that person gets into contact with..." He made a vague, non-description gesture in the air. "....fluids.." He hated that word choice but it was all he had to describe it other than something more graphic. "...leaves them with the same infection as me that they can pass on. I caught it from Lawr and both he and I can pass it on to others."
There was more though. "I'm sterile now, not that that mattered much but for some people that's a big deal."
And then there was - needs.
He twisted his hands together and noticing he didn't have gloves on only bothered him more. He had a clean set back at camp but not on him.
Boy, was the jungle hot.
"Then there is the fact that I'm always...." He cleared his throats again. "...in need of... intimate contact. Not just average needs......but ramped up to 100 at almost all times."
"So.....it worked that Lawr and I could ......negate each other by meeting demands.....and now I don't have that.....and I don't want to give the condition to anyone else and make them suffer. It's hard to date someone when you can't move on to physical contact later."
He didn't look at them. "U-understand?"
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 10:08 am
"I think I have that disease." Mik said morosely.
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 10:40 am
Melody had been quietly listening while pretending she wasn't listening until Mik spoke up. She just stared at him and then Melvin and then Mik again before asking in a hushed squeak of a voice, "You two??"
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 11:45 am
Melvin slowed down then stopped dead, stiff and frozen with horror as he slowly turned to them both.
A hand was set on one of their shoulders as he narrowed his eyes, a look of concern drawn right over his features as he regarded them. "Did....Did ******** you?"
If he had a doll, it would be out for them to point at where right about now.
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 11:50 am
Mikael gave Melvin a does-not-compute sort of stare.
"Uh. No. I said I was a virgin. I just...er.. I just mean like, being...you know...all the time. Like you said."
But at least said libido was shot stone dead by the implication.
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Posted: Mon Nov 14, 2016 12:33 pm
It took a while for Melody to even realize Melvin had been addressing her the entire time too and once she had she blinked very rapidly before leaning in with a quiet, "what? I. I'm... " She pointed at Mik when he said virgin. "That." Then quickly retracted her pointing when he went on about his libido which caused her to turn more of a fuscha shade this time.
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