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 Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:17 am
“Strange…” He said nodding and found himself nibbling on his bottom lip in thought. Fingers ran through his blond hair before gently kneading at the back of his neck. “Not what you felt at time?” He asked, wanting to be sure, to understand this better. “Makes no sense…” He said slowly, thoughtfully, he was rather confused by this whole idea really. Letting his hand fall to his side he went to walk past the other intent upon the kitchen and the fridge where he knew there was a small, as it was depleting, stash of banana milk and he was thirsty.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:18 am
“I felt some of it but there were times where I know I wasn’t at other times if that makes any sense?” Terry said and shook his head as if he could shake the confusion out. “Like when I was saying how a question had been answered in regards to you shaving, I wasn’t feeling confused but I could still feel the emotion somehow.” His brows furrowed, not sure if he was explaining anything right or in a way that made sense. When Seung started to walk, he got up off the couch and followed after him, the two animals following them and chasing each other around their feet.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:19 am
“So not your own...belong to another...or something.” He said while opening the others fridge and peeking in. Bending to stick his head in and reach for the back where he had the little containers of his drink. When he stood back up, drink container in hand, he went to find a straw for it and sat himself at the small kitchen table. “How? How to feel what isn’t yours?” It didn’t make a lot of sense really
“Wish I knew.” But he didn’t...and it was happening to him also. It was another thing he didn’t know, couldn’t do, and couldn’t help with...as the first through hit, the first feeling, the rest sort of followed and the final one just hit hard, It was just more more thing added to the pile and the thought of it, of the ever mounting pile of things he couldn’t do and was failing at left him feeling very...empty suddenly. It wasn’t a sadness but a sort of not there feeling.
He sat there at the table, sipping slowly, while letting the feeling just sort of fill him and sink him under its depth for the moment. It had been an on and off feeling for awhile now but it was occurring more often and he sort of...liked it. He didn’t feel worry or confusion or anything like that. Just...nothing. He had always figured this was one way to feel depression and he didn’t mind it sometimes.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:20 am
Terry blinked at the suggestion Seung gave, not having thought that might be it before it was mentioned though it did make sense. “Maybe it is. I’m not sure how that could be possible though.” He said as he poured himself some tea then sat at the table with the other man with a frown. Confusion was swirling around him like a hurricane over what was happening. Was it a Knight thing? Was it some kind of side effect to something? Was it a message from someone else with a special magic? He wasn’t sure what the answer could be and he stared at his glass for a moment.
That moment shattered though when alongside his confusion, another emotion that he hadn’t been feeling echoed through his being. It felt like he had been wrung out to dry with nothing left to give and in the end he had no clue why. He clenched his glass and shook his head before looking back to Seung. “You said...” He shook his head again as if he could get rid of the empty feeling that was hanging there. “You said you were feeling something too?”
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:20 am
“Said what?” He asked looking up from his drink and nodded then to the others question. “Was...still am sort of..” He was kinda of not feeling it as he was drowning it out but he felt it’s echos still, and it bothered him a bit...it shouldn’t be there - not with how he was feeling. He knew what he was feeling, was familiar with it, so why was he also feeling such confusion? He was curious but not confused as well. His curiosity was even stomped down and tossed into some dark corner right now.
“Why?”
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:21 am
“Is it just the confusion you mentioned earlier?” Terry asked when Seung want to know why. He caught himself slightly slumping in the chair and felt a small flare of panic that the emptiness was influencing his own emotions. As of right now, he could distinctly tell between what he was feeling, confusion, wariness, panic, versus what it was that was the other, mainly the emptiness but now with a touch of curiosity. While that helped a bit, he wasn’t sure how this worked and if whoever's emotions he was feeling would end up changing how he felt.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:22 am
“No..more...don’t know what...but different.” He answered blinking his dark eyes at the other slowly before lowering his head and sipping from his drink again. Watching the other he took a moment to look him over. “You ok? What you feeling?” He asked wanting to know as he reached out for the other and set a hand on the others person. “Look depressed.” How he felt. He should be able to help more - contribute more. He wasn’t helping with figuring this out. This couldn’t be that hard...right?
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:23 am
Depressed? Was that what he was feeling? Depression? Terry had never felt that before so he couldn’t rightly be sure. He placed a hand over Seung’s before looking at the other. “It’s not me who’s depressed, it’s...” He paused before he finished since he still wasn’t sure who he was feeling in the first place. And then he looked Seung in the eye and froze. “I’m not depressed. You are.” He said after a moment of silence, eyes widening.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:23 am
He wanted to agree that it wasn’t Terry feeling depressed, he had a feeling the other had never felt it...or just a touch of it really. He knew what he himself was personally feeling but how did Terry? “You...fell me?” He asked lifting his dark eyes to the other, wide, and not liking that idea but like anything else it was sort of just an echo of sorts. He felt it but as a whisper of emotion.
Standing slowly, wanting some distance as if that might cover what he was feeling - what the other knew. He went to toss out the now empty container, straw as well, with Yeong at his feet following him like the good puppy he was. He hadn’t been hard to train, aside from the bathroom thing, so far. He was still thinking of puppy lessons though - it was an idea. It would help, he was sure, plus get him socialized with other dogs.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:24 am
Terry flinched when Seung’s dislike dashed through with the depression. From the look on the other’s face he was 95% sure that it was indeed Seung that he was feeling and it was clear that thought was not something the other man enjoyed in the least. “Yes?” He said then sort of shank a bit in his chair like he was trying not to look like a threat to the other. He didn’t want him running out with the way he was feeling but at the same time he had no idea why it was happening or how to stop it. “Sorry?”
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:24 am
Turning he took in the others position he shook his head, feeling the other as it seemed they could indeed feel each other's emotions. “Not mad…” He just...didn’t want the other to worry about him, about his feelings, or to have insight where he couldn’t lie as well anymore - the other would know.
Sighing his fingers ran through his hair again before he moved to approach the other. He wasn’t sure what to do, as he stood next to the kitchen table, and after a moment Seung decided to settle himself in Terry’s lap. Straddling the others lap he settled himself comfortably. “Not mad...don’t want you worried...made to feel what I feel...my feelings...you shouldn’t have to feel them also.” No, the other shouldn’t have to and what if it influenced him? If his downs brought Terry down also? What if his own depression brought the other down into depression also? He didn’t like that idea...and that just added to what he was already feeling, as he lay his head on the others shoulder in order to hide his face.
The necklace made for him the previous night hung about his neck, pressed between their bodies, it was as he felt it dig into his chest that it hit him. “Last night, necklaces.”
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:26 am
Terry relaxed when Seung said he wasn’t mad, knowing it was true just from what he was getting from the other. That didn’t stop him from worrying over the other man though that was more over what Seung was feeling before they understood what was going on than anything else. When the older man got into his lap, Terry wrapped his arms around him and held him close. “I would worry over you even if I couldn’t feel what you feel.” He said with a small smile only for it to fall a moment later. “But why do you feel depressed?” He asked, wondering if the other even knew why.
Was it something he did? Maybe something he didn’t do? Was something going on with his family? Or was it that he was still dwelling over still being a Page and not a Squire? Something completely different? A mix of things? He wasn’t sure what it could be and the only one with those kinds of answers would be Seung himself. He paused and blinked in surprise though when Seung mentioned the necklaces. “That… would make sense of the glow.”
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:26 am
“Would make sense of absorbing...rock doesn’t...isn’t sponge.” It would explain both things which had happened last night. He didn’t answer why he felt as he did, he was hoping it would be forgotten about for now in light of what they had discovered, as he let his dark lashes drop closed and just held onto the other loosely.
“Should tell Caedus…” Seung said after a moment. “Might like to know.” At least he thought the other might, he knew he’d like to know. It was certainly an interesting thing and the other had mentioned the stone hadn’t worked for him...maybe this was why? Shifting his head a bit, just enough to look around over the others shoulder and look about the kitchen. He was, for the moment, comfortable and the feeling was slowly ebbing, like the tide of the ocean going out. It would come back, at some point, but it was rolling out slowly.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:27 am
Terry nodded, agreeing that it did explain what happened last night. He did however take note of the fact that Seung was avoiding giving an answer as to why he was feeling depressed, making him feel even more worried. He wasn’t sure if he should bring it up again or not at the moment though as he didn’t want to make Seung retreat. It did help that the feeling of depression was slowly going down but he couldn’t be sure that mean that the other man was actually feeling better or that the ability was just not focused on it more. “We should. Maybe he will know of something similar happening, though he didn’t mention it before.” He said with a nod while cuddling Seung.
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Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 12:27 am
“Doubt he knows...didn’t say this about it….said other things - thought it failed.” Seung answered. He was fairly certain Caedus had no idea the stone could do this, it seemed the other hadn’t had an incident like they had with it. Maybe if he had, involving someone else, he would have seen that the rock did do something...other than look very pretty. Thinking of that as he reached for the half about his neck and held it in his right hand gently.
“Might know of similar thing though...maybe not item but similar...feeling of other person.” He said as he wondered if anyone else was home this morning...and if so when would they turn up. The others kitchen was nice and neat...bigger than his homes as well, it wasn’t bad but it lacked certain things he was used to seeing in a kitchen. But it was nice being here when the others mother, or father, was cooking. There was that feeling of family here.
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