Since he wasn't stopped, he continued down the hall, hurriedly stuffing the small amount of items he had into a bag, then stomped back down the hall towards the door. Rasiel seemed resigned to this - good. That meant they could actually breathe. They might be able to be something after this.
He stopped by the door, hand on the handle as he turned a little to face Rasiel. "This is goodbye for now, Rasiel." He shook his head. "Until I can exist here without panicking and you can learn to recognize you never were two different people." He sighed, adjusting the bag on his shoulder.
"Take care of yourself." With that, he turned the knob, and then stepped out into the cold air -- still chilly from the changing season. Great. He'd forgotten about that. With a sigh, he trudged onward, headed towards the main gates... He needed to leave the sanctuary for now... He could manage a human-ish appearance for a few weeks if he managed his powers...
Broken_Illumination
Posted: Thu Mar 17, 2016 12:28 am
[TRIGGER WARNING:: written gore in the spoiler]
He waited, just as he always did, anticipating the exit but something Deskri had said caused him to completely freeze, his hands shook violently as something different built up inside him. Obscurite wanted to jab at him at what she knew would inevitably come next, but she would be oh so wrong. The other voice was dead silent, just as taken back as Rasiel had been. And now Deskri was gone, and he was alone to drown in his own self remorse and guilt.
He smothered his face into his hands and he inhaled to scream, but something else came out. Words. "Never.................two.. different.. people..." he muttered. He began to chuckle. How ironic it was that Deskri, the same person who had refused to talk to Rhun because he was too different from Rasiel, was now telling him he was always the same person all along. His chuckle erupted into the silence, growing in intensity until it was full blown uncontrollable laughter. Wasn't this just the perfect ending to this whole ******** mess. He arched back, lowering his hands as he laughed aloud, slowly turning more angry, the laugh was harsh and full of rage as it overlook himself. He then let out a scream as he then pulled his arm up and bit into his wrist hard, blood pooling up quickly as he let go he began into loud forced laughter again. He summoned his blood gun and trudged into the bedroom to see in the mirror, his own crazed face staring back at him. This was his breaking point. He held the gun to his head, hesitating to pull the trigger.
Don't. We can fix this..
"You're right... We can fix this... I can fix this."
The gun changed in form into a knife and he clenched his teeth hard.
Do it.
Rasiel yelled aloud as he then forced the knife into his skin above his right eye and raked it down hard to cut down into his marking. This pain was reminiscent of what Obscurite had done to him long ago, this was no different, he could handle this.
After he was done, he dropped the knife and it melted into blood in a pool on the floor. He stared at his own ******** up face. He let out another scream and punched the mirror hard, shattering it. He put a hand up to his scarred up face as hot tears filled his eyes and burned his wounds. He stumbled over to the bed and fell into it, laying on his back. Staring up, he could barely see through his left eye and nothing at all from his right. Rhun seemed to try to say something but Rasiel's voice interrupted it, "No, I don't want to hear it.. I don't want to hear anything. I'm done being someone I'm not. Whether I'm a monster or not, I'll accept it. I'm just too tired to fight this anymore.." he closed his eyes and stifled a sob, curling up a bit as he laid on his side. "I want to go home..."
