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There was a sad smile from Alphard as he lifted the patch of white hair, the faint scars that traced on his forehead and scalp half hidden by the hairline. "Strike one is my skin color, strike two is that I have scars. Humans aren't the problem- our culture is." He let his lean fall back until he was completely laying down.

"And this is what we call deep s**t. If you wanna see what you look like-"

He reached out, phone summoned before he clicked through until selfie mode had been activated.

"Hold it up and it'll be like a mirror. I'll even turn away. Like, I get s**t for my skin color. If you want to talk hate on appearances I'm no stranger to that. You'd have to have been really spooky to start with if you think our reaction wholesale would be freak out though."

He did turn away to his side, the phone in selfie mode still there for Caedus if he wanted.
"You say you can't but the only thing stopping you is you. You gotta let it go. s**t happens, but when you let it control you- that gives your past power over you. You stay a victim when you do that." He picked at the grass.

"Thats why I had to leave my family. They wanted to use me, they hurt me because of my skin. So I left, and I don't let it define me. I'm more than that you know?"

He sighed.
"Shiiit I got hit hard. ******** I knew this strain was strong but damn."

Alphard remained facing away, picking at grass as he figured that he was just feeling emotional that night. It wasn't a strong strain, he was lying and badly and goddamn it all he'd walked right into that mess that was emotional issues.

"It's cool. People are complex and just... scared I guess. Nobody wants to be different, but we just are. And thanks." He smiled.

"I like my skin too. Keeps all my organs inside me and stuff." So eloquent.
"But nah, it's not being strong, but being understanding. Strength doesn't offer insight to cause and effect, to the source of a problem. Smarts are better than strength. You got the smarts though. I feel it like-"
He sat up, eyes looking at the alien.
"Like here you feel me? But yeah. I think I'm bringing up too much. It got heavy quick. Uh-" He looked at the duffle bag. "I brough munchies, snacks for when the hunger kicks in. Toke up much as you want but- think I should probably do my deep buzz alone. I went back man. Full family issues." A beat, the senshi of night frowned.

"Family can be ******** up."

He stood, eyes a little glossy, body a bit lanky and sluggish.

"You're alright Cadeus. You're alright."