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 Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 12:26 am
 "Well...okay..." She still wanted to pay for it herself, she wasn't any good at being the girlfriend here...Sam was really more of the housewife type than she was, after all. He got to teach everything, and really kept everything running well...Sometimes it made her feel insecure, but she loved him regardless, with all of her heart. Just like she loved Dax. "Well...if we're going to have children, somewhere bigger would be nice..." She murmured, then glanced back to the kitchen for a moment, frowning. "I want kids...But what about you Sam~?" She trilled just a little for him, smiling back to the kitchen as she leaned in her chair. She hoped he would! He'd be a great dad!
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 12:40 am
 "Uh what?" he asked, trying to act like he wasn't eavesdropping and having a slight bout of panic. "Kids? I mean...maybe...I...I don't know I never thought about it really." not entirely true, he'd thought about it, and it had mostly been in the "no" category for him. "Maybe." he said glancing over and giving her a shrug and half smile before going back to dishes.  Dax didn't like Sam's reaction and he knew it was going to distress Sophie. He reached over and took her hand in his and squeezed a bit, giving her a look that said "don't push it." Sophie knew most of Sam's history with his parents, or rather parent, so it wasn't surprising at all that he was reluctant to step into that realm himself. It would just take time...or Sophie batting those pretty green eyes at him once she was set on having babies of their own.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 12:50 am
Sophie caught on immediately, just frowning a little. Oh... "It's okay! We shouldn't then..." She barely managed to keep sounding normal, to hide how much it hurt to know that they weren't going to. She would never dare to do something that would hurt Sam as much as that possibly would, so...maybe it was for the best that the three of them never decide to imbue a stone. Besides, weren't they too busy for that anyway? She got up from her seat, gently letting go of Dax's hand to coax his tail off of her foot and smiled weakly at him. "I probably need a shower...The lecture hall was pretty humid today and I sweated into my clothes."
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 10:01 am
Sam's ears drooped and he glanced over at Sophie. He hadn't flat out said no, but considering the look Dax was giving her, she'd taken it as one. Wasn't he allowed to be unsure about this? How did they expect him to just want to do this without talking about it more? He turned back to vehemently scrubbing at the dish he'd baked the chicken in and satisfied it was going to get clean once the machine ran, put it in the dishwasher. Dax watched Sophie. That wasn't what Sam had said, but he let her hand go and watched her untangle herself and get up. "Okay." he said. "You'll need a clean towel, washed yours from last time you were here." he said and watched her go.
He then got up and went over to the sink and turned off the water so Sam couldn't use it as an excuse to not hear him. "Need to talk to her. Explain it to her. I mean she gets it, but...she doesn't." he said putting his back against the counter and leaning back. "I know you're scared, but she doesn't understand why you are." Sam sighed and put his hands on the edge of the sink, claws clicking softly. "I know, but she should expect this! Why would I just want to jump into something like this!?" he swallowed. "What if I turn into him?" six years since the last time he'd seen the man and he was still hovering over him like a sword ready to strike. Would that feeling ever go away? He stared at the last of the soap bubbles popping around the drain. "You know Sophie and I won't let that happen, Sam. It'll be okay." He reached over and put a hand on one of Sam's. "Yeah..." he sighed and smiled a bit at Dax's gesture. "So, let's wait for the Princess to emerge and talk about it." he said. Dax nodded in agreement and moved out to the living room to sit on the couch and wait for Sophie to get finished with her shower.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 10:57 am
She did understand, though. She knew no meant no for a reason, and was a little hurt that he had decided to say 'maybe' instead. Even so, the message came across loud and clear. No kids. It hurt a little bit, that was for sure, but she was sure she could deal with it. After all, being with them made her happy, why would she need kids to be happy? Having her partners feel loved and safe was more important, after all. Sometimes there were just things that couldn't be agreed upon, and this was going to be one of them. She took her time in the shower, wanting to make sure every inch of her fur was clean. Class really had been hell today, and all she wanted to do was feel clean and normal again. Of course, after that, it took quite a bit of time to dry off, and make sure her fur was brushed as well. She had to be perfect for them after all. Throwing on one of her nightgowns she'd left over from the many times she'd spent the night, she finally came out, yawning a little. It had been a long day...
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 7:40 pm
Ears perked as Sophie emerged from the bathroom. He stood up and looked her over and took a deep breath. "Can we talk, Soph?" he said green eyes wider than usual. "I just...I wasn't really ready for the subject of kids and look I know it means a lot to you and Dax and, I'm...I'm scared." he said. A big thing for him to admit and it was obvious he was trying not to tear up as he sniffed and scrubbed at his eyes with the back of his arm. "So, I want to talk about it, and you know I'd do anything for you, Princess. Anything." he said gently and motioned for her to take a seat on the couch between him and Dax.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 10:32 pm
Sophie wasn't sure what to think when Sam stood up, wanting it all to be over already. No meant no, didn't it? It would be wrong to violate him like that, to do something he desperately didn't want for her own selfish gain...But regardless she listened to him, ears folding back as he tried not to cry. She'd already hurt him, she hurt one of her most precious boys...! Wibbling a little she made her way over and buried her face in his chest, clinging tight to him.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 11:00 pm
Sam sat back down and grunted a bit as Sophie's head hit his chest. "Soph..." he said gently and stroked her hair, slowly dropping his arms to put them around her. "I'm not mad, I'm not upset, okay? We just...gotta talk about this before we commit to anything." he looked over at Dax a bit helplessly and hugged Sophie tight. "Don't cry, Princess, you know I can't stand to see you cry." Dax sighed as Sophie proceeded to try and bury herself in Sam's chest. He slid a bit closer at Sam's look and leaned over to put arms around her and partially on Sam since the options were wiggle between the two of them to just be around Sophie or just hug Sam. Hugging Sam as well was just easier logistically.
"It'll be okay, Dearheart. I don't think any of us really expected to get on this topic tonight, but it was high time we talked about it anyway. Everything will work out, just gotta figure out how okay?" he kissed the top of her head between her horns. "Not worth crying over. We're all a little nervous and scared and worried right now."
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 11:07 pm
It was a little too late, the fur on his neck was already getting a little wet. She tried to keep from choking up sobs, just focusing on clinging a little more, feeling safe with both of them there. She loved them both far too much, she felt like the family she'd never had was right here and didn't want to lose them. At any cost, she would protect and cherish them...no matter what. "T-Too late..." She managed to squeak out, looking up with eyes full of tears and a forced smile.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 11:30 pm
"Figured, but didn't hurt to say, Dearheart." he chuckled a bit and kissed the top of her head again, loosening up a bit so she could shift around if she needed too, and Sam could adjust. "We still love you and aren't going to leave you or do anything weird over this. Okay?"Sam nodded in agreement and took the opportunity to shift a bit to get more comfortable. "I'm just..." he let out a breath noisily. "What if I'm no good as a parent, Soph? What if I screw everything up and I turn into my dad? Dax says you won't let that happen, but...the one person on the planet who was supposed to love me because I was their's, despised me. What if I hate my kids, I don't think I could, but what if I did!? I just...what if I'm a bad parent, Soph?" His ears dropped and he sighed letting his head sink towards his ruff.
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Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2015 11:49 pm
Sophie didn't want to shift, she just wanted to be close for as long as possible. She loved them, she felt safe with them, she just wanted to be held and loved...and maybe if she just kept holding on to Sam, he'd feel better too...She listened, shaking her head when she disagreed, face hidden in his fluff again. She couldn't help but kiss under his chin when his head finally dropped, bumping her own head. "You won't be though...You're not like him at all..." She tried, reaching up to cup his cheeks in her fluffy hands. "We won't let you...we love you and want you to be okay...If not having kids is better for you in the long run then we won't have any..."
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Posted: Wed Oct 07, 2015 12:04 am
"I guess not...but still there's a chance." he sighed and hugged her again. "I don't know, Soph. I want you to be happy, and why should you give up something you and probably Dax want? That's not fair to you. Makes me a huge jerk, and just..." he shrugged and moved his hand to get an itch on his shoulder. "I just...I know you two won't let me be a horrible person like him, but I'm still scared. Maybe that's a good thing though? You're supposed to be scared of having kids? Not a decision you should make lightly? I mean it's a huge responsibility after all, and how can you ever rub it in my face that I was wrong if we don't try?" he tried to grin and then slumped again.
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Posted: Wed Oct 07, 2015 12:32 am
She frowned a little, hugging him tight to try and make him feel safe...She didn't like making him hurt like this, it hurt her to see him like this again... "And I want you to be happy...It doesn't make you a huge jerk at all. It just means maybe it isn't for you..." She wanted him to feel better, wanted to see him smile again, and every single moment she was getting more scared that she'd never see that again. "Yeah...I guess you're supposed to be? Honestly I feel more excited about it..." She took one of his hands and put it over her heart, smiling a little. "See? I feel like I've got butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it..." Sophie tried to laugh a little, tilting her head to the side. "I guess...We'd make some pretty cute kids...And they'd be troublemakers like you~."
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Posted: Wed Oct 07, 2015 9:21 am
He smiled at bit as she put his hand on her heart. "Yeah probably, and be way too smart like you and Dax." His tail thumped on the floor and he slid his hand up to cup her cheek. He took a deep breath. "I'm...willing to try...for you." he said. "Just don't let me screw up okay?""We won't." Dax smiled and hugged them both again. "We can make it work." he said with a firm nod and moved one hand to push up his glasses. "We always make it work."
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Posted: Wed Oct 07, 2015 9:31 am
She couldn't help but nuzzle his hand, giving a soft smile up at him in return. "You know we won't...We love you more than anything, and we'll protect you and keep you safe no matter what...Thought that clause excludes from the kids. I can't agree to that~." She giggled a little, beaming more as she thought about him getting his claws painted and being forced into tea parties or playing baseball...He'd be fine. She was sure of it.
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