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The Horse's thoughts were pretty much how I feel with starting conversations with individuals lol

I'm alright. Working and working.
How about you?

That is completely up to you. I guess some of his stuff has appeared in adult swim and one video popped up in Adventure time.

I'm getting tired of working. I was only part time, but I somehow picked up hours that It's like I'm working full time.
I work as a CNA and its a shitty job, quite literally; I get poop on me.

I don't watch T.V much anymore. I just know they aired on those two haha.
But its alright.

Ahh. Yeah. Sometimes its not too bad. Just I wish some residents would go elsewhere instead of treating us like we're not humans.

That's an interesting volunteer. Dead people to me are a weird concept.
I remember going to a cadaver lab and looking at organs and whatnot of dead people and I kept trying to remind myself that those were actual people not just ugly dolls.

I almost did today. I felt like I was treated like a dog by this resident, but work is work. Gotta be proffessional about it.

You seem to do fine socializing over here haha, but that's understandable.

A mortician? That would be pretty interesting haha. I'm sure you'll do fine. If you follow what you're supposed to do and don't complain too much you should be fine
(that's how i manage to get most of my coworkers and nurses to like me)

Dead humans, like I mentioned is weird to me. I don't know how to explain how I think it's weird.
Dead animals, I found appreciation though.Well for science that is. Animal dissections I appreciated, roadkills and other things nope.

It's really hard though haha. She's one of the residents I honestly don't like due to her massive demands and mumbling speech.

Your social anxiety gets that bad? wow. I've actually never met anyone with that severe of anxiety.

But as for your god son, Not going to lie, that did seem a little harsh, but at least you felt some guilt about it.
Though I assume your godson is only a toddler?

Yeah, taking classes for you would be hard. Ever considered online courses though?

I mean, it's understandable for people to be a little, if not, completely terrified of the dead. That's kind of a general reaction. To each their own right?

Roadkill and hunting don't quite bother me. I just don't really find much appreciation in that form of death. It seems a little too brutal.

Ehh. I kindly told her that I wasn't a dog and to call me and treat me like a human, didn't quite go all out though. I was too busy to be completely snap.
When you have 8 residents to push from the dining room back to the unit which takes about 1 minute thats about 8 minutes+ and time is incredibly precious to me. within 10 minutes i had 4 people in my hallway calling for my help and I'm only but one person. So I was more worried about that haha.

ahhh. That's right. the exams. thats a problem indeed. I'm sure you'll find a way to take your GED's
So your school kicked you out for social anxiety? that seems rude.

hmm.. I dont know. I've seen 7 year olds scream and yell around for no good reason. They weren't anyone related to me so I can't really relate haha. They were just family friends' children.

Oooh. Death talk with children? What did you tell them? Didya affiliate it with some religious thing or something else more creative?

Death can be brutal, but we have to accept it right? It's part of the cycle of life and we need it to make room for the next generations to come and death isn't always the end right?

Haha. that wasn't weird. It was interesting that someone is thanking me for being too busy to snap. But what you say is true though. They are old grumpy people who can't do anything for themselves. They do have the right to their crabbiness (some are just not in their heads anymore though).
But what can you do? They do what they do, and we take the abuse (not all are abusive.)

Ehhhh? Why did you leave? You were alone though. Though I shouldn't pry into this subject. Might be a touchy matter. Still, it's still rather curious.
To be honest, taking a test alone isnt quite average anymore really.
But i suppose with this severe anxiety it would be difficult.

Schools used to have teachers that go to houses? That's a first I've ever heard of that. But that sucks.
Yeah, going on special ed isn't appealing and seems.. counter intuitive when they say you're too smart for high school.
Dang dude. That's harsh. I assume you went into a deep spiral of depression then. But the past is the past now right?

I suppose. I mean he could have been just yelling to entertain himself? I yell out loud random things when i'm alone to keep myself company at times haha. it gets too quiet.

Ahh I see I see. It seemed like that was the general way to go. I've never had to tell any kids about what comes after death. I would probably stick with religious angle as well, since its the easiest route. But knock on wood I have to do this any time soon.

To me, I don't know what lies after death with one thing. Ive heard various opinions from people about what comes after death. Ive heard opinions that after death is nothing, that we return back to the earth as part of an energy that contributes the growth of life itself (almost like... FFVII concept of life stream), to the common idea of heaven, and the idea of an after life and rebirth. So I just kinda stick with a mash of everything.
hell could've been considered the oblivion, purgatory and all that could be the life stream concept/ the whole ghost paranormal incidents. and heaven could be just be the rebirth.

Those not in their head are usually the dementia patients and even though they can be a handful, they can be entertaining at times. Their speeches sometimes are funny. One of those residents thought I was their husband (maybe when they were dating) and told me "You have to choose between me and her and show that you love me." I was laughing and she said in response "What's so funny? Why can't you between me and her?"

Ooh. I guess the pressure was too much then. I mean, hey if you get the opportunity again I'm sure you'll do great. emotion_c8

I could only imagine how your workplace would only make things worse for you. I honestly feel like workplaces nowadays don't care much about your education or your life. As long as they got workers working for them, they're content and happy.

I've never gotten the "theyre just sleeping" I guess going to a catholic school, death was taught to us at an early age so we know that death means they expired and they no longer move or do anything. etc. etc.

Yeah. knowing would be really nice, but trying to find out whats on the other side is a one way road. Can't go back anymore haha. Curiosity here permanently kills the cat.

Ps. Sorry for the large rant/spammy posts.