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Shu'd said things concerning his feeling towards pains, but being called a pervert shoved every single bit of her worries down the steep cliff. "Nope, I'll tell her if you don't take your words back, Leslie."

She tried to make a serious face. "What do you mean by that mouth?! My mouth is fine! And-" she took a deep breathe, "-after you told me your feeling to Abbi-chan, I no longer ship you two together." She might be a bit loud but who cared! "I-I have kissed my brother, but not on the mouth, just his cheek. I still have my first kiss-on-lip reserved." It was weird that she looked jittery for a moment. "Sibings can also share kisses, don't be silly Leslie.

Shu didn't notice whether Leslie understand the words she used, she was a bit emotional. "......I know how impossible it is," she sighed softly, "I know it can be just a wish, but that's the only thing I can do."

That was what she always did, she didn't deserve to reach out for anything, she wasn't allowed to ask for any. Thus she waited, hopefully someone would discover her behind the door and give her a hand. She waited and only waited, she curled up and sat quietly, rested her head on her knees, staring at the door.

She smiled, "Are you gonna find me someone?" Grinning, she said a harmless joke to sweep away the weird ambience. She never expect they would talk about relationships and romances one day. Hiding her face behind Mr. Ribbit, leaving her big and round eyes looking, "Leslie, how's your first kiss then?" Although she covered most of her face, her red ears may sell her out.

Shu felt she was a good Death hunter, seeing how well her prying skill was. Thus, she raised a smug smile, "It must be the culture difference Leslie." She assumed he meant the not-English words she spoke or mentioned and used her hand to put his finger down. "No one tells you pointing at someone is impolite?"

"You're not a good matchmaker Leslie, poor Abbi-chan, I think she's capable to get herself some dates though. Uh-uh." She nodded to herself that Abbi was such a sweetheart.

Her eyes lit up like feline's sniffing out smell of mice, "Uh-huh, how many percent of it was true?" He was stuttered, but it didn't really resemble the blushing face she saw in movies or manga, something must be made up. Alright, she knew it's embarrassing to talk about it for a tsundere guy like Leslie, she would forgive him for not telling the truth.

"You can poke my nose maybe, as long as I won't switch off like kittens do. Have you watched the gif about that? It's ridiculously adorable!" She didn't seem to mind his mean words at all. "It's a matter of fact, in my country, it's about respect though the whole etiquette thing in my culture is troublesome, I admit", she smiled, "but that's the interesting point to learn others' cultures."

Shu grinned, "I'm better than you then, I found my friend a nice boyfriend." She was somehow proud of it, the encouragement and push she gave to Noemi for Milo.

With his attitude changed, she pressed her lips together. "I don't like you use the word 'pry'. If you want to know it, just you ask and I will tell you. Aren't friends supposed to tell truth to each other? I treat you as a friend, Leslie, and I trust you won't tell anyone about it if I tell you so." The amber color of her eyes deepened, like condensed honey, she gazed at Leslie. "You only need to ask me."

"That's sad, I will download it to my phone and I'll show you, it's really cute!"

Shu's eyes widened, unbelieving the shrewd boy just pushed his responsibility on her. "I can't believe it, Leslie. I'm not the one oweing Abbi, be a responsible brother! Wait - have you asked if she's dating someone already?"

Her eyes followed Leslie to scan around, it was luckily a rare time that only sleeping patients and occasionally hunters on duty passed by. "Hmm....secrets....." She mused, thinking of which to start with. At the same time, she acknowledged of how shrewd Leslie was, why it was her first every time. She breathed out a grumpy air. "I'm an orphan, does it count?" She never actively tell anyone she was, so it counted right?

She loved how assured Leslie sounded, there was a beautiful trust between them, so good.

She waved her hands, "I don't mean my mom and dad die, but I'm disowned -" She mused, touching her face, "so...I guess I can say so." Her words didn't leak any sadness, even though in Chinese society, it was not common for whatever reasons.

Shu leaned in closer, just a bit, or their head will collide. "Can you remember how she looked? How did you discover you have feeling for her?" She asked, shortly said, "I'm not prying...I just kinda want to know what signals you will have when you fall in love......there was so many feelings, how to distinguish it's love or not?"

She didn't understand why he had such a big reaction suddenly, the look he gave her was "I couldn't believe it" but all he said was about a girl, she didn't quite catch the first part though his voice was too small. "But-but they said I'm a monster -" She replied, blinking in confusion.

"Leslie - where're you going -" In panic, she flopped to catch his wrist but she forgot she shouldn't walk yet, so the pain dragged her reflex and she fell onto the floor. It hurt but she caught him when he turned back. "I'm sorry, you only said about the girl and I thought it's something I can ask. I have feeling for someone, not I don't know what it is - so when you said that, I thought I can ask you.....I'm sorry to hurt you."

She didn't even really grab on his wrist, only circling it with her fingers, prostrating. The wound ached but she didn't want to lose a friend if she was the mistake.

His words knocked firmly on her heart. She wanted to tell him they said so, in the hospital, waiting for the red lights of the surgical room to go off, but she just slightly opened her mouth. You are, how much he knew about you? You didn't tell him what you actually did - Thus she cringed, like it was an reaction to the pain.

Leslie helped her sat on her bed again, despite the pain still rang in her mind, she was looking at him. She was glad he didn't leave. She watched as he struggled, voice mixed with pains she didn't understand but her eyes didn't leave him. She waited patiently until he was ready for it.

His words rang in her mind, she caught it this time. Shu used her tiny body to wrap herself around Leslie, like a cool blanket. Her body never feel warm but a bit cool. She felt she did something awful to Leslie, how much energy and courage for him to say that out. "How could he....doing this to you? ....He's freakin' bad." She held him tightly. She wasn't sure what exactly everything meant, she just knew his brother did something that hurt Leslie too much. She might peek the reason why he was always so realistic, he didn't wish or talk about dream.

Z would say Leslie make Shu break a record saying freakin', but like Shu didn't tell him everything, he can just think about it without telling the his petite partner. He was well acknowledged that moment should be only theirs.

It wasn't pity or sympathy, it was the hurtful feeling that her friend was badly hurt. He didn't deserve to be treated like that, she couldn't sure what she would become if her siblings betrayed her. It was too horrible to think about, and - it happened to Leslie. She didn't know if boys had the thought of keeping first time for someone they liked, but definitely no one liked to have it taken unwillingly.

Her own breathe raced because of the anger, Shu seldom really get angry unless the one she cherished being hurt. She wanted to rush to Leslie's brother face and punch it right until he regretted of what he had done. "It's not your first because you didn't want it, only the first time you wanted it counts!" She said quietly but certainly, she wished she could do something to make him feel better but she wasn't a smart thing. She was unlike Mimsy who was resourceful, she wasn't like Robert who can distract you with his shiny passion. She didn't like Noemi who is a sweet warm girl or a wise person like Jordan or Dylon.

Not only her breathing, her body began to shake recalling something. It was so close that time - if not her brother came. It made the bloods inside her froze....... Stop thinking, you don't need that slice of memories. Her hug slightly changed, more like clinging as she tried to get rid of it but her expression was blank for a moment.