Ariella's Journal

[PantherGirl2010]

You guys wanted to know, so here it is...My YouTube Channel It involves me singing mostly...I hope you guys like it...

▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder

▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me  

[PantherGirl2010]

So, I finally did it...I wrote my first fanfiction. It's about The Outsiders, the book and movie I've been obsessed with for awhile. So, I guess it's time I shared it with y'all. I just wrote it, so don't judge too harshly, okay?

I opened the door to the library and walked into the quiet, peaceful environment. It was always the place I went to escape the world. See, I’m claustrophobic, and can’t stand being around a lot of people. Since most people in the small town of Tulsa didn’t read, it was a great escape place. I found the section that I always go to and noticed two boys I had seen in passing before. The one reading silently out loud had the most amazing light brown, sort of reddish hair, I’d ever seen. His voice sounded soft and sweet. The other boy, tan skin, black hair, he looked much younger than the boy reading. I took a seat at a table near them, trying to not disturb them at all. I found the books I had been reading last time, books about the Supernatural. Ghosts, aliens, things like that. They were what I loved. I could get lost in the books for hours on end. I sat down and began reading a book about Haunted Houses.

About an hour later, I heard the two boys getting ready to leave. “Thank you for reading to me, Ponyboy,” said the tan, black haired one. So, the one reading was Ponyboy. The kid in some of my classes. He’s a smart one. “No problem Johnny,” Ponyboy said back to him with a smile. Johnny…I knew that name, but I just couldn’t really think of how I knew him. Maybe because of school. Just then, some socs showed up around me. My throat began tightening. The feeling of a panic attack from claustrophobia setting in. "I’m in deep trouble if I have an attack now," I think to myself. I take a deep breath and look up…to see one of the socs holding a switchblade towards me.

"So, this is the pretty greaser girl we’ve heard so much about," one of them said. I’m assuming he was the leader of the group. I shoot a look behind them and notice Ponyboy and Johnny still there. Johnny looked terrified, but Ponyboy looked concerned. I look back at the guy holding the blade with a determined, sort of evil look in my eye. "What’s it to ya?" I asked him defiantly. He sort of looked taken aback. "She’s a smart mouther too," he said smirking. I stood up slowly to put the books away and get out of there before I had an attack. I knew my brother, Dallas Winston, would want me home soon, and if I didn’t show, he’d worry himself sick. Sure, Dallas is a tough guy, but I’m his kid sister. We had different moms, and I’m really only his kid sister by a few months due to Dad cheating on his mom with my mom, but still he wouldn’t want anything to happen to me. Sure, I’m seventeen years old, almost eighteen, but he has a right to worry.

Just then, one of the boys grabbed me and threw me down to the ground. I hit the ground with a slight gasp, panic setting in ten times worse than before. If I didn’t get out of there, I was going to have an attack. The one with the switchblade stepped over me, one leg on either side of me. “We know you’re Dallas Winston’s little sister, and he f*cked up our stuff. So we’re going to make him pay by torturing you,” he said putting the blade against my cheek. I stared at him, shock overwhelming me. I knew I couldn’t scream due to being in a library, but damn was I scared stiff. He slowly dragged the blade down my face, and I didn’t even make a sound. It hurt like hell, but my old man did worse to me than that.

A few minutes later, the boy with the switchblade, I heard someone call him Randy, grabbed my jeans and was about to rip them off to rape me. To drag it out, he cut a few places in my jeans, right to my leg, making me bleed more. Right there in a public library of all places! I panicked then, and I kicked. I kicked and punched, but not a sound came out. One of them hit me hard in the head, nearly causing me to black out. But I noticed that Johnny was gone. "Good. I don’t want him to see this," I thought to myself. But Ponyboy…he was still there. Just then, I saw Dallas come and grabbed them all by the collars and threw them outside where I presume Dallas beat the tar out of them.

"Hey, are you okay?" I heard a voice say to me. I looked up to see Johnny. His eyes were black, but were so beautiful. Ponyboy was gathering up my books and stuff. "Uh…yeah. Thank you," I said I realized my jeans, my favorite pair of jeans, had a few good slices in them. "D*mn socs," I muttered under my breath. That got a small chuckle out of Johnny. He stood up and held his hand out for me, which I graciously took. "I’m sorry we didn’t help you, but we knew Dally would," he said. I smiled at him politely.

We walked outside to see the socs running away, blood everywhere. Dallas rushed up to me and hugged me. “Are you okay? They didn’t get you too bad, did they?” He asked me. I chuckled lightly. “I’m fine Dally. Don’t worry,” I said smiling slightly. I only had the cut on my cheek luckily and a few on my legs, and even then, I had been through worse…and Dallas knew that. We walked with Ponyboy and Johnny over to the Curtis house for me to finally meet the gang.

After we met everyone and ate, I felt another panic attack coming on. “I’m going to the park,” I say quickly and rush out. Dallas knew what was happening. Everyone looked at him weirdly. “She has a small case of claustrophobia. She gets panicky sometimes,” he said. Johnny jumped up to follow me after he said that, just to be sure I’d be safe. Sweet little Johnny, as they liked to call him.

At the park, I was hyperventilating from the attack I was having and I felt a hand on my shoulder and jumped ready to fight, but noticed it was Johnny. “Dally told us what was happening. I didn’t want you out here alone,” he said looking at the ground. I smiled at him. No one had ever been that nice before. “Thank you,” I said sitting down. Johnny sat beside me and put his arm around me. “I know we just officially met, but I’ve seen you around. I think you’re a great gal,” Johnny said. I leaned my head against his shoulder. “Would you like to, maybe, go on a date sometime?” he asked me suddenly. I looked up at him and smiled. “Of course I would,” I said to him. He kissed my cheek gently and smiled. I knew then that I had found an amazing guy, and hopefully this would be a tale of love and happiness.  

[PantherGirl2010]

Well, that "friend" that I had living with me awhile back...we're no longer friends. She went into Circle K where a true friend of mine works and was saying how my rules were dumb and sh*t then talked about how she got hired at a clothing store on the spot...I doubt it'll last long because she talks in a whispered tone and hates talking to people in general, but we'll see. Also, her mom called me a b*tch to my friend, so I'm wiping her out of my life for good.

▌Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn my back and slam the door

▌And here I stand and here I'll stay Let it go, let it go The cold never bothered me anyway  

[PantherGirl2010]

That "friend" and I are on really bad terms. This b*tch isn't giving me back my Yu-Gi-Oh deck that I gave her. I gave it to her because I wasn't using it, and I didn't want the cards just sitting around. All she does is collect them. I asked her nicely twice for them, and she said no both times. I told her she won't get any of the clothes she left here back if she doesn't give me my deck back...so let's see how that goes.


▌Cause you're not alone, girl Look over your shoulder You don't have to wonder Cause you know, you know, you know

▌You're not alone, girl I'll be there to hold you I'll stay til it's over And you know, you know, you know  

[PantherGirl2010]

So, that friend refuses to give me the Yu-Gi-Oh cards back. Sure, that's not something to be mad about...unless that friend has only ever taken from you and never given back anything in return. A friendship, or any relationship, works where both parties give and take...not just one party doing so. I don't think she gets that. She says she doesn't have to give me anything because we kicked her out and made her go back to her parents house, which we did because we're not doing so hot right now financial wise, and we all thought she'd be better off there, and she even has a job now...so she can stick it where the sun don't shine...

▌Cause you're not alone, girl Look over your shoulder You don't have to wonder Cause you know, you know, you know

▌You're not alone, girl I'll be there to hold you I'll stay til it's over And you know, you know, you know  

[PantherGirl2010]

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Ariella Sokol

You guys wanted to know, so here it is...My YouTube Channel It involves me singing mostly...I hope you guys like it...

▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder

▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me

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Thank you. <3 I need to get more videos done, which I'll do this weekend.

▌Cause you're not alone, girl Look over your shoulder You don't have to wonder Cause you know, you know, you know

▌You're not alone, girl I'll be there to hold you I'll stay til it's over And you know, you know, you know  

[PantherGirl2010]

Guess I should give y'all an update on my life...it's been awhile. After that fight with my "friend", I sort of fell off the face of the earth. I was depressed, upset, and just all around not all there. I'm okay now. I'm a little sick from the up and down weather, but other than that, I'm fine. If you want to message me, talk on here, whatever, you can.

▌Cause you're not alone, girl Look over your shoulder You don't have to wonder Cause you know, you know, you know

▌You're not alone, girl I'll be there to hold you I'll stay til it's over And you know, you know, you know  

[PantherGirl2010]

So, I haven't been on in awhile...I'm sorry about that. I've been busy. My fiance finally has a job. I'm still looking for one. We've been busy with holiday stuff and whatnot. Things are pretty great right now. Just updating everyone. smile

▌Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn my back and slam the door

▌And here I stand and here I'll stay Let it go, let it go The cold never bothered me anyway  

[PantherGirl2010]

So, guess what? I finally got a job!!! I work at Build-A-Bear. Just thought I'd let y'all know about my excitement.

▌You’re over my head I’m out of my mind Thinking I was born in the wrong time One of a kind, living in a world gone plastic

▌Baby you’re so classic Baby you’re so classic Baby you, Baby you’re so classic