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 Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2014 2:59 pm
"You're...you're not a ********, it's me that-" Harrison shook his head.
"He's hurt, I can't-"
Harrison forced himself to lock up, then went on to struggle down the hallway against the tide of his own self-loathing and regret.
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2014 3:04 pm
Jordan remained where he was, watching Harrison until he was out of sight. Eventually he pushed himself off the wall and made his way back to his room. He wasn't needed or wanted here.
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2014 3:35 pm
The infirmary wasn't in much better shape, everyone must be- what, realizing all the s**t they'd done, all the people they hurt-
If that was the case, Rep had hurt a lot of people. And Harrison had let it happen. But, somehow...he couldn't- even though he'd failed, even though he knew it was awful, Rep had been nothing but kind and protective towards him. Without deserving anything.
Even if it meant more people got hurt as a result.
He couldn't let Rep get hurt. He knew that with certainty.
"I...I need a sedative. For him, something's wrong, I think-"
Harrison was greeted with an uncanny amount of gleaming and eager eyes, and the glint of...more than enough needles.
When he returned to his room, it was with extra sedatives and a Rep who was even limper than before. He kept him topped off the rest of the day, fighting off the same stabs of self-consciousness.
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2014 5:22 pm
When Rep came to it was already sedated and finally able to ignore the horrific things that had pursued him that morning. He dazedly looked around the room and immediately mused. "Its....its really ******** pretty in here." slumping against his bed. "So... so're you." he added, giving Harrison a drugged up grin.
He spent a lot of the time rambling, often calling Harrison the wrong name as he appeared to think that he was in hospital before the island. He got called anything from "Ma" to "Gordie" and anything in between. Sometimes when the sedative would wear off he'd make an immediate beeline towards sharp or dangerous objects, it was a full day job to keep an eye on him.
It was only the next morning that he gave up on the attempts to cause himself harm and spent the entire morning having a long and very ashamed cry. Which was an improvement of sorts.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2014 5:57 am
It was tempting to take an occasional dose for himself. Rep's mood perked right up, even if he was loopy, and it was better than being dead. But if anything happened, and they were both out of commission, or if Rep's wore off while Harrison was still buzzy... so Harrison bore with it.
Rep didn't recognize him most of the time, which Harrison should have expected. Rep called for his mother. For some guy Harrison didn't recognize. Sometimes, when he did remember, he'd ask where Jordan was.
"It's just me," Harrison answered quietly each time.
He gave Rep easy foods for lunch: crackers, spam.
Harrison slept briefly right after Rep took a fresh dose of the sedative, and set an alarm for himself. He couldn't afford not sleeping. There was no telling how long whatever it was was going to last. But as he watched the tropical sun creep in over the darkness outside, he too felt...lighter. The feelings of inferiority, the burdens, the all the bad s**t got cleared away like stormclouds in a strong wind, leaving the warmth of his familiarl self-assurance.
The relief was substantial.
He waited to see if it had let go of Rep too.
Once Rep did come to (later in the morning) he was afraid, and embarrassed, and stressed. But back to himself. Harrison held him then too, just glad things had gotten back to normal so quick.
And he didn't ******** apologize about it either.
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