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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 6:04 pm
Jake had just about put on decent clothes and was reaching for the doorknob when he heard the knock. He instantly froze, fear and doubt clouding his mind. He had a pretty good idea who was behind that door, and... after whatever had just happened, surely it couldn't have been anything good.
What if... what if she came here to break up with him? What if she finally had enough? Surely she must have realized she could have done much, MUCH better, and finally decided to-
Jake sighed. He hated it when Chester was right. He usually always was.
Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst, he opened the door slowly.
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 7:53 pm
Sherry was watching that door open. She was wary. Hopefully the hours had been enough to right things; she certainly felt less aggravated. If he was still angry, well. She didn't know what she would do.
"We should talk." Might as well be blunt about it.
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 7:56 pm
It was only three words, but those three words brought the world crashing down around him. Surely it couldn't be anything good, and though he had hoped it wouldn't come to that, he had to admit there were some things that needed to be clarified.
He gave a nod, eyes downcast. "Did you... want to come in?"
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:03 pm
At least he didn't look angry. The rage was gone from his eyes, and Sherry let herself lower her guard a little.
But she didn't know what to make of the look he wore. Him not wanting to meet her eye could mean a million things.
"Well," she said, stepping toward his room, "I'd rather not have this conversation in the hall."
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:09 pm
Jake stepped aside to let her in, and then closed the door, unable to stop his heart from pounding. s**t, she was going to break up with him, wasn't she? Not that... he'd blame her for wanting to do so, but he couldn't stop that gut-wrenching feeling and nausea. Part of him just wanted to throw up right now.
"What... did you want to talk about?" He was still facing the door, scared to see what her expression would be.
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:17 pm
Sherry stepped in, on one hand upset that he wouldn't look her in the eye (or even at her, really) and glad on the other. It made it easier for her to look at him. But...maybe it was all her fault.
"Last night." The obvious. "What... What happened?"
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:20 pm
At her question, he turned around and met her gaze, quickly lowering it again when he saw her staring at him.
"I..." Might as well be honest. "I... wasn't myself. I felt... really angry and confused for some reason, and then there was this scream..."
His eyes widened with realization, and then he looked up at her with fear. "I didn't... I didn't hurt you, did I?"
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:28 pm
She kept staring at him. She'd already determined he wasn't thinking straight. But was he saying he didn't remember? A hollow sort of feeling started growing in her chest. Fear, anxiety and the feeling of being forgotten. Which was silly, she told herself. Even so, she found herself feeling a little bit defensive.
"Define hurt. Threatened, yes. You pulled the dagger on me again. And..." Her hand rose to her neck and her eyes scanned the floor. "If I were a proper human you would have hurt me. Or worse. I think you wanted to." She looked up at him again. "You don't remember?"
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:47 pm
"I..." He didn't know how to respond. He couldn't believe he did it again. Granted, the first time he had no recollection of her, even though that wasn't an excuse, but even after all this, he... still...
"I think... I remember, though I feel as if part of my mind is trying to block it out." It was a terrible excuse, and he knew she'd think so too, but... there really was no reason he should have acted like that. Why couldn't he control himself?
"I... didn't want to. I don't want to hurt you, but I still... end up doing so..." He stared at the ground, subconsciously rubbing his arm. "Do you... hate me?"
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 8:59 pm
"Well that must be nice," she said with a huff. It was important, Jake, how could you just forget again? Though... Sherry kind of wished she could just forget it.
She sighed. "Do you hate me?" His own question back at him. "Because no, I don't hate you, but... What happened last night, well. I don't know if it was my fault or outside forces or..." Another sigh.
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 9:03 pm
He flinched at her response, though he couldn't blame her for being angry. Perhaps his mind wanted to block it out because he didn't want to acknowledge the fact that he had attacked Sherry, but... she probably wouldn't see it that way. If anything, it'd seem he was just trying to make up excuses again.
"S-Sherry..." He fidgeted with his hands, finding the ring. "I could never hate you. I... l love you. It's not your fault. I just feel like... there's something wrong with me..."
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 9:11 pm
Forgetting was a sensitive subject for Sherry. She knew that was tainting her view, even though she was giving him the benefit of the doubt.
Still, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Maybe...there is. Was. I mean... I don't mean it like there is something wrong. But." Another sigh. "Last night was just bad, anyway. I was angry too. Very angry. I wanted to hurt you." Admitting it out loud made her feel sick. "I think there was more...what with all the glass and whatnot. It's all broken, you know. All of it." Nearly all of her keepsakes were glass.
She fidgeted with her own ring. "I was scared. And... I'm sorry. I just..." She didn't eve know where she was going with it.
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Posted: Tue Jun 24, 2014 11:01 pm
Jake only gave her a weak smile and shook his head. Not that... she'd be able to see it if she kept her eyes closed. "No, it's fine. I know there's something wrong with me. If there wasn't, there'd be no way I'd have forgotten about you, and... I would blame you for wanting revenge. I've done so much to you, it's not fair..."
He wasn't sure if he should be doing what he was about to do, but he walked up to her and took her hands. "I know, and you have every right to be. If I was smart, I'd tell you that staying with me will cause you nothing but trouble, but I... I don't want to lose you again. I know it's selfish and unrealistic, but... after all this, will you still stay with me?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 25, 2014 6:05 am
"It's not fine, and it's not all your fault," she said, looking at him. Even if there was something wrong...well. They could check in on that. She didn't flinch when he took her hands. It wasn't like she was afraid anymore. The night before she'd woke out of a nightmare only to have him... She swallowed, not wanting to remember it. Her gaze settled on his face, searching. She'd come looking for an apology, a way to make things right again, wishing desperately for it to have been a mistake influenced by outside forces. And it seemed like she had what she wanted, mostly. "Jake, I..." Why did everything make her cry? She blinked at him, trying to keep the tears away. "I can't believe you would ask me that." Not crying was a skill she really needed to master, and she gave her self a moment to breathe as she squeezed his hands. "I love you, too, and I don't want to leave. After everything else, everything, I'm certainly not leaving over this. I'm not leaving you unless you want me to. I love you too much." Tears were running down her cheeks as she raised his hands to her lips so she could kiss his fingers. "Could you just do one thing for me? I need to hear you say 'sorry'. Please." She felt selfish and stupid for asking. But it was like when she needed a hug and nothing felt right until she had it. Even if it was just a silly word.
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Posted: Wed Jun 25, 2014 8:51 am
After all he had been rambling about, he couldn't believe he forgot the most basic thing: Apologizing.
"I'm sorry." He spread his hands so that he could touch her cheeks. "I'm sorry for hurting you and I'm sorry for always making you cry. I know I don't deserve you, and after everything I've put you through... you surely deserve someone better. And yet... you've settled for someone like me."
He gave her a small smile, and then leaned down to kiss her.
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