That was a very good question. Maebe moved closer, relatively certain he wasn't going to push her away this time, and climbed up onto his lap. There she sat, settling in comfortably and taking her time before she even said a word.
"It's a lot more complicated than you think. I don't blame you. You're such a sweet thing. So easy to just assume I want you to ******** me, and everything gets back to normal. It's just not that easy, Otto."
She reached up, brushing her fingers casually against the skin of his neck, up to his cheeks, and then feathered them through his hair. "But I like you
so much, I'm going to do for you something that I wouldn't do for anything else. I'm going to spell it all out for you, Otto. I'm going to hold your hand, and tell you exactly why that didn't work. Why I'm still here. Why I'll always be here."
She smiled down at him fondly. "Are you listening? Okay. This is what I want from you, Otto. What I really want. I want you to
sate me. Do you know what that word means? It means a lot more than you'd expect, and a lot more than you're prepared for. I want you to exhaust me. I want you to take all of that rage, that pain, that
suffering inside of you right now, and pour it into me. I want you to spend an entire day tearing me apart. And then, I want you to realize that I've taken everything from you. Every unshed tear and painful groan. Every roll of your eyes and taste on your tongue. I took it. Me. Then, you will feel nothing."
She pulled on his hair, hard and violently, snapping his head back until his neck was exposed. Her tongue traveled up the length of it, leaving a kiss on his adam's apple.
"Then, I'll be sated. And I'll leave."