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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 11:53 am
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 12:06 pm
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"He didn't. It's not his fault he got caught between me and you." Jordan's mouth twisted. "I'm not going to make any more excuses for how I've been, these last months. I ******** up. I know that. I needed to remember who I am."
He realized that his claws were cutting into his palm and relaxed his hand, not uncurling the fist entirely but loosening this grip on nothing. He couldn't stop the tail from lashing. "I chose to leave. I told you once that if I had to push you away to protect myself, I would." He swallowed hard. "I still love you. That hasn't changed, and it won't. But I can't make you love me, and if you don't care about me, it'd just be ******** stupid of me to let you keep hurting me over it." He hissed through his teeth, a sound like a sigh. "And I wouldn't ask Harrison to choose, because that's not ******** fair, and if you're still happy together, that will have to be good enough for me."
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 12:19 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 12:32 pm
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"You're not the bad guys. Jesus. I want you to be happy. You've made it very clear recently that me being there makes you unhappy." Jordan shook his head. "Everything I do, you find a reason for it to be wrong. Stay away, you think I don't care. Get close and touch you, you think I'm trying to impose myself on you. Let you hurt me, you think I'm weak. Don't let you hurt me, you think I'm selfish and just want control."
The claws bit into his hand again, and he let them. "I just want to touch you, because I like to be close to you," he said softly. "I want to look out for you, because I care about you and I want to have some part in your happiness. I'm no goddamn good at saying what I mean without turning it sideways somehow. Just saying it, just coming out and saying s**t, it's like -- it's like being naked in front of a room full of people."
He wrapped his wings tighter around himself. "I haven't changed. What I meant, that got lost for a while. I'm still myself. I still love both of you. But if you don't want me around any more, I don't see how forcing myself into your attention and space is going to change that or help that."
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 12:47 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 12:55 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:04 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:15 pm
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Jordan watched Rep's face, the big, luminous eyes not his and yet still him. It still hurt. Neither of them was innocent, and never really had been. He'd been wrong about a lot of things. But he'd been wrong about this, too. He exchanged a thought with Ferros, made a decision.
"I won't ask you if I can come home, then," he said. "I haven't moved out. I'll come back." He put the trapping kits down and moved across the distance between them, wings unfurling and settling back into their folds behind him, and stopped no more than a foot away from Rep, giving him a long and serious look. "I love you," he said. "It is enough."
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:29 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:36 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:40 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 1:43 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 2:07 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 07, 2014 2:14 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 08, 2014 2:14 am
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