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 Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 9:50 pm
Otto couldn't help. He couldn't save her, could he?
"You say you keep hearing this from us... so just believe in it. If being a constant failure warrants your death, then sign me up to." He snapped back, though he held her close as she hugged him. He didn't want to let go. If he did, she might never come back. "I never do any good. I try, and try, and nothing I do works out." He may even fail to do what he promised...
Nevada wanted to leave. She wanted to go back to her room and leave Otto to be 'safe' from her. "No. No, you can't." Otto looked panicked as she tried to pull away. "If you leave, I might not see you again. What if you go tomorrow? What if someone comes for you in the middle of the night and I'm not there to help you? And this is all I ever get to remember you by?"
His voice wavered, "Stop... telling me to stay safe. Stop saying s**t like you've already given up on yourself."
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:17 pm
"No way." She protested, "Plus you've already come close too many times." She shook her head, "No one deserves death but...sometimes you dig your own hole...I'm just close to getting buried in it."
She did want to leave, already she remember Lance words. Like with Aria, she hadn't done what her lead told her. She had blabbed, told Otto when there was camera's...microphones everywhere. She had told someone else again of her fear, the last time she had done so had driven Aria off the Island and almost got Lance killed in the process. Even if he was the lead, their team was under watch, under surveillance. Because of her...
Always because of her.
"Otto, I have too..." She shook her head, "I haven't....quite so." She looked away, "I'm not giving up...just accepting what may come." Because it would, "I can't stay here you know..." She smiled sadly, "It's not the same as before. I'll be okay tonight...." She tried to assure him. Truthfully she did want to stay, she did want to be here where she thought she could feel safe. But...
"I can't stay here Otto." She tried to put the words, "I want comfort, and to be held and those are things you can't offer me. not they way..." She shook her head, "It's too soon and too late."
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:20 pm
Otto felt a lump form in his throat. He fought it back. Fought the urge to get over emotional. He was too attached to her. She was going to cause him a lot of pain, he could feel it.
"No it's not.." He managed to croak out. "It's not too late. Don't go. Just stay... stay here."
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:28 pm
She closed her eye. "tonight." She said once.
"Only tonight, and then I stop spending the night." She tried to smile at him and wipe away the trail of tears, because she was tougher then this. "I'm not avoiding you..." She touched his cheek again. "We're still friends, still close. I'll still come to play when I can. But when this happens Otto...." She shook her head...
"When it happens, I promise you that I will never regret our friendship. That I remembered playing goldfish, and coming to sleep in the pillow pile and....going to a meeting with you and making you eat food and spending your birthday and stuff. When this happens...I want you to know I was happy to be with you okay? I had you and Stormy. Even with breaking up with Chelsea...I wasn't unhappy when I with you..." She squeezed his hand and moved to the pillow pile. "I'll stay right here..." One more lie, she'd stay till he fell asleep and sneak out. Go to her original room...not the one she shared with Stormy, but her original one.
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:33 pm
She was saying goodbye. It was pre-emptive, but it was basically her will. Otto's lip quivered. It was getting harder and harder not to become emotional. She was breaking his heart.
"No." He said as she moved to the pile, standing up with his fists balled tightly. "I ain't lettin' you sleep on the floor. You think I'm stupid?" His voice shook. "You'll leave. I know you will. I'm not gunna hole myself up in my bed all ******** cozy while you sneak off." He was angry. He was sad. He was a ball of emotions tightly lidded inside a capsule that was about to burst.
"I'm not stupid.."
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:41 pm
She bit her lip and tried to chuckle, it came out pretty shaky though.
"You know me too well. That's what I get for being too close with you..." She stood back up and went to the bed, her hand pulling at the covers. "You're not stupid....You're not." She clutched the covering...
"What else do you want me to say Otto, do?" Nevada clutched the cover and looked away, "I promise not to leave tonight."
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:44 pm
Otto followed. He knew he was a heavy sleeper. If he slept separate from her, he'd never hear her if she left. Then he couldn't reprimand her. Beg her not to go, as if laying next to her was the only way to save her for one more night. One more moment. There was no guarantee she would be gone the next day, but there was no guarantee she wouldn't be.
"Fine. You promised." He uttered back, stubbornly getting into bed as well. He wondered if he'd be able to sleep, after all. With all these worries in mind.
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Posted: Sat Feb 01, 2014 10:50 pm
She bit her lip, crawled in after him.
"I promise." She repeated. She didn't sleep though, one ear perked for an enemy...one for Otto's breathing next to her. Once it was steady, she turned to face him and brush at his shortened hair.
"Sorry Otto, I'm a lot of trouble..." She whispered....eventually she did sleep, with the whole day running into her.
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