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 Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 2:37 pm
"I know things have changed and it isn't really so bad but I miss it..there was a childhood friend I had and I've not seen him in so long." She started to tell Cam about Boris and how it was him that she was calling out for that day but something stopped her. "Eh its just I miss my innocence and how I could play all day..I want to be able to be on my own essentially and to be brave enough to not only protect myself but others." She found herself frowning because she began to consider the possibility of if it were truly possible. Could she really be able to protect herself and others? "I mean I tried to convince you that I could protect you that day but I didn't even have a clue." Laughter came easily from her but the situation was far from funny, she just thought it was sad at how badly she wanted to be helpful back then. Without hesitation, her hooves carried her closer to him and her nose nuzzled him gently. "Your not horrible or wicked, your sweet and protective at least over me." She pulled away from him and nipped playfully at his ear like he did to her earlier. In her mind, she really did acknowledge that he believed there was something wrong with him, she had no true idea as to what it could be because he never would discuss it fully and would always shut her out when it went to far but she never really did see a true evil side of him. "Just like you give me enough, I should be able to give you enough. There is nothing evil or bad about you, and if there is you do well to hide it from me." She teased him as she nudged him rather hard with her head. Vanya didn't want to believe there was anything evil inside of the one male that had stuck around her for so long. If there was any evil inside of him, was it possible she brought out the light? She continued to smile at him because she didn't want him to go away from her. "Caym I've decided I want a herd someday! I don't know how or when but I want it to happen!" She spoke the words with excitement, she didn't know anything about herds really but they had to be like a big family right?
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 3:10 pm
When she started to get in to what was truly troubling her, he felt everything in him withdrawing, preparing for something he was uncertain would come or not. Believing that at first, it was him she was talking about. Like he had drastically undergone changes and she didn't know who he was any more.
He wasn't sure he even knew who he was, other than the son of a mafia boss and a psychopath who heard voices that no one else could. He had thought about telling her the truth, that it was him he was trying to run from. That no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't protect him from something she couldn't hear, couldn't... Metaphorically see.
It was impossible and it would only succeed in losing everything he had worked so hard to achieve. He wasn't even sure that was what he wanted any more. To satisfy the voices. He thought less and less about it and when they did come, he tried his damned best, more effort than she could ever know possible was needed to fight them off.
The desire, the need to end her existence. Their constant torment.
"You're still innocent. That part of you never left." He laughed. "Protect others from what exactly? You shouldn't worry about things that haven't been presented to you yet. I'm sure when the time comes and you know it in your heart there is something you must do, to challenge your own fears, doubts in order to protect those you care for. You will." He nodded slowly. "It's instinctive, like a mother and her children. Everyone has it inside them, it just takes the right situation to bring it out in you."
He was relieved she was finally speaking the truth to him. She wasn't trying to fool him in to a chain of rambling to avoid the point. His ears lifted once more when she took to nuzzling him and nibbling on his visible ear. He grinned at the display, moving quickly to gently bite at her neck.
"You do give me enough. What is more important than just being yourself? That is all I ask, nothing more, nothing less."
"I..." He started before he caught sight of Vanya's smile. It enticed him in to wanting to continue on with the day and knew if he did say what he was about to, that it would ruin it altogether.
"I think that is a great idea. You would make a good leader." He whispered, groaning playfully as she nudged him with her head. He stumbled sideways and grinned, chuckling a little at her antics.
"I too want to have my own herd some day." He looked to canopy, at the birds fluttering over them and the dappled sun rays that managed to break through the clutter of branches and leaves. He squinted at the light and then moved his head back down to hide away from it, looking through the corners of his eyes at her.
"Who knows, we may end up in the same one together."
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Posted: Thu May 02, 2013 4:20 pm
"I don't want to be so innocent." The words slipped from her lips before she could rethink them or take them back. But deep down she knew it was the truth, everyone looked to her as something so pure and full of goodness and innocence. She found herself sighing heavily because she was no longer certain or even knew in the beginning that she knew who she is. "I'd like it if we could end up in the same herd together though, you keep me grounded sometimes." She gave a small smile to him because she was grateful to have him in her life. Without him, would she have gone insane by now? Would she have found someone else to be her best friend? Would she have been forever alone?
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Posted: Thu May 02, 2013 4:29 pm
Vanya's words were like calm water turning in to rapids. How could she have ever known that by saying such things it would change the course she would take? Caym found it interesting that she would say that, considering she was so quick to flee from the opposite when she was younger.
"Do you really mean that, Vanya?" His voice was steady as he continued to look at her. He didn't want to end up roping her in to something she would later regret and then have to watch as she crumbled or ran away from what she would find.
He hardly believed he kept her grounded... He could barely manage to keep himself that way. Plus she had her wings but he hadn't seen her use them very often. "Do you really believe you could handle the issues that come with being corrupt or reckless?"
He wished to get out of the trap he had been placed in since birth but he was coming to accept that it would never happen. He was yet to find a real victim, someone he could torture but he wasn't as weak as he was as a foal and knew that the time would soon come.
"If so then we could be in the same herd if that's what you want. I have a proposition for you but you have to think very carefully on your answer..."
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Posted: Thu May 02, 2013 4:36 pm
"I'm not sure what I really mean. I want some balance I guess?" She looked at him with careful eyes, wondering what he possibly had in mind. "Everyone looks at me like I am the goddess of goodness or purity, I don't want to be so good and pure and innocent." She spoke the words with a gentle smile, truthfully she couldn't see herself with any sort of negativity or darkness but she was tired of all the goodness. "What is your proposition?" She continued to look into his blue eyes and tried to keep herself from being mesmerized by them.
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Posted: Thu May 02, 2013 4:49 pm
Caym nodded slowly at her words. "I see." He uttered quietly. He wasn't certain that his own plans were for her but if he didn't ask then how would he ever know and how would she ever be sure that climbing from the pit of purity and innocence was what she really wanted?
"I have told you very little about my home, my herd and how it works but what you already know, hasn't left a great impression." He started. "It is what I have grown up with and been around my entire life. My father was always working and left my mother alone to take care of us most of the time. Having his guards do all the work for him."
"I think his reign has lasted long enough." He gave a snort of resentment. The irritation clear over the rage and anger that had been building up in him over the course of his childhood.
"I want to create a rival mafia herd, in order to overthrow him however I cannot do it alone." He gave her a weak smile and closed the gap between them, standing in front of where she was stood and looking in to her eyes he breathed a gentle sigh.
"I want to do this in order to do the title he takes for granted justice. To save my family from the heartache and despair he has caused them. I have to seek out other, powerful connections. The road will be rocky and some people not so very nice but it may be the taste of something more that you're looking for."
He paused for a moment.
"I'd like you to start this with me, if you will accept and you have my word that I will never allow anyone to bring you harm." Lowering his head he brushed the side of his maw by hers and waited patiently for her answer.
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 5:49 pm
"You know I can't leave you alone to something that could possibly be so dangerous." She smiled softly to him and nodded her acceptance. "I will always be there to accept you, help you and guide you no matter what troubles we face." She nuzzled him softly and felt a small sense of happiness take over her and feel her with a sense of peace.
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 6:02 pm
Lips twitching at their corners, Caym could only bring himself to nod slowly at her words. Glad that she agreed they would be better working together that younger Vanya who wanted to protect him shining through in that moment.
He liked the fact she was already saying 'we.' He gave a small sigh, feeling the warmth of her breath when she nuzzled him and lifted his head to arch it over her neck and pull her closer to him in an embrace.
"You're my perfect little guiding light." He whispered by her ear."Afterall, what would I ever do without you?"
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Posted: Tue May 14, 2013 8:23 pm
Her heart seemed to stop and speed up all at the same time as he whispered in her ear. "I am guessing that by now you would be hopelessly lost." She smiled at him in a teasing fashion. Her eyes taking in his blue hair and hat. She still didn't understand how he didn't have a line up of ladies behind him wanting to be with him all the time. She was lucky to be able to have alone time with him. Her tail swayed behind her as her mind began to wonder aimlessly with all the thoughts. The gold beads from the blue feathers chiming and ringing as they collided together. It was almost like a bell and as the sounds reached her ears she could only help but think of Boris again. "But I think the same would go for me too, I would be forever lost without you too." She grinned at him with thankfulness and happiness shining in her eyes. Without Cam by her side; she had no real idea as to where she would be or what sort of personality she would have. Would she have even changed?
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Posted: Thu Jun 20, 2013 8:03 am
"True, no doubt." The stallion gave a curious laughter at her teasing however she had sparked a bit of wonder in him and he couldn't help but linger on what he would be doing right now, or how he would have grown if not for the people he had met, if not for her and the exception of silence.
Still, shining a light on the new path they would take together, would it lead him to becoming his father? An animal with no thought, emotion or conscience. He already was that and only few had managed to seduce the side of him that wasn't;to be temporarily available to them and only them.
Ears twitching, they latched on to the sound of the clattering beads and the soothing chimes they filled the air with. He gave a grunt and too shared the thought of the feline stallion who he was yet to kill. "That damn cat. Haunting me with his presence even when he isn't around." He whispered to himself and flicked his gaze slyly around them to see if he could spy a lick of that gay coloured boa of his then shook his head when it was nothing but a ghost.
We kill her...
She is here, ready. Available.
Death lingers around her, touches it with icy fingers.
DO THE DEED.
It has been too long since we were promised.
We feed on sacrifice and perfect is the pretty.
Turning, he looked back at Vanya, his eyes lingering on her beautiful form in silence whilst the clattering of beads still filled the silence that was between them. He couldn't. He wouldn't. She was to be with him, he couldn't betray her not when she was so willing.
We do not kill our own.
He fought back against the voices and they left screeches in return. Painful, shrilling screeches which made his ears fall back, his eyes water with the intense pain and he had to drop his head down to submit but he would not submit to their request.
He would die for it if he had to.
"Vanya." He managed, squeezing his eyes shut. "Lets go, lets get out of here. Lets go find our home."
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