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Sitting on the bed Mitsu had placed the doink knife in her lap, poking at it but not enough to make any noise. The sound she was focused on was her reaper opening up one of the pudding cups, her eyes trailing up toward him as he started to eat it. Now he was taunting her, trying to entice her into action. Giving him a bit of a glare to note her displeasure she looked away, tossing the doink knife on the bed to get it away from herself. She tried to keep up looking mad but soon her ears drooped her expression looking a little disheartened.

"I...I can't help it. My body just reacts before I can think." She tried to explain. It was a crippling fear, more so than her fear of heights. She could feel herself getting weak almost like it was a trained response. Her legs would grow wobbly, her chest suddenly too tight to breath, and her mind went into a frenzy. It was probably saying something that she was managing to sit in the room while he had his blades summoned.

Mitsu wasn't sure what to say but she knew she wasn't going to like this new training Shun had in mind. Frowning she began to fidget with her skirt, her eyes focused on the floor in front of her toes. That nervous tension was starting to creep over her and she wasn't sure what to do since Shun was determined to sit by her pudding and prevent her from having any.

Looking up again in his direction she shifted restlessly on the bed. Her eyes kept darting between him, the pudding cup in his hands, and this daggers blocking her for her other treats. When she looked up at Shun again, she attempted to give him sad eyes accompanied with a small whimper. She wanted her pudding.

He seemed to be resisting the puppy eyes for now but Mitsu only upped her game by whimpering again, this time coupling sad eyes with a slightly glassy or watery look. Shun only aided her really by still teasing her with the pudding.

She did as instructed though, taking in a deep breath and trying to calm. After a bit more fidgeting she finally stood. Was she actually going to try?

Her first step looked promising, it was taking her in his direction but the second step began to waver. As her focus went back to the blades it was apparent her knees were going weak and she was having trouble standing. The next step had her stumbling and she frantically moved back toward the bed, pacing like an animal in a cage. She couldn't do it. She couldn't get close. It was too much to handle.

Her hands began to tug and pull at her hair, her eyes looking distant as she continued to move in a small circle. Breathing was already becoming difficult but she hadn't quite reached the point of hyperventilating. All she had managed to do was spook herself.

She didn't look like her mind was with them in the room as Shun approached. Mitsu was still intent on pacing, only brought to a halt as her reaper grabbed her shoulders.

"I asked them to stop." She mumbled, crimson eyes looking fearful suddenly. "I begged them." The lycan shook her head as Shun pulled her hands away, her fingers releasing the bits of hair she had grabbed. "They wouldn't listen." Scraps....She had actually gone a while without giving that word any real thought, but like a sickness it crept up on her. It was something that would never truly go away. That word was as much a part of her as the scars were.

Mitsu tried to grasp what Shun was telling her, trying to wrap her mind around it and cling for all she was worth. She knew Shun would never do that to her. He wasn't that cruel. His daggers posed her no threat but she just couldn't seem them without remembering. Call it irrational but she was afraid.

Mitsu looked so lost, her eyes unable to focus until Shun lifted their hands bringing their rings into view. As soon as she saw them that was her primary focus, looking at them so intently. She began to calm down a degree after that, her arms wrapping around herself as Shun released her and headed toward the box of massage oils.

With a small nod Mitsu stiffly made her way to the bed and half fell half sat down. She didn't think it would be so hard to get passed something. That something could bother her this badly but apparently it could. Just when she thought her fear of heights was going to be her biggest problem.

Her eyes drifted to the music box as he set it beside her. The music made her ears lift a little her arms unwinding from around herself so that she could pick up the music box and set it in her lap. Her eyes watched the little wolf move around on the inside as the music played, using it as another point of focus as she tried to put a lid on her panic attack. She had been so good at keeping things under control.

She sat still as Shun's hands made their way under her shirt to rub her back, the light scent of lavender and vanilla touching her nose. At first she tensed at the initial contact, the muscles in her back already pulled tight but soon she relaxed and let him work. She remained silent for the time being to ashamed to open her mouth and say anything.

Instead of using her actual words she decided to sign instead. 'I don't have anything to say.' Though it would probably have been easier to see if Shun was in front of her and not behind her.

Leaning forward a little she relaxed against his touch, the smell of the massage oil coupled with his touch seemed to be easing her back down. Holding the music box close she quietly listened to it letting the music sooth her as well. Music was something that had been absent to her while she was on the hunter's island. She had only gotten the occasional bleep of noise through the mic from the tech that apparently liked to play games.

The music box had been her main focus until she heard her reaper's voice humming a soft tune along with the melody. Her ears perked further and she tilted her head back toward him so that she could listen to him and the music box at the same time.

It didn't take long before she was drifting back in his direction, trying to lean against his chest so that she could relax. Once she was settled she closed her eyes, listening to him more than anything else. She liked feeling the gentle vibration of his chest as he hummed. Something about it just soothed her within.