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 Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:17 pm
Freya took comfort in her cocoon of white. It made her feel safe, as though she didn't have to explain herself, and eventually all of her problems would go away.
Go away, Kettil. Go away.
But he only came closer, and Freya made a little whining sound, pulling her veil over her head. It didn't help - the veil was pretty see thru. And she knew she had to face the music, so she ripped the entire thing off, and gave him an angry glare.
But she couldn't be angry with him. This wasn't his fault. This was totally, and entirely, on her this time.
Nobody to blame but herself.
"No corners." She muttered, as if to remind herself of her promise. She huffed, and started to push herself out of the fluff of the skirt, so she could sit normally. Then she glared up at him with a pout, before gesturing to the spot next to her.
"Sits." She murmured. "We talks." She gave Endy a wary glance, but said nothing about her presence. She was a part of Kettil.. anything Freya said, she would know about one way or another.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:25 pm
Here he was ready for her to get ready to go somewhere because she asked him to dress up and now she was telling him to sit like a puppy. Kettil chewed on his lip a bit and then moved to sit down next to Freya and stared at her expectantly after asking, "Did I do something bad?"
Kettil was good at being a kicked puppy but he was also resilient enough to get back up afterward as if nothing had happened at all.
Endzela for now watched with curiosity (but still sulky).
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:30 pm
"Accch." That guilty look. Freya leaned up and put her hand on Kettil's hair, patting it down gently. "Stops that. Yeh'll only makes this harder on me if yeh makes that face. Yeh didn't do nothings, I just has teh tells yeh somethings, and it's goings teh be difficult, and it's goings teh MAKES things difficult, and I wish I could lies and just not tells yeh anything." She dropped her hand and put it on top of his, squeezing his fingers. "But I promised. And I keeps my promises."
She sighed, and rolled her eyes. "Even if it means admitting that I am the worst."
She was. She was definitely the worst. Herryk deserved better. Kettil deserved better. EVERYBODY deserved better than her.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:37 pm
Kettil tried to look like he was less guilty and more his usual goofy self but instead he just looked serious and concerned. It seemed like things just got progressively more complicated between him and Freya these days though he kept trying to pull through it all without hurting anyone involved.
He put his other hand on hers and simply smiled a bit, "You know you can talk to me about anything at all and I won't hate you for it."
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:48 pm
"Oh, I knows yeh won't hates me for it. I'm not worried about that." No, hate was not the emotion that she assumed she would be evoking. Awkwardness was a closer possibility - hell, maybe even fear. Oh, gods, she thought, as her face pinched up. She wouldn't be able to survive if he was scared to be around her.
"We had some rough patches, in the past. But we works through them, and we figures out how we feels, and everything was good, ja." She started out, trying to relax as she just.. calmly told her story. It wasn't a big deal, she told herself. Just talk it out. Everything works out when you talk it out. "And I still keeps that, for a very long time. But is changed now." She pulled her hand away. "I tries teh explains, but is hard. So, okays. I has feelings for yeh that I didn't has before. But before yeh gets ahead of yehrself, lets me explain. I don't means I'm fallings in love with yeh, or somethings. I knows yeh loves Lark, believe me I knows! Even if I did have those feelings for yeh, I wouldn't stands a chance. But there are other feelings, and those are goings teh cause troubles."
She patted her fluffy skirt down, and took a deep breath. Honesty was always best. "Is very recently, that I've felt sexually attracted to yeh. And thas is goings teh gets tricky, with us being best friends."
Maybe Herryk had been right, after all. Having a boil as a best friend was nothing but trouble.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:58 pm
She let him explain quietly his brow furrowing a bit and then smoothing out even as she finished explaining he was still silent and there was a blush covering his face. At most he felt confused at least he felt ... oddly relieved, "Heh. You know I'm attracted to ya," he said simply and openly, because of their open corners agreement. "I..."
He paused as he thought of how to word this, "I am just ... hoping nothing bad happens that's all." Kettil said quietly. Maybe because they were aware of their mutual attractions it might help or it might make things worse. "To be honest with ya, I ... wouldn't even know what to do if things happened like that since...I've never been that far. If ya get my drift."
Maybe his virginity would lessen the appeal?
"I adore Lar and I miss her dreadful," he said softly with his brow furrowing again. Kettil looked very lonely all of the sudden.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 3:15 pm
Freya's eyes flickered up very sharply in surprise. He said it as if she was aware of the knowledge, but it was easy to forget just how devoted Freya was to her belief that she was fat, and horrifically disgusting. Yet there wasn't even time to refute his admittance, or even ask - he just moved on.
That was probably for the best. Following that line of thought would lead to places they both knew they shouldn't be.
"I hope nothing bad happens too. I don't wants us teh gets awkward. Everythings was so perfect, and then.." She groaned in frustration, and smacked the fluff of her dress with her fists.
His admission made her roll her eyes. "Yeh don't needs a roadmap, Kettil. Trust me, that would hardly be a problem." There was something unsurprising about the knowledge that Kettil was a virgin. He'd always seemed like a one woman man, even when he had a crush on her.. somehow she'd known she wasn't that woman. Even when she thought she was pretty, she knew. Kettil deserved better. It was nothing new.
Suddenly, Kettil was talking about Lark, and there was an overwhelming cloud of sadness falling heavy on his expression. Freya and her troublesome libido were stupid, cursory problems. She fell back into the role of best friend easily, climbing out of her ridiculous fluff and reaching around to pull him into a hug. "Don't yeh dares be sads. I won't allows it. If yehr not happy, then I'm not happy."
Which was true. Because she definitely wasn't happy. Mixed up and confused, maybe, but definitely not happy.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 3:25 pm
"I don't plan to let us get awkward," he shrugged a bit, "I planned to just go day by day and enjoy your company and help you. It is more important for me to help you than it is for me to be...intimate with you in any sense, not that I thought intimacy was a possibility but...Just sayin'." If she needed him by his side - no matter how either of them felt for each other ... He was going to be by her side til' the end.
His nose scrunched a bit at her retort to his admission, "Maybe not but I'd definitely be very lost on what to do, roadmap or no," he teased trying to make himself unappealing for Freya somehow, apparently. If he talked himself down enough maybe both of them would end up completely turned off and not want it anymore. YAY.
Clearly his logic had no falsehoods.
The hug was accepted and welcomed his arms easily draping around her as he returned the embrace and his head went to rest on her shoulder, "I'm not sad," he insisted, "just lonely and troubled."
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 3:36 pm
"No one ever plans to let things get awkward, Hooter." Freya whispered, tugging his collar with her fingers and rubbing the fabric between them. "Sometimes it just.. does."
Her eyes rolled again when he tried to convince himself that he wouldn't know what to do. "Okays. Yeh keeps telling yehrself that. And then the first time yehr with a ghoul, and yeh makes her screams yehr name in ecstasy, yeh remembers this moment. And yeh remembers that I was right." Stubborn to the last, she nodded her head sharply.
Freya understood Kettil's loneliness. She didn't want to admit it, but she felt the same way. And perhaps, just briefly, that was the trouble all along. Maybe it wasn't some ridiculous notion that she couldn't control herself around Kettil. Maybe they were just.. very lonely.
That made a lot of sense.
"I wish I could helps. Is, perhaps, the only things I cannot does for yeh. Or yeh for me, since I feels the same." She snorted softly. "But at least yeh knows someone understands how yeh feels."
That had to count for something.
She traced the curves of his ear with one finger, and shook her head. "I thinks, somewheres deep down, we were all mades with this.. flaw. This little tiny lacks of somethings that makes us crave.. I don't knows." She hugged him tighter. "This, I guess. And the other things."
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 3:54 pm
Kettil smiled a bit, "I guess not, Goldilocks but ... Still I don't plan to hide away from you just because you make me feel funny," he said softly, "that's just the truth of it."
His fingertips rubbed a bit against the sides of her corset simply feeling the fabric and just holding onto Freya as if she was an anchor for a moment or two. Despite the attraction between them he wasn't going to just suddenly sit on the opposite side of the couch and pretend she'd turned into a ghost or something. Freya's comment of him making a ghoul scream in ecstasy succeeded in making him blush and becoming quiet before he said something naughty.
The boil chuckled a bit at her comment of helping but can't, "I think...This helps me just enough to where I don't do somethin' horribly stupid. The last thing I wanna do...is hurt Herryk and Lar."
The feel of her tracing the curve of his ear made him shiver just a little bit but for the most part he was contained and still, "I think just as much as we crave we sustain each other, Freya, otherwise we'd both be goin' crazy on our own..."
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 4:00 pm
Freya's fingers paused for a moment, as she thought, very hard, about that.
"Kettil." She sounded just a little surprised. "I thinks yehr a genius." After all, the way he explained it, they were helping each other, without doing anything wrong. They were affectionate enough to keep the other from going stir crazy. And that was exactly what they needed.
"Yehr a genius!" She clapped her hands, bubbling with joy at the realization that she had nothing to worry about. She wasn't going to lose Kettil - if anything, all they'd done was elevate their friendship to be what they needed. It was perfect. Everything was perfect. She sighed a happy sigh, and sunk down into the couch, holding Kettil with unabashed affection.
"I woulds be lost without yeh, Kajika." Freya whispered contently, bending her head forward and kissing his nose.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 4:12 pm
Suddenly he was a genius as Freya shared her epiphany he grinned a bit, "It works for me," he laughed softly and then just continued to cuddle with her as he just felt better for now. He could wait for Lark forever if he had to or so he felt for now. The kiss on his nose was simply reciprocated with a small kiss to her chin, sweet and quick.
"I'd be lost without you," he said in return with a small smile and then just sat there with her quietly.
Endzela nested somewhere in Freya's dress and napped as the two talked things over content that things weren't going 'out of control'. Kettil meanwhile came to realize something now that their 'talk' was pretty much straightened out, "So. Gonna explain your getup to me?"
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 4:29 pm
The silence felt so warm and inviting. Freya reveled in the moment. Everything had felt so wrong for so long now, that she cherished this one, rare moment when things felt so right. If she could just hold on, a little longer..
Her attention snapped back into focus when he asked her about the dress, and she laughed. "Ach, I tolds Endy we were getting married today. So I comes in a wedding dress, prepares teh gives myself up. I boughts it at a thrift store! It only costs me 5 silver seeds!" The edges of the dress were worn, and brown, and the stitching was coming apart at the seams; not to mention, on her thin form it was barely hanging on. Whoever had given it up had gotten great use out of it beforehand, and now it was just a prop. But a fun prop.
"I kind of likes wearings it.." She whispered out guiltily in a giggle. "Makes me feels special. Like I really am goings teh gets married. Is all fluffy and soft and pretty. I guess thas is why women loves getting married, ja?"
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 4:38 pm
"Wedding~," Endzela piped up sleepily. It was uncertain if the Owl took it seriously or not, since she seemed to be pretty good at playing it straight.
Kettil just laughed a little and shook his head, "All that just for a Familiar, eh?" he said softly as he reached and tugged at a bit of her skirt but without any intention of doing anything other than to tug and let it go, "I think you look lovely in it," he said simply. "Guess so? Lar never really gave any inclination to me that is what she would want, but then she isn't the ghouliest ghoul around."
"Here I am all dressed up and nowhere to go then, huh?" Kettil teased a bit.
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Posted: Tue Oct 09, 2012 4:45 pm
"Ohhh ho ho ho no!" Freya piped up, sitting up straight rather suddenly. "Yeh DOES have a place teh goes! After I goes back teh my rooms and change, we're goings teh goes outs. I have two places I'm takings yeh, and there's no argument about either. The first one is teh buys yehr a** some pajama bottoms. And maybe if yeh tells me where yeh boughts those owl boxers, I can buys myself a pair. And the second... well, thas is a surprise. But yehr perfectly dressed for it!"
She laughed and shoved at him. "Now get offs me boil, so I can goes and gets changed."
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