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Bell laughed a bit, "Well, it is certainly unexpected, but, certain things considered, a little fitting," she grinned.

Bell could wait until rehearsal to see who else had gotten what, since it wasn't like she'd recognize any of the names. In fact she rarely bothered to get to know any of her fellow cast members by their real names. Kind of like being a senshi.

"What do you think about the role?"

"Well if you need any help with anything outside of auditions, let me know," Bell said as she stepped up to read who else was still on, or new, to the cast. As expected, no one she knew, although some of the original cast still remained.

"I did the play a few years back as part of the ensemble, so for me it's largely learning the blocking and brushing up of the script."

Bell never put much stock in the 'dumb blond' stereotype. She believed that stupidity was colorblind. Especially looking at some people who definitely could not use hair color as an excuse... But dumb blonde wasn't something she'd use to describe Jamie, granted the circumstances of their meeting up was usually because of something serious, or they had more serious, subdued, things to talk about. It really just supported the opinion that both could use more fun in their lives.

Thank goodness for Halloween.

Bell laughed a bit, "Some butt-hurt freshmen, maybe, but they'd be dumb for picking a fight with the very embodiment of pride."

Senshi of Pride... Gaston... Eh, well if Bell hadn't already been convinced that their lives were some horrible cosmic joke, she was now.

"I just hope whoever this guy is that is playing the Beast isn't some massive jerkwad."

Oh, but poor Bell - said person inevitably was - even though she didn't know it yet. It would be a great test of personal fortitude.

"Something like that. Although, I guess it's more like self-centered douchbaggery than pride, in Gaston's case..."

Then the thought of Disney Gaston in a sailor-skirted fuku popped into her head and it was all she could do not to react externally, in either laughter or a cringe.

"Either way, it should be a fun role. Like mocking the real self-entitled, self-centered, assholes. That's always fun," she grinned.

Over the years senshidom had made Bell much less tolerant and forgiving of people and their actions. She just couldn't put up with derpiness and jerks like she use to. Instead of being a b***h like the rest of her peers in high school, Bell had evidently saved it for afterwards. But when people acted like complete idiots and expect the world to fall at their feet any everyone to serve and worship them and their herp-derpness....they deserved the mockery and the bitchiness. At least that was how she saw it.

Maybe she was just too high string after all these long years of fighting. How many years had it been now? Bell really needed something good in her life. Some fun and relaxation. She needed to let loose and unwind.

Maybe that was how Xavier had felt when he left to study abroad. Maybe that feeling was just too good, and it wasn't worth coming back to the stress and life-or-death seriousness that was being a senshi in Destiny City. She couldn't really blame him for that. The least he could have done was save her and her sister from it. Oh, who was she kidding - Bell wouldn't, couldn't, run. She would have felt horrible and so guilty... But Xavier hadn't even tried to convince her to leave it all behind! It hurt Bell's since of self worth that he wouldn't fight to keep her.

But Bell had done some serious thinking since then and she realized some things. One of which was that Xavier had been a huge burden. Every little setback the senshi faced, every failure, had always sent him in to some sort of depression, and Bell had always suffered the brunt of it, trying everything she could to help him through it, even when he refused that help, which was nine times out of ten. That had always hurt her and left her feeling horrible. And that happened far too often to outweigh the good times. Xavier was a 'suffer in silence and alone' kind of person, and Bell was the kind of person who wanted to make everything alright and try to cheer him up. And he shat on her every effort.

She didn't need that. She should be glad that she didn't have him in her life anymore to weigh her down like that. And she should take her freedom and enjoy it for herself, not worrying about making sure that anyone was happy or trying to be the wind beneath anyone's wings. She didn't want to be anyone's support.

"I can't imagine you ever being half as bad as some people," Bell commented, although admittedly she had only known Jamie for maybe a couple of years, and barely interacted much at all in that time, "But, certain cosmic events certainly does change a person...."

Unlike Jamie, Bell had been 'alone' pretty much all her life. As soon as she was old enough she had been shipped off to boarding schools and pretty much taking care of herself. If Jamie was a lion, than Bell was a...well out of all the solitary big cats, Bell probably came closest to a snow leopard - solitary, beautiful, and the Mac operating system comes to mind, which was a very vague nod to her father's company which develops programs for mac computers... Oh, but enough of that.

Turning comments back to the costumes, Bell added, "I'll see what I can do about the costume though," and she grinned, "Don't want the audience bodice ripping and fainting on us, now do we?"

Bell shrugged, "The past is what it is. In the end the little things we do that we wish we could forget....we're the only ones likely to even remember them tenyears down the road. Only thing you can do is focus on the now. And the future."

Bell had done plenty of things she'd rather forget. She knew she'd always remember them, but the witnesses seemed to quickly forget. Or maybe it just wasn't such a big deal to them like it was to her... Like the role of Mimi.

"hm," Bell smiled a bit, "Sounds fun. I haven't even been to my star..." But given her view on the past and what not, that was no big suprise.

And perhaps it was for the better. She didn't know it, but only bad flashbacks awaited her there. So much of her past was tied with a certain senshi of a certain asteroid, and she was better off not knowing that. Because the past doesn't always have to repeat itself. She'd always scoffed at that 'learn from the past so history doesn't repeat itself' bullshit anyway.Times change, circumstances change, people change. Nothing is ever the same.