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 Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 6:10 pm
"Yeah, soundproofing would be nice. I might like. Want to practice my bass in there I guess. Like I'm kind of enjoying it. Now I'm getting the hang of it anyway past the initial few notes." It had been another distraction to go after, an excuse not to think about Jordan being missing. Harrison and him could pretend for a little while that everything was normal, that they weren't alone.
"I don't have much money though for s**t. Really, I'm skint."
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 6:27 pm
"Bass? You are making music now?" She smirked wryly at him, "What else is there I should know about?" she suddenly nudged the thermos at Rep vaguely more insisting.
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 7:19 pm
"Its part of an apology to Jerry. I had to write him an apology song and learn an instrument. Candace leant me the money to get something, I picked a bass. I hear they are easy to play. They aren't that easy, I had problems to start with." he cleared his throat. "Just not that great at dealing with s**t when I'm hit with a lot of info all at once. Ace helped though, helped me like break it into notes and stuff. Now I'm doing better."
He eyed the thermos thoughtfully and edged it a little nearer to himself, but not near enough to lay claim to it.
"Dunno. Is there anything else you should know about?"
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 7:22 pm
"Like, what's up perhaps? Like, I know Jordan is off and s**t but you've been lashing out like crazy... and... well," she set her jaw and sat back in her chair, "You didn't come here for my hot chocolate, that's for certain."
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 7:33 pm
He narrowed his eyes at her as if she'd somehow offended him just by mentioning Jordan, the very subject he didn't want to touch at all. He hadn't felt like he'd been lashing out, but thinking more about it it was an easy conclusion for people to come to - he'd been drinking more too. Still, he tensed up visibly.
"I came here because I'm ******** bored. Because I need something to do, and I figured you'd be willing to do so without talking about... about him being away."
He frowned and looked away from her standoffishly, crossing his arms.
"Why do you have to be so nosey?"
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 7:54 pm
"Because I care about you you idiot," she sighed at Rep and draaaagged her chair over to try and be at his side and then shove her face in his, "Obviously it's bothering you and it's... it's not like you can talk to Harrison without upsetting him too."
"I'm not going away until you talk to me so you might as well."
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 8:01 pm
Rep didn't budge as she moved into his personal space, tolerating her grudgingly nearby. She was right though, he didn't want to say too much to Harrison, the more he spoke about how anxious he was, the more it would multiply between them. Harrison was worried too, it would be pointless to make it worse.
"What can I even say about it? I'm worried about Jordan. Its been too long. There's been no word about it, I don't know what to do."
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2012 8:07 pm
"Say everything?" she asked softly before finally hauling her face back a bit to give him physical space but her thoughts still weighed heavily in this moment, "Say what you're thinking, how you feel, I'm just ears here William. You can say whatever is trying to eat you up... before... it actually eats you up."
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Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2012 7:16 am
He raised a brow at her, not sure he wanted to talk about it. There wasn't much to say other than untethered anxieties and worry, a tangled knot of emotions and a vague hope that the sun hunter would walk in at any moment and give him that smile that would make every one of those worries fade away.
The look he gave her was somewhat confused as he finally said.
"I don't really have anything else I want to say about it other than I'm worried. I don't cope well when I'm worried and I guess its like... I saw this coming. I knew it was just a matter of time before something went wrong. And at the same time I'm like, its only been a few days, surely its just a long mission, I'm being a ******** irrational moron. But..still. I just. I don't know."
He gave his hands a distant stare.
"And I guess its what I deserve. Like deep down. Because of being this shitty person and whatever.. but..."
His chest rose and fell with a weak sigh, looking tireder than he had in a while.
"But Ace doesn't."
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Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2012 7:34 am
Rin frowned and attempted to slink an arm across his back and tug him lightly, "No one deserves to feel the way you are feeling right now. Not one single person ever," that tug turned into a very gentle rubbing of his back, "You sure as ******** don't - and as much as 'Ace' and I don't get along. I can say with absolute certainty; him neither."
She was willing to be here, to stay at his side for however long he needed, refusing to change the subject until HE changed it. When he needed it to change.
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Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2012 7:58 am
Rep let her. Anyone else he'd have taken the gesture as patronising and much too close to his guarded personal space, but Rin it was different, she'd already earned the right to be there - she hadn't betrayed him, he'd been the one to push her way. He permitted himself just a moment of vulnerability, a chance to let down his guard without potentially distressing Harrison more, moving to actually lean on her somewhat.
"I don't think I can cope if anything's happened to him. I like. I really don't."
He closed his eyes, trying hard not to think about the space in the bed, of the dreams Harrison had mentioned, lingering nightmares of the hives.
"I think twitter like... I think I'm sort of like.. it's stupid but I feel like if I'm rude enough, if I'm nasty enough - he'll be there. He'll just be back, like no Rep. Stop that." It was like his mother, where he'd felt like if he was cruel enough, broke enough laws, somehow, in some way, she'd come back.
"But I know he won't be."
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Posted: Thu Aug 02, 2012 10:07 am
Rin gently rubbed his side as he leaned into her and she leaned her head slowly to rest atop his. She smiled a bit though inside she felt broken right now. What do you say to a friend who might have lost a loved one? Do you lie and say everything is okay? Do you tell them they're being silly and that you're sure he's fine? No... neither of these things felt right.
She decided perhaps it was best to just be there for him, "William I... ... if there's anything you need. Anything that might make it any easier. Please, don't hesitate to ask me."
It wasn't a subject change, it wasn't even a vague effort to control his pain. He had every right to feel pain. It was simply an invitation. If there was anything in this world he thought would help; anything she could do. She was willing to do it. For him.
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