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Those are wise words. Good to see people can still keep friendship after hardships. You can only go so far before it becomes difficult to be truthful with someone.

That's what I was trying to convey before when I was saying there are many different types of relationships... or maybe I said that to someone else, I don't remember. sweatdrop

Truth is, you never know until you try. You shouldn't seek a specific type of relationship or person. The complete opposite could be a great match for you. What matters is that you're able to be comfortable around each other and have a good time. With that, comes a special type of bond and of course honesty is a key ingredient. It's a little different if someone told you they hung out with dudes alone on four different occasions though. Trust me, given what you know, you're far better off without her.

Chemistry, connection, the ability to work through problems, everything kind of factors in and it's simple once you really get to a point of understanding with someone and a long bond. All sounds complicating now and that's only because I am explaining it... and I make s**t hella complicating, but when it happens you will get it, and until than try not to think about it because it will just hurt your brain. smile Even having said that, no matter what, there will always be at least some complications so don't get me wrong, just... gotta work on through sometimes unless you know otherwise... part of the risk broseidon, lord of the SEA.

It's not all you though, takes twooo... to tangooo....

Exactly. That struggle is the thing you have to decide whether is worth it or not is all I was trying to say. smile I know how it is. It's freakin' tough. Now you know for sure cuz everything is all said and done, but man I really do wish you luck.

Job was pretty lame today. Didn't work nearly as much but I'm gonna go relax and lay in my bed for a little bit because I am starting to rant again bahah. Back to being a lurker. I might log on later.

I send you hugs man!! Also even if Belegarth isn't an option, maybe Amtgard? If there's a park in your area maybe go for that. From what I've heard they aren't too terribly different.

I am most sorry to hear of this distress. I hope both that you recover and she learns from losing an upstanding fellow like yourself.

Oof... :l what a demon.

Heh...agreed. Like, I always told her- If you do it, just tell me. Just tell me when it happens, and we'll go from there. I won't be angry with you if you just tell me. Despite her knowing that I know...she still won't admit it. I can't understand why she still has to lie! It's..it's stupid. Seriously, it's stupid. She was stupid. I was stupid...

*ahem* Well, I guess I can understand. she thrives on lies, and her idea of "freedom". I'm better as of now, I guess Without her?

(Super big hug) D:

For realsies I think you've dodged a major bullet before it was too late by not having her in your life now. Even if she never comes clean, be happy she dumped you before one of her affairs lead to an unwanted pregnancy and a fist fight on Maury with one of her manwhores.