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 Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 8:42 pm
She'd known that Jerry would blame himself. Even when things were completely out of his hands, he took blame. The stutter was back, too, and Sasha wasn't sure how to handle it. She was hardly in a safe emotional state of her own, and he was starting to cry now. Sasha could see the brimming tears, and she ached.
For both of them.
Before she could stop herself, before Sasha even knew what she was doing, she wrenched her hands free from his and lifted them to the collar of his shirt. In a gesture completely uncharacteristic, Sasha squeezed her eyes shut and pressed her lips to his.
Her aim was off. She mashed her lips against the corner of his mouth, but mostly against his cheek.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 8:46 pm
The smell of perfume encased him. His heart was racing. This wasn't... wasn't Rin he was imagining was... this really was... this wasn't just him amongst the hangers, this was...
But Sasha didn't want... what he was hoping for, he was sure. The kiss against the corner of his mouth was passed off as friendly, and his heart clenched with fresh pained shudders.
Stupid headbands.
He drew in another breath, only to be enveloped in that flowery scent once again.
Gently, timidly, he kissed back where their lips just missed each other against her soft cheek and pale lips.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:07 pm
Sasha pulled back, a disappointed look etched on her already exhausted features.
She stared at him, silent.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:09 pm
His face went red, his hands immediately lifting off of her, "S-sorry! Sorry!" Ohshitohshitwhathadhedone... he was worse than a horny teenager, just... just wanting that touch, fantasizing about that soft hair cascading around him oh god oh god that wasn't what she was looking for oh god she just wanted a friend, he looked ready to burst or bolt.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:15 pm
"I.."
Why was he sorry?
"I'm.. I shouldn't have done that, I just, I don't know what.. I'm .. I'm sorry, Jerry."
She tried to soothe him; maybe moving away would make him feel better? She couldn't tell if she'd upset him by kissing him, or.. she stumbled to her feet, carefully ducking out from the bunk before she moved away from Jerry and his position on the bed.
Sasha promptly burst into tears.
"I just didn't.. I'm just.. I'm sorry!"
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:18 pm
It was too much for the broken man to take, breathing quickly in short, fast spurts, "I w-wasn't sure if... .shouldn't have taken advantage of... don't know what you want... afraid I screwed it all.... I'm s-sorry oh god don't c-cry!" He hovered, torn between trying to console her and running.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:32 pm
"I just.."
She used the back of her hands to rub the tears from her cheeks, shaking her head as she shuffled to the next bunk over. Emotionally spent, Sasha was feeling more than slightly irrational.
"I don't.. I don't know what I was.. I don't know why I kissed you. I'm.. I've never .. I just."
She snuffled loudly and shook her head again.
"I don't know. Rin.. she said something that.. it .. it got me thinking. About things, and I just.. I didn't think. I'm sorry."
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:42 pm
Talking to Rin.... about what, exactly?
He swallowed thickly, but calmed down, nervously trying to tame his hair, "There's... there's n-nothing wrong with um... with kissing... i.. if you... if you wanted um..." He pulled off his glasses, fidgeting to try to clean them on his tattered scarf.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 9:49 pm
She could have sworn she'd just kissed him.
Maybe this was a nightmare.
Sasha pinched herself. It probably looked a little comical, but it was the only way to assure herself that she was probably not trapped in some horrible nightmare.
Jerry was still there, fussing with his glasses. Okay, so this was real life.
"I.. I don't.. I thought. I don't want you to.. I mean, if you.. if you don't want to kiss me, it's.. I just didn't want to die tomorrow or something and just.."
She trailed off, looking miserable.
"Maybe I should uh, j-just go to sleep."
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 10:04 pm
He put his glasses back on meekly, "I... I... I would like to.. to kiss you I mean but I mean... only if... you um. I mean. Um." Oh he wanted to, alright. Badly. Enough just the memory of it numbed some of the pain of their recent injuries.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 10:22 pm
Sasha pressed her lips together. It had been so much easier when they hadn't been standing around talking about it. By this point she was feeling like maybe kissing was more awkward than it was worth. Honestly.
This kissing stuff was... was complicated.
"Will you.. will you still be my friend? I mean.. I just.. I don't know how.. I don't know what all this. How all this works. I don't.."
Sasha paused.
"I don't want to lose you, Jerry. You're my best friend, but.. everything is so confusing. I just.. I want to forget all of the bad things. I don't even k-know if that makes sense anymore."
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 10:28 pm
"I think..." Jerry exhaled deeply, shifting to scoot further on the cot before bending to stiffly undo the laces on his shoes and brace. "We... we should get some sleep. While we can."
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 10:47 pm
Sasha fidgeted nervously. He hadn't answered any of her questions, which confused her, but he made a good point. She was exhausted; crying took up entirely too much energy, and Sasha wobbled on her feet before she removed her jacket and scarf.
Shoes came next.
"I am tired," she mumbled, curling up on the bunk as she watched him blearily behind heavy-lidded eyes.
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 10:52 pm
Biting his lip, he considered his options again.
Deep breaths.
No panicking.
Inhale.
You are the shittiest wolf ever, Roar sighed.
He exhaled.
He popped his shoes off carefully, loosening the strap of his brace before slipping his leg out and pushed it under the bed with his guitar.
He glanced over to her, curled up so small on the bed beside him.
He shifted carefully onto her bed and leaned back carefully onto his elbows before curling up next to her, his voice quiet, "If... if you did want... want to try again though um. I... I'd like that."
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Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 11:01 pm
When he curled up next to her, the bed dipped in such a way that she rolled against him. It took her a few moments to readjust herself before she came to a halt, facing him. Sasha's eyes felt bruised, tender and slightly swollen as she adjusted the pillow beneath her head.
"I'm.." her voice was hoarse before she cleared her throat, whispering.
She was silent for a long moment.
"W.. would it be okay?"
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