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 Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2012 3:27 pm
"Yes, your brother showed kindness in words and friendship in spirit," Nakama said simply. As the male continued, she watched him and felt pity. All he knew was untrue. His actions had been forged on a believed truth that had all along been a true lie. As he stated his life was ruined, her to go away, she knew she might regret it but she rushed at him, and outreached her right paw and smack him hard against the side of his face.
"How dare you," Nakama spat, pulling her paw back from him.
Kessek retreated back up into the air.
"What will you do now, withdraw yourself? Feel pity and do nothing, let yourself waste away as you've almost nearly done? Be more than what you have become, you are worth more than this. Your mother, would have wanted and demanded more from you, what would she think now? You, seeming to give up now when faced with the truth where you can forge a life renewed? Reunite with your brother?" she reached her paw out again, not to slap him, but under his chin, raising his head up so that his eyes met hers.
"Do not let the past consume you. Fight for your life, as your mother fought for your brother's."
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2012 3:36 pm
She had hit him. She had hit him!
He was too shocked to show anger, though eventually a light snarl did curl the lips around his fangs. And then she came at him again, not with claws but at words. And perhaps it was the words that hurt more than the paw across the face had. They hurt because they were true. So true that the shame sprang up and all but smothered him.
"But I'm not." He choked out. "I'm not worth more than this. You don't understand...everything I lived for...it was a lie and...and...my..." He was struggling to speak now, thinking of his foster father, Hakan'mawasii. The lion who had adopted him and trained him and taught him how to be a warrior. That same lion had followed him dutifully into Firekin lands to aid him with his vengeance. That same lion had died - for him - in those lands. And for what?
A lie.
He choked on a sudden surge of grief and was forced to look away, feeling the tears of his grief and shame burning. "I think...I think I do not deserve to fight any more."
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2012 3:41 pm
"Yes you are, for you to think your are not worthy, shows how truly worthy your are, let the hate go," she said, trying to offer him a meek smile. "Just let it all go." If he let it go, perhaps he could find happiness, a new life, and find his brother. Then, there, they could be happy.
She wondered, for a brief second, if she were to let it go, her past, would she be happy too? But she could not think of that now, no, not now.
"You deserve anything you strive for, whether you wish to continue to fight, or live at peace somewhere as your brother wants to, it is up to you. But through all of this, you deserve to live and find peace, you've suffered enough."
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2012 3:47 pm
He sat down quite suddenly, lifting a paw so as to cover his face with it. His head hurt and his eyes ached and a tear tracked its way down the side of his face. He didn't know what he should do. Where was there a place for one such as him? Broken and twisted and who had lived for so long without any hope?
"I can't." He replied. "I can't go to him yet." Not until he had fixed himself. He couldn't go to his brother - what was his name? Uddhava? - and expect to be welcomed back when he was so ashamed of what he had done. He had led one he cared for to an early grave. Left a litter of cubs without their father. And hated a pride who had never been guilty of the crime he had accused them of.
"I need to...I need to..." To what, exactly? He didn't know. "I just need to go..."
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2012 3:51 pm
"All right, then not yet, I think I know where he is going, I can take you there someday if you like, when you are ready." She watched him, he seemed broken, and she, although broken herself, wanted to help, wanted to fix this, perhaps even help him become whole again.
He needed to go?
Where?
She pondered, and then tried to peek in his eyes, "Everything had com to light so suddenly, for that, I am sorry, and I am sorry if the way I revealed it all has hurt you so much so. But...I've an idea..."
She waited, thought, then decided. He could say no, but it was a start.
"Why not try to change, try to help? Come with me, come with me back there? My family, my family who still lives and is within the lands is in trouble, I need to make sure my mother is safe. I know you said it was not a home to you, not a family, but it still is to me. Help me save my family..."
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2012 5:54 am
He shook his head, still distressed and unwilling to meet her eyes. This conversation was heading towards a topic he was afraid of, but if he did not at least give some truth, she would question him on it and he was too tired for that. He had made too many mistakes now; so many of them unfixable. What she asked of him now...it was impossible.
"Even if I wanted to help, I can't. I committed a grave crime against the Firekin and it was not so long ago. They will see me and remember and they will kill me on the spot." He had, after all, conspired to assassinate the regents. It had been his attempt at getting back at the ones who he thought had taken his mother from him.
He looked up at her then, finally making eye contact. "But if your family is in danger, you must go."
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2012 9:41 am
As he spoke, she tried to understand, but could not recall what might have happened. She had been gone for so long, how could she know anyway? "It doesn't matter to me, not now, it is in the past, and is over, I was not there to witness it, nor know nothing of it, so raise your head some for that," she said with a softer voice then.
She did have to go, she needed to get home and still had quite a way to travel still.
"I'll come find you again, when it is all over, perhaps you will have found your brother by then too," she said with hope.
Kessek, while Nakama spoke, had fluttered to the ground, waiting and prodding at the dirt.
"Till then, try to let it go, and live on for your mother's sake, and will to find your brother," and then she departed.
It was time she, herself, faced her past.
Kessek, with success from a gust of wind, she grabbed and tucked a strand of orange fur in her feathers and took to the sky again.
This male was another friend, even if they did not know his name.
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