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 Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2012 1:17 pm
He hung his head, shifting from foot to foot, "Candace... Look. What we had... what... what I thought we had... was special. But it wasn't. If it's not me, it's someone else. If... if something happens, if we all die in our beds tonight... I'd rather die knowing that I stood by my morals. That I did the right thing. Than to die feeling guilty that I just... settled. You're... you're a beautiful, intelligent... amazing woman, Candace. I gave you my everything, and it wasn't enough. And it'll never be enough. And you'll never just be mine. Maybe we can still be friends, but... I know we don't know how much time we have but what time we DO have I don't want to just... lie. Lie to myself, lie to the world, play stupid. I know I'm... i'm a weird guy, Candace, but I'm not stupid."
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2012 2:17 pm
She didn't want to listen when she noticed his body language. His answer wasn't going to be good. It wasn't going to be something she'd want to hear. Her eyes burned harder and her vision blurred as he began to explain why he didn't want to be with her tonight, even if it was the last chance he had to speak with her. Her heart felt like it was going to burst it hurt so bad, and her chest felt so tight she could barely breathe. Stood by his ******** morals. What was unmoral about holding her while they slept? She just wanted to be held. She just...she just wanted back what they had had. She wanted someone she could feel she had some kind of security with. She just wanted someone to comfort her. She was scared, especially after what had just happened in the Sahara. She was tired, but she didn't want to sleep by herself if she succumbed to sleep at all. She was exhausted. She was starving but now food looked like the most unappetizing thing in the world. He would feel guilty holding her...
She didn't want to hear any of this. They had been laughing, they had been smiling. Things were starting to feel normal again. Candace hated this. She could just be his. She could. He didn't understand, he didn't know how she'd sworn to herself she'd never do what she'd done...he didn't get how angry at herself she was for ******** up a good thing.
He didn't want to lie to himself. He didn't want her.
Candace stayed silent, except for the occasional sniff as she refused to look at him and wiped at her eyes with her scarf. What the hell was she supposed to say? That was how he felt, and after two months it was clear he wasn't going to change his mind. He wasn't stupid, she agreed. It didn't make it hurt any mess. "Fine. Go." She managed to whisper, unpacking her meal. Go, Jerry. Go have fun with Sasha, you're perfect ideal girl. Just ******** go.
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2012 5:37 pm
Jerry sighed, shaking his head as he carried his meal to eat outside. He didn't like things being like this... but... he couldn't just cave. He couldn't give in to her come-ons or they'd just be back to square one. Honestly, that was not how he'd like to spend his last days if that really was the case. He wanted to feel safe. He wanted to be among friends. And... and he had many friends here.
He just hoped Candace knew that too.
((Exit))
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2012 5:49 pm
Candace didn't watch him leave. She didn't want to look at him. Just go, damnit. Go have fun with your Sasha. Your songbird. Your beautiful and gentle and sweet and innocent little Sasha. Clearly she was what he wanted..what...what he needed. She wasn't hungry anymore, in fact she was the complete opposite, but she began to force the food down anyway. Candace eventually pushed the food away, having eaten the majority of it anyway, and got her phone out of her pocket. Toshihiko Two Text to Harrison:Harrison? How are you feeling? Toshihiko Two Text to Harrison:Are you hungry? I can bring by some food to wherever you are. Toshihiko Two Text to Harrison:I can also offer All The Hugs.
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Posted: Mon Apr 09, 2012 9:55 am
Text from Harrison feeling shitty. not hurt @ infirmary. u ok? food = good Candace gave a soft laugh to herself and shook her head. Her? How was she feeling? Toshihiko Two Text to Harrison:Glad you're not hurt, at least. I feel like s**t but not because of the mission anymore. How's beef stew sound?
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