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 Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 4:42 pm
Ugh. That sucks. Well if you have to do it, then I guess just try to make the best of it. Maybe in the excitement of all this, she'll just forget the other photo.
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 4:47 pm
Busy busy busy. I apologize for not being active. I've been looking into applying for jobs. We need the extra money because we're really strapped for cash and we are wanting to get out of our apartment complex and into a house. I'm not happy about it but I have to suck it up and just do it. I have been doing good so far. My anxiety has been manageable so far and I haven;t been having panic attacks. I am truly hoping it stays like this. I hope you all are doing just as good. I know the guild is pretty slow right now but I am hoping that once I get active again, then the word will get out and we'll get some new members.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 11:46 pm
I went through a similar experience when I was younger too with my mom, lol. It really sticks with you in such a negative way when people react so ridiculously toward it. Sigh. x.x Anna is trying to be positive about it and says that she hopes eventually they'll calm down and maybe want to meet me. I kind of doubt that though. But I am the negative one.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 11:51 pm
I've also been looking for a job and applied some places. I want to move out of my parents house so badly. XD;
It's good your anxiety has been manageable at least. sweatdrop Mine kind of has as well, just get annoying pains in my chest and stuff once in a while.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 6:25 am
Sorry I haven't been posting at all lately, I've had a busy week.
I had to go bridesmaid dress shopping (I'm going to be in my friend's wedding) and it just stressed me out. Everything is so expensive, there's so many parties and get-togethers that are being planned...I just wish I wasn't a part of it at all. I feel terrible saying that, but I mean...damn. Sometimes I think I'm more nervous than the bride. gonk At least it's not until the end of summer, so I can just not think about it for awhile.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 3:04 pm
I was a bridesmaid in my cousins wedding. It was hell. My dress had to be altered last-minute (as in like 5 minutes before the wedding started), and I had to walk the aisle with some dude I barely knew & didn't like, it was awkward.. Buuut.. then we all each had like 2-3 shots of tequila before the ceremony started and it went fine. -cough- I would talk to your friend, though.. just let her know, if you can't do it.. does she have a back-up person? (I was a back-up person) or.. have a bit of alcohol or xanax on hand. Don't listen to me, that is terrible advice - just talk to your friend, though. Maybe you guys can work something out to where you don't have to attend every function, or let her know if you need to step away for a breather so she'll understand.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 4:53 pm
cerebral ulcer I was a bridesmaid in my cousins wedding. It was hell. My dress had to be altered last-minute (as in like 5 minutes before the wedding started), and I had to walk the aisle with some dude I barely knew & didn't like, it was awkward.. Buuut.. then we all each had like 2-3 shots of tequila before the ceremony started and it went fine. -cough- I would talk to your friend, though.. just let her know, if you can't do it.. does she have a back-up person? (I was a back-up person) or.. have a bit of alcohol or xanax on hand. Don't listen to me, that is terrible advice - just talk to your friend, though. Maybe you guys can work something out to where you don't have to attend every function, or let her know if you need to step away for a breather so she'll understand. I tried backing out of the wedding before, but she won't let me. What the bride wants, the bride gets. It's that sorta thing. I may have to talk to her about attending all the parties/functions. Because not only is the social stuff making me nervous, but my financial situation is really bring out my anxiety as well. I hate to agree to it, but alcohol almost sounds like the only way I'll survive this. (not too much, of course...don't wanna be stumbling down the aisle. lol). Just something to take the edge off.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 6:37 pm
Aw I'm sorry. sad I guess I was lucky, my cousin was a bit easy to deal with.. at least when it came to me, she was kind of bitchy with everyone else. But like I said, I was a back-up bridesmaid anyway, I didn't even know I was going to be in the wedding until like two weeks before. I know how crappy financial situations go. :/ Well~ yeah, a bit of booze might be the way to go. I was lucky there, too.. my cousin likes to drink. The whole, lets have a bottle of booze before the ceremony was her idea.
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2012 5:55 pm
I apologize for my absence. This has not been a good week for me at all. My friend that was in jail got released right after Christmas. Well my fiance and I had been planning on letting her come stay with us temporarily so she could get her life back in order. We all went to school together so we've known her for the past 8 years or so now. I found out last night that she and an ex-bf of mine have been talking so much crap about me behind my back, saying my OCD is fake and that I have turned my fiance into a basket-case like me. All these things that I never imagined her saying because she was like a sister to me. Or so I thought. And we had just gotten back from driving her home an hour and half away from the city we live in after her having spent a few days with us. We payed for her food and for us to all go hang out and then I get online and find that out. Needless to say, I had a pretty massive breakdown last night. Didn't get to sleep until 9am because I was so upset I couldn't stop hyperventilating. I just don't understand what I have done to her, besides try to help her, to make her turn on me like this. Today has been better. I've pretty much accepted that I am done with her in my life. Things like this are making me slowly lose faith in people as a whole.
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2012 6:07 pm
Pink Peppercorn I apologize for my absence. This has not been a good week for me at all. My friend that was in jail got released right after Christmas. Well my fiance and I had been planning on letting her come stay with us temporarily so she could get her life back in order. We all went to school together so we've known her for the past 8 years or so now. I found out last night that she and an ex-bf of mine have been talking so much crap about me behind my back, saying my OCD is fake and that I have turned my fiance into a basket-case like me. All these things that I never imagined her saying because she was like a sister to me. Or so I thought. And we had just gotten back from driving her home an hour and half away from the city we live in after her having spent a few days with us. We payed for her food and for us to all go hang out and then I get online and find that out. Needless to say, I had a pretty massive breakdown last night. Didn't get to sleep until 9am because I was so upset I couldn't stop hyperventilating. I just don't understand what I have done to her, besides try to help her, to make her turn on me like this. Today has been better. I've pretty much accepted that I am done with her in my life. Things like this are making me slowly lose faith in people as a whole. Things like that hurt. I have had things said about me behind my back (I don't know by who, but such ways are awkward for your parents to learn your sexuality...), and I have had a friend who lied to me the entire time I knew her. I have had friends turn on me like that, suddenly snapping at me and calling me hopeless and saying everything is my fault. It does hurt.
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2012 6:23 pm
Song of the Century Things like that hurt. I have had things said about me behind my back (I don't know by who, but such ways are awkward for your parents to learn your sexuality...), and I have had a friend who lied to me the entire time I knew her. I have had friends turn on me like that, suddenly snapping at me and calling me hopeless and saying everything is my fault. It does hurt. I just don't understand how people can be so hurtful for absolutely no reason.
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2012 6:26 pm
Neither can I. I mean, I have a lot of apathy issues, but I've never hated anyone, nor wanted to hurt them. Except for my family, they're a complete nightmare sometimes, but I end up hitting something else or hurting myself with that.
It gives them an outlet, I suppose. Something "fun" to talk about.
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2012 7:39 pm
Song of the Century Neither can I. I mean, I have a lot of apathy issues, but I've never hated anyone, nor wanted to hurt them. Except for my family, they're a complete nightmare sometimes, but I end up hitting something else or hurting myself with that. It gives them an outlet, I suppose. Something "fun" to talk about. I generally don't hate people. I may have anger towards them but that's about it. But her, I have never been anything but nice to so for her to say those things about me was a total slap in the face. But instead of confronting her because I'm just so passive-aggressive, I'll just implode and take it out on myself, as usual.
Ugh. People need to grow up and get lives. If you don't like me for who I am, then don't be friends with me, it's that simple.
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 12:14 am
Haven't heard from several of you lately. Hope all is going alright with you guys. I have been trying my hardest to pop by every other day and drop a post just to keep things going. I'm going to be job-hunting this week, which is very scary but it's something I must do. Also going to try to take my driver's exam. Here's hoping I can pass and not panic when I get behind the wheel with the instructor. So many new changes but I am trying to push myself to make this year better than the last. Miss you guys and hope to hear from you all soon. Hugs to all!
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 9:22 am
I've been job hunting too, and school starts up again Tuesday. I've been eh lately so I've kind of been sleeping a lot. sweatdrop I'm glad you're really moving forward with stuff, you can do it! Drivers exams aren't too bad, though I almost got in an accident during mine, but nervous-ness wise I was pretty okay.
I'm late on it but I'm sorry about your friend. :/ People can really suck and say some rude things. Sigh...
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