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 Posted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 6:42 pm
"I haven't even been to Mars yet, just been putting it off I guess." He shrugged again, dismissing the thought. "I might not even have a past life or whatever the hell it is. Meri told me she saw visions of her ancestor or something, but we can have past lives too? I don't know, the whole ******** thing is complicated." He flicked the analog stick of his controller idly, staring down at it as if it might help him make up his mind. "I'll go eventually."
He glanced up at her as she questioned his love of lesbians, but made a face immediately as she planted the idea of macking on a guy in his head. If he went back to Mars just to find out he was a raging man lover he was going to be pissed. He could definitely add that to his reasons of 'I don't give a ******** about Mars right now'.
But then his playful attitude faded as he listened to Delphine talk about this lover of hers..
"You said she's reborn too, didn't you? Do those ******** have past lives?" If she was fighting her then she must be one of those uniformed jack asses, it was the only thing that made sense in Kam's head. After all, he still knew very little about everything. His glossary was only slowly beginning to fill.
He watched her put in Gears of War and sat back, waiting for the screen to load and thinking about the way he wanted to answer her inquiry into his own love life. That was certainly changing quickly and he still didn't know what the hell to do with it.
"I've been.." he frowned and leaned back into the cushions of the couch again. "Less manwhoring, more.. relationshipping?" He was making up words and questioning their meaning all at once. He had no idea what he was doing. "I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm still doing just fine on the lady front but I guess something happened with Vulcan and.. it's ******** complicated." That sounded suspiciously like he was getting himself tied down.
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Posted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 6:56 pm
"You should go, you may learn something there, anyways. I can take you to Nemesis, too, though it probably won't be very interesting for you. Sometimes it's not interesting for me either." Delphine didn't think he should pass up the chance to visit Mars and figure out what the past was like. Maybe in the past there was a key to winning this war with the Negaverse. If there was, Delphine hadn't found it yet. "You're telling me it's complicated? If anything is complicated, it is definitely my jumbled mess of a past life." Delphine still hadn't figured out what was entirely up with the old Nemesis, the old her. Cosmos had been able to fill her in on a few things, but she always felt as if she was missing an important piece of the puzzle.
Delphine wasn't entirely comfortable with talking about Alkaid, but since she had started, there was little reason for her to stop. "She's not a Negaverser. She was, is, a senshi. I knew her for a while before things... changed." Kamboja probably had no clue about senshi corruption. He was a knight, he didn't need to be bothered by such things. "I was going to die. I didn't think I really would back then, but I would have. Alkaid saved me. And in return for rescuing me, her starseed, her soul, was corrupted. She's one of their's now, and I don't think there's any way I can change her back or... repay her for saving me that night. For a while I deluded myself into thinking she'd fight back against the people who changed her, but she never did.
I've always had this feeling that I have to kill her, because if I don't kill her, she'll kill me. We've come so close to ending each other on numerous occasions, and then we part, and somehow get it into our minds that one of us will see the other's version of the truth." Okay, this deep kind of talking was making her mildly uncomfortable. Delphine hadn't talked about Alkaid to anyone, she usually considered it to be her own personal business, and thus no one else needed to be in on it. "If I ever die, you'd be safe to bet your money on Alkaid being the one to do it."
She laughed softly, happy for the conversation to turn back to Kamboja instead of herself. "That seems pretty impossible, I'm not going to lie. You don't seem like the... type. I get the mental image of you with at least three chicks hanging on your arms begging you to whore yourself out to them." She was flattering him a little, possibly just to deflect the attention away from herself.
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 5:00 pm
Even Kam was quick enough to realize what Nemesis was doing. As much as he didn't want to talk about his s**t with Vulcan, he realized that she really, really didn't want to talk about this thing with.. Alkaid? His issue wasn't even remotely as important as what he expected Nemesis' was and for once he felt like he should be a good friend.
Especially since it meant he could just avoid his own problems under the guise.
"No, we're not going to talk about my glory days when you clearly have some pent up aggression over some crazy ex-not-ex psycho senshi." It was eloquent, really. He shifted on the couch and let the xbox controller drop onto the cushions (and mass of blankets) between them, then propped an elbow on the back and pointed his free hand at her.
"First of all, what the hell does corruption mean and why wouldn't one of you fancy schmancy magic schoolgirls fight back?" He quirked a brow as he said it, trying to make the situation lighter with his casual banter. But as he looked at her, really looked at her, he knew it was more serious than he was attempting to be. He sighed a little and and leaned his side into the back of the couch.
"Tell me about your planet, okay? Let's start there. I don't know a damn thing about outer space, but something.. happens, right? Something about this Alkaid girl." His jovial, joker-like attitude was fading and beneath it was the serious, level-headed Kam that usually only surfaced in intense conversations about Khal, or his family. He was capable of being responsible sometimes. "I could use a bit more information about this kind of thing before I go anyway."
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 10:43 pm
Delphine gave him such an expression that it was clear she hadn't thought he'd offer to sit back and listen to her. Perhaps she didn't expect anyone to, because for a few moments, she looked completely shocked that someone was willing to simply hear her out. Normally she wouldn't offer to talk about what was going on in her life. She had surprised herself when she started talking about Alkaid. So, never did she really expect anyone, especially Kamboja, to hear her out. It was... comforting, and for a brief moment a relieved smile graced her features.
"From what I gather, they force a great deal of Chaos into your starseed. They can do that, rip the physical representation of someone's soul out of their chest, or reach in to change it. I've had it happen before, to some sort of degree. They weren't trying to corrupt me, but they damned near broke my starseed with how much Chaos they were forcing into it. It hurts like a b***h, let me tell you." A light amount of humor flared, but it was only for a passing second. "I think it's very hard to fight off, and it changes you completely. Alkaid is not the same Alkaid I knew before, but that doesn't change my memories of her, in this life and the past one."
Her planet, was, perhaps, an even more touchy subject. She was clearly apprehensive. The television was stuck on the start screen - she had forgotten to press A. If she had pressed A, she probably would have died very quickly. "Ah..." If she was going to reveal some of what had been going on with her to Kamboja, she might as well show it all. "Something's wrong with it. I mean, I'm sure that it's not the same for everyone. It's very dark, I have never really seen light touch the surface of my planet, or even break through the clouds just a tiny bit. It's mostly rubble, until you reach the castle, where everything is mostly intact. A few broken pillars, a few caved in corridors...but it was built within a mountain, so it's sturdy." He probably didn't give a s**t about what her planet looked like, she realized belatedly.
"I go there often, though. I find some comfort in the silence it brings. I brought Alkaid too, before she was corrupted, to show her what a senshi planet was like. I can bring you sometime too, if you want. But, the first time I saw her, I experienced like... a flashback. I saw another Alkaid, warm, kind, the exact opposite of what I was. I was... jaded, hurt, faithless. Back then, I mean. I had every right to be. They wouldn't... the Moon ********." She was clearly frustrated, trying to formulate into coherent sentences what she remembered, when it was all fragmented to begin with. "My planet was a trap. I was trapped, my people were trapped. Some of them deserved to be... but some of them didn't. I kept on trying to save them, and every time I think I failed. The Moonies wouldn't let me give those who deserved freedom freedom. They didn't trust my judgment. Not every person on my planet was evil, and I desperately wanted to save them. Alkaid wanted to save them. She wanted to save me too, I think.
What bothers me so much is that I remember what I felt about her. She was my everything, my light. She kept me from falling into darkness so many times, and in this lifetime she saved me again, and I failed to save her. The Alkaid back then was the only person who could give me hope. It's why I don't think I'll fall in love again, my soul had the love that it needed, and it doesn't need anything else. That love is enough to sustain it for thousands of years to come." Delphine paused, and realized that she was sort of... embarrassed to be saying all this. She had a far better grasp of her past life than she thought she did. The details were a blur, but she felt, knew things. Delphine had been on Planet Nemesis so many times that it was impossible not to know things.
"Sorry, I'm rambling."
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 3:14 pm
For the most part, Kam managed to maintain a pensive face throughout her rambled explanation. It probably wasn't hard though since he was only understanding bits and pieces of the things that she was explaining. He was quickly beginning to realize, as more and more of it flew over his head, that he was sorely uninformed about a lot of things.
"No, no, it's okay." He shook his head to try and wave away her worries about rambling too much, but a frown was forming on his face even as he said it. "I just don't follow a lot of this, to be honest." He let out one long, frustrated breath and glanced up at the ceiling, as if all the information she'd spat out was there for him to pick and choose from.
"Okay, I get the chaos thing. That makes sense. I always figured there had to be something making those nutjobs the way they are." His eyes dropped down to hers once again and that frown was even more pronounced, his eyes even more confused. "But what's this about the moonies trapping you? or not helping you? I thought they were supposed to be good guys and all of that nonsense. You're all trying to find that damn princess of yours, aren't you? If she were that awful I'd think she wouldn't be so important."
He leaned back into the couch with that same frown in place, thinking silently over everything else she'd said. He was normally okay with not knowing, not understanding, but when it came down to it and he couldn't just fit all the pieces into place it actually frustrated him to no end. It wasn't the first time that he wished he was a little less brawn and a little more brain.
"But I get that love thing, kind of." Surprise! Kam didn't like to think about love, much less think about the implications of it all. Recently, though.. "If she was really that important to you that it made you a better person, I get it. Lesbian or not. But.." he paused, then tossed a sidelong glance at her. "You really get all of that just from going back to your planet? It can do that kind of s**t to you?" Panic, round two. He didn't need to be struggling to love two people anymore than he needed to be struggling to deal with two ******** up lives.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 4:47 pm
Delphine wasn't even aware that she had lost him at some point during her rambling, but it was probably just as therapeutic to simply talk as it was to have someone listen and understand her. Kamboja was doing a well enough job of trying to keep up with what the pale-skinned teen was trying to say and emphasize. He was fairing better than any normal person would, anyways. "I've been around longer than you, I've had more time to pick up things. You'll soon know a helluva lot more than you ever wanted to know." It was the best warning that she could give him. This was really only the start of 's**t He was Going to end up Knowing'.
Her blue eyes glanced over to him again, and she hesitated over her next words. Delphine had always been the sort of person to say what her opinion was, but this delved deeper than that. These were her experiences, the things she refrained from saying. "I think, technically, I was a part of the Moon Kingdom, but that part that no one wanted to touch or associate with. I, personally, was an outcast, without a good deal of the Moon Kingdoms protection from what I gathered. My people were just as poorly off, some of them deserved it, but some of them didn't. So I guess, overall, they were good, but not consistently, not always.
And ******** no, I'm not trying to find some moon b***h. I feel nothing for her. If she mattered, she would have shown her face by now, she would have saved so many people. If she were truly good, she definitely would have been here by now. However, I am in no mood to wait around for her. I... am going to get the things done that need to get done." Her fingers weaved together, her closed hands pressing up to her lips in a moment of contemplation. She knew that it was probably still hard to follow. Kamboja likely would have to experience a whole lot more to get to the point where Delphine was. It would happen, eventually, maybe.
Perhaps she was the only one with this specific insight - it wouldn't surprise her.
There were still things that she wanted to say - needed to say. She had been holding back a little, because even these ideas were still cementing in her head. These were things she hadn't been contemplating until a couple of months ago, and while she was normally open with her viewpoint on the war, she had been very closed off about this. It wasn't what her current court wanted to hear, and so she had kept it to herself. "I want to save who I can, though, from the Negaverse. I think they can be saved, and if they are, then maybe they can work to fix the things they had done wrong, maybe they can still be of some use to this world. That's something I learned from my planet... that a second chance is all that someone may need to turn their life completely around. But... I can't save them all, and I won't. Some can't be saved, and I think I'm going to have to be the one to end them before they do any more damage to this world. It's the only way we're going to make any progress in this war. This isn't some alleyway skirmish, it's really a full-blown war, you know?"
Delphine, after some second thoughts, quickly backtracked away from the conversation topic she had just been starting, and moved back to more comfortable ground. "I'm not sure... everyone gets the same experiences. I got vivid memories, and I was able to piece things together from that. It took a lot of trips to my planet to remember, and some outside help that I am really not going to get into now to figure out the history of my planet's history." Her interaction with Cosmos had certainly been mixed, and she didn't want to entirely bombard Kamboja with more information. "I think it's really only if you actively pursue after knowledge that you get it. So, I wouldn't worry too much about it, Kam. I'm sure you're not going to discover that you were in a hot and sweaty gay relationship with some wandering space man." Delphine chuckled, relieved herself to be able to spit out some humor. Her own seriousness was beginning to unnerve her, especially since Kamboja was someone she usually joked around with.
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2012 7:22 am
Delphine might have wanted to skip over the topic she had just brought up but, lucky or unlucky for her, it was one of the few things that Kamboja did have insight with.
"They can be saved," was all he said at first. His brows drew down into a deep furrow and he turned his head sideways to look at her again, letting the long, unbound dreads sweep around his shoulders with the movement. It was rare to see Kam this serious or concentrating this hard on anything but if this was really Delphine's goal as Nemesis then he could contribute. It was rare for him.
"Those negaverse agents? They're knights, Delph. Or at least some of them are." He brought up a hand and rubbed it against his forehead, trying to make sense of this chaos business in his mind. Alkaid had been a senshi turned evil through chaos, and Lina was a Negaverse agent turned Knight through.. purification. It was a two way street. "I met a Knight, the only high ranking one I've met yet, that was a Negaverse agent turned to the order. She explained a bunch of Negaverse s**t to me but the basics of it was that she got clean."
He didn't really mean to make it sound like Lina was a recovering drug addict, but..
"So I mean, I guess what I'm trying to say is that if the moon princess is slacking on the one god damn thing she's supposed to be doing, then ******** her." He threw up the hand that had been rubbing at his temples, straight into the air, and a small smirk curled on his lips. "We'll ******** do it without her, right? There's a way." At some point he had pledged himself to helping Delphine, but the when and why was a bit hazy. Sure, he didn't mind beating the hell out of the Negaverse or even killing them, but if they were his brothers and sisters in arms.. well, he was a loyal guy. If he could save just one of them by helping Nemesis, it'd be worth it.
"Look," he turned in his seat again and faced her, all serious Kamboja again. "I don't know s**t about your moon kingdom, or politics, but I know I've got power enough to help someone and you sound like you need it. If no one else is gonna help you get this s**t done, then I will, because these.. soldiers or whatever they call themselves? They could be people I knew once, people I fought beside."
For the first time since he knew it was possible, Kam could feel himself slowly making a decision to go to Mars. There were so many answers waiting for him and good or bad, he needed to find out what they were.
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2012 1:55 pm
"Well, that's what I'm hoping. I'd feel like s**t to just give up on them..." Her gaze flicked back over to Kamboja, observing the small change in his demeanor with curiosity. She wasn't used to seeing the side of Kam, which Kam could likely say the same exact thing about her. They were friends in the way that they could hang out for a few hours and play video games, not the sort of friends that discussed feelings and talked about wars and s**t. But, if this was what their friendship was changing towards, Delphine didn't consider it such a bad thing at all.
"Wait, what? They're Knights? As in, what you are?" It seemed like Kamboja finally knew something that Delphine didn't. Delphine didn't know much about knights in general, just that they showed up, and seemed to be on the good side of things. That made them pretty okay in her book, just so long as they did not get in her way. "But, how? How do you get a Negaverse agent to be a Knight? ********, it probably has to do with some magical wand swishing." Delphine needed to find this out, though. If there was a way to get them to be just regular Knights... It'd likely be just as much of a blow to the Negaverse as it was to the senshi when one of theirs got corrupted. It'd be the perfect way for a Negaverse agent to start fresh, to try and right whatever wrongs they had committed and end this Chaos infestation. "Is it possible you can get me into contact with this Knight? I need to know how they... can turn away from the Negaverse and back to common ******** sense." Delphine really hadn't thought Kamboja would end up helping her so much. He had not only heard her out, but he was offering her ways to help.
She supposed, when she got down to the root of the feeling, she hadn't expected anyone to want to help her. Delphine didn't consider that attitude to be necessarily pessimistic, but cautious. It was better to think she had to do things on her own, so she didn't end up relying too heavily on other people who could always fall through. If she was going to rely on someone, though, Kamboja seemed to be the best person she could choose to seek aid from.
"That's what I've been saying all along to people! ******** some moon princess, we can do this s**t on our own. Sitting back and waiting for some magical princess to show up in a flash of light and goodness is going to get nothing done. It's much better for us to take this s**t into our own hands, do what she ******** won't!" Kamboja had influenced her too much, because she couldn't help but raise a fist into the air as well, as if she had made some sort of battle cry. This conversation had made her feel better about the things she had been planning, had renewed her confidence. If Kamboja could believe that her ideals were correct, then what was stopping from other people seeing the same way? Perhaps the senshi would see that they can make a difference without chopping every Negaverse head off of shoulders. Perhaps they could come to see things the way Nemesis saw them. It didn't have to be everyone, just enough people so that change could happen. She could accomplish a lot on her own, but could accomplish so much more with allies, with friends.
Her arm as still up in the air as Kamboja turned to face her again, and in her surprise as he openly said he would help her, her arm remained in the air for a few seconds longer than it needed to. She suspected that Kamboja would help her if she asked, but that their cooperation was some sort of unspoken agreement. So, him saying out loud that he would help her do the things that needed to be done was... a heartwarming surprise. Some people could claim Delphine did not have a large enough heart to feel warmth, but this moment would prove them wrong. "...Thank you," she answered, unable to form any proper flow of words to express how much she appreciated his offer to help her. "I think I'll need the help, and you're one of the few people I trust to, well, get s**t done right. I really think we can make a change. I think we can save people and end this war at the same time."
They could do it, and would. They have to, because no one else will give the Negaverse the chance Delphine wanted to give them.
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2012 8:23 pm
Kam wasn't really sure exactly what he had just agreed to, if he was being honest with himself, but he was an 'act now, think later' kind of guy and for most of his life he had simply followed his gut feelings on everything. More often then not (with a few terrible exceptions) he had made the right decisions, at least enough that he would still trust his instinct.
Now was one of those times that his instinct was screaming at him to listen to Delphine.
"I can try? I mean, the girl's a little hard to get ahold of recently. Trouble with her boyfriend or fiance or whatever the ******** he is." He shrugged a little as he said it and reached down to reclaim the xbox remote that he had let sink into the couch cushions, almost losing it again as it began to be eaten by the vortex of lost things once more. "I'll see what I can do.
But in the mean time, how about we stop all this duty and righteousness bullshit and get back to our game?" He smirked and all the seriousness in his face began to drain, leaving behind the carefree Kamboja. He could only stomach so much work, handle so much stress and this conversation was going to leave him thinking for hours after Delphine finally left. While she was still here he was going to blow off some steam in the good old fashioned way - pixel death.
"Get it going, bones."
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Posted: Wed Jan 18, 2012 6:57 pm
"I'd appreciate the effort. If I'm going to learn anything about how to save some Negaversers, I think she'd be a first good spot to start at. But, see, this is exactly why I'm not bothering with love s**t right now, it gets in the way." Delphine waved her hand in the air, dismissing the topic of conversation just as quickly as she had brought it up. She was not in the mood to talk about love and sparkles again. In fact, now that she had gotten that huge weight off her shoulder, she felt like she could actually enjoy kicking Kamboja's a** in a video game war. He was still under the impression that she was only good at Pokemon battling, but she was about to clear him of that delusion.
"That sounds like an excellent idea. This is why I hang out with you, because every once in a blue moon you get a really good idea," she teased. The Xbox had idled while the two of them were chatting away, and with a few quick clicks she started their game. The sounds of bullets whirling and explosions was far more comfortable in the gaming world than it was in real life. This was the type of fighting she sometimes wished she was only involved in.
Though, in the end she wouldn't change her current situation even if she had the choice. With Kamboja's help, she was going to make the impact on this war that she had been desiring for a long time.
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