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 Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 12:51 pm
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso I see it like the other poster said. If its manageable, there is no reason to go to an institution. Those are there for people who can not survive on their own due to their illnesses. That said, I want to know more about the schizophrenia? What do you say exactly that makes them think you hear voice/hallucinate? I hear voices and see people which tell me to do things. Henry, Thoreau, Chester. They tell me to hurt other people and to cut myself. So, I have a bunch of scars on my arms. Ignis is a stuffed animal but a voice comes from him. Worst of all, I found out that my husband, David, was one of them. Just a figment of my self that I've been living with for two years...I found out when Henry was able to physically fight him, and he died. That was the most shock that I've experienced so far. And a woman named Sarah-Landra keeps appearing to me and telling me that I must do the will of God to be righteous and become a complete angel, but she never tells me what that is. And Henry has attacked me multiple times. When I try to fight back, people look at me funny, because they don't see him there. Ha. Their names make up Henry David Thoreau... That's funny. How old are you? 17. And yes, they do. I named Thoreau for that purpose xp You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 2:06 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso I see it like the other poster said. If its manageable, there is no reason to go to an institution. Those are there for people who can not survive on their own due to their illnesses. That said, I want to know more about the schizophrenia? What do you say exactly that makes them think you hear voice/hallucinate? I hear voices and see people which tell me to do things. Henry, Thoreau, Chester. They tell me to hurt other people and to cut myself. So, I have a bunch of scars on my arms. Ignis is a stuffed animal but a voice comes from him. Worst of all, I found out that my husband, David, was one of them. Just a figment of my self that I've been living with for two years...I found out when Henry was able to physically fight him, and he died. That was the most shock that I've experienced so far. And a woman named Sarah-Landra keeps appearing to me and telling me that I must do the will of God to be righteous and become a complete angel, but she never tells me what that is. And Henry has attacked me multiple times. When I try to fight back, people look at me funny, because they don't see him there. Ha. Their names make up Henry David Thoreau... That's funny. How old are you? 17. And yes, they do. I named Thoreau for that purpose xp You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway.
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 2:10 pm
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso I see it like the other poster said. If its manageable, there is no reason to go to an institution. Those are there for people who can not survive on their own due to their illnesses. That said, I want to know more about the schizophrenia? What do you say exactly that makes them think you hear voice/hallucinate? I hear voices and see people which tell me to do things. Henry, Thoreau, Chester. They tell me to hurt other people and to cut myself. So, I have a bunch of scars on my arms. Ignis is a stuffed animal but a voice comes from him. Worst of all, I found out that my husband, David, was one of them. Just a figment of my self that I've been living with for two years...I found out when Henry was able to physically fight him, and he died. That was the most shock that I've experienced so far. And a woman named Sarah-Landra keeps appearing to me and telling me that I must do the will of God to be righteous and become a complete angel, but she never tells me what that is. And Henry has attacked me multiple times. When I try to fight back, people look at me funny, because they don't see him there. Ha. Their names make up Henry David Thoreau... That's funny. How old are you? 17. And yes, they do. I named Thoreau for that purpose xp You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway. Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything?
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 2:48 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso Ha. Their names make up Henry David Thoreau... That's funny. How old are you? 17. And yes, they do. I named Thoreau for that purpose xp You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway. Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet.
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 4:00 pm
Im sorry about your husband's death, even if he wasn't real. How are you? I imagine this is hard to deal with, between your family and the voices. Have you given into the people's orders, hurting people and such? I believe mental institutions only take people that can be best cared for there, can't take care of themselves, or are a danger to themselves/others.
If your schitzophrenia was caused by a traumatic event (versus always having it) then hopefully you can overcome it with the help of your therapist, family, and friends. Good luck, I hope it works out for you in the end
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 10:31 am
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso Ha. Their names make up Henry David Thoreau... That's funny. How old are you? 17. And yes, they do. I named Thoreau for that purpose xp You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway. Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet. It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband?
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 10:43 am
I've been dianogised Bi-Polar, and possible Disociative Identy Disorder. Also I've been said to be extremly Paranoid. But I don't go to instutions or take medications.
I also have hullcinations too! And I name them too so it's easier to refer to them.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 1:16 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway. Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet. It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 1:40 pm
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso You thought you had a husband at the age of 17? >.> I didn't think you could name your hallucinations Yes, I did. And I only named Thoreau because he didn't name himself. They generally name themselves, and it's easier for me to refer to them if they have names, anyway. Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet. It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 1:43 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet. It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 6:12 pm
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso Wouldn't that be obvious then that they aren't real? People usually don't let you name them... And I'm confused, you went to the four therapists but they never prescribed anything? Whenever I addressed him by Thoureau, he said that he didn't care what I called him because it wasn't important. David, Henry, Chester, and Sarah-Landra came along with their own names. I did not name them. I named Ignis. He's one of those that is easier to tell if he's real or not...why would a stuffed fox talk to me? I've gone mostly to psychologists, but psychiatrists that I went to would give a diagnosis of schizophrenia and my mum would get upset and not let me have medication from them. Only recently have they taken me very seriously, as I have often attacked Henry for his threatening me and having killed David. So now I'm on Geodon. But it's not working yet. It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it. So in a way, part of your image of you changes with it.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 6:48 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it. So in a way, part of your image of you changes with it. Exactly.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 6:49 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it. So in a way, part of your image of you changes with it. Do you have any other questions for me?
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 6:50 pm
logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso It's a bit extreme to have you put in an institution before even trying medication. So did you guys get married or did you already imagine he was your husband? I already imagined him as my husband, but we did hold a handfasting ceremony after the fact. Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it. So in a way, part of your image of you changes with it. Do you have any other questions for me? What are your plans for the future? I imagine you'll have to keep this stuff under control when you get a job. We can't all be eccentric tenured professors like that guy in Beautiful Mind.
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 7:04 pm
pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso logxdlady pirulaso Ha, that's hard to take in. I guess I'd be paranoid of anyone who'd say they are my wife. I am not trying to mock you, I've always just been really logical so this is hard for me to understand. It was as if it were truth all along, and I just accepted it. So in a way, part of your image of you changes with it. Do you have any other questions for me? What are your plans for the future? I imagine you'll have to keep this stuff under control when you get a job. We can't all be eccentric tenured professors like that guy in Beautiful Mind. I plan to become a librarian. I don't know how I'm going to keep this under control. That's what scares me. I endure these hallucinations daily and anxiety attacks almost daily, and even several times in one day. Luckily I would be doing what I enjoy, so that will help.
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