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 Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2012 11:47 pm
Jessamine searched the eyes of the giant stallion in front of her. She didn't know what she was looking for, but for some reason her rage was receding in his presence. The bloodlust that boiled just below the surface nearly constantly was still there, but she felt confident (or as close as she ever got) that there would be no black outs in her near future. "Maybe you do understand," she whispered. Wheels began turning in her mind when he asked about the basket. Perhaps, her search was complete. She could only hope, as the basket had been rustling more and more...the last thing she needed was it popping on her. Much as she yearned to raise her children, she knew she was doing right by them by giving them up. They were innocent of her sins and didn't deserve what she would put them through. Still...the thought of raising him or her was tempting. With a shake of the head she banished the thought. No. It was not to be, this was for her own good as well as theirs. "You could say that..." she started, "what would you do if we were?"
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Posted: Sun Jul 22, 2012 1:04 am
He saw her eyes fade from hesitancy to something like trust. She acte.d like this was the first time in her life that she had ,trusted anyone, and maybe it was. He listened to her talking, he could see the confusion and need rolling off of her.
"I would help you both, if you'd let me," he said immediately. "I can see that you are...struggling, maybe as I once did. Struggling with...thirst you don't understand. I can help you."
He looked at her for a long moment, "Will you allow me to help you?"
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Nyx Queen of Darkness Crew
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2012 5:43 pm
Her heart ached to give in, but there was nothing for her here. A glance behind her reassured her the basket was still there and her eyes hardened again. A decision was made in that moment that brought relief from at least one of her fears.
"No." she said simply.
There was no helping her, experience had taught her that. It was why she persisted in giving away her precious children. The desire to fulfill her duties as a mother overrode her desire to be selfish; hoarding her children to her in a suffocating embrace that would last just long enough for her to love them before her insanity consumed them.
"No," she said again, "there is no helping me. If you want to help, take my child and keep him or her from me. That is what you can do to help."
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Posted: Fri Sep 14, 2012 4:15 am
Karloff was taken back with her request. The way her eyes calmed with determination, the way her jaw set. This wasn't something hinged on a moment, it was something she had taken the time to compose--to plan. For whatever reason, she had decided to do give away her child.
"Your basket?" His voice was soft. "Is that what you want? I will do it. But have you thought of this? Of what it will mean to the child within? Of how much it may or may not be like you?" He wanted her to understand that it was not just saving the basket but condemning it to have a life away from her---a life without knowing what it's mother was like.
"Are you sure?"
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Posted: Sat Oct 06, 2012 11:40 am
She held his gaze without any hesitation. This was what she had been waiting for, someone responsible that would take care of her child. His hinting that they were the same, had the same cravings, was just more of a reason for her to choose him. Obviously he was not unstable like her, he had a control of himself that she could sense just be speaking with him for a few moments.
"I am sure. I'm sure my child will be exactly like me. That is why I must give it up, because if it stays with me it will end up like me. I am doing this so that my child does not have to suffer for my faults." she said, still completely certain in her decision.
Nothing he could say would change her mind, and if he tried she would simply walk away. He wouldn't leave the basket by itself, she was sure. If he did, she would circle back around later to collect it and continue on her search, but he didn't need to know that.
"Please." she added.
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Posted: Sat Oct 06, 2012 3:06 pm
Karloff took a deep sigh. Her mind was closed to everything except what she had planned. He knew that she loved it, the basket and that was why she was giving it up. She didn't want to exactly--but that motherly instinct that says the child would be better off was what was driving her.
He remembered his own mother's sacrifice to keep himself safe. She gave her life, all of her blood to save him...He still remembered the taste of it vaguely as it spilled into his face and mouth.
He looked back at the mare. "I'll take it, I'll take care of it. Teach it to control the urges we both share." He paused delicately, "If you want to find us. If you want to allow me to help you, I'm Karloff."
He wanted to push the issue, but it would only push her away. You can't be helped unless you want to be helped.
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Posted: Sat Oct 06, 2012 3:37 pm
A weight lifted from her shoulders at his words and for a moment she wondered at the feeling of relief. She took a moment to bask in it, and then squashed it. There was yet one basket in her care that she needed to figure out what to do with.
"Karloff. Thank you. Whatever you may think of my decision, know that it is what I see as best. My child will be infinitely better off away from me, and I sense that I have found a good caretaker in you. I am Jessamine, and you wont see me again." she nodded once at him and leaned down to nuzzle her basket before beginning to walk away.
As she turned away from the hulking stallion she had entrusted her child to, she felt a pain in her chest, but she ignored it. This was for the best...for everyone.
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