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 Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 1:57 am
Damian paused for a moment, he could feel the awkwardness hanging between them, so thick you could cut it with a knife. Maybe he should just tell the bluenette he had overheard, it would at least clear the air a little. He stepped closer to Carter, staring at his back. He didn't stop moving until he was hovering just above him. He still wanted to apologize, but this close to Carter his heart began to pound against his rib cage, nerves overwhelming him. He didn't know why, but he stumbled back anyways. He remembered the way he had felt on Orion, as if he was drowning in emotions that weren't his. This felt the same, only this time the emotions were his own and the fact that he was feeling them scared him.
Poseidon could see how panicked Carter was, but he could also see how close Damian was getting. Maybe the bluenette was wrong and his best friend did feel the same way. Before he could find out the red head was stumbling away, gripping his chest. Oh, that didn't look good. "I think something's wrong with Damian." He pointed behind Carter with a paw. Cool and collected, that was Poseidon.
Damian was bent over now, rubbing his chest through his shirt. "I'm fine." His words were breathless though, his heart still pounding. What was going on with him? He knew it wasn't a heart attack, it wasn't painful enough for that. His heart just wouldn't slow down and he couldn't catch his breath. And every time that he looked at Carter it got worse. He'd never had a panic attack before and wasn't familiar with the symptoms.
Slowly he lowered himself into the nearest chair, leaning over so his head was in between his knees. You were supposed to do that right? Or maybe that was when you had a nosebleed. He couldn't remember. But focusing on something that wasn't Carter was helping him to start catching his breath.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 2:08 am
It was getting harder to concentrate, to hear anything over the thud of his heartbeat. Damian coming closer wasn't helping matters. He could feel the creak of the floorboards with each of Damian's steps, and if he turned his head slightly he could see Damian himself. But -- how could he face him? The fear of rejection and shame made him unable to move. What if Damian didn't feel the same way? What if he regarded him as a sort of freak, a monster? He didn't want Damian to think that by offering to let him live with him was a mistake (though the thought may have crossed Damian's mind when Carter first hid his beer yesterday).
Poseidon's words were enough to make Carter drop his thoughts and spin around, looking around worriedly. "Are you okay?!" He took a step towards Damian, ready to give assistance. He was already lowering himself into a chair by the time Carter had spoken. His hand that had reached out to Damian now hung in the air by itself, fingers curling down as he brought his hand back. What was wrong with him?
He took a step towards Damian, moving to his side as he licked his lips nervously. Slowly, as if attempting to pet a startled animal he reached down to lightly touch Damian's back. "You... You okay man?"
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 11:54 am
Poseidon watched the two, green eyes flicking from one boy to the other. It was obvious there was something between them, maybe it was just friendship but the Mau thought it was something more. He was silent as Carter approached his teammate. What could he do? Other than watch there wasn't much.
Damian nodded the first time his roommate asked him if he was okay. Sure, he was fit as a fiddle. Feeling like his heart was about to burst out of his chest wasn't a big deal right? He did feel better once he was sitting though, no longer in danger of falling on his a** in front of everyone.
When Carter approached him he was still trying to catch his breath, one hand still gripping his chest as he bent over. When he felt the bluenette's hand on his back he stiffened, but then after a moment he relaxed. Yeah, Carter liked him, but he was still his best friend, and it wasn't like he was trying to put a move on him. He licked his lips, unknowingly mirroring his roommate, before he spoke. "Y-yeah, I'm okay."
There was a quiet moment, Damian's hand falling away from his chest as his heart finally began to beat normally. He wasn't sure what that had been about, he didn't want to think of the correlation between what he felt on Orion and how he had felt just now. That would bring up too many hard questions. There was one thing he could do though. The fact that he overheard them was like a giant elephant in the room, at least to him, and he didn't like that. So, after a moment he spoke quietly.
"I don't know why you're still here, Carter. I threw you into a wall, I was a complete jackass last night, and yet you're still here." He paused, taking a breath. If the tables had been turned he wasn't sure he would have come back the next day, but Carter was more resilient than he was. "You're my best friend, and you being gay, or confused, or..." He paused, licking his lips again suddenly nervous. "Or liking me like that, well it doesn't change anything. You're still my best friend."
He was silent then, he knew Carter would be embarrassed, if it had been him who was overheard Damian would be embarrassed, but hopefully getting it out there would help instead of making things worse. He still didn't know exactly how he felt about Carter, especially after that strange swell of emotions that he was trying to convince himself was left over from his trip to Orion. But, what he did know was he was closer to Carter than anyone else and he wasn't going to kick him out or stop being his friend just because of a crush.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:31 pm
He knew. He knew, he knew, he knew. Carter resisted the impulse to snatch his hand back as his cheeks burned brightly. His secret was out, he had nothing to hide. Or nothing left, really. His bestfriend-slash-roommate-slash-teammate knew that the bluenette liked him. Like liked him. Carter was used to being laughed off, his confessions regarded as some sort of joke. To his friends, he was always their little brother. Carter? Grow up? Hook up? Unbelievable!
But... Damian didn't laugh it off. He didn't fully accept it either, which helped Carter relax. In all honesty, he wouldn't know what to do if he did. He slowly removed his hand from Damian's back, shaking his head. "Not just a wall. The counter and coffee table too," Carter pointed out, his blush failing to recede after recalling that the last particular throw and flip had loosened Damian's towel too. "You're my best friend. It's going to take more then that to get rid of me. I... I'm worried about you."
Carter glanced over to Posiedon, trying to read his expression. "I don't care that you drink, Damian. I care when you drink too much and lose control. You've been a wreck lately." He faltered, taking a deep breath to quickly steady himself before pushing on. "I don't know what it's like to know you've loved someone long ago and lost them. On Merope... On Merope I don't have any of that. I don't even know who I was aside from having a ship." He shrugged. He had been back to Merope a couple times. Not for too long -- just for an hour or two here or there, to sit back and think. He had seen the occasional person walk on the deck of his ship, but they were fleeting; memories of people he felt compelled to nod in greeting towards, even if they never respond or said anything back before vanishing in the blink of an eye later. "If it'll help, I can take you there?"
He could feel the heat returning to his cheeks. He was asking Damian ou- no. He wanted to shake himself over how nervous he was. He wasn't asking Damian out. Damian was merely being invited to go along with him to his home planet as a sort of escape, as a chance to at least forget about whatever was plaguing him.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:56 pm
Poseidon kept an eye on the two boys, interested by their interaction. When Carter looked to him the cat nodded, jumping from the counter top to approach them. He didn't want to interrupt the headway the two seemed to be making with words, so instead he twined around Damian's legs before he jumped into the redhead's lap. After Carter spoke Po nodded. "We should all go." He glanced towards Carter, maybe with himself along to chaperone the bluenette wouldn't be as embarrassed as he seemed to be know.
Damian sighed as Carter mentioned the counter and the coffee table. He was trying to forget about that. Especially about the part where he ended up naked. He could still feel an embarrassed flush creeping up on him at the thought of that.
When Carter mentioned his drinking he looked away. He knew he had been drinking too much, he knew and he had kept on anyway. He just didn't want to deal with everything he was starting to remember from his past, and his unplanned, disorganized future. After a moment he sighed, he couldn't run from responsibility forever, at the very least his liver wouldn't be able to handle it.
Looking up at Carter he stared, examining his face. He could still see similarities between his best friend and Alorie. It was the hair and the eyes mostly, but it was only coincidence. He didn't think a woman could be reborn as a man, and he didn't even know if Alorie was a senshi. He didn't think just anyone would get reborn.
After a moment he sighed pulling his eyes away. He was about to say that he didn't know if it would be such a good idea- what if just going to space brought back memories? -but then Poseidon was on his lap, and saying they should all go. He chewed his lower lip thoughtfully then nodded. "Alright, we can go. It might be fun, to get away."
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 7:32 pm
Carter nodded in agreement to Poseidon, meeting the cat's darker green eyes before looking away. "Of course it'll be fun. I have a pirate ship. And... Hang on, come to think of it we should probably bring flash lights just in case... You have your pen ready?" Carter moved away from them, crossing their shared apartment towards their coat closet. There were flashlights in here, right?
He managed to locate one, taking a moment to flick it on and off to check its brightness. We he delaying? Maybe. Carter glanced at his messenger bag. The temptation to dump it out in order to have a way to carry additional things was strong, but: this wasn't a date. It was just a chance to get away from Earth for a little bit. It wasn't an overnight thing, Carter wasn't romancing Damian, they were just friends.
Needless to say, Carter's face still held a hue of pink when he returned to the kitchen table and set the flashlight down upon it. Carter pulled out his henshin pen and stepped back, holding it up as he henshined up: "Merope Star Power, Make-Up!" It was strange. He had spent over a year using Merope Power, Make-Up to transform into Sailor Merope. Adding the word "star" to it rolled off his tongue just as easily.
"Are you ready?" Super Sailor Merope asked, as he picked up the flashlight. "Just let me know when, and we'll go to Merope. Er, that is my home planet. Place. Star. Not me, since I'm right here, hahahaaa..." Even as Merope, his blush still didn't disappear.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 8:05 pm
Damian perked up a bit at the mention of a pirate ship. That did sound pretty cool. He picked Poseidon up, putting him on the table and giving him a scratch before he stepped away from the table. "I'll go grab my pen, one sec." He went back into their bedroom, pausing a moment as he caught sight of their bed. Their bed, and now he knew Carter liked him. Would that make their sleeping arrangement awkward? He wasn't sure, it wasn't like they cuddled at night, or anything...most the time. He sighed looking away from the bed, he guessed he'd find out later.
Moving to the desk he dug around in one of the drawers until he found his henshin pen. Lifting it in the air he called out his henshin, "Orion Constellation Power, Make-Up!" A swirl and flash of light later Super Sailor Orion was standing there instead of Damian.
He moved to the doorway, looking into the kitchen. He watched Carter, noticing his blush. What was he so embarrassed about now? Orion wondered if it was something he did or said. He looked away when Carter henshined, the light bright. When he looked back and saw Super Merope his eyes widened just slightly. It was the first time he'd seen Super Merope, and he looked pretty awesome.
Stepping into the kitchen he grinned at him, at ease for the moment. "You look good, man" And then the ease was gone as he realized what he said and a blush spread across his cheeks. He meant it innocently enough, but what if Carter thought he was coming onto him?
Poseidon sighed looking from one blushing senshi to the other. He jumped off the table, twining around Merope's feet. "Let's go,"
Poseidon's words spurred Orion into action and he approached his best friend. "Yeah, we should get going." He hesitated for a moment. They had to be touching for Merope to take him along. He reached out his hand hovering in the air uncertainly before he rested it on Merope's shoulder. That should be safe right?
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 8:15 pm
You look good, man. Before he confessed his feelings, Carter would have covered the remark up with a grin and a wave, writing it off as nothing more than what it was: a compliment. Now? Second verse same as the first: the grin, the waving of it off were both accompanied by a dark flush before Merope turned away. ”Thanks,” he said, setting the flashlight back down on the table. He took a moment to tie his bag to his non-transparent sash, tugging on it to make sure it was steady before picking the flashlight back up.
He couldn't help but jump slightly as Orion touched his shoulder, glancing down. Was Poseidon ready? Yes? Good. The bluenette took a deep breath as he summoned his phone, opening it and closing his eyes. He had to ignore his heartbeat, ignore the hand on his shoulder. One by one, the he managed to quell the intense feelings and focus on the soft melody of his star – there! SEND.
((Continued in [REG] Drown Your Memories (Merope, Orion, and Poseidon)))
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