The diary of Seraphine Mariele von Renata

[BlackFireKitsune]

Just another normal journal entry.

October 20th, 2011
xxxWhew! Okay, a TON of stuff happened while I was gone, and I totally "forgot" to bring this journal (why the hell would I bring a personal journal on a several month trip with a bunch of people who might try to look at it? No way!) so I have a lot to catch up on.

xxxFirst, while I was away, Mordecai evolved! FINALLY. He's much more useful now because he has arms and can carry twice as much stuff! He actually likes carrying my stuff too, which is good - I don't have to make him do it, he just does it. He's gotten to the point of carrying my stuff for me, I don't even have to tell him to or even point at it. It's awesome!

xxxOkay, next! I forget if it happened before or after Mordecai evolved, but it really doesn't matter - I caught a Misdreavus! She was so gorgeous that I had to catch her, and I did! She's such a doll, she's so quiet and obedient. After training her a while I got a dusk stone and evolved her to a Mismagius, so now she's even stronger! I like evolution, it makes my job so much easier.

xxxThe last thing isn't good like the other things - Mother's Vaporeon, Jasmine, was stolen while I was away. I guess it was Team Rocket that stole her, but Mother doesn't know for sure. First Rosie's Vaporeon, then Jasmine - I think Team Rocket just wants all the pretty Vaporeons in Kodo or something. As long as they just focus on Vaporeon though, they aren't really my problem.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

This page is filled with information about an albino Mismagius.

October 20th, 2011
xxxAs the previous entry explained, while I was away in Hoenn with Rosie and Luke and everyone else, I caught Giselle as a Misdreavus. She was an adorable little thing, an albino - so she was white with pink on her and pink eyes and jewels (I love a pokemon with good fashion sense!). She was about 2' tall, kind of small for a Misdreavus, and weighed less than two pounds.

xxxAfter training her with my other pokemon for a while, I managed to find a dusk stone for sale in one of the towns (I forget which now, but that isn't important anyway) and evolved her into a Mismagius! Now she's 3' tall and only weighs 9.8lbs. My pokedex says she has a modest nature, which seems pretty accurate from what I've seen of her behavior.

xxxShe really doesn't do much with my other pokemon, but seems to like Luna best, but she likes Anastasia and Isabella too. She seems to tolerate Mordecai (like me) and Jacques. She helps me discipline Jacques too when he's being a little pest and changing into people.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

This page is filled with information about a very regal-looking Rapidash colored like the night sky.

January 14th, 2012
xxxAhh, Princess Luna! Isn't she just absolutely stunning? I know she isn't a dark or ghost type like I normally try to get, but she just looks so beautiful like a dark type that I just had to have her. It helps that Rosie really wanted her sister, Celestia, so that was even more of a reason to get her! Mother paid quite a lot of money in that auction - and even helped Rosie to win Celestia - so that we could both have them so they could still be sort of together. Luna seems to love her sister a lot.

xxxAnyway, Luna is the most beautiful Rapidash I've ever seen! She's exactly 5'08" at the shoulder and weighs about 210lbs. Apparently she has a serious nature - what is up with half my pokemon having serious natures? - and she certainly lives up to it.

xxxShe doesn't look like she has fun or anything, and usually is quiet and sticks to herself. She likes Giselle though, and Isabella sometimes. She doesn't seem to like Jacques very much.

xxxOh! I almost forgot to add that Father bought me a beautiful saddle and bridle set to use when I want to ride her. They're both black, and the saddlepad is colored like the night sky and looks just like her flames! It's gorgeous - I don't think she really likes being ridden, but she's good enough to tolerate it without giving me any problems. I haven't ever had to put it on her though, I always make Mordecai do it for me.
Harmony Among Sisters

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[BlackFireKitsune]

xxxThe brunette, fully decked out in her newest outfit (one of them, anyway) and in her new shoes (one pair of them, anyway), flung open the front door of her expansive house with a flourish. "I'm hooome~" She called happily as she twirled inside, Anastasia following close at her heels before Seraphine closed the door. Giselle, while not currently visible, was still very much present. Oh yes, she was there. The sight they met was not what they expected, for the teen's parents didn't seem to have heard her.

xxxNo, her mother was anxiously leaning over her husband, flitting all around him like a frightened bird. "Are you sure, Vincent?" She asked breathlessly. "Are you very sure?"

xxx"I.. I don't..." Vincent was sitting at the large polished wooden table, his head in one hand as he bent over a few papers in front of him. He seemed to be perpsirating profusely, but he took a deep, shaky breath before he spoke again. "I think so. I don't see how it could mean anything else, but I just don't... How did this happen..? I was so sure..."

xxx"Ohh, dear..." Adelaide straightened up, her hands flying to her cheeks. She hesitated a moment before leaning towards him again a bit. "All of it...?"

xxx"It might as well be all of it," Vincent replied in exasperated tones, suddenly leaning back as he flung the papers from his hands. "No, there's only a tiny bit left. Practically nothing at all." He leaned forward again, resting his elbows on the table as he hid his face in his hands.

xxxHis wife stood there hesitantly for a few moments, licking her suddenly dry lips before she rested a hand cautiously on his shoulder. "And our cars..? The house?"

xxxVincent expelled a long, drawn-out breath. "We'll have to sell it. All of it." One hand dropped to pull the paper over again to study half-heartedly once more. "Maybe we'll get enough--"

xxx"What's going on?" Seraphine, who had never witnessed such behavior from her parents before, had stood silent and completely bewildered through most of the conversation. Now, however, with the subject of selling things, she finally found her voice. It sounded confused, as if she didn't quite understand why they would ever need to sell anything. "Why do you have to sell anything?"

xxxHer parents started at her sudden interruption, both straightening up to stare at their daughter, both looking temporarily dumbfounded. The tension broke after a few silent moments - her father licked his dry lips, her mother looked at her husband, and Adelaide quickly stepped over to her only daughter. "Dear, we need to talk..."  

[BlackFireKitsune]

When you turn to the next page, you notice that it is another normal journal entry - but it is written with such anger and vehemence that it's hard to call it 'normal.'

July 1st, 2012
xxxI can't believe it! I just, I can't-- I absolutely cannot -- oooohh! The nerve of them!

xxxMother told me that we don't have anymore money, that we're bankrupt or some s**t like that. The nerve! Us, no money? Ridiculous! We've always had money, why do we suddenly have none? It's such a ridiculous notion, I can't believe they thought I'd fall for it. I'm not that stupid! UGH. If they didn't want me to spend as much money on new clothes and shoes and things, they could have just talked to me about it, not come up with this ridiculous story that we're broke. It's stupid! It's so stupid, I will not believe it, I won't I won't I won't I WILL NOT believe such a stupid, ridiculous story EVER

xxx'We have to sell all the cars' they said! 'We have to sell the HOUSE' THEY SAID. UGH, I can't BELIEVE THEM. This is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard, going to such lengths to make me believe such a vicious lie. They even had the nerve to say they have to sell some of my dresses and shoes!

xxxTHEY HAD THE NERVE -- UGH! They had the nerve to ask if they could sell Luna. Princess Luna! I don't care if they paid an arm and a leg to buy her for me, SHE IS MINE.

xxxThis is ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous. This is all a vicious lie from two terrible, horrible people that want to ruin my life! I won't believe it for one minute, not one! DO YOU HEAR ME, DIARY?! NOT ONE MEASLY STINKING MINUTE WILL I BELIEVE THIS s**t

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[BlackFireKitsune]

Another journal entry - this one sounds similarly angry and bitter, like the last.

July 7th, 2012
xxxIt's been a week, and they're still trying to feed me this garbage. I still will not believe it for one instant.

xxxFather keeps telling me the bank took the house and the cars.

xxxMother keeps telling me they just sold the house and the cars because they needed the money.

xxxIf they can't even keep their lies straight, how do they expect me to believe it? Humph, they act like I'm some sort of ignorant, immature child that will believe everything they tell her. Well I'm not! I'm not and I won't believe this s**t at all, and I'm sick of it.

xxxAll I know is, we're still at the house, but it has a lot less stuff in it - they had the nerve to take my set of dressers and the vanity in my dressing room, a bunch of my most expensive dresses and my bed - but we're still here. All the cars are gone, too, as is most of the furniture and paintings throughout the house. It's weird seeing our house so empty - it's been full of stuff and fancy things my whole life.

xxxUgh, I still can't believe they're going through with such an atrocious story, like they're trying to convince me it's actually real, but I know it's not, I mean, how could it be? This is like what happened when Jasmine was stolen - except that wasn't on purpose; this is on purpose and I hate every minute of it. I can't stand it, I hate how they're just

The text stops abruptly, but continues further down, as if she was interrupted while writing and continued afterward. Whatever interrupted her must have been something awful, based on the feeling of her words.

xxxFather just came in to tell me they need to sell more of my expensive clothes and shoes - he didn't even bother to have Mother come discuss it with me - and he also said that they have to sell PRINCESS LUNA AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS s**t A MINUTE LONGER, I WON'T I WON'T I WON'T

xxxI WILL NOT, DO YOU HEAR ME? DO YOU ******** HEAR ME, DIARY?! I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS ONE MINUTE LONGER

Again it stops, but it seems this time was of her own volition.

xxxThat's it, I'm leaving. I'm running away. I just packed as many clothes and shoes as I could, along with other necessary items and my pokemon, and I'm leaving. Father said they'd sell more of my things tomorrow - and LUNA - so I'm leaving tonight. Anastasia is confused about everything, and I don't blame her, poor thing. She seems concerned, but that's alright. Jacques doesn't care, Giselle looked surprised but that was it, Mordecai is too dumb to understand, Isabella is confused too, poor dear, and Luna looked upset they'd ever dream of selling her. She's already been sold once, she doesn't need to be put up for auction a second time, and without her sister! The thought is just horrible. That's why we're leaving, and I don't even feel bad! They should have known better than to try to feed me such vicious lies like 'we don't have money anymore.' I mean, why would I believe such a ridiculous thing? Of course we do. We've always had money. Why shouldn't we now?

xxxAnd they can't tell me we don't have any money - they don't have money, but I still have all the allowance money they've been giving me. Why spend the money they're giving me when they just give me more whenever I want to go shopping? The joke's on them now!

xxxI told you I wouldn't stand for this anymore, diary.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

xxxWith a forced "ha!" Seraphine slammed her diary closed, a bitter smirk on her lips. "Well, we'll show them, hm? Come on Anastasia, before they come up to try and feed me even more lies."

xxx"Bree..." The Umbreon trilled nervously, her ears folded back. Isabella sidled up next to her, fixing her with a confused, questioning look. Sera's parents had such a feeling of mourning and worry, perhaps even fear, about them, while their mistress radiated such anger, rage and denial... The emotions of each were so far from their normal attitudes and behavior, and the sudden changes in each coupled with the bewildering presence of strangers in the house left all of Sera's pokemon confused and distressed. This wasn't normal, this wasn't right.

xxxUnfortunately, the girl was too caught up in her own whirlwind of emotions to notice anything her pokemon were feeling. She was still too caught up, frowning to herself as she raised several pokeballs and recalled all of them but one. "Mordecai, hurry up with those, we're leaving," she huffed as she shoved the luxury balls into a small, fancy backpack. When she didn't get an immediate reply, the high-strung teen whirled on the large pokemon with a glare and small hands on her hips. "Mordecai."

xxx"Meh... tang..!" He responded unsurely, seemingly unfazed by the anger she directed at him, but these bags of her were heavy! He finally managed to pull the largest bag onto his flat head, though, and with that done, he grabbed the smaller ones and hummed at her eagerly. With a nod, she shoved her diary into the backpack as well, slung it on her back, turned to her large windows and flung them open quite carelessly.

xxxOutside the air was nice and cool; the sun was still up, but barely - it was early evening still, and it wouldn't be dark for another few hours yet -- and most importantly the lawn was completely quiet and empty.

xxxPerfect for escaping through.

xxxSuddenly Sera pointed out at the lawn and gave the Metang a (very) pointed look, and Mordecai whirred happily before floating out the window and down onto the lawn. After carefully depositing her things, he floated back up to retrieve his mistress. While he carefully hovered down from her room with her sitting on his head, she released Princess Luna near her things. The Rapidash immediately tensed and looked around, preparing for the worst, but turned a confused gaze onto her trainer when she realized this wasn't an auction. This was the... backyard..?

xxxSera quickly hopped off Mordecai's head and hurried over to the bewildered Rapidash. "Don't worry, I won't let them sell you," she whispered as she gently stroked the fire-type's muzzle. Mordecai hovered over to the pair and began to carefully put her saddle on as securely as would be comfortable (and safe!), and Sera left Luna so she could hand her Metang a few bags to attach to the saddle. It wasn't that she was being nice, oh no - she just wanted to leave as soon as they possibly could, and Mordecai was so freaking slow! If they took too long, someone would see them and then they wouldn't be able to leave, and she was not staying.

xxxIn no time at all, the Metang had finished and thudded to the ground so Sera could step onto his head, and therefore be at a better height to reach Luna's saddle. That done, he hovered over to her bags and heaved the rest of them onto his head again and whirred to signal his readiness. Luna tossed her head with a soft snort and pawed at the ground, and Sera reached down to pat her neck with a grim smile. "Let's go."

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xxxIt didn't take long for the odd trio to reach the park and find a more secluded, wooded area with a bench. Mordecai carefully placed Sera's bags on one end before helping his Mistress down off Luna so she would be free to sit or stand as she desired. Sera apparently decided sitting would be better, and once she did she pulled the bag from her back to pull out Anastasia's luxury ball. Once released the Umbreon glanced around her uneasily before she trilled uncertainly up at her Mistress. Isabella was released next, with a similar reaction, and Sera leaned forward with her chin in her hands, a thoughtful frown on her face, and didn't seem to notice either of the dark-types. The pair of luxury balls were carelessly placed on top of her bags beside her. "Mmh... I'm not really sure what to do now," she muttered to herself as she frowned at the grass. Mordecai hovered nearby, while Luna watched reluctantly. Isabella curled up under the bench beneath her Mistress, and Anastasia moved to the side to lay her head on Sera's knee. The brunette barely noticed, too focused on her own self-inflicted problems, and the Umbreon didn't look too happy at being completely ignored - perhaps vaguely hurt. Sera still didn't notice. "I haven't spoken to anyone about it... Maybe a hotel..?"

xxxNone of them noticed the soft rustle of leaves behind them - Seraphine stood up at exactly the same moment with a frustrated sigh and started to pace back and forth. "What hotel though... Would any have any vacancies right now?" She stopped and looked at her pokemon expectantly, as if they would just suddenly know English and tell her the answer, but then she sighed, shook her head of carefully styled hair and pulled her pokedex from her bag. It took a moment to pull up the internet application she had on it and then she began to mutter hotel names to herself. "No, those are all full... This one--no, not that one... Ah, this one looks good..."

xxx"Bree!" Anastasia suddenly stiffened, ears perked as she stared hard at the bushes behind the bench. Sera didn't even bother looking, too busy looking at hotel descriptions to find the best five-star hotel nearby. No, it seemed the only thing that could pull her from her thoughts...

xxx...was a sudden and unexpected flash of red, Umbreon-shaped light, and the girl looked up in time to see the beam disappear into the woods. Wait, what just... "...Anya?" Her hands lowered the 'dex she'd been so focused on and her green eyes darted to her bags on the bench - which now held one luxury ball instead of two. Seraphine ran to the bags and snatched the ball up and pointed it at her three remaining pokemon and pushed the button -- and Isabella disappeared. The brunette's face paled. "Anastasia?" Where did her ball go? It had been right there. Surely it hadn't been-- No, no, people didn't steal things from her, that was impossible...

xxxExcept the sudden rustling of leaves, as if someone was making a very hasty retreat, left a cold, echoing dread in the pit of her stomach. "Anastasia!" She shouted as she took off into the woods, forgetting about the fact she was wearing heels, forgetting about the fact she was wearing a really nice dress with fancy lace and frills that could easily get caught in branches, forgetting about the fact it had taken her so long to do her hair for that day. She ran blindly after the rustling sound, stumbling along as fast as she could - she didn't hear the confused, distressed whinnies or hums of Luna and Mordecai - she could only hear the sounds ahead of her... Except they stopped. Again she shouted, tears springing to her eyes. No, Anastasia had just gone to look around, no one had taken her, of course not. No one would ever do such a thing to her, it was a vicious lie just like-- Just like... No, no; she wouldn't believe it! She couldn't believe it, because the truth was so much more horrible to bear than the safe little lies she kept telling herself.

xxxThe bushes stung as they scraped against her bare legs and tugged little rips and tears into her dress; the branches hurt as the lower ones clung to her hair and left stubborn twigs and leaves in it; the ground hurt too, when she stumbled worse than usual in the heels she always wore and she fell onto the grass in a heap. She didn't hardly notice any of those things, however, because the only thing that hurt worse was her heart; it was as if a cold hand had wrapped around it and was trying to crush it, to pull it out of her chest and make her spill even more tears into the blades of grass that brushed against her cheek now, and to force her to admit the truth she was running from.

xxxWith an angry, inarticulate cry, Seraphine slammed her hands into the ground, clenched her fists and pushed herself up, and stumbled onward again. She would not believe this s**t, she wouldn't believe any of it, she wouldn't... But the tears that continued to fall down her cheeks were evidence against her fierce denial. She couldn't even fool herself anymore.  

[BlackFireKitsune]

Another normal journal entry, although this page has various spots on it that you could swear are tear stains.

July 8th, 2012
xxxSo, diary, I ran away from home like I said I would. I took as much stuff as I could and all my pokemon and away away, to the park.

xxxAnd someone stole Anastasia.

xxxSomehow I ended up at Dith's place, and I guess I must have walked but I don't remember it. I'm going to stay here for a while I think, then maybe go stay at a hotel or something.. I don't want to go back home. I can't go back home; I don't have a home to go back to. It's sold. Or I guess it is, I don't know when they were going to sell it but all I know is they're gonna. So I can't go back. I don't want to go back, after all the horrible lies they told me...

xxx...but I guess they weren't lies, were they? It doesn't matter anyway. Anastasia's gone.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

This page is filled with information about a woodland-esque Zubat.

August 21st, 2012
xxxThat weird, annoying guy named Yuri found me today and literally dumped this unconscious, half-dead Zubat in my lap. He said its name was Tact, and that I needed to take care of it because I needed more of it or some s**t -- that a*****e. I can't believe he would do such a childish, insulting thing to me! Ugh. Ugh.

xxxWhatever, I kept the pathetic little thing anyway. Not because I felt sorry for it or anything though.

xxxAnyway, his name is Tact and he's really small for a Zubat I guess, and even though he isn't one of my favorite types, he isn't too bad... Even if he doesn't do much yet. He can't even fly straight right now, the dumb thing. Ugh. Maybe he'll get better eventually.

April 21st, 2014
xxxTact healed a long time ago, so he's been flying just fine for ages now - I just forgot that this page existed, and so I never updated it until now. Mostly because I was flipping through and remembered this. I let Tact go the other day. He's always just been kind of hanging around on the backs of chairs and stuff, and I never did anything with him. I kept getting the feeling he would've preferred to be back outside again, so I told him he could leave if he wanted to - and he did. Fine by me though, I don't begrudge him his decision; I wasn't that close to him, and obviously he wasn't that close to me, and if he'd rather be wild again then who am I to judge? I'd probably want to be outside, to be free and do whatever I wanted, rather than be cooped up all the time and never do much.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

Another journal entry, though the tone of this one suggests some sort of feeling of defeat.

November 3rd, 2012
xxxHi diary. I know I said I hated writing these entries, but loathe as I am to admit it, they actually kind of help a little.

xxxAnastasia is still missing. I was at Dith's place for a while, then I switched to some hotels, and now I'm finally back home. Well, not home, really - Father sold our home, and now we're stuck in an absolutely horrid little apartment with two bedrooms and one bathroom, a tiny kitchen, no dining room, and just a small living/eating area. It's horrendously tiny, and it's mortifying to live in such a dingy, dreary little place after growing up in our gorgeous house my whole life. I can't stand it, I hate it, but at the same time, sometimes when I'm just sitting on my uncomfortable little bed and not thinking about anything in particular... It doesn't matter that much. I don't really care.

xxxI don't care about much now that Anastasia is gone.going back home sometime in early november (3rd), dad heart attack late december/early jan (jan 3rd)

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[BlackFireKitsune]

Just another normal, albeit rather depressing, journal entry.

January 3rd, 2013
xxxSo.. Christmas and New Year's really kind of sucked this year. Every year we always have tons of presents and do lots of fun stuff and go places, but not this year. Really though, I think that even if we did do all that stuff... It wouldn't matter that much, because Anya isn't here to celebrate anything with anyway.

xxxNot that was have much to celebrate anyway right now.

xxxFather had a heart attack recently. Mother says it's because of stress - the stress from losing all of our money, and how Father blames himself (why shouldn't he though? It was all his fault, he never let Mother touch any of the stocks as far as I know), but I don't know if that really was the cause of it. The doctors said a bunch of other things but I didn't really pay attention to them before I left. I just had to walk around and go do something else, or distract myself with something...

xxx...and I happened to find Luke in a room in the hospital. Turns out he had heart attacks too; go figure. It's like everywhere I turn, I can't get away from all this bad s**t. It's really kind of awful if I think about it - so I try not to think about it.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

This page is filled with information about a creepy looking, hooded Banette.

January 13th, 2013
xxxThere I was, just minding my own business one evening, walking back to my shitty little apartment, when this a*****e appears out of no where and shrieks in my face. I don't remember catching him, but one minute he scared me half to death, and the next minute three of my pokemon were out and I had this little jerk in a ball in my hand. So I guess he's mine now, not that he cares. He's really weird, but he's a ghost, so I feel obligated to like him anyway.

xxxHe's a creepy Banette with a hood, though I've never seen one like this before, so that's pretty cool. He loves to scare people or at least freak them out if he can (including me), so he's a handful right now. Hopefully I can get him to cut that s**t out pretty soon, or at least make him stop doing it to me. Could take a while, though.

November 2nd, 2013
xxxSo, Victor left. I guess he got too bored because he couldn't scare me anymore? I don't know, I just know that he didn't want to stay anymore. I don't mind too much, because I still think he's too creepy. I guess he'll move on to greener pastures and easier people to scare?

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[BlackFireKitsune]

Text log between Seraphine and Rosie directly after the roleplay Catching Up.

Seraphine: Hey Rosie you got a minute
Rosie: Yup! whats up?
Seraphine: So I just hung out with Luke to talk and stuff and he told me some stuff about Dove and I didn't like it. So you know she saw him at the hospital and stuff right? After he got his transplant
Rosie: Oh no, About Dove? What happened?
Rosie: I know Dove saw him once in the hospital, I'm not sure if she went in more then that. Why?
Rosie: Is everything okay?
Seraphine: Holy crap hold on I gotta type!
Rosie: Ahh, sorry!
Seraphine: Crap girl you text so fast
Rosie: Do I? I'll slow down.
Rosie: I'm just anxious
Seraphine: Well I would be damn surprised if she had the balls to go more than once after that s**t!
Rosie: For reading him the letter?
Seraphine: Oh he told you too?
Rosie: Dove told me, That she read him the letter. She was upset about it the day after she did it
Seraphine: Did she also tell you that she didn't even ask him if he wanted her to, and that she just picked it up and started reading it to him?
Seraphine: Like that was ANY of her damn business
Rosie: Oh no... yeah she did. I don't think she was meaning any harm by it though. I don't think she really understands...
Rosie: What its like.
Seraphine: Obviously she doesn't. What did she tell you about after she finished reading the letter?
Rosie: What do you mean?
Seraphine: Like did she say if he got upset or anything after she finished reading it to him
Seraphine: Or what happenedn ext
Seraphine: *Next
Rosie: Yes, She said he started shouting, I wasn't really surprised though, when I got to see him the next day he was pretty upset still. I think it really scared her, she ran out in tears.
Seraphine: Was that all she told you about it?
Rosie: Maybe this is all a big misunderstanding, I'm not sure whats happened. When I visited her, she told me that she read him the letter, he started getting upset, she was scared he was going to hurt himself so she called the nurse who tried to calm him down. They told her to leave after that though.
Seraphine: Oh, so she conveniently forgot to mention that the nurse she called sedated him huh? I don't even know if she even tried to help calm him down herself or not, the jury's still out on that. Sounds like she didn't really do much though, from what Luke said
Rosie: They sedated him!?
Seraphine: From what I heard, he started getting all upset and then the nurse came and knocked him out. I dunno if Dove even tried to help calm him down, because he sure as hell couldn't remember if she did or not
Seraphine: Yep.
Rosie: He was just upset! he didn't need to be sedated! What did they expect him to do after learning about Asch? Oh no!
Rosie: He was upset he just needed someone to be there.
Rosie: He calmed right down! he just needed a friend.
Seraphine: Well he had someone there that called a nurse on him to sedate him, so
Rosie: Dove told he she didn't think she should have been there.
Rosie: I don't think she knew what to do...
Rosie: But oh my gosh thats just so terrible, why did they sedate Luke?
Rosie: :(
Seraphine: Of course she shouldn't have been there!! She obviously has no idea about s**t that's none of her business and then didn't even try to do s**t for him!!!
Seraphine: And I think he said because he wouldn't calm down, he said he couldn't really remember, just that he woke up a while later once they wore off
Rosie: they could have at least tried singing to him first... :<
Seraphine: Why would they do that?
Rosie: Becasue its a great idea. and it works.
Seraphine: I think you're the only one who would think of doing that. How do you know it works?
Rosie: because it works. hugs, and singing.
Seraphine: Well I don't think she did anything for him
Seraphine: Oh and I guess she ran into him the other day too, and apologized but all she did was make things a s**t ton worse
Rosie: Don't you ever get sung to? I'll sing to you.
Rosie: Ohh noooo, I know she felt terrible about it. why would that make it worse... is Luke okay?
Rosie: He's not upset too now is he?
Seraphine: No I don't and that's okay. He's okay now I think, still all mopey and stuff but that's totally understandable
Rosie: We should go see him.
Seraphine: But I guess she went to apologize, but Luke said he just wanted to be alone but they ended up rehashing everything that happened, which obviously made him feel worse anyway
Seraphine: And that he had to listen to all the same s**t he'd heard before and also she wouldn't stop trying to hug him and s**t but he said it just made him super uncomfortable and he didn't like it, but she kept doing it
Seraphine: And he said that she was still doing it and saying s**t and by the time Yuri showed up, cuz I guess he showed up at some point, that Dove asked him what he wanted her to do and he asked her to kill him!
Seraphine: So she went from not helping him and getting a nurse in who sedated him, to trying to do ALL the helping and just making s**t a ton worse. I guess she was trying to make up for not doing s**t at the hospital
Rosie: I'm sorry for the long wait I just... I don't know what to say to that.
Seraphine: Oh I knew EXACTLY what to say to that, but I didn't want to upset Luke anymore than she already had
Rosie: I can understand if she's trying to be helpful, but Luke's in a bad place right now, I'm worried now, if he's saying that again. is Yuri still with him?
Seraphine: Yeah she was trying to be helpful but the fact of the matter is she wasn't helping!!! She was just making it worse and couldn't see what she was doing, so she just kept making it worse and worse until Yuri got there!
Seraphine: Well we only hung out cuz I texted him and asked him to, I think he was at his place by himself, I dunno if Yuri was with him or not. He certainly didn't come with Luke when I saw him at the park, but he seems okay now. I think he saw Dove just a couple days ago, and I just got through seeing him
Seraphine: Oh and he says he doesn't text you a lot cuz he doesn't want to bother you but I told him that's total bullshit
Rosie: Oh no! He really thinks that? of course he's not bothering me. I wish he would text me more often. He does sometimes at night, when it seems like he's not sleeping. I'll have to tell him. If something like this happens and he's not comfortable he should let us know.
Rosie: I'll just text him,
Seraphine: That's what I told him! He didn't believe me though, something about you having your own things going on and stuff, but I told him you're always there for friend stuff
Rosie: I have training, but of course friend stuff comes first!
Rosie: Goodness Sera, you know me so well <3
Rosie: Do you know how awesome you are
Seraphine: Well yeah of course I know I'm awesome
Rosie: :<
Seraphine: And you're always there for friend stuff! You're always so good at it too
Seraphine: Anyway, I don't like how Dove's treating Luke at all, flip-flopping around and can't decide if she wants to help him or not. I don't even know if her helping is better than her not helping!
Seraphine: I think I'm gonna have to talk to her
Rosie: I do my best, its been hard with Luke because I'm not always sure what the right thing to do is. I mean, I worry I'll say the wrong thing, or do the wrong thing. I mean, we have good intentions, but I hope we're not being more harm then good... if Dove's good intentions are making him uncomfortable.
Rosie: what are you going to say to her?
Rosie: Do you want me there?
Seraphine: Well so far neither of us has made him ask us to kill him, so I'm thinking that's a pretty damn good bet that we're fine
Rosie: Sera, that terrifies me.
Seraphine: And I'm just gonna talk to her, I can do it myself, don't worry. You can go see if you can hang out with Luke before he leaves. He said he will in a few days
Seraphine: I know, which is why I'm gonna talk to her
Rosie: Alright... I'm texting him now,
Rosie: I know things will be better once things are talked out.
Seraphine: Okay. He might still be out or he might be back home now, I dunno how fast he went but I rode on Luna so I got home fast
Seraphine: Everything will be fine, don't worry
Rosie: Okay, I won't worry. I know it'll be okay.
Seraphine: :)
Rosie: :) <3 Thanks Sera.
Seraphine: What are you thanking me for, I'm just doing my job! Somebody's gotta watch out for you freaking pushovers <3
Rosie: Pushovers, Heee hee, oh Sera.
Seraphine: Well you are! You both are way too nice for your own good! Holy crap
Rosie: Well, we can't ask for a better... anti-pushoverer friend.
Rosie: I don't know what else to call it.
Rosie: XD
Seraphine: That's right you couldn't! Rosie you're so funny
Rosie: HeeHee~
Seraphine: Okay ttyl <3
Rosie: Later Sera <3  

[BlackFireKitsune]

One more normal entry, though her recent depression in them has been rather obvious at this point.

April 19th, 2013
xxxMy birthday's tomorrow. We're not going anywhere or doing anything special, cuz we're still poor as s**t. Not that it really matters. I wouldn't want to do anything without Anastasia anyway; it'll be her birthday too, and without her here to celebrate with... There really isn't any point to celebrating at all.

xxxI haven't mentioned tomorrow to anyone, not even Rosie or Luke. I hope nobody remembers. I hope they all forget.

xxxI wish I could forget, too, but I can't.

xxxI wish I could.

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[BlackFireKitsune]

This page is filled with information about a Sneasel that looks a little darker than average.

April 20th, 2013
xxxMother and Father decided to get me another pokemon for my birthday this year - so now I have a Sneasel, Agatha. She's... pretty different, and interesting. I've never had a Sneasel before, and I haven't seen very many around Camphoreon or anything, so I definitely think it's cool having her. I don't know much about her so far though, since I just got her earlier today. She seems rather distrustful of everything and everyone, though, even me. Maybe whoever my parents bought her from had only caught her from the wild just recently? She seems really feral, to be honest.

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