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Notes from Kidds Journal...




Another day passed by in these doors...padded walls, jackets with reinforced hugs... I suppose it happens though... When your like me... Let me bring you into here, show you..what I mean... It was april the 20th, I remember... When I first came to the town.. A great place... If by great you mean pill popping imbeciles committing crimes against humanity. Of course something had to be done.

One I met at a bar..one for guys.. I knew what he was there for, I am not dumb...however I bet he was...You know what.. I was right. It was funny, he never thought twice, winking and grabbing my behind..I wanted to punch him... I took him home, laid him in bed... By the time I got done in the bathroom the poison had full effect...

Its funny, when you learn what things like do. An old bar trick, turned deadly..

Seems rather troll-ish

Young man animal

Im something like a cannibal

Nicknames Hannibal

I eat other rappers alive

If they try to survive

Through these times

Only lies get us by

No surprise

Now kick me out

It's no doubt

When your flipping out

Tried to be a lover

Not a fighter

But it's hard when your sights

Are just set and ill bet

I'll never make a mixtape cassette

But here I go to say today

I wouldn't want to stay

At this so called home

And here's why

I'll explain in the song

But here's a warning

Each verse will only get worse

Now listen up

Here's whats up

Acually it's got me kind of down

Turned my whole smile upside down

In this frown tells

How you just weren't a good mother

Here's were you yell

This sends red flags

Whistles and Bells

This is hell

And now that im away

I'm doing kind of swell

But how is it

You were never truely around

Now you expect me to be all

Homeward bound

Ask me now

Not a sound or a peep

Tired of rustling in these sheet

What's to eat but the sorrow

Off the ground

In a place with no escape

In my head I will erase

Every thought or picture

Of your face you disgrace

Want me now

But it's too late

Give me space

Your own medicine

You should taste

Hey are you sleeping

No im awake

Because living is a nightmare

It's not fake so long as

It keeps me awake

All I ever wanted was to be

Close with you

But hey who knew

I pretended to smile

As a child just for you

Now I don't want to even

Think of you and you want

Me back that's just wack

Looks like im not the one

Running back

And that's a fact

Hurts you so much

Like a tumb tack

In this open wound

I'll yell back just when

I've had enough of that

But your voice is weak

And mine just sundders

It's so deep it sounds like

Crashing thunder with every

Word I speak

Im tired of being pent up

Im not a dog on a leash

But I am somewhat of a beast

You can tell by my past

And the life I have to lead

Even if I was to be decesed

I would need about a month

To discuss why all the

Commotion and the fuss

But so what once again

Listen up here's whats up

I never really liked

How I had to grow up

Lot of life lesson's

Yes thats true

With out that I couldn't do

What I have

What that may be

Feel free to ask

I have grasped

The fact that I had what

Everyone else would want

I could have boasted

Even taunt but it's to sad

Because what I had

Wasn't me

All I wanted was to

Know my real family

But in time

I read between the lines

You never really wanted me

Well that's just fine

On my own I came up

Listening to rap

Watching anime

Drinking water from the tap

But it only made me strange

All the other kid's

Didn't want me in their reindeer games

They didn't even know my name

And I can't even lie

I acted a little bit strange

But only for attention

When nobody else would listen

And now Im cold

Everything I say is mean

Blunt and bold

It's like all I know how to do

Is scold because I was never told

I love you and I need you

I would have probly

Bleeded just to see you

Now it's like I can't get away

What's left to do when

You know you can't get away

Nothing left to say but goodbye

And now I will turn away

While you cry

If you do

Just know one thing

I loved you

I stay'd true even till the end

And I will never lie

Im smiling on the inside

Today really sucked

To be stuck

But it will get better

I won't sweat her

When I walk out that door

At 18 even though

I know that sounds bad

But at least I always say what

I mean and accept who I am

Now everyone loves me

For how much I've changed

Even though it's bad

I know they don't love me for Angel

They love me for Zane

And tomarrow is another day

So I promise not to let it

Slip away like oppertunity

Stay true to me and speak

This language of freedom

Fluently

-ZC

"I reconize I've been through alot,and yet I've grown up to fast as a result I've also learnd alot.I'm thankful for everything I have and I know I still have many fault's.Im really mean and I tend to curse alot,I'm never afraid to backdown so I accept every challenge and get upset when I lose, but for everything I am and all the darkness inside that I hide I promise you you will never see me cry because behind my mask is the real lie.I'm hard headed with to much pride, I'm not afraid of death or to die.
I used to be happier then this and sometimes I get sad when I reminisce.But Im wiser the most think,Smarter,Faster,Stronger then most could see.My point is I'm diffrent if only you had met the real me.I don't like sharing my problem because they are my own,and half the time I prefer to be alone but I'll forget about me to help anyone that's close.So please don't want to be me,because half the time I'd rather be you most.Some say it's becuase im just to strong..your all wrong it get's to me the same way it would get to you only diffrence is I've been through it so I know what to do.A friend said I was the realiest person he knew..I chuckled because with how much I hide behind the simple cracks of a smile I became what I hate...fake.But then again I gusse it's just fate."

...instead of writing... I am just going to speak, through the fingers that type. I am going to tell you about me. I suffer from psychotic episodes, delusions of apocalypse. I have also been diagnosed with homocidal tendancies, and tendancies of a sociopath. Problem being you cannot diagnos a sociopath until they kill. The only thing that keeps me happy is helping people, and my fiance and children. Then there is days like today. Today I had my first psychotic episode in almost a year. I told everyone on my facebook to ******** themselfs and I grabbed a sword. The only thing stopping me from running out of my door sword in hand was the fact that I promised my fiance I would be home when she got home. Tell me prince of darkness, do you know what its like to want to kill someone, not be mad, to truly and honestly desire someones blood on your hands. Have you ever stayed over someones bed while they slept knife in hand thinking how easy it would be.

Hmm you can have the title prince of darkness, I dont want it. I am unsure how you thought I wanted it, it could be my name but let me clarify. Shinigami means God of Death, and in many ways I am a god of death. However I like being happy and promoting peace and love. So Zane, all this contest has done is shown me a worthy adversary, and someone I now consider a friend. I forfeit. Please dont judge me based on what I have confided in you guys, although I cannot blame you if you do.

Sincerly,
Shini

been there and done many things i to am not proud of and i noe what your name means as for the wanting to kill i hide behind a childish smile even though bothered but so many stupid childish insolent fools that i want to kill but they are not worth my time let alone methods and standards so i belive in what you are saying as well as being a god of darkness and decay wich some idiot put on here had notrhing to do with death when it has everything to do with it i must say i am enlightend to find not only a friend but a worthy adversary an opponet to wich knows no bounds or chains on any door to the darkest depths of hades and im honored to be a friend so Shini your friend Zane
i have but one more favor to ask a duet if u will you right half of a piece and i finish it as a truce and token of new found friend ship.

sincerly

The prince of darkness Zane

P.S. title god of death belongs to you and always will Shini but the prince of darkness is mine lol Thank you for this challenge it was fun

May i try a small pome i made when i use to belong to a creature of the night guild?