well.
my psych doctor.. she totally witnessed the onset of my eating disorder, and the rapid weight loss and all....
and she doesn't take me seriously.
i saw a cardiologist around march, when i was just having chest pain and not actual palpatations, and i had an ECHO and everything was fine....
i got my blood tested a month ago, and the only thing that's was off was that my blood sugar was low, and my doctor said "thats just from restricting, it'll go away once you eat more."
my blood test confused the hell out of me by coming back normal mostly, because i have all this s**t that is wrong because of restricting and starving, and it should have shown up. my legs are covered with bruises, a sign of my liver failing. i've lost my period, a sign of hormone imbalance.
honestly, the only sympton of "severe anorexia nervosa" that i DONT have is the being cold all the time. my circulation seems to be fine.
okay, well, my psych doctor just told me to "join a support group for eating disorders" when i go to university because "they have that type of thing in college".
oh, i did start taking a women's one a day vitamin. problem is, i can't take it every day because often i don't eat enough to take it without throwing up.
uhm, my boyfriend wants me to gain 15 pounds before i move in to college.... but thats not going to happen.
whee besides, i'll be 18 by then (i turn 18 in 8 days!) and he can't make me go to the hospital if i dont want to...
i DO plan on working with the health department at school to get some sort of treatment team for me. a decent therapist with experince in this, and a doctor, and a dietician.
3nodding just gotta wait it out till then...
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