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 Posted: Sun Apr 18, 2010 7:59 pm
-The Past Couple of Weeks-
I can't really remember them. I hardly remember the tea party I threw to keep my mind off of Deskri and what happened in my dorm. Luckily I was filled in by Deskri when he visited me in the nurses office.
Long story short, I had a bad thing and it tortured me into the point of total submission. The scratches and dents on my door prove it, not that I wouldn't believe him to begin with.
Also, Deskri and Rasiel are apparently dating now. I honestly thought I would be more heartbroken over this, but I guess I've seen this coming for a while, and I am honestly happy for my friend, and hopefully my other friend too. It does hurt a little bit, but it's a pain I know I'll be able to get over quickly.
Also, my mother got not one, but two new Meta children. I haven't met them in person yet, but I've chatted with them over the phone. Cedric and Kyle. My mom asked if I could come and sit for her soon so she could get some things done, and I probably will. I like to interact with children from time to time.
The one thing that's bothering me is Obsurite. He...didn't do anything to me at all. He wanted Alice dead for some reason, I know he's not the nicest fellow, but he didn't hurt me. He tried to strangle me for about a half a second, but stopped just as quickly. He even stopped me from killing myself before I would let Kagyaku have the pleasure. He held me and comforted me when I was so frightened.
How could a person like that be bad? I am so confused...
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Posted: Sun Apr 18, 2010 11:07 pm
+Silent Nights+ (solo rp)
Sonnet really didn't want to go back to her dorm, so she asked her mother if she could spend a few nights back at home, and it was fine. Sure, her room was on the empty side with all of her things in the room at the academy, but her bed was still there, and that's all she really needed.
When sleep time came, she got into some comfy PJs and curled up into bed. She fell asleep rather quickly.
Her eyes opened again. Was that sunlight? Did she really make it through the night without a single nightmare? She walked out of her room and into the kitchen to see that her mom was making breakfast for herself. The young ones weren't up this early yet. Her mom looked up from her skillet and grinned.
"Hiya sweetie! You look well rested! Want some eggs for breakfast?" Sonnet nodded, still in slight shock. She had discussed with Deskri about the possibility of not having anymore nightmares, but she had had them for so long, it was surreal for them to just...disappear...
She and her mother ate breakfast with some pleasant conversation here and there. The food was good, as Mizu's food usually was. Sonnet then did dishes as her mother woke up the smaller ones and got them fed as well.
No more nightmares...it was like a dream come true...
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Posted: Tue Apr 27, 2010 10:51 pm
-Blank-
My nightmares are gone.
I always thought that I would never miss those horrid images that haunted me in my sleep, and at first I didn't. I have gotten well rested, very well rested, but now...now I'm not so sure.
It doesn't feel like I even sleep. I know I do, but during that time...nothing happens. I close my eyes, and when I open them again, 6-8 hours have passed. Sleep isn't as refreshing when you don't have anything going on. At least with my nightmares I had something going on in there. Now I am empty.
I am blank, and I'm not too sure if I like it...
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Posted: Tue Apr 27, 2010 11:07 pm
+Babysitting the young ones+ (solo rp)
Today was the day that Sonnet had her two younger siblings all to herself while her mother went out shopping. Sonnet had been warned to keep the two as separate as possible, telling her the story of what happened last time Kyle had gotten to chatty with Cedric.
Cedric was an odd one for a toddler. She could tell that. He sounded like a toddler, and sort of acted like one, but she had caught a glimpse of his journal and knew there was someone intelligent down in there. She kept him pleased by pulling down a rather long and wordy book; Pride and Prejudice, and gave it to him to read. Her mother may not have realized his brains, but she did. He seemed rather pleased, glad that his inner intelligence was seen by at least someone, and he gave her a hug and toddled off to his room to read.
Kyle liked to play. She was greatly entertained when Sonnet took her for a small flight outside, and also enjoyed putting together a puzzle with Sonnet. It was bigger then the puzzles she played with by herself, or so she claimed, but it had a pretty picture of a horse and some flowers, and Sonnet helped so it was super fun.
Sonnet then prepared lunch. The consensus was for grilled cheese and tomato soup, though Kyle liked sweet pickles on her sandwich as well, and Sonnet complied. Nothing bad happened while they ate. In fact Kyle and Cedric chatted pleasantly to one another, as Kyle was interested about what Cedric was reading and Cedric seemed pleased to talk about it as best as he could. Sonnet chuckled and listened as she ate her own lunch, a fried egg sandwich with cheese and tomato. Cedric seemed interested in her food so they traded half of their sandwiches with each other, and he liked it a lot and asked Sonnet to let their mother know that he'd like more lunches like that.
After food, both of the kids settled down for a nap, and so Sonnet opened up one of her notebooks and began to write, something that she had not done for quite some time. She kept it to short poems for the most part, and there was no real theme to them. Here and there she'd drabble off into a bit of prose, though it didn't last very long.
Mizu got home while the kids were still napping. She was surprised that no fights had occurred. Sonnet explained that Cedric seemed more sociable if he had something to stimulate his brain, and Mizu nodded before putting away the things she had bought.
All in all, it was a good day.
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Posted: Tue Apr 27, 2010 11:39 pm
-On my mind-
It's weird... I can't help but think of Obscurite from time to time when I'm not doing anything that requires my full attention.
Apparently he's separate from Rasiel like Kagyaku is from Deskri and...whoever it was from me. The thing is though, it doesn't frighten me that he is on the loose unlike the other two...things...
I don't know. I know he wasn't all that nice to Deskri or Rasiel when he was in Rasiel's body, but I get the feeling that there is something more to him, and I honestly hope to see him again so that I can speak with him and see if I am right or if I am just highly optimistic.
I want to know more about him, and maybe, if he's willing to talk about it, I'll get to know who 'Lucia' is...
Until then, I suppose I'll just have to deal with him popping up in my thoughts.
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Posted: Wed Apr 28, 2010 1:00 am
~Call Between Friends~ (rp with Deskri over MSN)Deskri Once he had recovered from the shock of Asu barging into the dorm to give him The Talk, Deskri reached for his cellphone and dialed Sonnet's number. One, he hadn't talked to her in awhile, and two, he needed something to get the idea of children and marriage out of his head. They weren't old enough for that... "Hello? Sonnet?" Sonnet A familiar ring sounded from her cell phone. Sonnet scurried over to where her phone was and picked it up, pressing the button that allowed her to talk to whoever it was on the other line. "Hello?" she inquired, but knew who it was as soon as he said her name. "Oh, hi Deskri!" she chimed, glad to hear from him again. She hadn't talked to him since she was in the nurses' office. "What's up?" Deskri "Nothin' really... Asu stormed in, left a few minutes ago after disturbing me... How're you? Are you still hurting?" Deskri rolled onto his back once more, immediately feeling at ease again. Sonnet always had that sort of effect on him. Sonnet Sonnet laughed a bit. "Naw, I'm pretty much all healed up. Just a scar here and there," she said as she moved over to the bed to sit down on it. She laid on her stomache, her feet kicking back and forth as she listened. "Oh? Why'd she storm in?" she asked. "Something the matter with Hayden or something?" Deskri "That's good. I think there's like, some cream for that if you wanted to get rid of the scars..." He found himself shrugging even though Sonnet wasn't there to see him. Or anyone, for that matter. "Uh... not really. She didn't even mention Hayden. She wanted to give me The Talk, but y'know... I'd think she'd realize that she's a little late for that...... I'm old enough to already know..." Sonnet "I'll have to look into that..." Sonnet commented before hushing again to listen to Deskri talk about what Asu had to say. "Really now? She didn't think of giving you that talk years ago?" she said, laughing a bit. "I mean, there was that whole time when the school was closed that she could have talked about it with you...yeesh. Your mam can be such a scatterbrain at times..." she said with a slight chuckle. Deskri "I know... She's ridiculous... came in and assumed things right off the bat just 'cause I said Rasiel was prolly makin' lunch." Deskri rolled his eyes with a bit of a laugh. "Has your mom... tortured you with that talk?" Sonnet Sonnet shrugged out of habit. "Not tortured no. About a year ago she sat me down and we had a rather civil conversation about the whole situation, she asked me my thoughts about it, you know, that sort of thing," she rambled on. Mizu wasn't as prodding as Asu was, and she was rather grateful towards that quality of her adoptive mother. "Then again I'm not dating anyone like someone I know," she said with a chuckle. Deskri "Ugh, no fair... Your mom should take custody, and then I wouldn't have to deal with Asu anymore." Deskri groaned, he'd always sort of envied how lucky Sonnet had gotten with Mizu... Her mom wasn't freaking insane, after all. "J-just 'cause we're dating doesn't mean we're... y'know...." That was a lie. A total lie. Sonnet "I don't think Asu'd be very happy with that. She does care about you...just in an odd way..." Sonnet said with a nod. She then laughed a little bit at Deskri's stammering, avoiding the topic. "I know Deskri, but she doesn't. She's just being a protective mother in her odd sort of way is all." Deskri "Threatening sort of way. She'll prolly get in your business too, y'know, when you start dating someone... I'll try not to tell her so you'll be spared the embarrassment, 'cause she keeps saying you're like a half-child." Sonnet "Really? Mizu says the same about you. Maybe you should spend a night or two with me here at Mizu's house. It'd give you a hiding place from Asu anyway..." she then paused a moment. "Or perhaps not. Mom has a few new meta kids. Kyle is especially active." Deskri "You have little siblings too?" Deskri half grinned, he figured Sonnet would a better big sibling than he'd ever be. "What're they like, aside from being especially active?" Sonnet "Kyle's the active one. Cedric is well...odd. It's like his brain and his body aren't fully connected. He's super smart, but can't seem to get that across when he talks. Usually he and Kyle aren't the best of friends. He almost hurt her, or so Mom says. They've been better behaved when I'm around though..." Deskri "I think that's because you're naturally calming." Deskri replied almost instantly. "Huh, that's odd... I guess it'd be frustrating... Maybe he just lost his temper? He's still a toddler... Awhile back I heard that Hayden was wrecking the house... but he was doing it on purpose.." Sonnet "Really? He seemed rather behaved at the tea party....I think...I really don't remember that day very well," she said with a sigh before chuckling. "Why thank you Deskri," she said, blushing slightly at the compliment. Deskri "Asu said he goes through phases of destroying everything and being a perfect little kid... I don't think I want to hang out with him anytime soon, though..." He smiled, "only sayin' what's true." Sonnet Sonnet didn't respond for a bit, and soft voices from far away were heard on the line. "Hey Deskri, I gotta go help with dinner, so I gotta go. Want me to call you later afterwards?" Deskri "Oh, all right. Sure, if you want to. I doubt I'll be doing anything. Have a good dinner." He smiled a bit and then waited for Sonnet to hang up before he closed his phone. Sonnet "Later," Sonnet said with a chirp before hanging up and skuttling off to do what she needed to do.
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Posted: Sun May 09, 2010 1:09 pm
+Mother's Day+(solo rp)
Unlike her best friend, Sonnet always got along with her adoptive mother, but then again there was few Sonnet couldn't get along with. She even got along with Deskri's mother better than Deskri could.
On this morning, Sonnet ordered her mother to stay in bed until after breakfast. She cooked her favorites while Kyle and Cedric made homemade Mother's Day cards at the kitchen table after eating cereal. All her kids wanted to make sure that the woman who worked so hard for them to live in comfort got a day of comfort. Yeah, she had to be strict at times when they misbehaved, but what mom wasn't? She helped the little ones whenever they needed helping, and worked late into the night in hopes that she'd get paid enough to keep food, and she usually did, though money was getting a little tighter what with two small ones at home and Sonnet living with them again.
But they were happy, and that's all that mattered.
Breakfast was served in bed, cards and hugs were given, and they all sat on Mizu's bed and chatted with her as she ate happily, so glad to be surrounded by all these children that she adopted and now called her own. Cedric and Kyle were both kind enough to keep there squabbles to themselves, but then again those fights rarely happened now that Sonnet was home most of the time as she could keep them occupied. After food was eaten the smaller ones dragged her off to the TV room, still in her pajamas as Sonnet went to clean the dishes.
There were DVD's stacked high of Mizu's favorite movies, most of them animated because she was a kid in that sort of sense. Sonnet brought out tea for the two of them and hot cocoa for the little ones and they sat around all cuddled up against each other on the couch as they watched movie after movie, pausing here in there for potty breaks and to make snacks. They didn't even eat lunch or dinner seeing as they grazed on snack foods all day.
The smaller ones fell asleep around 9pm in the middle of one of the movies. Sonnet carried them both to bed and tucked them in before rejoining her mother to watch the rest of the movie together.
"Thanks for the great day sweetie," Mizu commented once the TV was turned off. Sonnet hugged her mom tightly and smiled.
"It was the least we could do mom, after all, you could have chosen not to adopt any of us, but you did, and we love you for that," she said with a smile. Mizu nodded.
"I know, I know..." she said with a sigh before looking at Sonnet again. "So, how have you been?"
Sonnet laughed. "You ask me that everyday mom! I'm fine!"
Mizu shook her head. "There has to be some reason why you moved back here other than you wanted to help me with the kids. You were so excited to move into your dorm..." she said, looking down at her cup of tea. "Does it have to do with those nightmares you used to have? Did something happen between you and Deskri?" She then laughed in an embarrassed tone. "Sorry...I'm just being worrisome. Don't mind me..."
Sonnet thought for a minute or two before shaking her head. "Don't be sorry mom..." she said apologetically before she started talking to her mother about everything that happened. Obscurite, Kagyaku, her own bad thing, how she thought she was over Deskri but seeing him with Rasiel hurt her on the inside...It was the last, the catching passing glimpses of Deskri and Rasiel clinging to each otehr and seeming so happy that made her cry, and the reason she moved back, so she could get over it in private. Mizu held her the whole time, being quiet and listening.
"Seems like my little angel has been through a lot recently...you should have called to tell me you were in the nurses office though. I would have come to visit..." she said as she stoked Sonnet's hair. Sonnet sniffled.
"I'm sorry..."
"It's okay sweetie..." She then set Sonnet back upright. "Now you go fetch us some more hot tea and let's get one more movie in."
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Posted: Mon May 10, 2010 7:53 pm
-Where do I go from here?-
The title, a question. The answer, it seems, is nowhere.
First off, I would like to state that being a teenager sucks. You feel things you've never felt before, both infatuation and heartbreak, and right now, it seems that the second is all that I'll ever feel.
It all started during a conversation between me and Deskri. I had been crushing on him for a bit now, and wanted to let him know, so the topic of romance was slowly slipped in, talking about what we looked for in significant others. And Deskri used the pronoun 'he'.
Yup, my best friend and the guy whom I had fallen head over heels for would NEVER return the feelings, all because I was born with the wrong parts.
Oh how it hurt, but I just pushed it all aside to help him through dealing with a second thing that was a bloodthirsty jerk living inside of him. I can see now that was a bad thing to do, because after a while, my hopes were raised yet again to be dashed for the same bloody reason.
Do I hate Rasiel? No. He's a nice guy. I'd love to hang out with him again. Do I hate Deskri. No. He's my best friend in the whole world.
No, what I hate are these feelings. Love is nice for some, but only those who can find it. For those of us that get our hearts torn apart again and again with false hopes and meaningless adoration, it's the worst thing in the world.
I have all this love to give, but no one will love me back.
And thus, I am alone.
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Posted: Thu May 20, 2010 6:19 pm
-My life is weird-
So after a visit from Alice today, Deskri called me asking me to bring over some clothes...because Rasiel was turned into a girl...
...yeah...
I have no idea what to think about on this one...
Well, better get going. Deskri and Rasiel are waiting for me.
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Posted: Thu Oct 28, 2010 7:44 pm
-Thoughts on humans and children-
Deskri came over to the house today. Mom and the siblings were off shopping and all. He brought Moira, also known as Momo, one of Syth and Alice's children, and of what I have heard, one of the most neglected.
I...just don't understand how Syth could just focus on one child. Even if that one child is a terror, there are things such as food and clothing to consider. Apparently Momo had never been taken shopping for clothing before, eternally stuck in the same outfit that she was given at her birth.
It made me feel sick to my stomach...This is your child, you can't just go ignoring them!
Anyway, apparently they had a...bad run in with some humans. It's odd, I have never had any issues with humans, but now that I think about it, it's because I really look like one. Take away my wings and I look like a blond teenager. I don't even have pointed ears, no crazy markings or hair colors.
I never realized until now just how...boring I am. Yeesh...
Still, I don't do my shopping where Deski had gone. I usually go where Mizu goes, a section of town that is called 'condemned' by most humans. It's really not. It's just where all the non-humans have taken up shop. Mizu has bright blue hair after all, and it's not dyed. I don't think she's human, but then again, she's never claimed that she was one. One day I hope to open a cafe in that area, so that everyone will be invited, and no one will judge another just on the way they look.
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Posted: Sun Oct 31, 2010 3:15 pm
+On watch+
She had taken to coming here every day as the sun started to sink. It was kind of far off, even for a flight, but it was worth the work getting there.
It was a small grove of large trees on the top of some sort of hill/cliff combo. She wasn't really sure what the technical term was. It didn't matter really. She'd just place herself on one of the sturdy branches on the highest tree of the grove. It gave her the perfect view.
Getting herself comfortable, she pulled out her mp3 player, the one Mizu had given to her when she was first born, so to speak. It was 4 years old now, and on it's last legs, but she really couldn't afford to get a new one. She placed one of the earbuds in her ear and hit play before looking out to the horizon.
Her eyes did not fade to daydreaming. No. Her blue orbs remained fixated on the horizon, as if she were waiting for something, if she were trying to find something along the line that the sun was sinking behind.
She'd shift every now and then, moving herself to look in a different direction, her eyes ever vigilant. She would be the first to see them, if they ever came this way during this time. This would continue until it got dark, and even beyond that, into late evening before she'd climb down the tree manually to arrive at the bottom.
There were thin hatch marks on the base of her perch. She plucked a feather from her wings, and it instantly became metallic and sharp, a newer ability she had discovered. She drug the sharp end into the bark, creating another hatch mark before bringing out her journal to write in. The metallic feather was used, and apparently could not only function as a knife, but as a pen.
After she got done writing, she closed the book and tapped on the feather, and it returned to it's feathery form once again. She held out her hand and it was swept away by the passing breeze, and that made her smile, but only for a moment.
She looked all around her one more time, to the horizon, before her wings unfolded, and she headed home.
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Posted: Sun Oct 31, 2010 3:35 pm
-Waiting-
So another evening is past and no sign of them. I'm starting to wonder if coming up here every night is a waste of my time. Maybe I should cut back to every other night.
No, I have to remain vigilant, for not only Deskri anymore, but for Moira as well. I need to wait until they come back.
I could be wasting time all together though. They might not even come this way, or at this time...
Or even come at all.
But I'm still going to watch, I am still going to wait. I need to talk to them before they go dashing off to their 'loved ones' causing even more emotional turmoil.
No, I need to talk to them first, let them know whats been going on, let them know what their leaving has done to the people that cared about them, and that coming back just as abruptly as they left might cause things to get worse.
Then I might kick them in the shins. I don't know yet. Depends on whats going on around here...
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Posted: Tue Feb 08, 2011 9:11 pm
-Ramblings of the paranoid girlfriend-
Yes journal, you read my title right, I am now dating someone, and it was the man I have been wanting to be with since way back when I first could feel love and know what it was. I know I should be nothing but happy, and I am, I am happier then words could ever describe.
But I am also scared as hell.
I know I shouldn't be, but I am. Deskri's dating me, ME of all people. I'm scared of a lot of things, Rasiel not being able to accept the relationship is one of those fears, but Deskri said he hasn't been able to get in contact with him again, but still.
That's not what frightens me the most though.
It's ME. We all know he could easily find someone better than me (no matter how much he denies it, I know better. It's me we're talking about. Almost ANYONE could be better) I've never been in a relationship before, mostly because I couldn't let go loving him, and I do love him I really do, but...this is still my first relationship, and there are certain...things...I have yet to experience yet.
Ah, sex. Yes, I am an adult, and yet it still intimidates me like I was a fumbling teen with out of control hormones. I...really don't know how it works. I know some of the mechanics, but not enough to make me WANT to partake in such an act, but really, how does one prepare for something like THAT? I mean, I could ask Deskri, but if I didn't die asking him that, he'd probably die before he'd answer, and really, what kind of girlfriend goes up and asks. 'Hey sweetie what's sex like?'
I mean, I guess I could attempt to learn via adult videos, but really, how real are those situations anyway? That and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to watch them by myself without Deskri asking, and then again, world of awkwardness.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I am such a fail girlfriend.
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 6:44 pm
-Time to brush the dust off-
Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it? Lots of things have happened since we spoke last. Valentine's went wonderfully, thank you for asking, but that's not the biggest news.
I, Sonnet Taji, no longer have a boyfriend...
Nope. Not anymore.
Because he is my fiance~
Heehee, had you going there, didn't I. I'm sorry, it was a cruel trick, but it had to be done. And it's not like anyone READS this thing. They better not anyway...
We're planning on a private wedding, because really...we don't have any friends that have not been assimilated into family. Deskri described it as us being 'perpetual hermits'. I must admit the image amused me so much I spent the next few minutes laughing while he stared on like I was a crazy person.
But everything is going splendid...which is why I can't stave off the paranoia that something really BAD is coming this way....
I really REALLY hope not >.>
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Posted: Wed Jun 08, 2011 7:58 pm
-Wed-
Deskri and I are now husband and wife...
What?
I never thought I'd write THAT either. Where are the explosions? Where is Rasiel or someone else breaking into the wedding and sweeping Deskri off his feet? Where's me waking from my coma?
Why is everything going RIGHT? It's so unnerving. Could it really be over? Could I finally be able to be forever happy, instead of just little at a time with heartbreak in between?
Goddamn it. Having all those bad things happen for the first 4 years of my life has made me so paranoid...
But, I AM happy. There is no denying it. Deskri and I just seem to fit one another. It just seems...perfect...well not perfect, but pretty damn close.
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