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 Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:11 pm
++When I was Young++
-Diary Entry-
When I was just a child, I remembered when my father was here. He loved me and nothing else mattered. I remember being tossed toward the skies, laughing and giggling all the away. I was his princess and he was my king. I'd have wings just like him, and he'd soar with me to the heavens, and float down into the underworld. He stood by my side always and forever. Why did it feel so warm in the sunlight, to play dress up, forever there with fake fairy wings and plastic crowns. Frozen in time. If only it could never end. These happy feelings of pretend happily-ever-after. Of princes and of fairies. This magical land he and I would call our own. Untainted by the hideous world outside. Forever in peace, always in fantasy.
I remember when I was a child, when my father spoke of war and of depression. I hardly understood what any of it meant. It was no threat to us, as he kept smiling with me. Nothing could ever separate us from our world of undying dreams come true.
I was a mere child when you packed your bags and kissed your princess goodbye. Why did you leave our world, daddy? This was your home. This was your dream. Why leave it alone to wither away into memory? I stood there, unable to feel. Unable to cry as you walked away. Wings, crown, and all. Your princess stood as you never looked back and never returned. Each day, I waited in my fairy dress for you to walk back home and throw me back into the skies. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, months into years. I grew taller, outgrowing my fairy wings and crown.
One day, I sat there waiting for you. I was different, and you would be too. If only you were here. What I saw, it was not you. No. It was a man that knew nothing of our world, knew nothing of our fantasies and happiness. He came to me and crushed our world into pieces. A single sentence was all it took. You'd never come back to me. They found your broken wings, barely glimmering with fake sparkle. That day, I tossed down my crown and cried. Nothing would mend our dreams again. Our wings tainted by war and destruction, I'd never forgive the world for that.
But I just wanted to let you know. Though I might not see you again and you no longer have your wings to fly back to me with. And our world is shattered beyond mending. I'll always waiting for you. Until the day I die.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:12 pm
++In The Dog House++
"You don't understand me!!!" Alice screamed, moving her hand across to use her shadow energy to slam her bedroom angrily. Kae banged on the door with her fist.
"I did not raise you to be this way!" she yelled through the door.
"And what did you raise me to be? You're clone? You're perfect little test tube daughter?!"
"No, but I didn't raise you to go slutting yourself around. Let alone to another girl!"
"I love her! And she loves me!" Alice exclaimed, tears welling up in her eyes.
Alice sighed, "..what would Daemin think.."
"Don't you dare bring Daemin into this!"
"I'm sure he cursing you from the heavens."
"HE'S NOT DEAD! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW!" Alice punched the wall with shadow force.
"That's it! Get out of my house!"
Alice gathered her things into a suitcase in a rageful hurry. "FINE!"
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:13 pm
++Blood Red++
-Diary Entry-
I've been thinking, about what happened back in my room when my eyes turned red and I felt urges that I'd never felt before. I found Syth's neck appealing to my urges as though I wanted to hurt her. I wanted to cause her pain, I wanted to drink every last warm drop of blood from her very body. I never want to hurt her. What am I inside? Was I created to be this way? If only I knew what was going on. I would be able to stop it before I ended up hurting someone. Please, father, come back soon. I wish to remember your face. Where is my anger now? It's faded, it disappears when I look at Syth's face. I truly am.. in love with her.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:16 pm
++Halloween Spirit++
-Diary Entry-
I decided to change my Halloween costume. I really didn't want to wear this ever again since it brings back so many memories. But this year, I am confronting my feelings for my father and wearing my fairy costume. I feel.. special again. I wonder what Syth would think of my costume.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:21 pm
++Love and Broken Threads++
-Diary Entry-
Today was horrible. I fell in love with Syth and it was grand. Yet, when my mother came home, it fell apart and my mother and I got into a fight. In the end, Syth ran away as so did I. We went our separate ways of course. I don't know exactly where she ran, but I knew one place she eventually end up or go to. I visited the dorms before dawn and placed a note on her door asking her to come to the park. I do hope she comes, because I would like to apologize for all that fighting and hatred. I love her, I do. And I just wanted to be with her forever. Can you truly hate me for that?
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:22 pm
++Destiny Hates Me++
-Diary Entry-
Forever, I have been plagued with this horrible pre-destined future. I hate it. Everyone I love has left me. First my father, he left because of the war between heaven and hell. Second, my mother because we got into a fight. Then Syth, my one true love, for the same reason for my fighting with my mother. At this point, what is there to live for when one has nothing to lose. There is nothing here for me. My powers are growing out of control and I can't stop them anymore. I practice them every day and yet, in the moon, I cannot handle all of the power bestowed upon me. In a sense, I want to fly away, but my wings will not let me. I've been crying for sometime now. I feel as though I've had my heart ripped straight from my ribcage. Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel the need to protect Syth? It barely makes sense but I have an idea of what I'm truly meant to do. Even if she hates my guts, I still want to protect her. Deep inside my heart, I know for sure.. That I love Syth.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:23 pm
++Replacement++
Alice had returned home late that night, feeling remorse for what she had done. She came in with the intent to apologize and to return home for good.
As Alice approached the front door, she heard soft music coming from inside. She was curious as she entered, wondering where the music was coming from. She traced the sound to her room which confused her since it sounded like a violin, an instrument in which she didn't own. She opened the door to see Rasiel sitting on her bed, playing the violin. "Who the bloody hell are you?" she demanded, stepping forth to stare angrily down at him. Rasiel stopped playing and stared up at her with his cold, red eyes. "Please leave, you are not welcome here anymore." he answered softly. Alice was appalled by his remark. "Where is my mother?""Our.. mother has left to the laboratory to finish her research.""What in god's name are you yammering on about? Who are you and why are you here in my room?""My name is Rasiel, I am mother's new child now. This is going to my room and you are no longer welcome back here." "WHAT?! You've got to be joking. Mother would never do such as to replace her very daughter! This is most absurd and uncalled for! Get out of my room!" Rasiel glared at her, holding his violin to his chin, he began to play a fast paced trill that sounded overpowering and dark. Alice was suddenly overcome with fear as she backed away from him. "Wh-what are you?""I am your replacement. Mother does not want you anymore. She is my mother now and never to be yours again. Now leave or I shall make you leave." he replied in his usual soft tone, yet his words were filled with hatred and evil. Alice shook her head, shaking off his spell from her mind and creating a field around herself to reflect the sound away from her. "You will not beat me. I am better than you. And just you see, 'Rasiel', she is my mother, and my mother only. Rasiel smirked, and without a word stopped playing and took a swing at Alice with his violin.Alice was surprised and was hit by the instrument as she fell to the floor and Rasiel continued to hit her, evil laughter erupting from his lips as he repeated beat her. Finally finding her strength, Alice used her shadow power to manipulate the violin to halt in midair.Rasiel was confused as he tugged on the violin as it didn't budge an inch. After a moment, it began to lift him up, shock coming over his face as it threw him into the wall and pinned him there. His feet dangled as he attempted to unpry himself.Alice stood slowly and walked over to Rasiel, eyes glowing redder than his own. "Look here, Rasiel. Take my room, but know this. I will not be subject to your world. This is my territory, and you're most definitely on thin ice. Watch your back, little brother. I'm far stronger than you and I have no remorse for killing scum like you." she threaten. "I will be back. And when I do, I expect you to step aside and let me through next time. Otherwise, mother and I will gladly attend your funeral. You got that, PUNK?" she growled as the violin tightened its grip on Rasiel.Rasiel nodded and violin released him, both falling to the floor. He coughed, holding his throat. "This isn't over yet, Alice.""Oh, I know that. Have a nice day, little brother." she commented sarcastically as she flicked her hair back and left the room. Deep inside, she was broken for the fact that her mother had so quickly replaced her. The only thing she didn't know was that Rasiel knew that too.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:24 pm
Letter for Daemin Dear Alice,
I know I have been away a really long time and that you've been waiting for my return. It won't be so triumphant I presume. We won the war, but not our freedom. For ages, I've had no idea where I've been, traveling to some unknown distant land I've never heard of. Everyday, I'd wake up to your face in my mind, and go to sleep the same. My dearest Alice, please do not cry. It'll all be over soon. When we reach our destination, I will either be killed, or set free. Being granted one letter to anyone, I decided to write to you to let you know that everything is going to be okay. I'm sure you've grown since the last time I've seen you. I hope that one day, you'll understand what happened. Yet, at the same time, I hope you never experience the horrors I have seen. So in my final words, I must say, you'll always be my little girl. Be strong, Alice. And tell your mom I love her. Until we meet again..
Love,
Daemin Broken
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:27 pm
++Phone Call++
((Phone conversation between Alice and Rasiel)) Alice nodded to Syth as she ran away and picked up the phone. "Rasiel. This is Alice, What the hell is going on? This is Sakura's phone. Why do you have it?" she yelled through the phone angrily.Rasiel was startled by the voice he heard. It sounded like Alice and then proclaimed itself as such. "A-Alice?! What the-" his eyes came back to show his emotion. ".. what have I done.. Oh god, what have I done.."Alice felt a sharp sting in her chest as she listened closely to Rasiel's voice but only heard him repeating himself in obvious shock. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO SAKURA?!" she screamed, worried for her.Rasiel flinched at Alice's screaming through the phone as he closed his eyes. "I'm not here. None of this happened. Oh god, what have I done? Is she dead?" he ranted to himself as he dropped his violin and looked at Sakura with tears in his eyes. "I never wanted THIS to happen."She paused to listen to Rasiel as he ranted to himself even more. "WHAT HAPPENED?! RASIEL, TALK TO ME! WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?!" Alice continued to scream. She wasn't getting much information. Decided to snap him out of his daze, she said the last thing she should have said. "Rasiel, mother is on her way to find you. Now you better tell me what happened and I'll stop her or you can keep ranting and mother will find out for me." she threatened in an angry tone.Rasiel was suddenly filled with fear as Alice spoke to him, no longer yelling. "M-mother?!" he muttered and dropped the phone. In utter devastation and shock, he stood perfectly still, eyes wide. "Hello? Rasiel? HEY! HELLO?! RASIEL, CAN YOU HEAR ME?! WHAT'S GOING ON?!" she started to yell again as she knew she wouldn't hear him answer her anymore. Closing the phone, she began to concentrate her powers. "Come on. I've done it before. Now I need it." she mumbled as she howled and a pair of ears and a tail sprouted from her body and her arms and legs got a bit darker in color, turning her hands and feet into paws. Alice screamed out in pain as she transformed, but not even all the way. Taking advantage of this opportunity, she got down on all fours, sniff the ground a little, then took off running out of the house after Syth. 'I'm sure she'll get there first, so if I follow her, she'll take me straight to him.'Rasiel heard Alice voice faintly yelling through the phone on the floor then hung up. He whipped around and looked at Deskri. "This is all your fault. I didn't want to hurt her. No one was supposed to know about what I do. I blame you. This all YOUR FAULT!" he screamed, glaringly angrily at him with tears in his eyes. "Now my mother will know everything and it's all over. I won't even have a mother anymore! All because of you!" he continued, more tears welling up in his eyes.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:28 pm
++Goodbyes++
-Diary Entry-
Welcome back to the academy. I can hear them now when I get back. It's time I left to go find my father. He sent me a letter and I feel I could truly find him. So I'll be packing my things tonight and I'll be on my way on the next train to rescue him. I know it'll end up hurting Syth in the end, but I don't expect to be gone for too long. I don't exactly know where to start, but I'm sure I'll find somewhere to begin my search. Besides, I think I should just leave for a while anyway because of the new pest, Rasiel. Oh man, do I hate him. Anyway, I'll be off to confirm with Zira about my plan and I shall be gone soon after sunset.
Goodbye Metamorphosis Academy...
...Goodbye...Syth...
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:29 pm
++Sand and Brimstone++
-Diary Entry-
(The page is torn in many places as sand can be seen inside the binding. There is a picture of Damien and Alice paper-clipped to the page as it is warped a bit and the whole thing looks like it had gone through rain and extensive heat.)
Last time I wrote, I had set off to find my father. Though I was met with a few misfortunes, I did find him. It took days of searching to find him, only to be told to go back home. He was right, mother needs me more than he did. He was strong, he always had been. So why give up hope so quickly. They did release him, but he decided to stay behind, he proclaimed to much of a changed person to return to our old life together. I made him promise to visit and continue to write letters. I really missed him throughout all of this. I just hugged him and cried for hours. I told him of everything that had happened recently... even my love for Syth. Surprisingly enough, he seemed okay with it. As long as I was happy, he had said. His smile was still the same, that's for sure. In the end, he sent me back home and told me to tell my mother where I had been. I'll be returning to Metas soon, it's only so far, so little time until I can see Syth again. Oh, how I miss her terribly...
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:52 pm
++What I've Lost++
-Diary Entry-
It's been years since I've seen everyone I've known. I came out here for some reason. But I can't remember why. This picture, it's of someone I know, but I can't place the name. Who is he? Why am I in the picture with him? What's going on?
Lately, my body feels hot, like it's on fire. It's something I can handle, but it's been going on for a while now, and it's starting to hurt more and more. Why is this happening? I feel like I've lost something close to me, but I can't remember. My mind is clouded and the sun is burning away these pastimes. It's driving me insane, what is it that I've lost... What am I missing? I doesn't come to me anymore. Names and faces start to slip from my memory and I can't really remember what I was thinking about just before then.
I'm so confused, and now I'm lost. Where did I come from? Who were my parents? My friends?.... Who am I?
Did I have a feeling like I missed someone? No, couldn't have been. Well, I really don't remember anymore. I just want to lay down. Maybe I'll remember when I wake up.
Goodnight, nameless planet.
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Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 7:06 pm
++Lucky++
-Diary Entry-
I awoke this morning to my mother's face. Or at least, I think was my mother. She explained to me about a virus that had spawned in the place where I was born. Some of my people were infected and others were not. Apparently, my mother had come all the way out here just to find me and give me a cure. How thoughtful. She said that I was lucky that she found me when she did. I had contracted the virus and it had just begun to take hold of me when my she gave me the vaccine.
Had I really been asleep for three days? My mother says I have lost some memory but my body hadn't begun to change. She had thought it had reversed the growth of my body since I looked exactly the same as when I had left, but after some tests, she realized I had not grown either way, mentioning something about a halted grow due to not seeing some person I don't remember. I was lucky, or so she says. She named off a few people I had known before, but I couldn't quite remember. I was told to rest, I wasn't so far infected that I'd loose my memory forever. Mother was optimistic that I'd eventually remember everything, or she at least hopes that would be the case.
We will be traveling back to the place where I came from and I will be reintroduced to the people I once knew. I hope I can remember, I'd hate to let down my friends if I had any.
There's that feeling again. The feeling that my heart is longing for something I lost.
But what could it be? I just don't know anymore.
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Posted: Sun Mar 07, 2010 11:33 pm
++Good Advice++
Alice had managed to walk all the way back to her mother's house alone, a look of sadness still washed across her face. Entering the house, everything seemed to be the exact same as it was before. Searching the house, she found no one, exploring every inch and even her brother's room. She knew it was wrong to snoop, but she couldn't help but search through his things. Alice paused, turning back toward the door, feeling as though she was being watched. Peculiar. There was no one there. Raising an eyebrow, she then turned back to continue searching. As she shuffled through things on the desk, a book fell onto the floor and caught her attention. "What is this?" she opened the book and found out what exactly it was. A journal. Rasiel's journal. She flipped through some of the pages and realized that what Deskri was talking about was completely true. Rasiel had written about Obscurite on many occasions, and even some of the pages were written in a different handwriting or even a different language. As she had found many of her answers in just this one book, she felt both relieved and even more worried than before. Sighing, she decided to leave the journal and continue her search for her mother.
Alice left the house and went to the next best place to find her mother. Her laboratory. As she arrived, she pushed the heavy door open. A few more memories flashed through her mind. More images of the day she was created and the same day that she met Syth, although she still couldn't remember anything after the dance she had with her. Entering slowly, she cautiously looked around. "Mother?""Alice? Yes, honey. I'm right over here!" Kae responded, waving Alice over to a table filled with many beakers and test tubes. "What is it, Alice?" she was distracted by her work, as she didn't give Alice her full attention at first."Mother, can I talk to you? It's kind of important.." Alice rung her hands a little nervously, never really used to the idea of having Kae as a mother.Kae backed away from her work, almost worried for what Alice needed to talk about. "You're not pregnant, are you?" she asked as she turned to Alice. "My goodness! What happened to your eye?!" she exclaimed suddenly, caught off guard by Alice's change of appearance."MOTHER!" she exclaimed as she placed a hand on her own forehead and sighed. "No, I'm not--... That's not what I'm here for.." Alice took her hand away from her face and frowned. "Oh, this? Don't worry about it.. I'm here to talk about Rasiel..""Is he okay?""Yes.. well,.. no... Uhm.. Sort of. I mean,... Mother, is it possible for the children you create to have... multiple people living in one body?"Kae placed a hand on her chin in deep thought about the question. "Odd. That's not supposed to happen, but then again the DNA is not always perfect, so anything could happen. Why do you ask?""I think Rasiel needs help. I'm worried about him. I think there's someone else in his head. And I think those voices in his head are becoming a danger. I really just... I just want to know what I can do to help him..""I can try my best to come up with something to help get rid of those voices.. Very odd indeed, but if it's a problem, I can come up with something. Do you know if it's psychological or magical?"Alice cocked her head to the side a little confused, but got the jist of what she was asking for. "I'm not sure. Someone had referred to it as a 'bad thing' and said it was actually someone else also living in his body.""That sounds magical. I can't do much about it, but I can ask the greater beings about it. And I tell you what, I'll let you know as soon as I find anything that can help." Kae smiled reassuringly and then turned completely to face Alice. "I think the one thing that can help him right now is to talk to him. Just sit with him and let him know that there's someone that really cares about him. You care him about him don't you? He is your little brother after all.. So go and tell him how worried you are and that you want to help him. I'm sure he'll eventually open up to you and then maybe eventually we'll be able to help get rid of his 'bad thing'."Alice smiled, feeling that she had been given good advice. "Thank you, mother." she hugged Kae tightly then ran off from the laboratory to head to the dorms. She knew Rasiel would eventually have to go there to sleep, so that would be where she would start.
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Posted: Sun Mar 14, 2010 11:07 pm
++New Opportunities++
Alice walked into the lab, seeing her mother still sleeping on her work. She coughed a little to let her know she was there. "Ahem!"Kae was fast asleep and was suddenly startled by the cough and woke up suddenly. "Ah, what, oh, It's you Alice.""Mother, can I talk to you? It's kind of important.." Alice was more demanding this time around, not so scared of the idea of her mother. She remembered everything now. "I think I'm having deja vu... I could swear we've done this before... Next you're going to tell me that your not pregnant and that you just want to help Rasiel.." she spoke, sleepily, still not completely coherent of the situation."Mother! Seriously! We need to talk. It's very important. This isn't about Rasiel, that was earlier. I'm back. And,... uhm..." she paused, as she began to become increasingly nervous."Well, what is it..." Kae yawned, looking through some papers and skimming over the open books on the table. She lifted a mug of coffee to her lips and sipped at it, waiting for Alice's answer."Mother... please don't freak out... But... Syth and I... are going to be having children..."Kae spit out her coffee in shock, almost chocking for a moment. "What do you mean have children?! You're both... well, female. Alice, things don't work that way. Metas cannot reproduce the same way as humans could." she explained, standing up to place a hand on Alice's shoulder."Not if we use the Golden Altar.""How did you-... You can't possibly think that's real, do you?""It is, mother. It's at the cliffside near the ocean.""How in the world-... Alice, you are forbidden to go there! You can't have children yet!" Kae was starting to raise her voice in panic. She really didn't know how to react to the situation that Alice had presented her."Mother! It's a little late for that!!! We are already going to have a child!!" Alice's eyes were becoming watery, scared of her mother's rejection. "I'm entitled to do what I want!! You replaced me with Rasiel and I didn't even know!!! The least you could do is try to support my decisions in life!!!"Kae sighed, realizing Alice had a good point, if she was right, there was nothing that could be done to stop what had been done. She placed her hands on Alice's shoulders and brought her in for a hug. "Oh, sweetie. I brought Rasiel home for you. I thought you were lonely when you told me you weren't making any friends at the academy. So I adopted him to give you a friend so you wouldn't be lonely anymore." she explained, hugging her tightly. "It's okay, don't cry, Alice. It's your life, and you are old enough to do as you please. But this world is dangerous, and I don't feel safe with you and Syth to be caring for that child alone. You could use help from someone who's had a bit of experience raising children. Please, come move back into the house. You can stay in the east wing of the mansion."Alice nodded and smiled a little, wiping her tears. She hugged her. "Thank you so much, mother.""Oh, and before I forget... I made something that could help with Rasiel's problem." she brought up as she moved over to the table of test tubes, and picked one up. "Now this is good for only one dose. So make sure he drinks it all." she instructed as she poured the contents of the test tube into a small vial and capped it. "Now, this can be dangerous if used incorrectly. Don't give it to anyone else. I want you to get Rasiel to drink this. If there really is another soul living within him, it will be repelled from the body. Unfortunately, so will Rasiel's. You must have another person there to act as a sacrifice. They will become the new host body for the secondary soul within him. But, for Rasiel to come back to his own body, he has to have a reason to live. They both do. Otherwise, either of the souls could be lost forever. Do you understand all this?"Alice nodded once more and took the vial. "Thanks again, mother. I'm sure Rasiel would thank you too. I'll go give this to him and then go get Syth and take her to the mansion. I'll see you later, mother." Alice turned and left the laboratory, happy that things were finally working out for the better for her.
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